I dreamt I was late for school with two overdue library books. Upon waking with the dream still fresh I drew a card, the 6 of cups reversed. This card often refers to childhood memories, nostalgia, or innocence. Reversed often speaks to unrealistic dreams having changed as we grow older. It reminds us to stay focused on our future and to be present in this moment not looking back to “the good old days” or dwelling on what could have been.
“Though it seems it’s been denied you and the sorrows of your past haunt your soul The futures gleam may surprise you but nothing comes to pass that hasn’t been foretold I can see it in your eyes la da da da da When all your dreams have gone away What remains oh what remains”
This is not a joke: For my 16th birthday I asked for (and received) tickets to Cher’s Farewell Tour.
It was 2004. I didn’t have big birthday party. Just dinner with my family and this concert with my best friend, Sara.
It took place in an ampitheatre. We were way up on the lawn, but it was still an amazing show. She started the show by being lowered onto the stage from a good 5 stories up, and the first thing she said was something along the lines of “Britney, Christina, THAT is how you make an entrance, bitches!”- The crowd roared.
I was convinced that this was going to be her final final farewell tour, turns out she’s doing one this year. Refund please.
Also Not a Joke:I have been listening to this song since I was a kid, and I just now, no more than 15 minutes ago realized that the girl in the song has sex with the 21 year old, gets pregnant, he leaves, baby’s born. I’m a little embarrassed. But this was the time of peasant skirts, so I think I was pretty cool with a “Ooo watch my skirt spin!” song, regardless of lyrics.
ADDENDUM: I just texted Sara to tell her I only now caught the meaning of this song. Turns out she hadn’t figure that out either. She’s a 2nd year med student. I feel better now. “I’m still pretty sure seeing Cher was one of the best things we ever did.” <33
I find that one of the biggest battles I have with myself is finishing. Many a times i have begun a thing and failed to follow through. Excuses come in many forms, and none are satisfactory. In the book The War of Art Stephen Pressfield addresses the battle we face as creators and says “The most important thing about art is to work. Nothing else matters except sitting down every day and trying.” The Knight of Swords in tarot often represents clear thinking and intellectual power. This song and this post have been waiting for about three weeks. My own inner battle for just this has kept me from taking the time to sit down and finish the post. More to come as I refocus and manage my time to allow for these posts, and of course more songwriting.