you know what really sucks? when people fuck you over and you don’t want to be a bitch to them or end on bad terms so you just distance yourself from them until you’re out their lives completely and they’re too stupid to realize they really hurt you because you never went off on them and they live their lives thinking what they did was okay. 


I’ve never had much confidence in your parenting. You have four children, and so far I don’t see any of them completely healthy and ready for the world.
The eldest avoids us a lot, and has the same temper as you.
The second, me - well there’s a lot I could say there.
The third, has anger problems and hates you and your wife.
The fourth is a bully and I’m worried she won’t grow out of it.
The fifth was doing ok for a while, but I guess it was only a matter of time, with your fourth child as a role model.

I know you think that by teaching us obedience, you’re teaching us your morals. That’s not true. You never explain why we have to do things, just that we do. Your children would do as they were told even knowing that the motive was suspicious, because you taught them to.

You taught them that if you don’t get caught, you don’t get punished. But you also taught them, that if you do get caught, there’s Hell to pay.

You taught me, especially, that who I am is not good enough. I’m not the perfect little A*, Christian cis girl with a boyfriend who plans on waiting.
I turned out very different.
And maybe the reason I hate school so much, is because I know that if I don’t get the grades you want, I have to face your disappointment.
I wish I could stop caring, but I can’t.
And I wish it wasn’t true that our mother would’ve done a better job raising us.
You kind of messed us all up.
It might be harsh, and you’re still my dad, but you did a pretty shitty job.

The second.

I haven’t stopped smiling all day since i spent time with this boy in the morning. He makes me think that i’m dreaming, but it’s all reality. I have no idea why he’s so determined to keep me, but I know i’m not letting him go.

When you get invited to white peoples house, I’m actually enjoying this to the fullest cause like I’m so sick of Arab food lol.


Sabah sabah

niye böyle üzüntü dolu şarkılar dinlediğimi düşünüyorum da 3 buçuk yıldır aynı kişiye aşığım. Aynı okullarda (aynı lise aynı üniversite falan filan) ve aynı şehirlerdeyiz. Defalarca birbirimizin yanından geçtik sokaklarda yürürken, defalarca omzum ona değdi belki de. Farkında olmadık çoğu zaman. Defalarca benden özür diledi, defalarca barışma seromonisi…. Sonuç ikimiz de çok seviyoruz ama birlikte de olamıyoruz.
Günaydın güzel insanlar
umarım sevmek sizi bu kadar üzmez çünkü mutlu eden bir şeydi benim yıllar öncesinden hatırladığım sevmek.

Very surprised I didn’t cry when I talked about you tonight. I mean, I probably ran out of tears from crying an ocean last night in the showers when I got home. From this morning when I realized you weren’t there when I woke up. From this afternoon as I watched the videos we took. I’ll probably cry a river in the shower in a minute but b, I’ll be fine someday .