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     Meet SA-500D, the first Saturn V rocket. Wernher von Braun designed her as the dynamic test article for the program. She was assembled stage by stage inside the Dynamic Test Stand at NASA Marshall Spaceflight Center, then subjected to lateral, longitudinal, and torsional vibrations equal of that of launch for a total of 450 hours.

     The first time I visited SA-500D in 1999, she was outside on the US Space and Rocket Center property. Her paint was faded and worn, having sat there since 1969. In 2005, full restoration began, and she was moved inside her new facility, the Davidson Center for Space Exploration in Huntsville, Alabama. I’m happy to report that as of Sunday, April 27, 2014, she looks great. Viewing the newly restored rocket is magnitudes more impactful. The difference is incredible.

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‘Banji’ #cover by @jordynjones turns 3 years old today 🎂 🎂 🎂 the most watched Jordyn cover on @youtube at 32 million views + uploaded April 27, 2014
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20th April >> Pope Francis Authorizes the Official Opening of the Cause of Beatification of Father Jacques Hamel before the Usual Five-Year Wait.



The Archbishop of Rouen, France, Monsignor Dominique Lebrun, confirmed the official opening of the Diocesan Cause of Beatification of Father Jacques Hamel, murdered by extremists while celebrating Mass in the church of St. Etienne du Rouvray, in Normandy. The Archbishop made the announcement during the Chrism Mass over which he presided on Holy Thursday, in the city’s Cathedral.

The cause begins thanks to the authorization that came from the Congregation for the Causes of Saints, with Pope Francis’ permission to suspend the Canonical Law that requires a period of at least five years before the opening of the process of Canonization.

With Father Hamel’s Cause, there are now three cases in recent times that have seen the suspension of the five years necessary. The fastest was that of John Paul II, who died on April 2, 2005, authorized by Benedict XVI 26 days after the Polish Pope’s death. Following all the steps of the procedure, John Paul II’s Beatification took place on May 1, 2011 and, six years later, he was Canonized on April 27, 2014.

The other case was that of Mother Teresa of Calcutta, who died on September 5, 1997. John Paul II authorized the opening of her Cause after four years. Two years later, John Paul II proclaimed her Blessed. Her Canonization took place 19 years after her death, on September 4, 2016, during the Jubilee of Mercy.

The French Episcopal Conference disseminated the official prayer to request Father Jacques Hamel’s intercession.

Father Jacques Hamel,

Grant us the favor of presenting our prayer to God

Father, Son and Holy Spirit!

You who consecrated your life to Him:

May God help us to do His Will

simply and faithfully each day.

You who offered Him the bread and wine:

May God help us to open our lives for His glory

and the salvation of the world.

You who unmasked Satan, the divisor:

May God help us to repel his temptations,

Receiving the spirit of love and forgiveness.

You who died in the habits of prayer:

May God help us to witness Jesus and His Gospel to the end.

Present to God also this particular intention: (the intention is mentioned).

Finally, present to God with insistence the petition

Of the diocese of Rouen for youths

who consecrate their life to Him.

Father Jacques Hamel, pray for us!

Sbatti l'unghia contro la porta per sbaglio e cominci a piangere per il dolore.
Piangi come una bambina.
Scappi il bagno e ti guardi allo specchio, cadi sul pavimento gelido, debole e senza le forze, cadi e piangi, non senti più il dolore, ora senti tutto il peso del mondo sulle spalle.
Ti chiedi dove sei, chi sei, dove sarai e chi sarai tra qualche anno..e il problema non è la paura di fallire, il problema è che non ti ci vedi bene in un futuro, non ti ci vedi nel mondo.
Ti chiedi dove hai sbagliato, perché sei così fragile, perché non riesci mai a fare bene una cosa, perché sei tu..ma le domande sono troppe e piangi in silenzio, senza dire nulla, il silenzio ha già capito tutto.

27 aprile 2014
Cara me,
oggi ho preso la pagella e mamma ha parlato con tutti i professori.
È andata bene, è una buona pagella e un unico cinque si può recuperare facilmente. Non ho ricevuto nessuno commento negativo e mamma è contenta.
Io no, io non sono contenta.
Non sono contenta di questi voti perché non riesco mai ad andare oltre ai miei limiti e fare di meglio, non sono contenta di me stessa perché ho ricominciato a odiarmi, non sono contenta di questa vita, di questo amici invisibili, di questo amore impossibile.
Io non ho più le parole giuste, non ho più le forze per una altro giorno, non ho più le lacrime, non ho più la rabbia, non ho più niente, solo questo vuoto.
A volte vorrei sparire anche io tra queste righe bianche, tra le onde del mare, tra le sfumature del cielo, tra i petali di un fiore, vorrei sparire in questo vuoto bianco.
Cara me, vorrei mollare tutto, come ho sempre sognato, ma non posso, farei male a chi mi vuole bene.
Non so più che fare, sono stanca e ti prego non dirmi che sono questi anni a farmi sentire così, non farlo perché non hai ragione, io sono questa e tu sai benissimo che non ho nulla a che fare con gli altri essere umani, con i miei coetanei, con i miei parenti, non ho nulla a che fare con tutto questo.
Sono stanca, ho da studiare un botto, ma non ce la faccio, piango ancora, vorrei chiudere gli occhi e svegliarmi in uno di quei mondi che immaginavo da piccola.
Cara me, mi manchi.

The Merc duo: Taskmaster and Deadpool

If you know Deadpool, there is a big chance you have at least heard about Taskmaster, One of their most iconic interaction being the battle they have while Deadpool was shackled. Taskmaster’s line “The things I do for friends I can’t stand” comes from there. (For those who want to check that battle out it’s Cable and Deadpool #36).

Meeting and the consequences 

The first interaction we see of the two is in  Deadpool Vol 1 #2 (February 1997), Wade and Taskmaster knew of the other but had never met before and they didn’t get to meet on good terms. Taskmaster ‘kidnapped’ Weasel to offer him a new job, Wade tracks Weasel to one of Tony’s many training schools and starts fighting, Tony observes him through the camera-feeds and copies Wade’s moves. Tony states that Wade’s moves are redundant (repetitieve and unneeded) as he uses them on Wade. 

When Wade comes to he is informed about the job offer by Weasel and that he is considering to accept it, Wade won’t have any of that of course. So Taskmaster decides to battle Wade in front of his pupils to try and convince Weasel he’s the superior mercenary and thus a better employer (more money coming in). 

Now Taskmaster can copy everything he sees, later on a misunderstanding was formed that he couldn’t copy Wade, this isn’t true, but the mistake stems from this comic, their first appearance together, since Taskmaster can indeed copy Wade, he can not predict Wade, not like he can predict other people he studied. Mostly because Wade can’t really predict himself, so how would anyone else? So at first it looks like Wade is going to lose until he gets serious (since his friend is on the line). 

Taskmaster swears to learn to understand Wade and tame his chaotic nature as a form of revenge after he is beaten, to which Deadpool leaves after giving Weasel a wedgie (because he’s a delightful friend that way). 

In Deadpool Vol 1 #35 (December 1999) we learn in a flashback that shortly after their first meeting they were both hired as henchmen by the Wizard, something that didn’t really end well for any of them. of course a lot happens off panels that we get hints at but never gets fully explored. 

In Deadpool Vol 1 #39-40 we see Deadpool take a gig for Taskmaster instead of Titania (actually Copy Cat) where he goes up to a space station with three of Taskmasters trainees, it’s actually a trap to take revenge on Wade for humiliating him. Sending a fat mind wiped Wade into Space.

Of course in Deadpool fashion he survived had an epic space adventure and returns back to earth so that in Deadpool Vol 1 #45 it can be revealed that it is in facts Copy Cat and not Titania he and Constrictor had been living with. It is revealed that Copy Cat was working for Taskmaster and Wizard to get revenge on Wade for his failures while working with them and for humiliating them. 

Copy cat gets Wade’s bank codes so she can rob him blind, after which Wizard blows the home Deadpool had been staying at up, Taskmaster seemed to be content with the amount of damage they had done to Wade as payback, seeing as they realized they couldn’t actually kill him.

Respect for the dead 

It’s in Deadpool Vol 1 #67 (July 2002) - Deadpool Vol 1 #69 (September 2002) that we see Taskmaster make his appearance again, as Deadpool made a name for himself as mercenary having a big office and a manager/assistant Sandi; who turns out to be a friend of Taskmaster. (after taking credit for a hit taken by Black Swan, but Wade didn’t know he didn’t hit them).Wade’s mind has been infected with a virus by the black swan as payback for stealing the credit, Sandi asks Taskmaster for intel on the situation. 

Taskmaster has grown to respect Wade by now, they have a drink together where they exchange the intel and even though he still thinks Wade is mad, it also seems to be what he enjoys about Wade. He even offers to go on the hit with him, when Wade thanks him for it he quickly states it’s so Sandi doesn’t lose her job (but he later expresses a fondness for Wade in Agent X #1). 

Since Deadpool goes after black swan on his own and died (for a second time in his run) and Alex Hayden shows up Taskmaster is convinced Alex is actually Wade pulling the amnesia stunt, which he expresses a hate for (I got some bad news for you Tony). Tony accepts in the first comic of the agent X series that Alex is indeed not Wade, but still somehow is convinced Alex might still be Wade somehow (since Alex has part of Wade’s brain he’s not exactly wrong). 

Alex his instinctual hate for Wade makes Alex shoot him (the guy is in the body of a Dead guy who believes Wade killed his brother, has some of Black Swan’s hate for Wade and has Wade’s self loathing, no wonder his first instinct is to shoot Wade through the head). Taskmaster and Sandi instantly try and patch Wade’s skull back together so it can heal better (Stapel gun Tasky really?)

All of the members of Agency X work together to undo what has been done due to Black Swan and work together for a while outside of comic view, next thing we hear of Deadpool is alongside Cable. 

(Also bonus panel from agent X 3: Inez (left) and Sandi (right) discussing if Alex and Tony should kiss, important to note that both of these woman are friends of Tony)

Friends I can’t stand 

As said in the introduction  Cable & Deadpool Vol 1 #36 (January 17 2007) holds one of the most iconic interaction between these two doofs mainly one of Wade’s crazy ideas to proof to the world that he is indeed a great mercenary. 

He breaks out Taskmaster telling him he just wants to fight him, Taskmaster agrees realizing Wade needs a reputation boost, to which Wade knocks him out cold because it’s easier for him. 

Wade gave himself a challenge by manacling himself to fight Taskmaster making it more challenging for himself that way. He still managed to win simply due to his healing factor.

Expressing his respect for Deadpool’s skill Taskmaster leaves reminding Wade once again he has to learn to be professional (aka tame that chaos in his head).

Swappedy swap

In Thunderbolts Vol 1 #130 (2009) Deadpool is messing around with Osborn and his Thunderbolts, we see Deadpool hire an  unnamed party who then stays incognito.

In  Deadpool Vol 2 #9 (June 2009) they meet up in a warehouse building where Taskmaster isn’t so supportive of Deadpool’s crush on Black Widow, they have some really humorous insult banter together until Wade tells him to disguise as him if he wants to get paid.

Where as in Thunderbolts Vol 1 #131 we see Taskmaster who is pretending flawlessly to be Deadpool getting captured and of course saved by Wade before getting paid from several ATM’s using Osborns gold card.

Kill me if you care

In Deadpool Vol 2 #36 (April 27 2011) Wade sets out to find out if his friends love him. Meanwhile most of his friends have banded together to kill him. Wade sees this as a betrayal until Death reminds him this is exactly what he wanted from his friends, what he has always pushed them towards. That them wanting to kill him meant that they cared.

Battle scars

In  Battle Scars Vol 1 #3 (January 11 2012) Taskmaster was hired to go after Sergeant Johnson and Wade was lied to and told the guy killed his mom so Wade was going after him as well. Taskmaster stabs Wade to make him pause from killing Johnson to avoid losing his contract. 

Deadpool ends up saving both Taskmaster and Sergeant Johnson before it turns into an all out brawl with other mercenaries since everyone seems to be after Sergeant Johnson. 

Teach me

When Wade no longer has his healing factor he realized he had to relearn what he had forgotten due to his years of being careless. Wanting to relearn how to be a mercenary who could survive without his healing factor he trusts on Taskmaster to be able to do so.

In Deadpool Vol 2 #56-57 (July 2012) Wade asks Taskmaster to teach him for free, Taskmaster decides to take him along on a mission with him, telling Wade he wanted to do this two mans job with him and him alone.

Taskmaster took wade along as a distraction, while he was inside waiting for Wade to join him Wade convinced himself Taskmaster had send him to die. Still he went to save Taskmaster from S.H.I.E.L.D. guard robots, but he was very mad about the whole deal, which Taskmaster made worse by revealing he had sold Wade out to Black box.

Taskmaster got away from Wade alive, only to have Wade ‘come after him’ in Deadpool Vol 2 #62 (October 2012). After a small fight Wade reveals he’s there for a job and willing to forgive Taskmaster (gassing him with a taco bell fueled gas attack first). Taskmaster reveals that some of Wade’s enemies are in town before he wants to discuss jobs, but Wade suddenly is more interested in the enemies than the job. Taskmaster gives him the info before contacting the team of enemies about Wade being on his way in return for money (Tasky sure loves his money doesn’t he?)

Pals 

In Deadpool Vol 3 #10 (May 22 2013) we see Taskmaster make a brief appearance as a merc hired by someone who Wade wants to take out, but Taskmaster asks Wade to take him out because he really doesn’t care about the job.

On Deadpool’s wedding (Deadpool Vol 3 #27 April 2014) Taskmaster is one of the guests who before leaving talks to Wade a bit about love and the life they both had chosen.

Mercs for Money

Everyone who ever read Marvel knows that continuity ain’t exactly their forte. This shows once again in the Mercs for money mini series. In this 5 issues miniseries Tony appears in issue #2-#4. 

We meet up with Tony in issue #2 where he gets approached to steal from Deadpool, something Tony said would make his day even better than it already was.

At the end of the issue we seen Evil Deadpool approach Tony saying they are hired for the same gig and that he considered working together, but it was neither of their style’s so he tells Tony they should just kill eachother.

The great thing to happen in #3 however is the fact that the normal Deadpool is the one who narrates the fight and he he makes a remark about there being sexual tension between Tony and his evil self. 

Tony managed to take down Evil Deadpool, but he gets away with a trick (letting his detached hand shoot Tony from behind. Tony misses his shot to fulfill his mission then and there and tails the Mercs.

Jump to #4 the last that has Tony, Tony has a chance to take the cargo and leave without a fight but instead choses to attack the Mercs. 

He states that it is to pretend them from following him, but Tony is a pro at shaking off tails so I kind of doubt that would be the canon reason, especially because a statement later on makes it seem more personal than that.

Wade knocks Tony out from behind while he’s focused on his opponent and that’s the last we see from Tony around Wade. Just one extremely bitter Tony talking about how selfish Wade is.

So what happened between the wedding and now? We know there is a time gap of a few months in Marvel’s canon as they never really show how Wade suddenly became popular, did something happen then between him and Tony? Or did Jordan D White’s team just decide that it be more interesting for Tony to suddenly hate Wade again. It doesn’t seem like Tony to risk his connection with the one person who knows what he looks like.

TL:DR

While they started out as enemies Wade is one of the few people who Taskmaster showed his face to (Bonus: might even have left a mask at Wade’s place), They have a love/hate relationship but they both confirm their friendship at several occasions and Wade is the only person Taskmaster has revealed to be able to remember since the amnesia retcon from 2010. 

april 2, 2014: i want to have a fucking eating disorder i don’t care if i die!!!!!!

april 3, 2014: STOP trying to convince me to get well because the endgame is death. death is what i want ENDGAME!!

april 4, 2014: i just want to PURGE it feels GOOD i WANT IT I WANT TO FUCKING PUKE I AM TIRED OF RECOVERY AND I WANT TO DIE

april 5, 2014: i can’t even write i’m SO FUCKING PISSED.

april 6, 2014: this is too much and they’re trying to convince me to get better when i’m not even sick.

april 7, 2014: i wish i wanted to be better. but i don’t.

april 8, 2014: i think being here makes me sicker, not better.

april 9th, 2014: i don’t want to be sick, but i want to be skinny. i can’t decide which one i want more. i want them both so bad. and i fucking hate being wrong.

april 10, 2014: used symptoms yesterday and didn’t tell anyone mostly because i don’t want to be placed on locked bathrooms because then i’ll have to stop.

april 11, 2014: i am not trying to push the limits of the human body. i am trying to die and no one will let me get there.

april 12, 2014: 3 is the number of times i have purged since i came here. 0 is the number of times that rachel knows about.

april 13, 2014: have to stop eating have to stop eating stop eating stop eating stop eating stop eating i’m not sick i’m strong have to say strong be skinny stop eating just get back to UNDERWEIGHT - 

april 14, 2014: you live a half life, and if you have to live, here’s the all or nothing distortion. i’ll live all the way, damn it.

april 15, 2014:  i don’t think that i deserve to take up space.

april 16, 2014: i can’t wait for elle to leave me too.

april 17, 2014: happy for you but i’m sure that i hate you…i hope they’re thinking about me.

april 18, 2014: you don’t want to feel ANYTHING - not sadness, not happiness, not anger, not guilt. but when you eat, you feel full, and it makes you remember all those emotions you bottled up. instead of facing your feelings, the solution to you is very simple - just don’t eat.

april 19, 2014: being motivated is the weirdest thing ever.

april 20, 2014: reading my journals from just a few days ago is really unsettling. why did i think that, those things?

april 21, 2014: i won’t purge. not tonight, anyway.

april 22, 2014: i’ve been thinking about cutting myself a lot lately.

april 23, 2014: i still think that i don’t deserve to be alive. but for the first time in forever, i wish that i didn’t.

april 24, 2014: FUCK HANNAH I HATE HER I LOVED YOU WHY DID YOU DO THIS I HATE HER SO MUCH.

april 25, 2014: honestly i have to get better just to spite them. THAT’S my motivation. fuck you. look what i can do.

april 26, 2014: forgiveness does not mean that what you did was okay, and it definitely doesn’t mean that i would ever in a million years take you back. mostly, forgiveness means that you are no longer worth my time.

april 27, 2014: thursday? or next monday?

april 28, 2014: i’m scared you’ll realize i’m just bones and questions and leave me for something solid.

april 29, 2014: i’m supposed to tell a counselor if i’m not safe but i am not safe right now and i am not telling any damn counselor -

april 30, 2014: we weren’t in love but we could have been - if you cared we could have been.

may 1, 2014: please don’t leave me. please don’t leave me. i’m still spinning waiting for the world that comes next.

may 2, 2014: i am always told that i should forgive you, that i shouldn’t be so hung up on what happened, but i can’t. i don’t think you deserve my forgiveness.

may 3, 2014: it’s my birthday and i’m stuck in a god damn mental hospital.

may 4, 2014: i’m sad i don’t think i’m ready to leave i really really don’t. i think i might relapse. but i won’t because i’m not coming back here ever again.

may 5, 2014: i never knew that flying like a bird in winter would destroy me.

—  33 days in a mental hospital, xxvi
TOP 100: WHERE WE ARE TOUR H/L MOMENTS 2014

Last year, I did a Top 100 moments post from the Take Me Home Tour in 2013. That one was illuminating in its consistency and was a great way to revisit a year most of us do not think of with great fondness.

This list was different to put together. It was less about proving consistency (though that is still apparent) but more about enjoying the little looks and exchanges we still get to see. While they were certainly more restricted in their interactions on and off stage (at least after the astounding South American leg),  overall, 2014 was a much easier and more enjoyable year than the previous one in a lot of ways, for them and for us.

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TOP SURGERY GRANT FOR FLORIDA FTMS

Fellas!! Top Surgery Fund is having another fundraising party for top surgery (partial grants). To Apply, follow the instructions below. I wanted to make sure that you all get a head start on putting in your applications, and start inviting people (because the party is on MAY 4, 2014 and the deadline for applications is April 27, 2014.) This is only an opportunity for Florida residents (FOR NOW.) Please share this with ALL of OUR brothers. As you will see in the videos (Links Below) this is a Pay It Forward kind of Fundraiser. I got mine and now I am having another party to get 10 guys covered (minimum) and so on… We are looking out for each other and making sure everyone gets an opportunity. Contact me through my page if you have any questions.

How to Apply for partial Grant:

Email us (topsurgeryfund14@gmail.com) with the below information- Name:

Age:

Surgery Date:

Amount Due for TS:

Provide a letter of support from a licensed medical or mental health professional, such as a psychologist, psychiatrist, social worker, or therapist. Create a Video about yourself and what this surgery makes available for you. (Example below —- Upload it onto YouTube and send us the link) Application Deadline: April 27, 2014 http://youtu.be/O-0VLZcOPUc

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