15 october 2013

October 15, 2013

Exactly 4 years ago at this exact hour was the moment that changed my life forever. Hidden feelings outburst and I discovered the meaning of the strange state that my heart had. From that moment as the saint became sinner and the rules were broken repeatedly, the old me died and the new one was born. I wish that didn’t happen. I wish I never tried looking for answers. But I cannot change everything now.

Now I think I know why I constantly wake up on every midnight of October 15 since then because the ghost of the past is visiting me.

Karl Halverson Pierson, 18, was responsible for the shooting at Arapahoe High School in Centennial, Colorado where he murdered one student (she died eight days later) before committing suicide on December 13, 2013. He kept a typed journal titled “A Diary of a Madman“ that started on September 17, 2013 and ended the day of the shooting. Though it wasn’t released in its entirety, the following are excerpts from the diary included in the investigative report released by the Arapahoe County Sheriff’s Office (note the similarities to Eric Harris’ journal):

Tuesday September 17, 2013, enter project saguntum, a 10 year subconscious project for me to exact revenge, not on the individuals who perpetrated wrong, but instead by those I believe have done me wrong. I will shoot up my school, Arapahoe high school before the year is over. I hope to choose a date with the following criterion. Finals week — everyone is at school, and it will be winter during finals week, I hope I can find a day it is actually snowing, or just incredibly cold. I am a psychopath with a superiority complex.

I intend on going as follows: I walk through the asshole in the north side of the trophy hall, waltz in shooting everyone in my way to the (redacted)  (shouldn’t be too many, it’s not far, I go to the (redacted), to kill (redacted). From there, there are classrooms in the (redacted) where I will do something I have wanted to do for a while-mass murder and be in a place of power where I and I alone are judge, jury and executioner.

Sunday, September 22, 2013, I am filled with hate, I love it. The serotonin supplements I am taking don’t do jack shit, I am still ready to start a riot, I feel like a bomb, ready to let the world feel and experience my hatred for all things of pleasure. Nothing makes me happy. When I do commit my atrocities, I want the conversation to be about elementary school teasing. Words hurt, can mold a sociopath, and will lead someone a decade later to kill.

Monday, September 30, 2013, I feel like a bomb. My head has happy, anger and confusion hormones. I feel like an aneurism could happen at any second. Besides constantly being pissed off, I doubt the medication is working. I need a real doctor, one who doesn’t give medication that has the disclaimer not approved by the FDA. The serotonin is a joke, it makes my bowels upset, doesn’t effusively make me happy, and I hate taking them. It is important to note I rarely take my meds for this reason.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013, Saguntum is the project to shoot up (and maybe bomb) Arapahoe High School. No date has been set, but I would like it before new years. Finals week would do nicely, but a date with snow should be sooner. I also imagine the idea of what I hope will happen. I take (redacted) to school, drop her off, ditch the whole day until (redacted) (I’ve thought about it and I like (redacted)  the most). I would also love to burn (redacted), so much destruction.

Thursday, October 3, 2013, Since day 1, my job has been to conspire to shoot up the school. Every semester, I had a class I despised, and it was on the list. Now, I have means to achieve this diabolical end, and I am excited. The date is set for mid-November, I need time to build my arsenal.

Friday, October 11, 2013, I had a shrink appointment at 4, which was a massive waste of time. She doesn’t know about saguntum, nobody does.

Monday, October 15, 2013, I had an interesting idea today. In first hour, I thought about shooting up the asylum or whatever the fuck it was that my mother took me for that psych evaluation. Let the records show I lied through my teeth through the test.

Saturday, October 26, 2013, the 13th of December is a great date, as the 347th (47 is a great number) date of the year, there are 18 (my age) days left. It is a day of gore, filled with murder, suicide.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013, I am estatic right now. That December 13 date I chose is perfect, it is 38 days after the fifth of November. I love that date, that number, everything about it.

Sunday, November 24, 2013, It’s weird going through life knowing that in 19 days, I’m going to be dead. That makes school more boring, work torture and everything I love to do, a little less fun. The hardest part is not being able to tell anyone. I can’t just say fuck it, I’m going to shoot up my school soon. I need to make sure that kind of stuff doesn’t show up.

Friday, November 26, 2013, I can’t believe in a fortnight I’ll be dead. I went to the library to see if they had NBK. They didn’t, but (redacted) had highly recommended Perks of being a wallflower. I HATED it. Personally, I saw me, freshman year. No, I had never been sexually abused, but I had no friends at Arapahoe, and I was trying to fit in.

Sunday, December 8, 2013, it was productive weekend. I bought my Stevens 320. It was not the initial gun I was expecting, but I think it will work better. I like the pistol grip. It was quite the process to buy, it was waiting, and waiting, but I loved it. Mom does not know about it.

Thursday, December 12, 2013, I went to Cabela’s and I bought a sling, ammo belts, and of course, ammo. It included 5 sabot slugs! I think I’ll need more. Luckily, I’ll take off tomorrow.

Friday, December 13, 2013, today is going to be fun. I dropped (redacted) off at school today, and went to Walmart, bought some ammo. I then dressed my weapons, loaded my belts, got my backpack ready. I then went to Brunswick, bowled, got some mountain dew (I bought it for the glass bottles). I’m going to make some Molotov cocktails-shaken, not stirred. Update 45 minutes I built my Molotov cocktails, and I think they look great. I only had oil for three, but I think 3 will be more than enough. I am dressed to kill, long underwear, then cargo pants, under armor shirt, CCCP shirt. I have my machete on my belt, but I may re-attach that in the car.

The plan: 5th hours starts at 1214. I would want to strike 15 minutes into the hours, everyone is settled in.
1230: Initial strike on (redacted). Enter the trophy hallway, waltz into (redacted). Shoot up (redacted), toss a Molotov cocktail, reload.
1235: Assault (redacted)
1240: Assault (redacted)
1245: Assault (redacted)
1250: Assault on (redacted)

October 15, 2013

So Jaehyo has informed me that P.O believes that there is a ghost in the dorm. He said it’s because of the strange noises he hears coming from the kitchen at night. I don’t want to tell them that what he’s hearing is me eating food at odd hours of the night. Most people call 2 am - 3 am the “witching hour” but I refer to it as the “feeding hour”. Since I don’t want the other members to find out about my bad habits I’ve decided to make sure P.O remains convinced it’s a ghost. I will now make terrifying groans and noises while I go on my late night food rampages.

-Taeil

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATRICK STUMP! THANKS FOR BEING MY IDOL!!

‘’ Patrick Martin Stumph (born April 27, 1984), known professionally as Patrick Vaughn Stump, is an American singer, songwriter, musician, record producer, actor and music critic, best known as the lead vocalist, guitarist, pianist and composer of Fall Out Boy, an American rock band from Wilmette, Illinois. Stump embarked on a solo career as a side project from Fall Out Boy during its hiatus. 

He has been credited for being a soulful vocalist suitable for R&B, as well as one of the best voices in pop punk, according to Billboard.  With Fall Out Boy he placed singles in the top 10 of the US Billboard Hot 100 and their 2007 album Infinity on High was their first to reach No. 1 on the Billboard 200, with two more hitting the top spot in 2013 and 2015. The band has toured extensively, having performed over 1,300 shows since their inception in 2001. Stump has collaborated with an extensive list of artists and has produced albums for other artists including Cobra Starship and Gym Class Heroes. 

After Fall Out Boy’s hiatus in late 2009, Stump released his debut solo album, Soul Punk, on October 18, 2011; on which he wrote all the songs, played all the instruments, as well as handling production and self-funding it. It served as an outlet for the music that he could not make with Fall Out Boy. A remix of “This City” was released as the first single to iTunes and a music video has been created, featuring Lupe Fiasco. He released his debut six-song EP titledTruant Wave on February 22, 2011. His solo work is a major musical departure from the pop punk sound of Fall Out Boy. 

The influence of Michael Jacksonand Prince, among many other artists, is evident through his soulful electronic sound, which he calls “soul punk”. He has toured in the US and played some dates in Europe in support of Soul Punk and Truant Wave, and opened for Panic! at the Disco on their month-long US fall tour which began on October 9, 2011. On February 4, 2013, Fall Out Boy announced a comeback with the single “My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark (Light Em Up)”, the album Save Rock and Roll, and a subsequent tour. The EP PAX AM Days was later released on October 15, 2013. Stump’s vocals for sixth album American Beauty/American Psycho (2015) were heavily praised. Later in 2015 a rap remix of the album was made as “Make America Psycho Again”. ‘’

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Hey!

So, while we wait for the system to progress along, here is something to keep an eye on.

Top photo: 2 February 2012

second row left: 15 October 2013

second row right: 11 February 2014

Last 4 photos: Today (14 October 2014)

We have had this grape for three years now, from just a stalk basically, first year it just grew a bit, second year we got a single bunch, around 8 grapes.

BUT…

This year it is covered, just covered in grape shoots! It looks like we will get a fair whack of grapes! … But we are being cautious, we have never produced grapes like this before, and it will be yet another learning experience.

You have to seriously LOVE aquaponics! it is NEVER dull!

Stay tuned!

Imagine This.

Standing right in front of your idol after a show, telling him how much you love him and his band. His music. How many times he’s saved your life and helped you stop harming yourself. Basically half in tears as he signs your bracelet on your wrist, giving you a reminder that this was the best night of your life, and that this was something to remember this night by.

Well, I didn’t have to imagine this, it happened.

This is my photo.

It was the night of October 15, 2013. I had VIP tickets and everything. Caught two of Ashley’s guitar picks, had Jinxx make a <3 sign and send me a kiss toward me on stage, had all of them give me that brilliant smile. I got high fives from most of them after the show, met them all again. I’ll probably never experience something like that again, and I wish I could because it all went by in a big blur.

Yet, it was a beautiful blur.

(October 15, 2013 at LC Pavillion in Columbus Ohio after their set.)

Marvel Studios Film, TV, and Shorts in Chronological Order

1.  Iron Man (Released May 2, 2008)

2.  The Incredible Hulk (Released June 13, 2008)… I feel like this can be skipped.  Let Mark Ruffalo be Bruce Banner.  He’s much better and his character more developed in The Avengers.

3.  Iron Man 2 (Released May 7, 2010)

4.  Thor (Released May 6, 2011)

5.  Captain America: The First Avenger (Released July 22, 2011)

6.  The Consultant (Released September 13, 2011)

7.  A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to Thor’s Hammer (Released October 25, 2011)

8.  The Avengers (Released May 4, 2012)

9.  Item 47 (Released September 25, 2012)

10.  Iron Man 3 (Released May 3, 3013)

11.  Agent Carter (Released September 3, 2013)

12.  Agents of SHIELD: Pilot (Aired September 24, 2013)

13.  Agents of SHIELD: 0-8-4 (Aired October 1, 2013)

14.  Agents of SHIELD: The Asset (Aired October 8, 2013)

15.  Agents of SHIELD:  Eye Spy (Aired October 15, 2013)

16.  Agents of SHIELD:  Girl in the Flower Dress (Aired October 22, 2013)

17.  Agents of SHIELD:  F.Z.Z.T. (Aired November 5, 2013)

18.  Agents of SHIELD:  The Hub (Aired November 12, 2013)

19.  Thor: The Dark World (Released November 13, 2013)

20.  Agents of SHIELD:  The Well (Aired November 19, 2013)

21.  Agents of SHIELD:  Repairs (Aired November 26. 2013)

22.  Agents of SHIELD:  The Bridge (Aired December 10, 2013)

23.  Agents of SHIELD:  The Magical Place (Aired January 7, 2014)

24.  Agents of SHIELD:  Seeds (Aired January 14, 2014)

25.  Agents of SHIELD:  T.R.A.C.K.S. (Aired February 4, 2014)

26.  All Hail the King (February 4, 2014)

27.  Agents of SHIELD:  T.A.H.I.T.I. (Aired March 4, 2014)

28.  Agents of SHIELD:  Yes Men (Aired March 11. 2014)

29.  Agents of SHIELD:  End of the Beginning (Aired April 1, 2014)

30.  Captain America: The Winter Soldier (Aired April 4, 2014)

31.  Agents of SHIELD:  Turn, Turn, Turn (Aired April 8, 2014)

32.  Agents of SHIELD:  Providence (Aired April 15, 2014)

33.  Agents of SHIELD:  The Only Light in the Darkness (Aired April 22, 2014)

34.  Agents of SHIELD:  Nothing Personal (Aired April 29, 2014)

35.  Agents of SHIELD:  Ragtag (Aired May 6, 2014)

36.  Agents of SHIELD:  Beginning of the End (May 13, 2014)

This series of images shows the asteroid P/2013 R3 breaking apart, as viewed by the NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope in 2013. This is the first time that such a body has been seen to undergo this kind of break-up. The Hubble observations showed that there are ten distinct objects, each with comet-like dust tails, embedded within the asteroid’s dusty envelope. The four largest rocky fragments are up to 200 metres in radius, about twice the length of a football pitch. The dates on which the various observations were taken are marked at the bottom of each image, with frames from 29 October 2013, 15 November 2013, 13 December 2013, and 14 January 2014 respectively. The 14 January 2014 frame was not included in the science paper and is additional data.
Caption: Hubble Heritage Team

NASA, ESA, D. JEWITT (UCLA)