I dreamt I was late for school with two overdue library books.   Upon waking with the dream still fresh I drew a card, the 6 of cups reversed.  This card often refers to childhood memories, nostalgia, or innocence.  Reversed often speaks to unrealistic dreams having changed as we grow older.  It reminds us to stay focused on our future and to be present in this moment not looking back to “the good old days” or dwelling on what could have been.  


“Though it seems it’s been denied you
and the sorrows of your past haunt your soul
The futures gleam may surprise you
but nothing comes to pass that hasn’t been foretold
I can see it in your eyes la da da da da
When all your dreams have gone away
What remains oh what remains”


When my friend Amy died, 2 of her friends from home sang this song acapella at her funeral. They were vocal studies majors, and it was painful and hauntingly beautiful.

Amy loved Queen. Her sister said while she was having a hard time a few years prior, Amy had sent her this song and lyrics to help her through it.

Amy’s funeral was one of the hardest moments of my life, after a grueling autumn of watching her get sicker and sicker. So here’s a cathartic song if you need it.

From a badass who requested Queen at her funeral.

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27 Songs

Ruth posted this meme, and I’m bored on a Saturday so wtfn. I’m doing these all at once instead of once a day, because otherwise I’ll forget. I went with whatever popped into my head first for each prompt, for better or worse. Here’s my (mostly retro, very literal) list:

(via roothakers)

1. Breakdown

Breakdown by Tom Petty 

2. First love

I Don’t Want to Live Without You by Foreigner

3. Sweet 16

Crazy for You by Madonna

4. Blood is thicker than water

‘69 Chevy by Satanicide

5. Finding emo

Lovesong by The Cure

6. Sweet Victory

Princes of the Universe by Queen

7. Pants off Dance of

Hot Pants Breakdown by The New Black

8. Stuck on Acoustic

Overkill (acoustic) by Colin Hay

9. Don’t quit your day job

Working for the Weekend by Loverboy

10. When life hands you lemons

Fuck off  by Kid Rock

11. Save the Date 

Waiting for That Day by George Michael

12. Color me bad

Bad Medicine by Bon Jovi

13. Mixed tape

Brian Wilson by BNL

14. False start

This Too Shall Pass by OK Go

15. TGIF

Smokin’ by Boston

16. Who says

Who Says by John Mayer

17. Fill the void

I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For by U2

18. Never again

One More Time by Daft Punk

19. Business as Unusual 

Be Good Johnny by Men at Work

20. What’s in the beat box

Human Beat Box by Fat Boys

21. Depressed Play

What Sarah Said by Death Cab for Cutie

22. Can I album some change (song from an album you can listen to in its entirety). 

Amused to Death by Roger Waters

23. Single not yet taken

Dyslexic Heart by Paul Westerberg

24. Country of Origin 

Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd

25. Sex 

Down In It by NIИ

26. Two tickets to the 9:00 show (movie)

Boyz-n-the-Hood by N.W.A.

27. Act your age not your issue size (song from the year you were born).

Me & Bobby McGee by Janis Joplin

There you go, Ruth. Shit, I need to evolve my music knowledge.


27 songs that are flawless → 03. 30 Seconds To Mars - A Beautiful Lie

Everyone’s looking at me
I’m running around in circles, baby 
A quiet desperation’s building higher
I’ve got to remember, this is just a game 


27 songs that are flawless → 06. Ed Sheeran - Give Me Love [x]

And it’s been a while but I still feel the same,
Maybe I should let you go,
You know I’ll fight my corner,
And that thought I’ll call ya,
After my blood is drowning in alcohol,
No, I just wanna hold ya


27 songs that are flawless 01.Damien Rice - The Blower’s Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time 


27 songs that are flawless 11. Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am

Cause I love the way you say good morning
And you take me the way I am 
If you are chilly, here take my sweater 


27 songs that are flawless → 05.Imagine Dragons - In Time [x]

It’s time to begin, isn’t it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I’ll admit
I’m just the same as I was
Now don’t you understand
I’m never changing who I am


27 songs that are flawless → 12.Local Natives - Who Knows Who Cares

Who knows, who cares?
You could let it down, jump into the river baby
Easy as it sounds, it’s never quite as easily done
The current has us now, it’s okay
Take into account that it’s all about to change 

All life, all matter is connected. Our realization of this connectivity is crucial in our development as beings. Seeing value in all things leaves no room for taking life itself for granted. From here we walk through life from a state of gratitude. Lyrics 

“Each part of yourself, weaving life to the tiniest cell. Just that spark, in yourself, the burning flame the rising waters in your well”


Day 3:

Sweet 16

Gypsies, Tramps and Thieves- Cher

This is not a joke: For my 16th birthday I asked for (and received) tickets to Cher’s Farewell Tour.

It was 2004. I didn’t have big birthday party. Just dinner with my family and this concert with my best friend, Sara.

It took place in an ampitheatre. We were way up on the lawn, but it was still an amazing show. She started the show by being lowered onto the stage from a good 5 stories up, and the first thing she said was something along the lines of “Britney, Christina, THAT is how you make an entrance, bitches!”- The crowd roared.

I was convinced that this was going to be her final final farewell tour, turns out she’s doing one this year. Refund please.

Also  Not a Joke:I have been listening to this song since I was a kid, and I just now, no more than 15 minutes ago realized that the girl in the song has sex with the 21 year old, gets pregnant, he leaves, baby’s born. I’m a little embarrassed. But this was the time of peasant skirts, so I think I was pretty cool with a “Ooo watch my skirt spin!” song, regardless of lyrics.   

ADDENDUM: I just texted Sara to tell her I only now caught the meaning of this song. Turns out she hadn’t figure that out either. She’s a 2nd year med student. I feel better now. “I’m still pretty sure seeing Cher was one of the best things we ever did.” <33

Knight of swords.

I find that one of the biggest battles I have with myself is finishing.  Many a times i have begun a thing and failed to follow through.  Excuses come in many forms, and none are satisfactory.  In the book The War of Art Stephen Pressfield addresses the battle we face as creators and says “The most important thing about art is to work. Nothing else matters except sitting down every day and trying.”  The Knight of Swords in tarot often represents clear thinking and intellectual power.  This song and this post have been waiting for about three weeks.  My own inner battle for just this has kept me from taking the time to sit down and finish the post.  More to come as I refocus and manage my time to allow for these posts, and of course more songwriting.  

2 of disks - Change

The card is called harmonious change, it stands for the alternation and natural balance of gain and loss, weakness and strength, growing and fading, ever varying occupation and wandering. In nature, everything is in constant change, well balanced with and in each other, building the principle of natural growing and proceeding. 

“7 days old, no reason for breaking the mold,
growing and fading all patiently wading the secret is hidden in site,
a la de da wandering into the fire, we gain and we lose we sing the blues
we’ll be renewed in the fire,”

First Love.

I’m Not in Love

I’m not in love
So don’t forget it
It’s just a silly phase I’m going through
And just because
I call you up
Don’t get me wrong, don’t think you’ve got it made
I’m not in love, no no, it’s because.. 

I like to see you
But then again
That doesn’t mean you mean that much to me
So if I call you
Don’t make a fuss
Don’t tell your friends about the two of us
I’m not in love, no no, it’s because.. 

I keep your picture
Upon the wall
It hides a nasty stain that’s lying there
So don’t you ask me
To give it back 
I know you know it doesn’t mean that much to me
I’m not in love, no no, it’s because.. 

Ooh you’ll wait a long time for me
Ooh you’ll wait a long time
Ooh you’ll wait a long time for me
Ooh you’ll wait a long time 

I’m not in love
So don’t forget it
It’s just a silly phase I’m going through
And just because I call you up
Don’t get me wrong, don’t think you’ve got it made
I’m not in love
I’m not in love

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