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2015.03.28 #197 街の凪

これまでjpegでしか撮影したことがなかったんですが、最近になってRAWを理解してもっと楽しくなりました。些か抵抗はあったんですが、すべてを鑑みたところ、おもしろい。しかしフィルムの質感はたまらん。中判カメラも欲しい。プリンターも欲しい。金が

As a first time mom who loves kids

You go into this thinking, “I’m so ready for my bump!”
Right?
Well. Lol. Let me just say, thank goodness the growing doesn’t start until 5 or 6 months in (more or less).
When I first found out, every week I would snap a picture, trying to note the slightest bloat as growth.
Right now, at 7 months pregnant, I feel so……..round!

Of course not fat, even though I’m tipping the scales these days at almost 190….I started off at 153 & I still have 2 and a half months to go.
I am TERRIFIED to see the scale reach or pass 200.
At my heaviest I was 197, and I cannot stand to look at photos from then.

Anyway, typically, when another woman sees a pregnant woman, she thinks
"awww"or "how cute" as her eyes automatically divert to the woman’s middle…
Well, I always did, anyway.
But I never thought about being in her shoes. watching every passing person’s gaze fall straight to her belly.
Today, I finally felt it. And it’s sooooooo awkward. I couldn’t help but to think,
"Can they tell I’m pregnant? Do I just look like I have a pot belly, unable to dress for my body?"
It sounds silly, but something that I truly thought I would be able to embrace wholeheartedly and without question is actually a bit of a challenge.

Buying new clothes???
I need to use every ounce in me not to get momentarily depressed.
Seeing things that would look SO CUTE! If I didn’t look like I’d swallowed a basketball. Automatically bypassing the Smalls and Mediums, 9’s & 10’s.
Putting things down because I know that after 10 minutes of wearing it I would be wanting to rip it off from discomfort.

Don’t get me wrong. I absolutely LOVE my baby bump. Especially because I have been blessed with the gift of having not a single stretch mark, it really is a pretty belly. Shaped nicely. It’s when time comes to go out on the town, a date, a celebration, dinner, the simplest outing, that the insecurity arises. And it’s extra hard for me because, I’ve dealt with that for probably 3/4 of my life so far & once I was finally able to feel comfortable in my skin wearing virtually anything, came my turn to harvest a life.
This, they don’t tell you in the baby books, apps nor websites.

Some days I can only keep sane by planning, & re-planning (& re-planning yet again) my post-pregnancy diet and exercise lifestyle shift, & promising myself I will bounce back better than ever. And I will. I know I will.

But until then, it will only get harder. I will only grow bigger, rounder, more insecure.

But I will also fall deeper & deeper into a love that I will never again find with another human being. And that, I think, is worth it all.

<3

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1,000 Matches In 2015 - Match 197:
Zodiak (w/ Mistress Burgandi) Vs. Necro Butcher

EPW St. Patrick’s Beatdown [March 13th, 2014]

When Zodiak arrived at EPW in 2014, fans and wrestlers alike didn’t know what to make of him. Strong, vicious, and deceivingly agile, Zodiak was a monster unhinged who only seemed to respond to Mistress Burgandi. However, after a few battles with Josh Crane, a new face arrived who Zodiak would have to respond to: hardcore legend, Necro Butcher! This match isn’t pretty, it’s not technical, it’s just plain rough and tough. Zodiak and Necro Butcher, who may have been allies in a previous life or under different circumstances, battle it out all over the ring and through the crowd in a neck-in-neck brawl. Enjoy!

anonymous asked:

all of them :p

  • p200:My crush’s name is: Jordan
  • 199:I was born in: July 1998
  • 198:I am really: Cute (feelin’ it right now)
  • 197:My cellphone company is: AT&T
  • 196:My eye color is: Dark brown
  • 195:My shoe size is: 8 1/2-10 womens
  • 194:My ring size is: idk
  • 193:My height is: 5′6
  • 192:I am allergic to: Avon sunscreen
  • 191:My 1st car was: Dont have one yet
  • 190:My 1st job was:babysitter
  • 189:Last book you read: Great Gatsby
  • 188:My bed is: comfortable
  • 187:My pet: is a plant
  • 186:My best friend: Is so special to me and i am way to protective of him
  • 185:My favorite shampoo is: dont have one
  • 184:Xbox or ps3: Xbox
  • 183:Piggy banks are: cute
  • 182:In my pockets: nothing
  • 181:On my calendar: kitties
  • 180:Marriage is: meant for security
  • 179:Spongebob can: rock
  • 178:My mom: is so amazing
  • 177:The last three songs I bought were? i dont rember 
  • 176:Last YouTube video watched:my own
  • 175:How many cousins do you have? 12
  • 174:Do you have any siblings? nope
  • 173:Are your parents divorced? no
  • 172:Are you taller than your mom? yess
  • 171:Do you play an instrument? Used to
  • 170:What did you do yesterday? Hungout with my boyfriend
  • [ I Believe In ]
  • 169:Love at first sight: yess
  • 168:Luck: yes
  • 167:Fate: yes
  • 166:Yourself: Yea
  • 165:Aliens: yea
  • 164:Heaven: maybe
  • 163:Hell: maybe
  • 162:God: no
  • 161:Horoscopes: yess
  • 160:Soul mates:Yes
  • 159:Ghosts: Yes
  • 158:Gay Marriage: hell yea
  • 157:War: kinda
  • 156:Orbs: yessss
  • 155:Magic: Yea
  • [ This or That ]
  • 154:Hugs or Kisses: Depends but I love hugs
  • 153:Drunk or High: Drunk
  • 152:Phone or Online: Phone
  • 151:Red heads or Black haired: Black
  • 150:Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes
  • 149:Hot or cold: Hot
  • 148:Summer or winter: Summmmer
  • 147:Autumn or Spring: Autumn
  • 146:Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
  • 145:Night or Day: Day
  • 144:Oranges or Apples: Apples
  • 143:Curly or Straight hair:straight
  • 142:McDonalds or Burger King: Ew neither
  • 141:White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Chocolate milk
  • 140:Mac or PC: Mac
  • 139:Flip flops or high heals: high heals
  • 138:Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor
  • 137:Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
  • 136:Hillary or Obama: idk
  • 135:Burried or cremated: Buried
  • 134:Singing or Dancing: Singing
  • 133:Coach or Chanel:idk
  • 132:Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: idk
  • 131:Small town or Big city: big city
  • 130:Wal-Mart or Target:target
  • 129:Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: to hard to chose
  • 128:Manicure or Pedicure: manicure
  • 127:East Coast or West Coast: east
  • 126:Your Birthday or Christmas: birthday
  • 125:Chocolate or Flowers:Flowers
  • 124:Disney or Six Flags: Neither
  • 123:Yankees or Red Sox: neither
  • [ Here’s What I Think About ]
  • 122:War:It’s stupid
  • 121:George Bush: Ew
  • 120:Gay Marriage: Shouldn’t even be a question, it should be a right
  • 119:The presidential election: idk
  • 118:Abortion: Your choice
  • 117:MySpace: Eh
  • 116:Reality TV: Eh
  • 115:Parents:  Not really in the mood to talk about this…
  • 114:Back stabbers: They’re awful
  • 113:Ebay: It works
  • 112:Facebook: It’s alright
  • 111:Work: eh
  • 110:My Neighbors: sooo nice c:
  • 109:Gas Prices: ew
  • 108:Designer Clothes: no
  • 107:College: Maybe
  • 106:Sports: no
  • 105:My family: My friends are my family
  • 104:The future: Right now is kinda unpredictable 
  • [ Last time I ]
  • 103:Hugged someone: Yesterday
  • 102:Last time you ate: like half an hour ago
  • 101:Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: been a while
  • 100:Cried in front of someone: yesterday
  • 99:Went to a movie theater: Wednesday 
  • 98:Took a vacation: Been a while
  • 97:Swam in a pool: Summer
  • 96:Changed a diaper: Ew never
  • 95:Got my nails done: A few months
  • 94:Went to a wedding: Few months ago
  • 93:Broke a bone: never
  • 92:Got a peircing: when i was like 7
  • 91:Broke the law: Never
  • 90:Texted: yesterday 
  • [ MISC ]
  • 89:Who makes you laugh the most: depends
  • 88:Something I will really miss when I leave home is: Everyone
  • 87:The last movie I saw: The DUFF
  • 86:The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Summer
  • 85:The thing im not looking forward to: Spring break
  • 84:People call me: Scratch
  • 83:The most difficult thing to do is: learn guitar
  • 82:I have gotten a speeding ticket: never
  • 81:My zodiac sign is: Cancer
  • 80:The first person i talked to today was: My parents
  • 79:First time you had a crush: Kinterdargen 
  • 78:The one person who i can’t hide things from: Well it’s Jordan and James
  • 77:Last time someone said something you were thinking: yesterday
  • 76:Right now I am talking to: tumblr
  • 75:What are you going to do when you grow up: hopefully be a writer and dye peoples hair
  • 74:I have/will get a job: will
  • 73:Tomorrow: Hanging with my boyfriend
  • 72:Today: Hopefully getting out of the house
  • 71:Next Summer: I’m scared whats gonna happen
  • 70:Next Weekend: Starts spring break
  • 69:I have these pets: Buttercup, cat and a plant
  • 68:The worst sound in the world: idk
  • 67:The person that makes me cry the most is: idk
  • 66:People that make you happy: Jordan, James, Alli, Mhairi, Arinn, Lauren, Cory, Tyler, Anthony, and Andrew
  • 65:Last time I cried: Yesterday
  • 64:My friends are: odd
  • 63:My computer is: from school
  • 62:My School: doesnt have the best teachers..
  • 61:My Car: is my moms
  • 60:I lose all respect for people who: cheat and lie
  • 59:The movie I cried at was: idk
  • 58:Your hair color is: Black and blue and pink and grayish
  • 57:TV shows you watch: Drop Dead Diva and The Fosters
  • 56:Favorite web site: Tumblr
  • 55:Your dream vacation: Away from everything
  • 54:The worst pain I was ever in was: heartbreak
  • 53:How do you like your steak cooked: Rare
  • 52:My room is: Cleaner than usual
  • 51:My favorite celebrity is: Robert Downey Jr.
  • 50:Where would you like to be: In a state of mind where i know myself and I am happy with who i am
  • 49:Do you want children: NO
  • 48:Ever been in love:Yea
  • 47:Who’s your best friend: Jordan and James
  • 46:More guy friends or girl friends: Guys
  • 45:One thing that makes you feel great is: being with my friends
  • 44:One person that you wish you could see right now: Andrew
  • 43:Do you have a 5 year plan: No
  • 42:Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No
  • 41:Have you pre-named your children: No
  • 40:Last person I got mad at: James and still kinda am
  • 39:I would like to move to: Philadelphia 
  • 38:I wish I was a professional: Hair colorist
  • [ My Favorites ]
  • 37:Candy: idk atm
  • 36:Vehicle: idk
  • 35:President: idk
  • 34:State visited: Ohio
  • 33:Cellphone provider: idk
  • 32:Athlete: dont hve one
  • 31:Actor: Robert Downey Jr
  • 30:Actress: dont have one
  • 29:Singer: Watsky
  • 28:Band: La Dispute
  • 27:Clothing store: Thrift Shop
  • 26:Grocery store: idk
  • 25:TV show: The Fosters
  • 24:Movie: 10 Things I Hate About You
  • 23:Website: Tumblr
  • 22:Animal: Cats
  • 21:Theme park: idk
  • 20:Holiday: Halloween
  • 19:Sport to watch: Hockey
  • 18:Sport to play: Volleyball
  • 17:Magazine: Mad
  • 16:Book: Hush, Hush
  • 15:Day of the week: Friday
  • 14:Beach: idk
  • 13:Concert attended: New Bomb Turks
  • 12:Thing to cook: idk
  • 11:Food: Lobster and Crab Bisque
  • 10:Restaurant: idk
  • 9:Radio station: dont have one
  • 8:Yankee candle scent: dont have one
  • 7:Perfume: eww
  • 6:Flower: dont have one
  • 5:Color: Purple
  • 4:Talk show host: Ellen
  • 3:Comedian: idk
  • 2:Dog breed: idk
  • 1:did you answer all these truthfully? Yea well some, or a lot, i didnt know
建築関係の仕事をしてるご主人が「今日は刑務所の修繕に行って来るよ。」と出かけた日の夕方、
奥さんと幼稚園児の娘がバスに乗っている時に、いきなり娘が
「パパ、今日早く刑務所から帰って来るといいね。」と無邪気にひとこと。

微妙に凍りついたバスの中の雰囲気に、説明をするのも難しく、奥さんは一人冷やをかいたというが。
Acho que seria mais fácil se parássemos de tentar esquecer o que já vivemos ou tentar concertar o que já passou, pois cada lembrança do passado é um degrau. Em alguns caímos e nos machucamos, mas eles fazem parte da escada onde subimos, e, não dá para ignora-los, já que sempre estarão lá na memória nos acompanhando como experiencias vividas, e, além disso, cada degrau que nos trouxeram onde estamos agora, e, depois, cada degrau daqui pra frente serão diferentes dos que já subimos. Não precisamos ter medo da queda, pois já aprendemos a se prevenir um pouco dela a cada degrau que foi deixado para trás, apenas precisamos de uma dose de coragem para enfrentar os próximos que estão por vir até alcançarmos nosso objetivo final.
—  A estrada é longa, mas boatos que a recompensa é maior. Canteiro-e-flor & Thiago Polycarpo.
258: 名無しさん@お腹いっぱい。 投稿日:2008/08/11(月) 22:06:27
物心ついた時から蚊取りといえばベープマットやら水性リキッドやらで、
蚊取り線香に憧れてと絶大なる期待を抱いていた嫁。
昨日の午後、ついに実物とご対面することになった。
縁側で寝転がって嬉しそうに蚊取り線香を見つめる姿にちょっと萌え。

数分後。
「かゆい~。刺された~。」
そりゃそうだろうよ。
蚊取り線香は悪くないから怒るなよ。

259: 名無しさん@お腹いっぱい。 投稿日:2008/08/11(月) 22:09:32
スマン肝心なところを書き忘れた。
ヤツはもったいないからとしばらく火をつけなかった。
そして数分後に「かゆい~」