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Boundaries & Limits of Chivalry

Sometimes, a guy wants to be a gentleman. Let me start right away by saying there is a BIG boundary between the things you do for your partner and the things you do to a close female friend or any other friends. You may go to the bottom line or endure my thoughts.

  1. Time & Commitment - If you say you are committed to your girlfriend then just stick to that principle. Your time can be her time and no other people can have that moment once it is set. If you come to a point where you have to chose between the “party of the year” or the movie marathon with your girlfriend, the only answer is the latter. Your time is very valuable to a woman, she measures it, take notes of it, remembers all of it when you ask her about it. That’s the meaning of commitment, you will…and you must be there for her.
  2. Decision-making & Hospitality - When there is a damsel in distress or a close female friend who needs a favor, always ask your partner first. If that’s not possible, state your thoughts to that person. Make sure that every decision made is well thought of and explained beforehand. Don’t go out on a date with another girl when you to had a fight. NEVER let another girl sleep in your house or sleep on another girl’s house whatever reason that may be. The idea is just wrong even if you say nothing happened between the both of you.
  3. Honesty & Communication - When you talk to other people more than you talk to your partner, it will lead to a cold relationship. If you feel choked up, or chained to the relationship, then share it to her right away. When you build up your thoughts brick by brick, it will all fall down soon enough. By that time, the both of you can’t talk it over already. Honesty is the key, don’t hide agendas to your partner just because you’re afraid to say it. Also, don’t talk to another friend much more than you talk to your partner in front of her, she will feel left out and taken for granted.
  4. Loves, Hugs & Kisses - Being sweet to your partner is good. Being sweet to your partner and sweeter to everyone else - that is just wrong. This doesn’t make your girl feel special…she will feel like she is just like everyone else. NEVER say ‘I love you’ to another girl even if she is your best friend. Much more, NEVER kiss or hug another girl even if she is your friend. If it’s in your culture, that is just acceptable…also if she is in your family. Otherwise, don’t do it. Be in-sync with your partner and be empathetic with her emotions. 
  5. Don’t go saving everyone else’s butt - You’re not superman, don’t do other people’s simple job like it is your duty. Don’t run like the flash when another person calls you. You have your own girl to save now, focus on her, please her…do everything you can to satisfy her needs. She will do the same for you too, trust me. Don’t act like every sweet thing to do ends when she said 'yes’. Be sweet to her even after you two are officially dating or after you got married. Do more things with her rather than with other people.

It’s too long and I know everyone is too lazy to read, but the bottom line is:

“How would you feel if your girl will do that to another guy?”

Think about it.

The Wrong Mentality

Although proud akong Pilipino, may mga bagay pa ring hindi ko gusto talaga sa mga Pinoy. Ang maling mentality natin sa mga bagay bagay ang dahilan kung bakit hindi tayo umaasenso.

  1. Backer - Sa lahat ng bullshit na meron tayo, ito talaga ang pinaka ayaw ko. Tuwing may kapamilya ka sa isang lugar, opisina, o kahit ano mang trabaho…iisipin mo agad “Okay lang, may backer ako ‘dun! Pasok na ako sa trabahong 'yan.” Anong kataehan 'yan? Useless ang mga job interview at resumes kung ang hanap mo lang pala ay kadugo mo. Paano na 'yung nangangailangan talaga ng trabaho? Maghihintay nalang rin ba hanggang sa may kapamilya na rin sila sa trabahong 'yun?
  2. Foreigner - Kung nakakakita ng foreigner eh para bang nakakita ng artista. Kung may kumakapit sa foreigner sa daan, iisipin niyo agad na malanding babae siya o 'di kaya ay mukhang pera. Walang pinagkaiba ang foreigner sa atin! Wag rin sanang isipin na sila ang tiket natin para umasenso, may sarili 'din tayong ipagmamalaki. Kasama rin sa foreigner ang pagtangkilik natin sa produkto ng ibang bansa. Ginagaya natin sa industriya nila, mapa produkto man o pelikula, halos kopyahin na talaga.
  3. Crab Mentality - pinaka-common at pinakamasagwang ugali na namana natin mula sa mga kastila. Pinaghalong inggit, pagkamuhi, ambisyon at pangarap na siyang dahilan upang siraan natin ang taong may narating na sa buhay. Hindi nakokontento kapag meron sila at wala tayo.
  4. Batman Mentality - Puro nalang si batman. Bahala na raw si batman. Kung naririnig lang kayo ng dark knight ay magmumura na 'yun ng wagas. Iniisip kasi nating mga pilipino ay palaging may bukas pa. Kasama na dito ang maniana habit, at ang isang kahid, isang tuka. Sanay tayo sa pwede na…at hindi natin pinagsisikapan ang mga ginagawa natin. Hanggang dito nalang tayo dahil sa mentality na 'yan. Walang ka effort effort…
  5. People Power - Ang pinaka huli sa lahat ay ang people power. I’m not talking about the Edsa revolution. I’m talking about the endless welga at pagrereklamo. Nakikipagrambulan at nakikipagpatayan dahil nga democratic ang country natin and 'our voices need to be heard’. Hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit inaasa natin lahat sa mga opisyales at gobyerno na sila mismo ay hindi pa rin natin mapagkakatiwalaan. Sana lang maisip ng karamihan sa atin na we need to be independent. Magsikap ka muna bago magreklamo, marami tayong opportunities pero we don’t grab it. 

Kung meron man akong aaminin sa inyo, aaminin ko lang na nagdaan din ako sa mga mentality na ito. Na realize ko lang na walang patutunguhan ang mga Pilipino kung marami tayong ganito mag-isip. We badly…no…desperately need change in our country and only a few seems to realize it. May maling mentality tayo na humahatak sa ating bansa… pababa ng pababa.

Hypocrite anti-racist haters

You probably know tavse right now for his famous “we don’t need fucking philipinos” comment on the Japan tragedy. All I can say to my countrymen right now is…

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SHUT THE HELL UP ALREADY AND IGNORE FUTURE COMMENTS LIKE THIS

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  • If he is racist, than why do you guys bash his race also?
  • If he is mean, then why do you say mean things to him also?
  • If he is a hater, then why do you hate him also?

Every single day I see comments of how ape-like our attitudes look like. We flood and curse and ‘defend’ ourselves but you know what? I think it will never stop. Check this out right here on this post. I was bitter that day for trying to spread the word but to no avail, my fellow Filipinos still don’t get it. Look at yourselves! Look at your own comments! Tama rin bang mag mura at magpadala ng hate mails sa taong nanlalait sa atin? Syempre hindi. We just lowered ourselves to his or her level. We stooped-down low to being a hater, racist and hypocrites ourselves.

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This is not like the old days. No one will conquer our country already. Our economy is shitty, our government sucks and only a few showed us gratitude. Stop being ignorant. Hindi ito himagsikan at hindi kayo miyembro ng katipunan. Our worst enemy is just ourselves. We should all move on already and start being mature. Think of ways to achieve our full potential as the multi-talented people that we are. If you really love our country, ignore the hate and show them we are worth the respect. No, show them we deserve respect. Don’t shove it down their throats, they will only spit it back at us. Much more, don’t shove religion in their faces, they will never understand our faith. So…Filipinos, be calm….be silent and be humble. Please, move on already.

This title won't matter. Who reads this shit anyway.

Ang daming reblog tungkol sa hiling. Kapag 1.1.11 daw or 1.11.11 and etc ay mag wish ka sa 11:11pm at matutupad ang kahilingan mo. Sounds bullshit, pero anong mawawala if gagawin ko ito. Ano ngaba ang hihilingin ko..? Napaisip ako..

Sa pagkakaalam ko sa sarili ko, emosyonal at weirdo ako na lalake. Umiiyak mag-isa sa gabi, tumatawa mag-isa sa tabi. Hindi ako yung typical na makikita niyong nakikihalubilo sa ibang tao dahil wala akong interes talagang makipag usap. Hindi ako yung tipong nangunguna ng conversation, hindi rin ako yung tipong nagpapahaba at nagbibigay ng interes sa conversation. Isa akong robot sa planetang ito. Pero sa hindi ko malamang dahilan ay may nag-a-attempt pa ring kaibiganin ako. May tinira pa ring kapamilya sa bahay ko. Meron at meron…at ibinigay sa tamang panahon.

Hindi ko man gustong i-share pero alam kong wala pa ring magbabasa. 2 Years ago, napunta ang papa ko sa presinto. At dahil bulok ang sistema ng Pilipinas, tumagal ng dalawang taon ang kaso bago ito nagawang i-areglo. Hindi kriminal ang tatay ko, ang kaso niya ay estafa..at idinidiin ng kabilang partido na malaking halaga ang nakuha niya. Kilala ko ang tatay ko, kapag ako na ang kausap niya ay hindi siya nag sisinungaling. Kung magsisinungaling man ay nakikita ko sa kaniyang mga mata. Inosente ang tatay ko. Pag uwi ko galing Cebu, nung una kong nakilala ang gf ko…saka ko nalamang napunta siya sa presinto. Hiyang hiya ako sa girlfriend ko nun. Kakauwi palang ay ganito na agad ang tumambad sa relasyon namin. Nagalit ako sa tatay ko, at hindi ko siya binisita ng halos isang buwan. Kung hindi lang understanding ang gf ko ay sana ay hindi ko na talaga siya binisita. Nawala man ang tatay ko sa bahay, ibinigay naman sa akin ang isang napakabait na babae. Hindi siya judgmental…tinulungan niya lang akong makabangon..tinulungan niya akong tumayo sa sarili kong mga paa. For 2 years hindi alam ng barkada ko ang tungkol dito.

Around June 2010, nakalaya na ang tatay ko. Nagpyansa ang nanay ko, kahit hindi sila bati ng tatay ko, nasa America na siya ng halos pitong taon. Nasanay na ako ng walang inay..at halos nasanay na rin ng walang tatay ng dalawang taon. Ang pinakamatanda kong kapatid ay nasa Cebu. Ang pangalawa kong ate ay nasa London. Kami nalang ng nakababatang kapatid ko na babae ang nandito sa bahay. Pag dating ng August, umalis ang Gf ko at umuwi na ng surigao. Tatay ko naman ang nandito. Coincidence man o hindi, may mga ginagamit ang Diyos na tao sa araw-araw nating buhay. Kung kikitilin mo ang buhay mo kaagad, hindi mo makikita ang mga ganitong mga pangyayari sa buhay mo.

Kung tutuusin ay mas maswerte ang ibang tao sa akin pag dating sa pamilya. Buo ang pamilya nila, at sa amin naman ay kung saan saan na napunta. May iba ang problema lang nila ay haters, stalkers at mga jejemon. Iba sa akin eh. Kung may hihilingin man ako ngayong gabi, hihilingin kong mabuong muli ang pamilya namin. Kahit umuwi na si inay, kahit maghirap kami, umuwi na silang lahat…na miss ko na sila. Gusto ko lang mabuo ang pamilya ko in any way. Hindi ko alam kung tatagal pa ako sa mundong ito, baka bukas makalawa ay may mangyari sa akin. Sana nga totoong ang letcheng pamahiin na yan dahil pagod na akong isimbang gabi ang hiling na ito. Pagod na akong magtapon ng barya sa mga fountain. Pagod na akong bumiyak ng wishbone ng manok. Pagod na akong humiling sa mga bulalakaw. Kung ano man ang plano ng Diyos, may tiwala ako. For now, I’m thankful sa mga taong pinapadala niya para tulungan ako. Pero, I want my old life back..

I want my family back like we used to be.

I want it back.

Choose a Side: The story of Lucifer and his Music

I don’t know what you believe in but I wanna share what I’ve recently learned from knowing more about God. It is very crystal clear that the end is almost near. Not only are the climate changes noticeable but also the warning signs of the incoming rapture.

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The question is, which side are you in? Good or Evil?

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You can’t be neutral. There is no such thing. Either be left behind or go back to our maker. I might sound crazy but I’m doing this in layman terms to better deliver the message to you guys. For now, let me talk about one of our favorite…music.

Lucifer is once the head of the ministry of music in heaven. He was said to be the most beautiful of ALL angels. Until he disobeyed God and brainwashed other angels into believing that he is mightier than Him. He challenged God, so he and his minions were sent to earth. Read more here.

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It was obvious that music was first created to praise God. Upon Lucifer’s rebellion, music had a two-fold purpose. To praise him or to turn us away from him (distraction).

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Teenagers and Young adults are now musically inclined with the uproar of technology and media. Since Lucifer is to be condemned to hell on the second-coming, he needs to gather more people with him. That’s where the music industry was used as a tool.

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If you heard already of the ~*secret*~ evil society called Illuminati…they are very aggressive nowadays with the mainstream music. They’re attracting us with cool beats and catchy phrases but if analyzed, the lyrics doesn’t make sense at all. It’s repetitive and let us say words that doesn’t even have a meaning. They give us lyrics of going in the club, drinking, getting high, party all day and night, sexual desires, killing your haters or something and going all out. The also used backmasking, which is another issue, that delivers satanic messages subliminally. This was popularized by the beatles. There are  a lot more secrets in the music industry which only a few know about.

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Music was a perfect tool. This is exactly how Lucifer brainwashed the fallen angels a long time ago. This time, using our earthly desires…money, sex,  fortune and fame. They hit the “bullseye” of our desires since we live on earth. I mean, who wouldn’t want all that? They redirect us away from songs that makes sense and songs that praise God. I’m not saying all mainstream music are evil either, rather know more about the artist and the message within the music. 

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Now I’ll stop here and let you research more if you’re really interested of your salvation. Will you allow yourself to be brainwashed by mainstream music that doesn’t make sense or will you start to pick your music wisely? Do you know who made these songs? Do you know the story behind it? Don’t just go singing a song just because it has a catchy beat or you can relate to it. Make sure it doesn’t change you and let you astray. Are you going to give in on earthly songs or start knowing more about God? Time is running out.

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“What comes out of a man is what makes him `unclean.’ For from within, out of men’s hearts, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery.“ – (Mark 7:20-21)

How I Survived Feb.14 ^_^

I was very bitter yesterday when valentines day came. I admit.

The thing is, I don’t hate valentines day. I am not single, yet I don’t think I’ll have a date either because my girlfriend is not here right now. We had to resort to online chat as our means of dating.

The day before, I was dying to express my love for her. I need to let her know. So, I took out my scented stationary paper and started writing a love letter to her.

I also made a drawing inspired from Strawberrytelle saying “I may not be there physically but remember that I’ll always love you whole-heartedly. The drawing was still a rough draft when I took the pic. XD

Then I got inspired and started writing to my fellow JAMers.

I sent a mail to my gf along with our recent photos together and was scheduled to arrive on Feb.14 (apparently she didn’t receive it today. epic fail)..

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On valentines, around lunch, my girlfriend went online and we were both ecstatic and exaggeratedly saying corny cheezy stuff.

It was really fun that I can almost imagine her laugh on her computer. I bid goodbye after an hour to go to our bible study. Our topic was about "renewing our heart through Jesus” and it fit perfectly for valentines day.

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After the session, i took out the letters and gave it to each one of them. They were pretty shocked of course because they didn’t expect to receive a love letter from anyone this valentines day.

I told them not to read yet when I was going home but I guessed they insisted. :p I was sooooooooooooooooo happy with their reactions and got teary-eyed when I saw their photo.

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 I therefore conclude that valentines isn’t that bad at all. You don’t need to be beside each other with your loved one to feel the essence of Valentines…as long as the love is strong and burning. It also means that you don’t need to spend it with your partner only, you can also spend it with your friends and do something sweet to them, or make someone happy. Last but not the least, Valentines day can also be spent with God. This will definitely be a day that I’ll remember all my life. ^_^

Worth loving

Someone who doesn’t realize your worth doesn’t deserve your love. You are always worthy to be loved, no matter what kind of person you are. Picture this, when a hundred bill gets spilled by coffee, does it lose it’s value of being a money? The value is still present as long as it’s whole. Now, if you look at yourself, nothing is wrong with you. You are whole, you are still human, so why do you keep pushing yourself to a person who doesn't see your worth? Find someone who will value you, cherish you, and treat you like there is no one else compared to you.  Find someone who will still see who you are behind your imperfection. You are unique, you are a masterpiece of God, you are worth loving!

"Sorry"

A word that lost it’s meaning. Easy to say but hard to prove to a person.

You can say it over and over again and you can also make up a reason.

You can show it through flowers or you can show it if you kneel..

But your apology is useless if your intentions aren’t real.

You can reminisce of the past or you can make a brand new start,

but you can never put back the pieces of the broken fragile heart.

Don’t say that it won’t happen again if you know that’s hard to do.

If you pride too much, denying you are wrong, then your words aren’t true.

And if someone apologizes, please listen closely, don’t just merely hear.

So that you won’t be fooled by comforting words, you’ll know if it’s sincere.

Last but not the least, when you say sorry, don’t start another fight…

Make sure it won’t happen again and everything else will be alright.

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Para sa mga wala nang mabasa..STD ang bagay sa inyo

Mayroon akong muslim na bestfriend noong highschool pa ako. Tawagin na nating si ‘H’. Dahil kay H ay hindi ako bullied ng mga kaklase ko. May pangalan din kasi itong bestfriend ko, at ewan ko bakit ako ang natipuhan niyang maging kaibigan at isa lang naman akong weak at nerdy na nilalang. Palagi niya akong nililibre at sabi niya na kailangan kong maging independent para hindi maliitin ng mga tao. May, konting badside lang si H. Minsan niyaya niya akong sumama kasama ang mga pinsan niya. May titirahin daw kami! Sabi ko, “ayokong pumatay! Ayoko!” Sabi niya sa akin “ogag, titirahin na babae, hindi titirahin na pumatay. Wtf dude.” Napatawa lang ako pero pinipilit pa rin niya ako. Todo tanggi naman ako kasi una sa lahat, gusto kong ma-try ang unang sex ko sa isang babae na kakilala ko at pangalawa, ang sagwa kayang isipin na baka prosti yung kunin nila at may sakit na. After many attempts, nag give up siya at sinabing iku-kwento niya nalang daw bukas.

Kinabukasan ay todo kwento siya, kung pano nira raw inacrobat ang katawan ng babae at paano siya napasigaw. Napa “eeeww” naman ako sa kwento niya kasi parang detailed yata masyado.

One week after that, hindi pumasok si H. Nagtaka ako kaya dumaan ako sa bahay nila which is a few blocks away lang sa amin. Binuksan niya naman ang gate at pinapasok niya ako sa bahay. Doon niya kinuwento na may kakaiba raw na nangyayari sa ari niya. Sobrang kati daw at parang nasusunog kapag umiihi siya. Hindi namin alam bakit pero college na ako nang ma realize ko STD pala yun, probably gonorrhea. Tss. Ngayon ko lang naalala ulit ang kwentong ito dahil nag facebook kami kanina. Ang sabi niya raw, baog na siya at di makaanak. Tinanong ko naman siyempre if okay lang sa kaniya yun at ang sabi niya naman ok lang daw. Alam ko na yun ang dahilan bakit nabaog siya, at alam niya rin siguro yun. Pero I made a promise to him di ko sasabihin sa mga kakilala niya. Nangyari na ang nangyari eh, ganun lang siguro talaga ang buhay. Ignorance to this kind of things is really bad for your health. Ngayon palang, I tell you guys…wag kang bobong malibog. Play safe.

Isang beses ka lang dadaan sa mundong ito..

  I don’t understand why people will choose to be like somebody else instead of making their mark in this world. I do this sometimes at ‘di na ako natuto. Habang nasa matinong isip ako ngayon let me just write about it.

  Well, siguro dahil na rin sa impluwensiya ng mga taong nakakasalamuha natin kung bakit ganito ang mentality natin. We say things like “Bakit ang dami niyang kaibigan?” o di kaya bakit walang may gusto sa akin?”. We tend to envy people na hindi naman talaga angkop gayahin o sambahin. Tao lang rin sila na nagsimula sa wala. They achieved that kind of success through doing things naturally. Nagpakatotoo sila.

  This will lead to the question now “Bakit ang daming hindi nagpapakatotoo?”. You know why, you yourself experienced this. HATERS. CRITIQUES. OTHER PEOPLE’S OPINIONS. Nag ma-matter ba talaga lahat ng 'yan? I mean, ibang tao ba ang may hawak ng buhay mo? Alam ba nila lahat ng pinagdaanan mo? Bakit ka magpapa apekto? Diba may kasabihan nga, what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger. Unless makikipagpatayan na sila dahil hindi nila tanggap kung ano ka, aba! Ibang usapan na 'yan. Next time ko nalang siguro tatalakayin yan. I’ll just cut to the chase muna…

  All I know is that, we should make our life worth it. Hindi yung pini-peke mo ang sarili mo para matanggap lang ng iba. Para kang ibon na pinipilit maging isda. Kung anong meron ka, use it as your strength. You’re special, you’re unique. Eventually you will meet people who are just like you, and maybe then, you’ll find your place in this world.

Isang beses ka lang dumaan sa mundo, be sure you’ll be remembered. Ayt? 


Deep down inside we need Him.

I find it awkward that just about a few weeks ago, my dashboard was only filled up with tentacle porn and sober teenagers re-blogging photos of marijuana. Now, all I see are people who were shit-scared, clueless and frightened about the recent events happening all across the globe. I guess it’s true then that we’d only realize the important things in life when we thought it’s already too late. We only cared for people when they were in the verge of death. People only started circulating the gospel of the Lord when they feel like they needed it.

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Then again, they still don’t get it that God is not a genie. We can’t ask for forgiveness to make all of these things go away. We can’t beg for mercy to stop tragedies from happening. Accept already that there is a God, He has plans and we can only communicate with Him through Jesus. Stop praying for your own good but start praying for the good of all people, sinners or not. God can’t promise you a storm free life, only a storm proof life.

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I can’t say all are doing this though but I was wondering where the real people of God were when they should be doing these things everyday. Where are these real followers of Christ when their fellow men were seeking for guidance, looking for comfort, and wondering what awaits them after life? Were we really that earthly kind of people? I know that this is just an eye-opener that deep down inside, we need Him. Did we just tend to ignore it to fit in with this world? I pray for the victims of these tragedies and who knows it would strike on our place soon enough. For now, I must say that we must start getting to know more about God to understand His plans. Start a strong foundation so that you would not be shaken.

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“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord! Lord!’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only those who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.”
-matt. 7:21

You are my Anatomy.

You are the sinoatrial node of my life, the pacemaker of my heart. You are located at my right atrium and keeps my heart beating. You send this electrifying impulses all around and circulate it all around my body parts.

You double this up with adrenaline. You bring an energy rush to my veins. Everytime I see you, I feel like I can do anything. Know other girl makes me feel this way, you keep me wanting and wanting for more.

You are my surge of dopamine, my intense internal rush of pleasure. You keep me delighted with even the smallest details that you do. When you are not around, I feel lost. Yes, it’s lonely without you.

You linger in my limbic system and hypothalamus…you bring out my emotions. You were there on my ups and downs and I thank you for always supporting me. You bring a smile to my face and even with just the thought of you makes me happy.

You are my spine, you keep me standing tall. You were always there to lift me up, and catch me when I fall.

Last but not the least, you’re every part of me. Every cell of everything. You are important in my life, and I don’t want to miss a thing. I want you to know that I love you so much, and what I’d give to feel again your touch. You’re my every line of defense. You’re my anatomy and you make every part of me make sense.

Tanging hangad

Hindi ko naman hangad talagang maging mayaman. Payak na pamumuhay lang kasama ng pamilya ko ang tangi kong hangad. Naaalala ko pa kasi noon, kahit luto ni nanay ay malunggay at isda ay wagas ang ngiti sa aking mga labi. Kapag sumasakay ako sa motor ng tatay ko ay para akong lumilipad. Kapag kausap ko panganay naming babae, marami akong natututunan. Kapag kainuman ko ‘yung isa ko pang kapatid na babae, totoo ang aking mga halakhak. Kapag naglalaro kami ng bahay-bahayan ng bunso kong kapatid na babae, magaan ang loob ko.

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Hindi ako nagrereklamo sa buhay ko ngayon. Pero hindi ko rin mapigilang lumuha paminsan-minsan sa sitwasyon ngayon ng pamilya namin. May naka-bitin pa dati rati sa pintuan namin na “A family that prays together, stays forever” tapos mga pangalan naming lahat ay nasa baba ng motto na 'yun. Malakas lang talaga siguro ang kapangyarihan ng dasal kapag sabay-sabay kayo ng pamilya mo. Ngayon? Iba-iba na ang time zone. Iba-iba na ang trip sa buhay. Nakakaraos kami sa buhay, pero nawawalan na ng saysay.

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Sana darating ang araw na mabubuo kaming muli.Magkayakap sa huling sandali.

Ayokong umasa, pero ang dahil sa simpleng ambisyon na ito ay nabibigyan ako ng lakas para magsikap.

Ghost Town

Iligan City. Ang city kung saan ako nakatira ng dalawampu’t isang taon. Ang maipagyayabang talaga ng City na ito kahit hindi ito kilala ay ang infinite supply ng tubig at hindi pa ito kailanman na tamaan ng bagyo o nakaranas ng tag tuyo. Umaaraw sa umaga, sa hapon umuulan. Ang kutsara ng Kristyano ay kutsara rin ng mga Muslim sa mga karenderiya. Populasyon? 400, 000 people. Total internet shops? More or less 200. Cost of living? Mura. Don’t get me wrong, I love this place.. Pero.

January 1…meaning, kahapon. Nag decide akong pumunta sandali ng city para maghanap ng tukso at ligaya dahil boring na talaga sa bahay. Sa pag liwaliw ko ay napansin ko na wala masyadong tao sa siyudad. Parang natutulog pa lahat, parang napasobra sa alak ng bagong taon. Heto yun eh, ito ang tanging problema ko sa city na ito. Tulog sa umaga, buhay na buhay sa gabi. Walang mapuntahang interesado, walang malalaking mall aside sa Gaisano. Walang matataas na building. Konti lang din ang mga bars. Paulit ulit lahat ng makikita mo.

Nasayang ang pamasahe ko. Wala akong nahanap na aliw. Walang nakitang kakilala na pwedeng maiuwi sa bahay. Walang tumukso. Tumulo ang luha sa aking kaliwang mata…hindi ako nagdalawang isip na pumara ng taxi at umuwi agad ng bahay. Binuksan ko ang aking computer at nag spank wire. Nag tumblr at natulog. January 2, same shirt…same shit…different day. I know what will happen tomorrow. /laslas

No net on a fun fun fun friday.

I don’t know what happened but there is no net connection back home. I’m forced to write this on a crowded net shop with lots of bystanders occasionally glancing at my computer screen. You know what it feels like. I feel awkward. Everything is awkward. I’m exposing tumblr to society but I can’t help it. I need my dose of tumblr.

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Anyway, I had a fun friday with my small group again. We were practically on a food trip from pastas to pizzas. I was also more than satisfied again from my thirst on God’s word. I’ve been having difficulty reading His word lately because of the problems around my family, but it’s all good now. Grr. I really wish this net shop isn’t crowded. I can’t write what I want. Sorry dear followers. I’m quite surprised by the way that there were only a few rebecca black today. I was expecting a lot last week that it will flood my dashboard today. Soo….umm. I guess that’s it. I need to be home now. Bye tumblr. :(

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Today I did a 121 with my father. It takes great courage to discuss religious things with your father but I was able to do it even if it sounds absurd. 121 is a way of discipleship taught to me by Victory Ministries and my first disciple was my father. We were told that Christians should seek, not those who were already found, but those who are still lost. I know very well that my father is a lost sheep of God with the way he is living his life. He did many mistakes in the past, brought to jail, released, and went back to his old habit of drinking alcoholic beverages. Even though I see him like that, I still remembered the old dad who taught me how to pray when I was young. I want to return that favor by bringing him back closer to God.

I taught him the very basic, and strongest foundation of Christianity…the reason why God gave up his son, Jesus who died in the cross.  I first shared the roots of sin and how it all started (the garden of Eden). Then I showed him this video and proceeded to deeper topics. Even if it took him a while, he understood the things I was saying. At the end of my 121 with him, I asked for his prayer request and combined it with a prayer of my own for him. He was crying while I was praying for him and I hugged him afterwards. It was a really awkward, at the same time awesome moment to connect to my dad like that. He was sobbing like a child and I was telling him that it is not too late to change. I stayed with him for a while and we chatted. Thank you Lord for that wonderful opportunity. I will mark this day, March 11 to be blessed day for me and my father.

My Course vs My Passion

I was always asked by people why I took up nursing. It’s not a hard question if you really know the reason, but alas, I really can’t think of a firm reason why I took it. Whenever I face an interview, I will just say that it is my passion to help other people but deep inside I know it’s just a lie or a merely a definition of my job.

My real passion involves pencils, papers, paint, oil pastels, scissors, chalk, PVA glue and etc. Art is my REAL passion. I’ve always loved Saturday mornings on Disney channel whenever Neil Buchanan shows up in art attack. When I was a child, I get dragged into a lot of competitions involving art even if I don’t boast about it or even show it to others. They naturally find me sitting in a corner, sketching, doodling and making comics out of the lessons discussed. I also noticed that whenever I make a resume, all the achievements I can put in it always involved art. I see the world in perfect rhythm of colors and light variations. I find humor in people’s conversation which I often use in my comics. Everything is a work of art but people often see it in shades of gray.

Maybe there’s a reason why I got involved in the medical profession. Maybe it’s because patients usually see the world in a gloomy picture. I could be destined to do my work in delicate hands like an artist should handle his art tools. I know that my course won’t satisfy me enough to relate with my passion. But in return, my passion can’t help people or show them care like my course would. They are in conflict yet I find them helpful in both areas that I live by. In the end, in this world we live in, it’s all about the money rather than finding your true happiness.

The greatest teacher is not experience. It is learning from the mistakes of others.

You don’t have to do something wrong to know what it feels like and to learn from it. It is the same as knowing that the tomato is a fruit but you don’t put it in a fruit salad. Wisdom is the key. Sometimes, people try adultery, sex, drugs, getting drunk and partying all the time just to know what it feels like. Don’t be fooled by the trend of this world, you know you are better than that. It’s not too late to live a good healthy life! :)

1000 Pictures, 5 Albums, 1 Facial expression

I don’t understand why people need to do this. I know it’s their life and it’s their account, but I get a little confused on the reason behind it. Does it make a difference if the angle moved one pixel away? Won’t someone recognize you on your next pic if your face twitched a muscle? Will 200 pictures of you doing different hand gestures make it worth watching? I only look at the thumbnails by the way so that I won’t have to endure at the album looking for a nice pic to comment at. I find it amusing and disturbing at the same time but this will just be my one time rant for these people. Tsss….lol. Okay i’m done.

The girls of a man's life.
  • The one who got away - This may be his first love, puppy love, long time crush or ex-girlfriend who is hard to forget. He is “obsessed” with this girl when he sees her again but he also knows that they don’t stand a chance. It could also be that he had the chance but it didn’t work out for her.
  • The one who wets his bed - This is the girl whom he stalks in the internet or dream about in broad daylight. He will completely leave his so so girlfriend (to be discussed later) if there is a moment that they will hang out, make out or have sex with this girl. This is the kryptonite of superman, the heels of Achilles, the weak link…yeah you get the idea. He won’t last long in a relationship with this girl though, it’s all lust.
  • The one he can talk to -When he sees this girl, he sees a girl version of himself. He knows that he can talk to this girl without thinking of other things…like..like having sex with her. This is the one whom he loves so much but won’t attempt to court. If he will, disaster in his life will happen.
  • The one next in line - Sad to say, if the guy is immature enough, he will prepare one female who can replace you when you leave him. He will text this girl sometimes to check if she is okay and will clear his schedule when this girl invites him to hang out with her.
  • The so so girl - He will have a long lasting relationship with this girl, spend money on this girl, have all night cuddling with this girl but he won’t fight for her…at least not that much. If he won’t find a reason to fight for this girl, it’s easy to snap the bonds between them.
  • The one - When he meets this girl, everything else written above would be gone. He is head over heels with this girl and will hold on to her with everything he got. He will fantasize about this girl every day and every night and even without sex he is satisfied with jut being next to her. He can talk to her and just be himself without hiding anything. He will share about his day for a moment and the rest will be all about you. No one can replace her. He won’t just check, he will make sure that you will always be okay. He will continually get to know you and his schedule will be all for you. He will keep your relationship until you grow old together. He will spend his money mindlessly to you and will do every sweet thing he can think about. He will fight for this girl no matter what happens. This is the one girl whom he will never replace.