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I’m Better off Dead Anyway

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Ship: Prinxiety if you squint.

Topics: Hurt/comfort and angst 

Warnings: Panic attacks (kind of), cursing, and a strange voice in someone’s head (if that triggers you), and thoughts of suicide. Does bad writing count? What about being disappointed, does that count too? 

A/N: I’d honestly like to thank all of you for following me. I’ve been working on this so I hope you guys enjoy it. Writing this has been, difficult for me. It’s brought up some things I don’t want to think about (like how I used to do this all the time). But hey, it’s for you guys and that’s all that matters to me.

Virgil…

What?

We had a deal, remember?

I have no idea what you mean…

You weren’t supposed to tell them your name, remember? That was our deal.

Uhhh…

Virgil, you know what I have to do to you now…

NO

Yes

I beg you, please, they’re good people.

You can’t trust anyone Virgil. You know that…

But they’re different, they’re my friends. I swear. I know Roman can be an ass sometimes, but he has a good heart. Logan can be a moron sometimes but he’s good too. And Patton… don’t even get me started on him… He’s the sweetest person you will ever meet, he’s like a Dad to me… 

You know I have to Virgil.

Harm me not them, please, I’m better off dead anyway…

Good

“Oh fuck I can’t breathe.” the dark trait said before he realized what was going on

The dark trait shaking his head, usually that made the voice go away. This time however, it didn’t work. 

Now he resorted to squeezing a pillow around his head. Still, he had no luck.

Do you mind stopping now?

No

Fuck off

Saying that just made it worse, great now he couldn’t see straight. 

~~~

Thomas along with Logan, Patton and Roman were in the Mind Palace redecoration a bit when they all felt like they couldn’t breath.

“Hey Thomas, are you starting to have a panic attack? Because it’s kinda hard for us to breathe.” Patton asked

“Actually no, I’m not. But you’re right it is kinda hard to breathe.” 

They all looked at each other realizing who was missing.

Anxiety.

“I-I’ll go check up on him” Roman said before sinking down.

~~~

[Third Person (I think, I can never tell how this stuff works)]

As Roman arrived in Virgil’s ‘room’ he heard a loud thud come from upstairs. 

“Virgil? Are you up there?” he asked.

No response.

“Virgil, I’m coming upstairs. If you don’t respond I’m coming into your room” the Prince stated.

This time however, he heard a small whimper. 

“A-Are you alright?” he called.

He walked closer to the door and knocked. This time the Prince heard a small whimper. He wondered what was going on. 

The Prince wasted no time opening Anxiety’s door. He was a bit surprised when he found Virgil on the floor. He has his knees brought all the way up to his chest, his face was buried in his knees as well. Amazingly, his hood wasn’t up.

“Do you want to talk about it?” Roman asked as he put his hand on Virgil’s back.

The darker trait peeked his head out for his knees and whispered “Y-You shouldn’t be h-here. I-It’s too dangerous, b-besides you’re probably here just to yell at me again. T-That’s what you a-always do.”

That comment took Roman a bit off guard. He didn’t really mean to be that rude to Anxiety. Did he?

“I don’t mean to be rude to you Virgil. I’m sorry for all the things I’ve said and done to you. I understand that you are not doing so great right now. So I just want to help you.” he said. 

“I-I feel l-like I can’t breathe.” he managed choke out.

“Virgil, I want you to breathe with me. Breathe in for four seconds, hold for seven seconds and breathe out for eight seconds.” Roman replied with.

The darker trait followed the Prince’s instructions. It seemed to calm him down a bit. Until he started sobbing.

~~~

[Virgil’s POV]

He doesn’t care, he’s acting. He’ll never care about you, nobody will.

No

You should just give up now. End it all.

Bu-

But what. You’re to weak. I knew it. You can’t do anything. You’re not good enough.

[Now back to 3rd person (or whatever it is)]

“JUST STOP ALREADY.” Anxiety screeched as he clutched his head.

Ths had spooked Roman and caused him to just back about a foot. What was going on?

Now Anxiety was repeatedly banging his head into a pillow wild yelling “GET OUT.”

“Anxiety,” he paused. “Listen I just need you to breathe. Remember what you did you did for Thomas.”

The darker trait seemed to slow down, but only for a couple of minutes. 

“Do you know what it’s like Princey?” he coughed. “To have voices in your head. Telling you to kill yourself. Telling you that you aren’t worth anything. Telling you that nobody cares.” 

Roman went silent. He didn’t know what it was like.

“It’s not exactly easy to breathe when you can’t even hear your own thoughts.” Virgil continued. 

“I know it’s not easy but, please try. For Thomas.” the Prince whispered.

“I’ll try for…” he said, but the last part was too quiet to hear.

Anxiety kept breathing, and it looked like it helped. 

“Thanks” the darker trait said as he swiftly walked over to a dresser and got something. He tossed it over to the Prince.

“What’s this?” th Prince asked.

“A key to this room. Feel free to come here anytime, even if it’s locked.” Virgil replied with. 

“Oh?” he said with a hint of confusion.

“Ok now get out because you’re starting to get corrupted. I’ll be in the mind palace soon.” Virgil said. 

“Alright.” the Prince said while he was sinking down.

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I seriously don’t know how that happened, but thank you so much, guys! :D excuse this status post, but I do consider that good since again, this blog is still rather new.  >w>

I dunno if I can reach 50, but that would be so awesome! Hopefully, I can think of a better event for that, too…^^;

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40 FOLLOWERS !!!!!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!! 

i didnt see the 40 followers landmark but we currently have 42, THANK YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH !!!! i never thought my blog would even get past 20 followers and im so happy :’) thank you for all the support and notes and i wish i could give you something back in return !!!! BUT APRIL FAVOURITES IS COMING SOOOON..

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Just a bit of a teaser ;)

Virgil…

What?

We had a deal, remember?

I have no idea what you mean…

You weren’t supposed to tell them your name, remember? That was our deal.

Uhhh…

Virgil, you know what I have to do to you now…

NO

Yes

I beg you, please, they’re good people.

You can’t trust anyone Virgil. You know that…

But they are different, they are my friends. I swear. I know Roman can be an ass sometimes, but he has a good heart. Logan can be a moron sometimes but he’s good too. And Patton… don’t even get me started on him… He’s the sweetest person you will ever meet, he’s like a Dad to me…

You know I have to Virgil.

Harm me not them, please, I’m better off dead anyway…

Good