4x04: the heart of the matter


(vía https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhcgSb4emN4)

The Heart of The Matter

Ah, these times are so uncertain
There’s a yearning undefined
And People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age?
Ah, the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They’re the very things we kill, I guess
Ohh, pride and competition
Cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us, you know it doesn’t keep me warm

I’m learning to live with out you now
But I miss you,
And the more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I’d figured out
I have to learn again
I’ve been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

There are people in your life
Who’ve come and gone
They let you down
You know they hurt your pride
You better put it all behind you
‘Cause life goes on
You keep carryin’ that anger
It’ll eat you up inside

I’ve been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me

TheSSChestHair fanfic pimp-out

I’m doing a little bit of self pimping-out with the attempts at writing i’ve made over the last few years.


They’re not great but it’s worth a shot I suppose - So here we go!

Teenage Kicks 


My very first fanfic: Henry’s teenage hormones kick in a little early, and Killian gets the brunt of it. (set during S4)

It’s my birthday


Modern AU: Killian isn’t happy about celebrating his birthday… he especially isn’t happy about the blonde who stole his heart, becoming rather friendly with another guy.

The nuts & bolts that make it work


It’s not always pretty. It’s not always puffs of magic and romance; sweeping gestures of fairytale living. But with time, they realise it’s the little things that matter most as they make it work.  Emma and Killian work at building a life together in their new home.

The trouble with living with your parents


Killian goes in for coffee. Some silly fluffy 4x04 canon divergence.

The struggle with living with your parents (Pt.2)


Emma invites David and Snow to stay with her and Killian while the loft undergoes some renovations. But living with her parents and toddling baby brother turns out to be more difficult than she thought.

Heartsick - MC


“She couldn’t remember when waking up to an unconscious, half-naked Killian on her sofa became a regular occurrence, but it had been for quite sometime.” Being as close as they were, they were bound to get a little heartsick when apart. - Bailbond partners AU

The lost boys foster home - MC


Emma runs the Lost boys foster home - a home for orphaned boys deemed a ‘lost cause’ by the system. With the constant help of Killian ‘former lost boy’ Jones, these two make quite the team when it comes to providing a homely environment for the kids.

Baby, I don’t need dollar bills


Enchanted Forest AU - He shows her a night of cheap thrills and promises of more. Peasant Captain Swan.

If you leave me now


Based off a prompt: 3B alternative ending. Emma reacts differently to Killian’s confession, causing him to make a decision.

Just like a prayer 


Zeus gives Killian a different purpose rather than send him back, but he’s granted the ability to visit Emma when she needs him most. 

WARNING: deals with death.

Drunk and Insatiable


My first attempt at smut: Killian is a beast in the bedroom when drunk - but they’ll have to keep quiet.

Those lazy, tender touches


Second attempt at smut: Just some post-5b, pointless CS smut.

More can be found my pages, including various drabbles, one-shots, prompts and captain charming goodness.



Grey’s Anatomy: The Heart of the Matter
Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness old scores never settle. Old wounds never heal, and the most we can hope for is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.