1d in the us

K I’m gonna try and keep my whining to a minimum but the thing is, Ben knew the boys were most likely gonna win that award and still, even though he knew there was no actual hug, he teased at one anyway. For years he’s disrespected fans and invalidated us and it’s gross and I will never not be bitter that they’ve repeatedly chosen to work with someone who has no more respect for us than a middle aged man writing some shitty piece about how stupid boyband fans are.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
One Year Since Tattoo Roulette:

Aka Niall’s National Nightmare & Harry Is A Cocky Bastard

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Originally posted by insomnia-eyes

Originally posted by prettielou

“I’m actually fine!” YOU COCKY BASTARD! THAT DIMPLE THE SIZE OF THE MOON WHILE YOU LAUGH OFF POTENTIALLY GETTING A TATTOO ON NATIONAL TELEVISION!

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Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.