Tomorrow I am actually going to set an alarm and get up earlier in order to sort out my eating. I will not keep pushing meals and snacks later and later in the day out of fear and I will not deny my body the food that is needs. Waking up earlier and eating breakfast will not make me ‘lose control’; nothing bad will happen. I am not an ‘exception’ to the ‘rules’ of recovery/life; I need to treat myself like I would any other person. It’s time to stop talking and start acting. Nothing will ever change if my actions do not follow the words. Tomorrow I will keep my distractions close, and I will keep reminding myself of why I need to do this NOW; not ‘tomorrow’ or ‘next week’ or ‘next month’. There really is no such thing as the ‘perfect’ time to change; anorexia will never want me to recover, it will never want to let me go; the only time is NOW. I need to do this.