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lesbiain-deactivated20170309  asked:

marsha p johnson wasn't a transwoman, he was a gender non conforming gay man/drag queen, he even said (shortly before his death no less) 'i am a man' like you don't have to strip gay men (especially dead ones, which is incredibly insensitive) of their identities to make a point :/

Miss thing I know the tumblr feminists you hang around with get hyped up on kilos of sherm and bathsalts before they type into this putrid site and whatnot but I am not the one. Marsha was a pre-op transsexual and she wanted to transition, but due to poverty, the criminalization of prostitution, her deteriorating mental health, antiblackness, homophobia, and transmisogyny, she could not. Trans identity politics did not exist in the united states when she was alive as they exist today (because things evolve) and she described her transition in ways that would be considered controversial on tumblr dot com but they ought to be acknowledged. Interesting enough, tumblr feminists like your ilk and some trans activists here both have that refusal to acknowledge complex history in common. You people always want to deny parts of her existence to fit your compartmentalized narratives. Trust me you’re not much better or different than your imagined enemies so jot that down.

Moving on, Marsha was a transsexual woman and she described her biological sex as being male (a trans person describing themselves in this way wasn’t considered as much of a controversial act back then as it is now). She called herself a woman and a man (referring to how she described her sex or lack of access to HORMONES AND SURGERY), and it is clear that her existence was one rife with transmisogynoir and hostility due to her engagement in prostitution so she could have money to support herself and to fund her transition, which, sadly, didn’t happen because of, in part, the very same sentiments expressed in this dumb ass message u sent me girl. She experienced violence in the same patterns as any other transsexual woman in prostitution. Read Viviane Namaste to learn more about how transsexual women specifically are most at risk for violence that results in death when they engage in prostitution.

From Rapping with a Street Transvestite Revolutionary, an interview originally done by Bob Kohler on August 20, 1990, reprinted in Out of the Closets: Voices of Gay Liberation. Can be read in full here for free.

Kohler: When you hustle on 42nd Street, do they know you’re a transvestite, or do they think you’re a woman? Or does it depend? 

Marsha: Some of them do and some of them don’t, because I tell them. I say, “It’s just like a grocery store; you either shop or you don’t shop.” Lots of times they tell me, “You’re not a woman!” I say, “I don’t know what I am if I’m not a woman.” They say, “Well, you’re not a woman.” They say “Let me see your cunt.” I say, “Honey, let me tell you something.” I say “You can either take it or leave it,” because, see, when I go out to hustle I don’t particularly care whether I get a date or not. If they take me, they got to take me as I want ‘em to take me. And if they want to go up my dress, I just charge them a little extra, and the price just goes up and up and up and up. And I always get all of my money in advance, that’s what a smart transvestite does. I don’t ever let them tell me, “I’ll pay you after the job is done.” I say I want it in advance. Because no woman gets paid after their job is done. If you’re smart, you get the money first.

Kohler: What about the term “drag queen?” People in STAR prefer to use the term “transvestite.” Can you explain the difference? 

Marsha: A drag queen is one that usually goes to a ball, and that’s the only time she gets dressed up. Transvestites live in drag. A transsexual spends most of her life in drag. I never come out of drag to go anywhere. Everywhere I go I get all dressed up. A transvestite is still like a boy, very manly looking, a feminine boy. You wear drag here and there. When you’re a transsexual, you have hormone treatments and you’re on your way to a sex change, and you never come out of female clothes.

Kohler: You’d be considered a pre-operative transsexual then? You don’t know when you’d be able to go through the sex change? 

Marsha: Oh, most likely this year. I’m planning to go to Sweden. I’m working very hard to go. 

Kohler: It’s cheaper there than it is at Johns Hopkins? 

Marsha: It’s $300 for a change, but you’ve got to stay there a year.

She wanted to transition. She planned to transition. She was a pre-op transsexual woman and a drag performer. Tryda disrespect a dead black woman in my inbox again girl and I implore you not to come for me if you glean all of your politics off your dashboard and sleazy wordpress blogs.

Taken [Chapter 11]

Mafia!AU

Pairing: Suho x Reader

Warnings: Language; may have triggering situations including sexual situations, abuse, violence, etc.

Summary: You were just a normal girl. You were just trying to get by. Until a rather unfortunate relationship brought you to the hands of Suho, the leader of the greatest mafia in the country.


PrologueChapter 1Chapter 2Chapter 3Chapter 4Chapter 5Chapter 6Chapter 7Chapter 8Chapter 9Chapter 10
Chapter 11Chapter 12Chapter 13Chapter 14Chapter 15
Chapter 16Chapter 17Chapter 18Epilogue



You find yourself enjoying cute, mindless dates with Luhan more and more as days pass. It’s been about two weeks since the two of you had started dating, and him in your life really reminds of how you’re free. You can do whatever you want now, live however you want.

Luhan is adorable. He’s funny and talented but also incredibly shy sometimes. He pampers you often and it’s safe to say that you’ve completely gotten over your crush on Suho.

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In “The Pocahontas Perplex: The Image of Indian Women in American Culture,” Cherokee scholar Rayna Green suggests that the persistence of Pocahontas’s story has been its utility within the mythic structures of U.S. nationalism, particularly in (re)enacting the inferiority of Pocahontas’s culture and the dominion of Smith’s in what was to be figured as America.

Pocahontas’s alleged defiance of her father, her choice to save Smith, her attention to Smith and the other colonists’ survival, her marriage and conversion, her Christian renaming, and her move to England are all made evidence that she knew her own culture lacked the qualities valued by Smith’s and the New World (Berkhofer 1979). In the end, Pocahontas is made to speak to that New World, to that America, as heroine and ancestor. She is thereby stripped of any vestiges of her own political agenda and her own cultural affiliation and identity.

What is so insidious about the interpretative practices that transfigure Pocahontas into a quintessential American hero is the way such inventions render her insignificant outside of her heterosexualized relationships to men and how they erase her identity and affiliation as a Powhatan. Dispossessing Pocahontas of her sovereign identity, culture, and history— and so the possibility for political concerns and agendas other than those serving U.S. colonial men and interests— makes it impossible to consider that she might have spoken for or to other issues, such as those addressing her father’s powerful position, her people’s autonomy and survival, and the treatment of Indians by the colonists.

Instead, Pocahontas becomes merely everybody’s great-great grandmother, resolving conflicted problems of dispossession and genocide that characterized her and her nation’s history with an all too easy and hypocritical “affirmation of relationship” (Green 1990, 20).
—  Joanne Marie Barker’s “Beyond Pocahontas” in Beyond the Frame: Women of Color and Visual Representation (2005)

The 1920′s // original, edgy, spontaneous

Leo, Capricorn

The 1950′s // classic, simple, elegant

Cancer, Libra

The 1960′s // quirky, intellectual, experimental

Taurus, Virgo

The 1970′s // adventurous, revival, artistic

Sagittarius, Aquarius

The 1980′s // spunky, energetic, broad-minded

Gemini, Scorpio

The 1990′s // eclectic, rebellion, practical

Aries, Pisces

EXO Astrology: a summary

I keep tagging posts with exo’s aspect placements and forgetting that not everyone just keeps kpop idols astrology charts in their heads at all times so here’s a quick breakdown of the members and their relevant astrology info (you can find a brief explanation of what each aspect means here):

Suho (Kim Junmeon): May 22, 1991

Sun: Gemini/Taurus cusp
Moon: Virgo
Mercury: Taurus
Venus: Cancer
Mars: Cancer

Xiumin (Kim Minseok): March 26, 1990

Sun: Aries
Moon: Pisces
Mercury: Aries
Venus: Aquarius
Mars: Aquarius

Lay (Zhang Yixing): October 7, 1991

Sun: Libra
Moon: Libra
Mercury: Libra
Venus: Virgo
Mars: Libra
(wtf so much Libra)

Beakhyun (Byun Beakhyun): May 6, 1992

Sun: Taurus
Moon: Gemini
Mercury: Aries
Venus: Taurus
Mars: Aries

Chen (Kim Jogndae): September 21, 1992

Sun: Virgo/Libra cusp
Moon: Cancer
Mercury: Libra
Venus: Libra
Mars: Cancer

Chanyeol (Park Chanyeol): November 27, 1992

Sun: Sagittarius
Moon: Capricorn
Mercury: Scorpio
Venus: Capricorn
Mars: Cancer

D.O. (Do Kyungsoo): January 12, 1993

Sun: Capricorn
Moon: Virgo
Mercury: Capricorn
Venus: Pisces
Mars: Cancer

Kai (Kim Jongin): January 14, 1994

Sun: Capricorn
Moon: Aquarius
Mercury: Aquarius
Venus: Capricorn
Mars: Capricorn

Sehun (Oh Sehun): April 12, 1994

Sun: Aries
Moon: Taurus
Mercury: Aries
Venus: Taurus
Mars: Pisces

Kris (Wu Yifan): November 6, 1990

Sun: Scorpio
Moon: Cancer
Mercury: Scorpio
Venus: Scorpio
Mars: Gemini

Luhan (LuHan): April 20, 1990

Sun: Aries
Moon: Aquarius
Mercury: Taurus
Venus: Pisces
Mars: Aquarius

Tao (Huang Zitao): May 2, 1993

Sun: Taurus
Moon: Virgo
Mercury: Aries
Venus: Aries
Mars: Leo

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Remembering Barbara Stanwyck on her birthday  (16 July 1907 - 20 January 1990)

“…[B]asically Stanwyck doesn’t trade on her femininity. The problem confronted by Stanwyck’s women wasn’t that they weren’t men, but that they lived in a society that didn’t give women an equal chance. She refused to renounce her femininity; she liked who - not what - she was, and she would not renounce her rights as an equal. She never questions a man’s rights, but treats them as equals. If they lose, that’s their problem. They should have looked at the cards in their hands instead of the gleam in her eye.”  - John Kobal, 1964

Russian serial killer Andrei Chikatilo, responsible for the murder of more than 50 people

Andrei Chikatilo or ‘The Butcher of Rostov’ was a married father of two daughters and committed his first murder in Shakhty, Soviet Union in September 1978 and continued his campaign of murder until he was arrested on November 20, 1990. Chikatilo was sentenced to death for the murder of 52 people, although he confessed to murdering 56 people. Even before he committed his first murder, Chikatilo was fired from his job as a teacher for committing multiple sexual assaults against his female students.

Many of Chikatilo’s victims were children, his first murder victim being a 9 year old girl named Yelena Zakotnova who he choked and stabbed to death. 25 year old Aleksandr Kravchenko was wrongfully convicted for her murder and executed in July, 1983.

Between July and September 1982 alone Chikatilo murdered five people aged between 9 and 18. On December 11, 1982 Chikatilo murdered 10 year old girl Olga Stalmachenok, stabbing her more than 50 times before disemboweling her.

In June 1983, Chikatilo murdered 15 year old girl Laura Sarkisyan. The brutality of the murders committed by Chikatilo led to multiple theories among police including that they may have been committed by a Satanic cult or a black market group harvesting organs to sell illegally.

On May 25 1984, Chikatilo murdered 10 year old girl Svetlana Petrosyan. By the end of July 1984 Chikatilo had murdered three more girls and a 13 year old boy. In one week in August 1984, Chikatilo murdered a 16 and a 17 year old girl - stabbing 17 year old Lyudmila Alekseyeva 39 times. By September 1984, Chikatilo murdered four more people, including an 11 year old boy who was castrated and strangled to death.

In August 1986 Chikatilo murdered 18 year old Irina Pogoryelova, one of her breasts and both her eyes being removed with a knife. In 1987 Chikatilo murdered two 12 year old boys and one 16 year old boy. Chikatilo committed his final murder in November 1990 before being caught by police.

Chikatilo was executed by a single gunshot to the back of the head on February 14, 1994.

“I know I have to be destroyed. I was a mistake of nature.” - Andrei Chikatilo

Christopher Kerze (born February 19, 1973) disappeared on April 20, 1990. He was an excellent student, who’d been invited to join the National Honor Society and was a National Ment Scholar semi- finalist. His hobbies were playing clarinet, swimming in the school’s swimming team, camping, skiing, reading and laser tag.

Christopher, 17 years old at the time, stayed home from school, and told his mom he was suffering from a bad headache. His parents left him alone in their house and went to work. When they later came home they found out that their family’s car was and Mossberg 20-gaige-bolt-action shotgun were missing but there were no bullets gone. There was a note left behind on the kitchen table from Christopher. The note read:

Mom, Something important came up + feeling somewhat better. Back by six. (Unless I get lost.) Love, Chris.

The word lost was underlined twice.

Christopher never came home. The next day a handwritten note arrive at his parent’s home. The note said Christopher lied about being sick so he could take the family’s car. He also noted that he didn’t know where he was heading. He said he was going to commit suicide and that he was sorry for the pain he was causing to his family and loved ones.

Two days later the car was found, abandoned on the roadside of Itasca Country. Christopher had left a note behind explaining who owned the car. The gun he had taken with him was later found by hunters. What happened next is unknown. The entire locations was being searched, but nothing was found. It is possible that Christopher hitchhiked further on.

The police received an anonymous letter in 2004, indicating that they should stop trying to find Christopher and that he would return home when he is ready. There has been some renewed interest in this case at the start of 2016, after the Jacob Wetterling case got resolved.

Shawn Mendes Is First Artist in AC Chart's History to Notch Three No. 1s Before Age 20

Mendes accomplishes a feat no one had –- although Taylor Swift nearly did –- since the chart launched in 1961.

Shawn Mendes scores a first in the 56-year history of Billboard’s Adult Contemporary chart, achieving the unprecedented feat of tallying three No. 1 songs before age 20.

Mendes, who celebrated his 19th birthday Aug. 8, earns the honor as “There’s Nothing Holdin’ Me Back” rises 2-1 on the chart dated Nov. 18. The song follows his debut AC entry “Stitches,” which led for two weeks beginning April 30, 2016, and “Treat You Better,” which reigned for two weeks beginning Feb. 11.

The Adult Contemporary chart measures total weekly plays, as tabulated by Nielsen Music, among its reporting panel of 84 AC radio stations.

Mendes bests the rise of an artist for whom he has opened on tour (and over whom he can now boast chart bragging rights): Taylor Swift posted her first two AC No. 1s at age 19: “Love Story” and “You Belong With Me,” both in 2009. She had to wait until the advanced age of 20 to notch her third, “Mine,” which hit No. 1 on Dec. 11, 2010 (two days before her 21st birthday).

Before Swift, Mariah Carey collected her third AC No. 1, “I Don’t Wanna Cry,” nearly three months after turning 21 in 1991. She logged her first two career-opening No. 1s, “Vision of Love” and “Love Takes Time,” at age 20 in 1990.

Mendes has helped lower the average of age of lead soloists atop the AC chart in 2017 to 22.6 years (with, notably, Alessia Cara reigning earlier this year at age 20). Five years ago, the average age was 35.6 (lifted by then 67-year old icon Rod Stewart in the mix). Ten years ago, in 2007, the average age for soloists atop the tally was 29.4.

In September, Mendes likewise became the first artist to have notched three No. 1s before age 20 on AC sister chart Adult Pop Songs (which began in 1996). He managed the feat with the same three songs that have crowned, and earned him history on, the AC chart.

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Today’s 1990s Music Video of the Day is:
Real World by Matchbox Twenty, 1998

anonymous asked:

i wasnt around for ot12, and i wanna know more about luhan so i figured why not come to you, LuhanStan69, for information????

ok well first of all, the name luhanstan69 is…. .…. .. .  . horrific and i want it tattooed on my ass .. .. . and second of all …. i was also not around for ot12….. but i can still show u the world (im so sorry just…….click on the bold links,,,,i didnt mean for this 2 happen)

ok so : my man… first name han last name lu and it means dawn deer and he really fucking looks like a deer?? his eyes are so big and sparkly and his features are really delicate and soft but don’t be fooled he really takes no prisoners and will fight literally anyone (here is him yelling at a saesang driver who was recklessly driving, like he really doesn’t take any shit one time at the airport he showed the fancameras that a saesang was calling his phone also the song Roleplay exists in which he basically tells his saesang fans that he will Fuck Them Up if they keep trying him,,,…,.,. a legend if u will) he was born april 20, 1990 and technically he’s a taurus by some calendars and aries by others but he said fuck it im an aries and whatever he says is law so he’s an aries. 

mmmm he’s an extremely talented vocalist and dancer (he was main vocal for m and their lead dancer also the visual). im not sure how familiar you are with exo m but I will recommend moonlight and what is love as songs that really show off luhan’s vocals from his exo era. as far as dance goes this is a classic mmm also his solo from the lost planet for the star is a treasure that must be preserved tbh. um anyways ya luhan was the bomb in exo m but he’s also the bomb solo!! his last exo concert was the 140921 tlp in beijing and he left exo in october of 2014 due to lack of support for luhan’s career and obvious health issues (if u watch fancams from his last stage u can see his face is swollen on one side and pictures of his eye being fucked up and he was having really bad chronic headaches i think i dont remember exactly also he fell down during let out the beast and is clearly in pain sorry im not trying 2 write a defend luhan leaving piece but this info isn’t really circulated now so it’s easy to write off him leaving as for just money or whatever)

and then luhan took a break!! he recovered his health in his home beijing and came back with : That Good Good say what u will abt the song either it’s ur style or not idc but the choreo is nice and his face is….stellar.. from there luhan worked toward releasing his album Reloaded which sold like hotcakes :( my baby :( The Star™️ and he started to truly become The Star™️ once he became a member of Running Man China (now titled Keep Running due to S Korean/Chinese political issues) and began to take on movies like The Witness (he also did the ost for the witness titled Medals which blew tf up and was used for the Rio 2016 Olympics) and Time Raiders. he then held his first !! solo !! concert !! in early 2016 aka the Reloaded series ft. three absolutely beautiful hair colors: mint/blue/green pink purple and some ridiculous wardrobe changes and he kicked ass :( and his fame in china rly skyrocketed like this man….endorses the entire planet (off the top of my head he is/was the spokesperson/endorser for: kfc, crest, lenovo, some bike company thing, puma, cartier, coke, sony, gap, lancome, l’occitane en provence, canon, kung fu panda, star wars (he got his own star wars song like exo has lightsaber but lu got the inner force….iconic), ummmmm what else idk i can’t remember anymore oh wait ADIDAS he literally was just announced for adidas today….an icon mayhaps?) anyways ya hims the Shit in china and he’s like the king of weibo?? like he holds a guinness world record for weibo….amazing

ok moving on to my :( favorite part …. when he put out catch me when i fall in oct 2016. This is it. This is That Song tbh. This is when he became the King of Aesthetics and Music. The MV is beautiful and so are the lyrics (i really encourage you to read the lyrics for the song bc they really show a lot about luhan and i fell absolutely undeniably in love with him when i read them). And from there he litralee cannot be stopped im not gonna make u read my opinion on all of them but his absolute best releases since then (keep in mind im talking abt in the like 7 months….he has put out so many songs AND mv’s for all of them plus teasers it’s really insane) are skin to skin , what if i said , and on call . truly … the mf king of aesthetics. i expect his next full album will come out probably around july/august…he’s really been building up to it with his mini albums so it will probably be more or less a repackage of all of those minis but ya !! keep ur eyes peeled!!

beyond his performance stuff he’s really the most passionate, dedicated, hardworking, and talented guy. He works so hard like it is astounding. He is so incredibly inspirational and i really just think he’s a good person and frankly i would trust him with my life. He really cares for his lufans and wants them to be safe and happy even international lufans like he puts english subtitles on all of his mv’s and now his bts videos also have eng subs like…..he doesn’t have to and yet? he’s there….doing it all. he also has fan events for his bday like one year he had a soccer event on his bday and made it livestreamed so that fans at home could watch too  :( he’s just v thoughtful :(

TL;DR: luhan is the sweetest boy on the planet and he just wants to make aesthetic bops and play w cats and live his life happily and freely. he is the most precious thing to me and he deserves all the love in the world. also he is a human meme and Lu is his magnum opus if u want to see more of lu i highly recommend Running Man (this is his first ep, and these two are my favorites) and episodes 2, 5, and 9 of exo showtime are my favorite lu episodes. u can catch him in the movie The Great Wall w matt damon and a bunch of v famous chinese actors and singers lmfao i just got it from redbox the other day lu is so cute um also he’s in a cdrama rn called Fighter of the Destiny which is all eng subbed on youtube the cgi is like ridiculously cheesy kinda power rangers feel but his face and sweet acting…..it’s enough 4 me….anything luhan does is enough 4 me

Did someone ask for headcanons? *cracks knuckles*

(Get ready because these are kinda all over the place)

1. Francis likes to sleep in, so when Arthur has to be somewhere in the morning, he’ll leave a post-it note on Francis’s forehead instead of waking him up

2. Francis was an active member of the resistance in World War Two until he was captured and locked up. Arthur found him during the liberation of France and tried to get him out, but Francis was in so much pain that he begged Arthur to kill him first. Arthur obliged.

3. Francis loves when Arthur plays with his hair. And he also loves when Arthur tugs on it during sex

4. Francis also loves when Arthur carries him around. He won’t let anyone else pick him up like that.

5. Arthur introduced Francis to both Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. They now have movie marathons together.

6. Arthur is a talented-as-fuck actor. Francis could watch him act all day.

7. Both Arthur and Francis can sing and play piano.

8. At the beginning of their relationship, Arthur worried that he’d never measure up to Jeanne and that Francis low-key still hated him for what happened to her.

9. Arthur is self-conscious of his appearance, so Francis tells him every day (either through words or through actions) that he is beautiful and loved.

10. Francis loves driving motorcycles. Arthur is terrified of Francis’s driving and curses himself for letting Francis convince him to ride with him.

11. Similarly, Arthur is a master at flying planes. Francis is terrified of his flying because he likes to re-enact World War maneuvers.

12. They’re both competitive as fuck, but Arthur will be the one to throw a fit if he loses at whatever they’re doing (chess, tennis, archery, you name it).

13. Arthur is just /slightly/ better at sword fighting. Francis will never admit it aloud. Even though they still sword fight sometimes for fun and Francis usually ends up losing.

14. Both of them switch off topping and bottoming. Francis finds power and confidence to be extremely sexy, so Arthur is 100% capable of turning him into a puddle. On the other hand, Arthur can’t help but love when Francis works his Frenchy magic on him.

15. Francis has tried to teach Arthur how to cook, but everything Arthur touches bursts into flame. Even water. He doesn’t know how he does it.

16. Arthur loves wooing Francis. He’ll buy him expensive gifts and draw him lavender baths and absolutely *refuses* to let Francis pay for any dates they go on.

17. Francis was the first one to say I love you.

18. When Francis confessed his feelings to Arthur, Arthur at first thought it was a sick joke.

19. Francis started falling for Arthur during World War Two but didn’t realize he was in love until the 1990s.

20. One of Francis’s favorite things to do is to simply hold Arthur and be held by him. No talking necessary, just them being close to one another both physically and emotionally.


I think I should stop now lol.

@i-gotyou-first

I want to explode, these are really cute and I want to cry.

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·.·´¯`·.·★ [ 𝓜𝓘𝓛𝓔𝓢 𝓕𝓡𝓐𝓝𝓚  ] ★·.·´¯`·.·★

Weight: Unknown
Height: 6′ 2″ or 188cm
Hair Colour: Dark Brown - Black
Eye Colour: Hazel - Green
Birth Place: Seattle, Washington
Date Of Birth: September 20, 1990  
Occupation:
model, musician

On the Rise

A/N: An anon request where the reader has been working in the BAU for a few months. She’s from another country and decides to keep it from the team for her own personal reasons. The French I used was google translated, so forgive any mistakes please :D

Warnings: Xenophobia.

                                                              —-

For Y/N, dual citizenship was both a blessing and a curse during her childhood and teenage years. Fluent in two languages, she grew up knowing there were people who lived and thrived outside the small little worlds in which she lived. Mornings in Nice, France consisted of her walking to school and occasionally stopping by a store to grab a quick sweet treat. On the way home, she would be able to pass the beauty of shoreline and watch the surf crash into the sand before going home to finish her homework. 

Just before middle school, her father was transferred to the States for work, and while her father excelled in his new role and her mother quickly made good friends, Y/N struggled. Middle school and high school were difficult without being outwardly “different” from the general population. If you were gay, you got made fun of. If you were disabled, you got made fun of. And for Y/N, it was her accent. French was her mother tongue; she knew English, but she couldn’t speak it very well. Trying to speak English with a heavy accent was an accomplishment - at least that’s what her father told her, but as soon as she opened her mouth in school, she was told to go home - that if she couldn’t speak English she should go back to where she came from.

Relentlessly, over years and years, she was made fun of by other students until senior year when she couldn’t take it anymore. Every single day, she’d come home in tears, wishing that people weren’t so horrible. She’d always been proud of where she came from, and she would never let anyone change that, but being made fun of was still hard no matter how proud she was of who she was.

After going back to France to live with her aunt for the remainder of high school, she pursued a dual degree in criminology and psychology in college, all the while perfecting her English and maintaining her native tongue. That’s why she kind of wanted to vomit when she got notified that she’d earned a spot at the BAU. Although she’d worked hard to get where she was, it would mean returning to the United States.

She was an adult now. Hopefully, her peers were the same, no longer children throwing insults, but the fear was always there. She’d been through so much in high school that rationality took a spin out the window. All rational thought was replaced by the hell that middle school and high school had been; she’d been scarred, and the wounds were just beginning to heal.

“Agent Y/N Y/L/N,” Section Chief Cruz said as she entered. “I’d like to personally welcome you aboard.”

“Thank you,” she said, her former accent nearly gone. “Thank you so much for giving me this opportunity.”

Apparently, she and Unit Chief Prentiss had picked her out of numerous candidates for a combination of her athleticism, her intelligence and her grasp of many languages. In addition to French and English, Y/N had also picked up Spanish and Italian over the years. “I did tell Unit Chief Prentiss about your wishes regarding your background remaining closed. For whatever reasons you want to keep it to yourself, that’s fine, as long as a case never depends on it.”

“If it does, I will absolutely let them know,” she replied. “It’s just something I’m not comfortable with right now.”

“No problem. Let’s go introduce you to your new team.”

As she walked beside Section Chief Cruz, she couldn’t help but feel an emptiness in the pit of her stomach, slowly gnawing away from nervousness. “Ah, Agent Y/L/N,” Emily greeted. Apparently, she’d already seen your picture. “Everyone this is out new team member, Y/N Y/L/N.” She started pointing around the room, introducing all the other agents; this was an extensive team. “These are Agent Jennifer Jareau, Luke Alvez, Matt Simmons, David Rossi, our technical analyst Penelope Garcia, and Drs. Spencer Reid and Tara Lewis.”

“Nice to meet you all.”

                                                             —-

Seconds after being introducer to her new team, Y/N and the rest of the BAU were taken away on a case, leaving no time for her to be nervous. Over the next few months, cases came across their desk pretty consistently, but in their off time, she got to know the team - it was all in generalities. Parents were amazing. School sucked, with the exception of college. No time for relationships. Few close friends and a lot of acquaintances. Nothing too telling about where she came from. 

“We going out tonight?” Emily asked.

Rossi waved them off. “Have fun my children, I’m off to see Joy and Kai.”

Emily and JJ gave him a soft smile and good wishes for his daughter and granddaughter. “The rest of us good to go?”

Matt already asked Kristy if she was cool with him going out; she’d told him to have a good time, and JJ asked the same of Will. They’d been at work so late that Henry and Michael were already asleep. “Let’s go, I need drinks after this week,” Garcia said, practically pulling people into the elevator.

The moment they all got to the bar, drinks were ordered. It took about an hour and a half for everyone to get three drinks deep. And then all of a sudden, Y/N started speaking with her accent again; booze had a way of doing that to her. “Woah! Where did the accent come from?” Garcia asked. “It’s so sexy!”

She hadn’t even realized and decided to tell them. They seemed cool, she was just hoping that the illusion wasn’t broken when she told them where she grew up and why she’d kept it from them. “I was born in Nice.”

“Really?” JJ asked. “You’re accent hasn’t come out until now.”

“That’s the booze,” she laughed. “And I had issues with people making fun of my accent and my inability to speak English perfectly when I was in middle school and high school. I had some horrible experiences, so I decided to keep it from people, afraid that I’d be judged again.”

“That age group sucks!” Tara exclaimed. “There are a few people in the Bureau who still have that mindset and I will tell you to steer clear of them, but you know us.”

Y/N took another sip of her drink. “I do now. But I was afraid to say anything and be tortured like I was again. That’s why I didn’t say anything.”

Garcia leaned into her and snaked her arm underneath Y/N’s. “Well, by all means speaking French and let that accent fly free around us because it’s unbelievably sexy. “Vous êtes un ange,” she said. “You are an angel.”

“I don’t understand people,” Spencer said, bringing Y/N another drink. Being bilingual is becoming more and more prevalent in the U.S. The percentage of bilinguals is definitely on the rise. It was 11 percent in 1980, 14 percent in 1990, and nearly 20 percent as of 2012. Five years have passed so it’s likely even higher now. People are dumb. Plus, French is a beautiful language. It’s your native tongue, right?”

Y/N blushed and nodded. She always thought French was beautiful, but middle school and high school were awful. “Je pourrais t'écouter toute la journée, Dr. Reid,” she whispered. Apparently, she also got flirty when drunk, and she definitely had a crush on the BAU’s resident genius. “Maybe we could go for a coffee sometime?” She asked as the rest of the team delved back into random conversation.

“I’d love that.”

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