Where do you wish you were, who do you wish you were with, and what do you wish you were doing with them?
Idk where I wish I was. Anywhere but here. Not working. Not at school-that had some toxic stuff at the end of last semester. Maybe Europe since I really really want to go abroad spring semester. Maybe my friends lake house. I’m going there with him in a couple weeks and I’m really excited even tho I have to share the place with his not so great sibling’s s/o.
Who do I wish I was with? A fuck ton of ppl. I miss my college friends really hella much and I wish I was better at keeping in touch/text conversations. This means you @flowerparrish, @arcaneknell, @mrs-bartowski, and others who aren’t on tumblr or I’ve forgotten to tag. Plus I always want to hang out with @astranyx. We’re platonic life partners and I love him to fucking bits. But not actual fucking because I’m ace and he’s my brother from another mother.
What do I wish we were doing? Idk. Honestly I just want to hang. Going to see a place would be cool. Exploring would be cool, maybe we could play Pokemon Go together. Just fucking sitting on a couch while watching a movie or Steven universe or the nth episode of cutthroat kitchen would be good. Or cuddling. I’m always a slut for cuddles. But being in their presence would be nice. I crave that more than conversation and it’s why I find texting as a primary mode of conversation unfulfilling for the most part. There’s no guarantee the person on the other side is there and paying attention unless we’re aggressively chatting and I don’t have it in me to keep that up for long periods of time or with most people.
I’m just kind of tired of doing nothing but work and lazing around the house b/c work leaves me too exhausted to do anything else. I’m so sick of this house and being home but idk if I’m ready to get back to campus and all the stress I left behind at the end of last semester. And I think I’m overdosing on time spent with my mother. My sister isn’t too bad but when my primary interaction is my mom I def need to get out more. *sigh*