C: My mother treats my brother completely different than my sister & I. The smallest things we do will be reported to the family, but the fact that my brother stole hundreds from her was only told to me… (she even begged me to not tell my sister.. I did) She’s always been abusive when it came to beatings and would hit me until I bled. I’ve tried to love her but I don’t. I haven’t spoken to her in 10 months and feel so much better for it. I feel like black mothers treat their daughters like shit and hold us to a higher standard. Please understand that my brother is 25 and has never had a job and like he will suckle on my mums boobs until they’re dry and dusty. My sister and I are teenagers and are expected to do everything for ourselves. I’ve had enough of it. Her abusive ways have scarred me and I feel like such a broken person because of it and that’s been reflected in my relationship with the man I love. Hopefully one day I’ll find peace.
If you could go back in time and tell your younger self one thing, what would it be?