“Being in love is something you’ve wanted your whole entire life. When you were little you would see many couples and wished that one day you too can have somebody who you love and loves you.
When love finally comes your way you had no idea that it would control you. You did not know that love would make you so attached to someone and can’t go an hour without talking to them or you’ll lose it. You never imagined loving someone so much whatever mistakes they made you would forgive them and continue to love them even more. You guys are so compatible with one another it feels like a dream you never want to wake up from, and you can’t believe this dream is your reality. You begin to love your self even more than you did before because this person has convinced you that you are wroth being loved. You are so incredibly happy you can’t ever stop smiling. This person makes you so happy that you become known as the one who is always glowing and always has a smile on your face. When people ask about this person you can go on and on talking about every single detail every single moment with them. You guys are so in love everyone around you starts to become jealous of what you guys have. Not once losing them ever crossed your mind not even when y'all had that fight because you knew deep down that the love you share for another will fix it. You can’t live without this person. You think to yourself daily that you are so lucky you have them in your life.
But one day something happens they suddenly slip away from you and you can’t do anything about it. Suddenly you are standing there crying your eyes out and they leave you. You think that life is over because your other half has left you. You begin to feel great pain and you physically ache. The person you love is gone. You start to cry yourself to sleep at night and wake up in the middle of the night still crying. You are broken; they left you and you cannot go on without thinking of them constantly. You are no longer known as the one who is always glowing and has a smile. You never thought you would ever lose the person who you have so much love left to give them. No matter how hard you try you can’t get them off your mind. It’s been months and you still ache of great pain as if they left yesterday. You don’t understand how your other half does not love you anymore? So you keep all your emotions sealed away and the things you wished you told them. You tired and they shut you down. So now you think to yourself why? Why did this happen? We were so I love we had plans together. Now you feel empty and shut down for a while with all your feelings stored away. You regain hope that you can get through this you are trying to ignore your feeling that deep down you still want this person more than anything else in the world.”
Nobody ever told me it would hurt this much.