10weeksold

Peach is 10 weeks old tonight! 10 weeks of nursing! I feel so thankful that the thing I dreamed about through my entire pregnancy has come so easy for us. I don’t know if it was hours after she was born or when exactly it was but I asked Ed if he would be disappointed if we ended up having to use formula. my nipples were already so sore, scabbed and bruised. I was having so much trouble positioning her tiny wiggly body while I was stuck in bed and every time she latched on it felt like a searing pain. Ed said of course my sanity was more important than anything. My ob came in to check on us and she told me I would have to work through the pain… My thoughts? Fuck you right to hell. I’d had an emergency csection after 24 hours of intense labor, the radiator in my room was broken and i hadn’t slept more than 3 hours in 48 hours so I really wasn’t trying to be a hero about it. A few hours later a lactation consultant came in to see me and thank god they had nipple shields because that was the only thing that saved me. They were still super sore but but provided some relief and I liked that I could see that she was in fact getting milk. I had a couple nurses and another lactation person that seemed to not like the idea of the nipple shield. I was so irritated at that point, what’s more important here? Breast milk or bare breast?? What is the concern?! We were doing great with the shield, I felt like I could finally breathe and maybe I could do this thing. By the time we came home we had it down and ten weeks later we hardly use the shield. I’m so thankful that considering our rough start its come very easy to us and from what I read it can continue to be so difficult. Feeding her gives me life, I love watching her, her little face and hands and feet… It’s just heaven. #breastfed #breastfeeding #peachjubileedawn #10weeksold

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I don’t think I ever posted this little clip from the 4th of July when we took Bonnie swimming in the ocean for the first time. #springerspaniel #dogsofinstagram #leapoffaith #10weeksold #now3months

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Everytime I pull out the camera Lily gets all excited like this … 😂😂 #LilyOrysia #10weeksold #laughinglily

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Always and every day.
While you napped I stood by our bookshelf admiring my collection and began daydreaming about conversing with you on topics that I studied for years; like our natural, romantic state dictated by Rousseau, who believed (such as I do) that humans::and all animals::are born naturally good and it is society that binds and transforms us in particular into greedy, selfish, beings. On the Black Freedom Movement and how you were born into privilege because of the color of your skin and that the actual reality we live in isn’t quite the one you will learn of in school, in fact not at all. On beekeeping and the radical importance of the hive-mind. On Harry’s adventures and Ayla’s womanhood and Pip’s lessons and Alice’s long, fascinating journey. On food from every corner of the world. Among countless others…I cannot wait for these conversations, my Cat.
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