50hr

I bought three books yesterday and I haven’t started reading one of them. I can’t even bring myself to pick it up. Guys I am concerned for myself. I’ve hit some low lows before.. And I don’t feel super low yet my motivation literally doesn’t exist?? Like there are no traces. I’ve completely settled with working 50hr work weeks in shitty jobs like this is it. This is life. Everyone tells me this is life.

work is so boring and I’m scheduled for 1,000,000 hours next week…..what did I say when I got hired…..“I don’t wanna work 50hr weeks”…….anyway they wanna promote me if I don’t get the job at AA so that’s good I’ll get a raise either way lol