10 days of skins

1. I just don’t care anymore. I care about you as a person, sure. I always will. But not as my person.
2. I no longer feel butterflies in my stomach when you text me, only apprehension and confusion.
3. Your life no longer impacts me; there is no “us.”
4. I always thought of you as an appendage to me and so when you left instead of sadness it felt more like phantom limb syndrome, but it doesn’t hurt like it used to.
5. I will always miss you a little; I will miss the person I first met and the opportunities we once had. But that was the old you, and I don’t think the old you is coming back.
6. I never fantasized about having your last name next to mine or scribbled it into the margins of my notebook, and maybe that says something about the future we never really had together.
7. Each day I find myself thinking of you less and less and maybe one day I won’t think about you at all.
8. I thought we could be friends; I thought I would need your companionship, but we were never friends and we probably never will be.
9. I finally threw out the pictures of us together. I had been so afraid that if I threw out the pictures I would be throwing out those moments too, but memories aren’t disposable. I will always cherish them, but I don’t need them anymore.  
10. The human skin replenishes every 27 days. My mind remembers you, my heart remembers you, but my skin has never met you. It has never felt your hand on it while you laughed at one of my jokes. It has never felt you dig your fingers into my neck when you tried to keep me. I don’t think it ever will, and that’s ok with me.
—  10 things I wanted to tell you since we broke up. Part II

Tired student (aka me)

anonymous asked:

Hi! I was wondering what exactly I have to do to get t, and who I need to talk to? I know I probably need a note from a therapist, but what after that? Sorry if this has been answered before ;;

Ren says:

This really depends on where you live! I can tell you a little about the US.

Option #1:

Informed consent. This means that you discuss the effects of transition with a doctor, typically an endocrinologist (AMAB folks can also see urologists for HRT services, I have no idea why that’s the case), and confirm that you understand what you’re getting into. You’ll have to read and sign a document that lists all the changes to expect and potential health risks. (Examples of that document are here). You’ll get some tests done and then you’ll be good to go!

Important to note: You must be 18 years of age or older to consent for yourself. I haven’t heard of any minors getting informed consent with their parents’ help, although it may be possible. Also, not all insurances will cover informed consent services. If you want insurance to cover your HRT, speak to your provider (call the number on the back of your insurance card).

Resources: ICATH has some good US-specific resources for informed consent. @plannedparenthood also provides informed consent services for HRT in some locations (source). If you’re trying to find an informed consent service near you, you can always ask us, and we’ll do our best to help!

Option #2:

Therapist’s letter. This is the “traditional” method, based on the (now-sorta-outdated) WPATH Harry Benjamin Standards of Care. Basically, you talk to a therapist for several months. Usually, the therapist is one who knows about gender identity issues, or even specializes in them, but it doesn’t have to be - the main idea is that you’re looking for someone who can keep up with you and isn’t going to tell you that you’re mentally ill because you’re trans, so finding an LGBTQ-friendly therapist is a must. They write a note, hand it off to insurance and your doctor, and you’re on your way.

How long you have to see your therapist before their letter will work for you depends on a) the therapist, b) the doctor you want to see, and c) your insurance (if you plan on seeking coverage). You’ll have to communicate with all of these people in order to work out their requirements. The timeframe is typically around 3 months, but it can be longer or shorter depending on those factors. Information on getting a therapist is here.

An example of that letter is here.

Important to note: Not all insurances will cover HRT with a therapist’s letter, either, although many states are making it illegal to deny transition-related services. Be sure to check with your insurance provider first!

Finding a doctor can also be hit-or-miss. You can speak to your GP (general practitioner; i.e. the doctor you go to for regular checkups) - sometimes they know what they’re doing, and I’ve definitely heard of GPs prescribing HRT or hormone blockers to their patients. However, most of them will refer you to an endocrinologist (and many insurance plans require referrals before you can skip off to a specialist, too) for the actual hormones. Some doctors won’t let you do HRT. It’s okay if you shop around. Look around online; call their office first to make sure they work with trans patients. Remember, if a doctor refuses you healthcare, you have a right to refuse them your business!

Once you get to a doctor, you’ll get a preliminary blood test and a general health screening to check for contraindications (any medical conditions that might make it difficult or impossible for you to be on HRT). Nearly every contraindication is possible to work around, though, so don’t worry too much! They’ll likely be looking at your cholesterol levels and heart and liver functions in particular, although this may vary from doctor to doctor and treatment to treatment.

Finally - as long as all medical conditions are sorted out - you’ll be prescribed your hormones. You can choose which delivery method you receive. For testosterone, there’s injections (which involve needles, but typically only need to be administered once a week or every 10 days), patches (daily, can badly irritate sensitive skin), and creams / gels (daily, have to be careful so that you don’t get it on another person). AMAB folks will need to take both estrogen and an anti-androgen. Typically, estrogen is oral, but can also come in the forms of injections; anti-androgens are nearly always oral.

Stick to the instructions they give you in terms of dosage and administration - they give these instructions for good reason! Your doctor should monitor your hormone levels and health status / conditions, and will likely adjust your dosage as time goes by to ensure it is still accurate, so make sure you continue to go in for checkups.

This post on convincing your parents to allow you to start HRT is also a good place to look!

countdown to my twentieth birthday with my twenty favourite things & people; 

9/20 - 9 favourite jgl characters

chris pratt - the lookout ; adam - 50/50 ; blake (robin) - dark knight rises ; neil - mysterious skin ; cameron james - 10 things i hate about you ; arthur - inception ; jim hawkins - treasure planet ; brendan - brick ; tom - (500) days of summer

うちはサスケ x 春野サクラ


Moments of Change, The Second Exam…

Day 5-6-10: Test, Skin deep, Haircut

[The moments when Sakura blossomed and Sasuke began his fall toward darkness… Sakura’s sacrifice of her hair to saved her loved ones and the birth of Sasuke’s curse mark… Ah such powerful moments, right? Please enjoy and take care, okay?]

Characters belong to Masashi Kishimoto ©

Assassin: Chapter 5

A/N: Yeah for Assassin FINALLY being up. I think this is my most request fic to put like ever. Hopefully I didn’t disappoint. There’s not smut in this, but this chapter is the smut kind of chapter. I would like to thank @writing-obrien for helping me in my writers block and just being a great friend. Also, this gif is a little more dramatic then what actually happens.

Warning: Torture ( Mental and Physical), Mentions of Rape 

Word Count: 2504

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This Model Posted the PERFECT Response to a Guy Who Asked If She Would Bleach Her Skin
"Why on earth would I ever bleach this beautiful melanin?"
By Hayley MacMillen

“As she recounted on Instagram last week, Ethiopian-born model Nyakim Gatwech was recently confronted with an insensitive question about her dark skin from her Uber driver — and her reaction demonstrated her deep pride in her skin tone. “I was [asked by] my [Uber] driver the other day … ‘If you were given 10 thousand dollars, would you bleach your skin for that amount? I couldn’t even respond I started laughing so hard,” Gatwech wrote. “Why on earth would I ever bleach this beautiful melanin God [blessed me with]?”

“You won’t believe the kind of questions I get and the kind of looks I get for having this skin,” she added in her Instagram post, which features a photo of her with models Molie Onyongo, Odur Onyongo, and Ochudo Cham.”

Day 10… we’re 1/3 towards the end!!!

Wow, I can’t believe we are already 10 days into the Whole30!! The first week was actual hell with the detoxing, sugar cravings, & constant headaches! I’ve spent the last 10 days learning to listen to my body and relax when it needs it. Listening to my body started with embarking on a long yoga session one morning (despite my need for high caloric burn). The program I am following 500 calorie burn by Millionaire Hoy called for a “strength / yoga” day. Now, don’t let me fool you, I haven’t grown thattttt much, my husband still had to force me to stick with the program and listen to our bodies. Honestly though, it felt good to strengthen my muscles and take a breather – don’t tell my husband he was right though 👌🏼this was one of my favorite poses from the morning, it completing stretched my lower back and shoulders and released a ton of tension.

My 10 day results are:
1. Clearer skin (I actually got a compliment on how soft it looked)
2. Weight loss – I haven’t weighed myself but it is clear when I look in the mirror ( another coworker mentioned my weight loss.. yay!!)
3. Way way way less anxiety!
4. More energy all day and night
5. No more morning (or any) headaches
6. Less muscle pain, but still lingers in my lower back
7. Little to no cravings
8. Reduce in appetite

Also, I’m such a creature of habit so I eat the same meals multiple times a week and stay satisfied, so I’ll only update my new recipes! Basically I eat some type of egg frittata and fruit salad for breakfast, ground turkey with cauliflower rice and steamed veggies for lunch, and then my featured dinners.

I can’t wait to get my tiger blood, but I can feel it coming, yippie!!!

xxoo - Amy

Literally allergic to the sun. My advice for photosensitive people.

I’m photosensitive. That means I’m allergic to certain kinds of rays coming from the sun - that hateful, gassy, orange ball in the sky. If you’ve seen The Others, starring Nicole Kidman, then you’ve seen her two children who have a very severe form of my condition (although I think Mummy was a hypochondriac and the allergy wasn’t as bad as she made out).

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Being photosensitive happened to me because I took way too many antibiotics for urinary tract and kidney infections over a decade ago and my sun allergy has gotten worse and worse every year. Too many antibiotics of a specific grouping have been known to cause a body’s chemistry to change until the sun is no longer an option. Most people who are photosensitive due to antibiotics usually grow out of it after about seven years. Not me. My allergy has only gotten worse over the course of my adult life despite my reluctance to take more antibiotics. This condition is permanent for me.

So what happens if I go outside in daylight? I have about 20 - 30 minutes of luxurious freedom before my body starts the reaction process. It used to be a few hours of freedom outside but my window of opportunity has gotten smaller with each passing year. A few hours after sun exposure, I start to itch and big blotches of redness and swelling will appear on my body. It always goes to my face as a butterfly rash (common with Lupus but I don’t have that) and it’ll spread at random to different parts of my body. The photosensitive rash resembles a burn at first but it’s not - it’s an internal allergic reaction and can even spread to parts of your body that were not exposed to sunlight. You have to treat it like an allergy instead of a burn. Prolonged exposure will make my skin turn purple and I’ll develop blisters as well, but that’s a severe reaction I’ve only had a couple of times.

Here I am with a mild butterfly rash in 2007.

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