3 shades of gray

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

Rox. Well who knew they was so into me ? I guess I’ll take the love to my heart, sadly it’s my mom’s girl name since she was little child so. / oh well ROXANNE GAY . it’s speaks for my pride of being a bisexual woman .

I’m gay , thank you for
the support Tumblr @koseilucy & @acciaioxnero .

Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.

I want you to stay for tessavirtueandmoir

because it’s your birthday and your name is gray, which rhymes with stay and we skyped and cried about this program together for at least 3 hours. still bitter that our photo is blurry but it won’t be the last. so go dance yourself into a bright future filled with sass, class and friendship. love ya girlie <3