4.08: the ex files

There’s always a moment when you start to fall out of love, whether it’s with a person or an idea or a cause, even if it’s one you only narrate to yourself years after the event: a tiny thing, a wrong word, a false note, which means that things can never be quite the same again.
—  Douglas Adams
Batman, Batgirl and Catwoman

Guise, ok lang na may naging Batgirl si DJ dati kasi in the DC universe indi nman si Batgirl yung minahal talaga ni Batman – it’s Catwoman, aka Selina Kyle.

In fact, Batgirl aka Barbara Gordon isn’t even in the Top 10 Females that Batman aka Bruce Wayne fell in love with. 

So kung sino man yung dating Batgirl ni DJ, deadma na… nakita na niya kasi yung talagang katapat niya — yung Selina Kyle/Catwoman ng buhay niya.

So guys kalma nlng tayo sa ex ni DJ. Kasi nmn if you think about it, masakit nga talaga siguro that you see a person who once had strong feelings for you publicly declare that whatever he’s feeling for Kath is something he never felt before, and that those past feelings pales so much in comparison to what he’s feeling now for another girl. 

If you were in her position, even if you’ve moved on, may pitik pa rin yan. It’s probably more ego than unrequited feelings for The Ex at this point.

Basta, si Batman indi para kay Batgirl. 

Si Batman para kay Catwoman lang. 

Tapos ang usapan. 

Preach it, Dr. Phil

“Until she fully believes that you understand the extent to which you have hurt her, she will never have the ability to forgive you. She will never be able to rebuild trust. She will never be able to rebuild a relationship in any extent.”       - Dr. Phil.

I literally just heard that from the other room and dropped was I was holding to get to the TV to rewind and listen to that again.  

I think I need to print that out and mail it to people in my life.

It’s been a weird day.  

That weird moment when your ex-girlfriend is videochatting with you and says “Hey. Since we’ve learned from our mistakes, later on in life we should have an open relationship.  Because if I’m going to marry a Virgo, it better be you.”

Paraphrased.  But the sentiment is there.

WHY DOES SHE DO THIS TO ME WHEN SHE’S MOVING ACROSS THE COUNTRY.

Not that it’s serious.  Still.  You know I got a tattoo when we broke up?  Frank O'Hara: “Each time my heart is broken it makes me feel more adventurous”

More adventurous.  That’s what she taught me.  If I can’t love her for that, then I can’t love anyone.

Hmm

There’s a part of my heart that wants to keep fighting but then the rest of me is tired.

Tired of feeling like I have to explain why I deserve another shot. Tired of feeling like I’ve (over) explained how I feel but as long as he chooses to ignore it, it doesn’t matter. Tired of feeling like its not someone else, it’s ANYONE else at this point.

Is this what coming to your senses feels like? Cause it fucking hurts.

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New Video: Jason Johnson - The Ex File “A Love Story”. 

The first installment of “The Ex Files”…the end of the beginning.

ex update!!!

i was informed today that he has been lying to me about himself for literally the entire duration of our relationship!!

said he stopped doing drugs for me then used that as guilt trip fodder til the very end because of me liking to drink TURNS OUT HE DID DRUGS LITERALLY THE ENTIRE TIME AND INSTRUCTED EVERYONE NOT TO TELL ME.

YOU ARE GODDAMN FUCKING ASSHOLE WHO FEELS NOTHING FOR ANYBODY AND NOW I AM MOST DEFINITELY GOING TO RETURN YOUR LETTERS IN SHREDS AND YOUR CDS IN PIECES