it may have taken years (but somehow we got here)
aka First date
THIS IS PART OF A SERIES. IT WILL MOST LIKELY MAKE SENSE BY ITSELF BUT JUST A FOREWARNING.
Cassian x Reader
Series Summary: Cassian and Reader Firsts – from meeting each other to the first time, first kiss, first fight, first “I love you”, to their (first) last breaths (maybe…that might be too depressing)
Time Cassian and Reader have known each other: 1 year and 4 months
Prompt: Anonymous- “firsts” for cassian x reader please?!? (like first date, first kiss, first fight etc) :-))
Author’s notes: This somehow took me so long to write and I don’t know why. Probably stressed between finals, and my two new jobs so ahhhhhhh save me?! I want to apologize in advance. You’ll know why. Hope you enjoy!!
You woke slowly. The brisk morning air permeated through the blankets and you grumbled, snuggling back into the body behind you. You felt a hand stroke your arm in response and turned burrowing yourself into Cassian’s side.
He pressed a gentle kiss to your hair and you smiled sleepily into his chest.
Waking up like this was your favorite part of the day. Nothing would ever beat how wonderful it felt to wake up in his arms.
Cassian was yours and you wouldn’t change that for anything in the world.
Officially being with Cassian surprisingly hadn’t changed much about your relationship. Other than the sudden jump in affection. The looks, the words, the kissing, the touching. You didn’t have to hide your affection for each other anymore.
Neither you nor Cassian had ever been ones to share your feelings whether in public or in private. But that had all changed when you met each other. You changed each other. You helped each other grow. And now you weren’t afraid of your feelings anymore. You weren’t afraid to show your love. You weren’t afraid to feel human.
You had thought you and Cassian had been affectionate before, but it was even worse now. You both made sure to take advantage of your days spent on base together.
From meals together to gentle gestures in the hallways, to getting caught making out in the base’s supply closet by General Draven; there was no limit.
Your relationship was the talk of the base. It wasn’t unusual for fellow rebels to get together, but you and Cassian had been building this up for more than a year. Everybody knew it was only a matter of time. And everybody had something riding on it. It was a great distraction for everybody.
The teasing had died down after a few weeks, though the stares didn’t seem to be going anywhere. You didn’t mind because at least it got people’s minds off of the lockdown a few months ago. Everybody was still on edge, but your relationship had been a way out for many.
Everything was going well.
Except for the fact that you still hadn’t gone on a date. It had been months. You had been busy rescuing rebels, and Cassian had been off on espionage missions. It seemed that it would be months before it finally happened. And months it was.
Your first date didn’t happen until four months after you became a couple.
And you should have known that something would go wrong when it finally happened.
You and Cassian hadn’t seen each other in a few days because you were both off on missions. You messaged every day even though it was technically against the rules.
Draven may or may not have sent you a message reprimanding you two, though he knew there was nothing in the universe that could keep the two of you apart.
You definitely missed him. And he missed you. But you were both slowly getting used to it. You and Cassian dealt with it in different ways.
You wouldn’t be able to get through a mission without something to remember him by so you would steal his shirts to sleep in, or sometimes Cassian would give you a trinket to hold onto.
Cassian, on the other hand, would somehow push through his mission without you; however, once he returned he would hold you tight for hours on end, just breathing you in and basking in how safe he felt in your arms.
To him, there was no place like in your embrace.
It was a few days into your mission and you were just about to go to bed when you received a message from Cassian. He was coming to the planet you were currently stationed on.
Even though you were absolutely exhausted, you couldn’t find it in yourself to sleep. You knew he wouldn’t be on planet for another few hours, but all you could think about was seeing him.
The hours slowly ticked by and you continued to pace back and forth in your room, periodically looking out the window for a glimpse of his ship.
Five hours later, you finally saw it. And before you could even stop yourself you were out the door and running towards his landing ship. He had barely even opened the door when you jumped in and barreled into his body, knocking you both to the ground.
Cassian tried to push the two of you up but you groaned in annoyance shoving him back onto the ground. His arms came up around your waist and began rubbing up and down your back. You snuggled your face into his jacket and he chuckled into your hair.
You nodded frantically pushing yourself closer.
After a beat of silence, you mumbled, “Mraw rw ywo hur?”
“Need to speak up, fierabrás.” He laughed.
You pulled your face out of his jacket with a sigh, “Why are you here?”
He hummed in acknowledgment, brushing a hand over your hair “That guy you’re rescuing. He never finished his mission. I was sent to gather the intel he was sent to find. Have you found him yet?”
You shook your head leaning heavily against him. Your eyes closed and you hummed nuzzling into his chest. You felt Cassian sit up, pulling your body with him.
Cassian asked softly where your room was and you pulled the key out of your pocket shoving it at him.
He lifted you into his arms and you were out.
The next few days were spent planning your separate missions. You and Cassian made the best of being together away from the base, but you knew it was only a matter of time before you had to go back home.
About a week later, you officially began your mission. It had started off relatively well. You found the rebel. And Cassian went to retrieve the information he needed.
However, everything went to hell when you arrived back at your room. You began packing waiting for Cassian to make it back so you could return back to base. But something didn’t feel right.
Something felt off.
The rebel you had rescued was twitchy and on edge, as if he was waiting for something to happen.
Without making it obvious, you slowly reached for your gun that was strapped to your hip. Just as you pulled it out, the door slammed in and stormtroopers stormed the room.
The rebel smirked, kicking the gun out of your hand and shoved you against the wall, before taking off out of the room.
As you dropped to the ground scrambling for your weapon, a stormtrooper kicked you in the stomach and you collapsed against the wall.
You reached your hand out blindly grabbing the first thing you felt, a broom. You gripped it strongly and swung out catching a trooper in the legs and knocking him to the ground.
As you fought off the others you were once again backed against the wall. You whipped out in a panic, catching a few stormtroopers in your path. But you were outnumbered. You could see past the stormtroopers and out the window that the “rebel” you had saved, was entering your ship. You cursed him silently, as you continued to fight.
You were shoved even farther into a corner when an explosion rocked the room.
“Need a hand?”
Cassian managed to fight off the remaining stormtroopers as you slumped down sitting against the wall in pain and shock.
After knocking the last stormtrooper to the ground, he sent a quick message to General Draven telling him what had occurred. Draven told him to hold tight on the planet until someone could come pick the both of you up.
Shutting his comlink, he glanced over at you. You were curled in on yourself, your eyes glazed over.
He walked over towards you and crouched down in front of your slightly shaking body.
“Hey,” he whispered softly, “You alright?”
It took a second, but you nodded at his words.
“Wanna go on that date?”
You looked up into his eyes for a second, before looking down at yourself. His gaze followed yours as he took in your bruised dirt-covered body.
Cassian reached out grabbing your chin and tilting your head up to meet his.
“Hey. You’re perfect. “ He said placing a soft kiss on your lips. As he pulled away he felt you lean into him, not wanting your lips to be separated from his.
“Let’s go.” He said pulling you up. He placed his arm around your waist and you both went to find somewhere to eat.
You and Cassian were exhausted, but alive. You both leaned on each other limping at injuries you probably shouldn’t be ignoring.
But in that moment you didn’t care.
You managed to stumble into a small diner, choosing a table in the back. You fell in a seat with a grunt. Cassian placed his jacket around you and dropped in the seat beside you.
A server came over and took your orders, but before he could scurry away you grabbed his arm, pulling him down to whisper something in his ear.
He smiled looking over at Cassian before taking off into the back.
Cassian looked at you with amusement, not saying anything.
The server came hurrying back a few minutes later grasping a handful of flowers. Cassian’s brows furrowed as you reached out taking the flowers from the server with a quick thank you.
You turned to face Cassian with a beaming smile on your face. You shoved the flowers at him until he hesitatingly reached out.
A smile split wide on Cassian’s face as he took them from you and breathed them in.
The next few moments were silent. You stared at each other from across the table not knowing what to say.
Why did this suddenly get awkward? He was your best friend. This shouldn’t be awkward. Just talk to him.
“Um…. Do you want some water?”
Cassian laughed lightly. “I-um…. already have some.” He said gesturing to his full glass.
You groaned dropping your head to the table with a bang.
Cassian’s hand reached out brushing against your head and ruffling your hair.
“Why am I nervous? What do I even have to be nervous about?! I mean we’re best friends! I already know everything about you!”
Cassian tapped your head, silently asking you to sit up.
You did so, a light blush now scattered across your cheeks.
He brushed his hand lightly across your pink cheeks, which only made you blush more.
You grabbed ahold of his hand and pressed a quick kiss to it.
“I love you.” Cassian murmured.
You smiled, “Do you ever think about how we did things so out of order?”
“I wouldn’t have done things any other way.”
“Me neither. I love you too.”
It hadn’t been the date you were expecting, but it couldn’t have been more perfect.
It didn’t matter that you both looked like you had been rolling around in the mud.
It didn’t matter that it wasn’t at a fancy diner.
It didn’t matter that it hadn’t been planned.
It just didn’t matter.
Because all you needed was Cassian.
You talked for hours, not hearing the beeping of your comlinks over your laughter.
It wasn’t until a few hours later that you finally decided to leave.
You were holding tight to Cassian’s hand, swinging in back and forth with a smile, but just as you stepped out the door your whole world exploded. Your body was thrown back, Cassian’s hand being ripped out of yours. Your vision went white, your ears rang, and your head was throbbing. It wasn’t long before everything went black.
You’re not sure how long you had been out, but you came to groaning in agony. You forced your eyes open and tried to sit up, instead falling back to the ground with a whimper of pain. You wildly blinked your eyes trying to focus on the world around you. Your eyes were burning and you frantically rubbed your hand across your face, wincing as the dirt from your hands fell into your eyes.
You pulled at your shirt, scrubbing it aggressively across your face until you were about to make out your surroundings.
Everything was decimated.
Rubble was falling from buildings and smoke was rising from fires that littered the ground. The combination of dust and smoke made it hard to breathe and you couldn’t see far in front of you. As you tried to call out for Cassian, you choked on the dust and coughed, crying out at the pain it caused in your chest.
You rolled over on your side trying to pull yourself up onto your feet when you caught sight of Cassian lying a few feet from you. Finally stumbling to your feet, you took off towards Cassian. You tripped over some rubble, falling to your hands and knees and all but crawling over to Cassian’s motionless body.
Your hands fluttered over him, hesitant to touch him.
Was he breathing?
Just as you lowered yourself to check you felt something solid hit your head. You fell to the ground with a grunt and the last thing you saw was your hand reaching out to Cassian’s lifeless hand.
Author’s notes: *Dodges all the yelling* I’M SORRY?!
Next up: I’ve never been scared of anything (until I thought I lost you) aka First Serious Injury