No Regrets - Decision
Request by Anonymous Can you do something for when Y/N left Michael for the last time? After he forced himself on her. What was her headspace like?
Pairing: Jensen x Reader (sorta), Michael (OC) x Reader (ew)
Warnings: Memories of rape(not graphic), regrets, longing, self-hate
A/N: This is a drabble complication. All drabbles fits into the universe I created for my Jensen x Reader series Living with Regrets. Most can be read as stand alone but will also very much be part of the series.
This takes place between the prologue and part one of the LWR series. In time it takes place near the end of filming season 4
You had laid on the bed numb as you listened to him get dressed. You listened to him talking about some appointment he had at his office and how he was going to be home late, but that he wanted to take you out after. You listened to him talk as if nothing had happened, as if he hadn’t hit you again. As if you hadn’t told him you were done for good this time. As if he hadn’t grabbed your arm and thrown you onto the bed as you tried to leave.
He spoke as if he hadn’t raped you a few hours ago before falling asleep on top of you. Pinning your body beneath his. You had laid awake all night just like you had lain awake listening to him speak, but you weren’t really there. You body was, but your mind was far away. You mind was in a dream. In a dream where you had made a different choice, the right choice. A choice where you had never gotten into Michael’s ferrari leaving Jensen behind. In your mind you had chosen him, just like you had wanted too all along. In your mind you were someone that were worthy of his love.