neil im feeling suicidal and i think i might actually do it today... i just wanted to say that your one of my biggest inspirations on youtube. You taught me how to be happy. You taught me that things get better. You've helped me in many ways that i cant even list right now im grateful for what you have done for me along with other youtubers. I just cant thank you enough Neil. You taught me many things unlike my mom. i just cant thank you enough goodbye Neil.