I am so thankful that Tim doesn’t think of Jason as “Bruce’s greatest mistake”. Tim doesn’t say “One day I’ll be as good as Dick, and then I won’t end up like Jason”. Jason is not a parable, warning him against being rash, or disobeying orders. Jason was a person. A hero. This is something that suffers from shoddy retconning later on, but in the beginning Tim aspires to be like Jason, and Jason is not defined by, nor blamed for his own death.
I really don’t think I have the right to say sorry for disappearing anymore nor will I say I am back for good. Working through a few requests at the moment so you can at least expect some contents in the next few days!
This was sort of inspired by Sam Smith’s Too Good At Goodbyes and the timeline is pretty blurry/mixed here and as per usual, there are probably mistakes here and there and it’s a little bit over 1500 words too, if that is any form of compensation. So I hope you will still enjoy this!
takes every ounce of control you have to not react to what your son has just
told you. You hum in response, a little bit thankful that you have your back
turned to him, as you finish making tea for the both of you. Pouring the tea in
the mugs, you turn around to give one to Damian – who is staring, no, it is a
cross between glaring and frowning at you – before taking a seat beside him.
said yes.” Damian grips the mug tightly, not even minding the fact that the mug
is still fairly hot. What he does mind is the lack of response from you.
pull the comforter over your lap, very well aware that your son is glaring
holes on your face. It takes a few seconds for you to slowly nod your head.
Damian continues to look at you and you bring the mug up to your lips, sipping
the tea but unfortunately, the news he brought with him made the tea taste
rarely ever cut off Damian having been one of the few adults that would
actually listen to him but this time, it is different and the surprise
definitely shows on his face when you not too gently set your mug on the coffee
table in front of you.
I am not sure what you want me to do… or to say.” You begin carefully. You
cannot lie and say that hearing the news from Damian instead of Bruce did not
hurt you because it did – mostly because you had expected Bruce to be the one
to tell you a news this big. “Your father and I…,” You shake your head as you
try to reign in your scattered thoughts. “I understand that you do not like
Selina but once upon a time, you also did not like me either.” You had to smile
at this – Damian has the decency to flush lightly before bristling in anger, or
annoyance – you could not tell at this point.
is different!” He hisses and you narrow your eyes at him and he visibly
deflates before placing his mug on the coffee table. “Sorry for raising my
voice at you, mother.” He grumbles and you nod your head, prompting him to
continue talking. “It is just that she is not a good match for him – and I do
not want her.”
times like this, you really wish you can string words together eloquently but
you understand that change is something hard for Damian to accept and trying to
coerce him to accept Selina will probably result in the opposite. Deep down
inside, you cannot help but feel a tad bit happy to know that Damian is feeling
this way – no one ever said you were not petty.
what has happened, Damian is still your son and he still thinks of you very
highly too – he never lets you forget, neither of them ever do too – and your
opinion and understanding are two of the things he often seeks from you. The
same can be said for the rest of the boys too even though you have separated
to overlook the hurt and the tinge of regret, you decide to push this matter to
the back of your head, filling it for when you actually have a moment to
yourself. You simply decide to do what you think Damian actually needs from
you: you wrap your arms around him and pull Damian in your arms, burying your
nose in his hair. Tears well up in your eyes as you take a whiff of his scent –
he smells just like him and suddenly you feel very tired and sad. It takes
Damian a few seconds to wrap his own pair of arms around you, relaxing in your
embrace. This is how the two of you spent the night – just you comforting your
son in the best way you can think of and Damian basking in your warmth. The
same warmth that has been missing from the manor for the past year.
next morning is a whole different story. You had woken up to Damian preparing
breakfast for you and it almost touched you that he still remembers all of your
breakfast food – you had wanted to do the same for him but he had beat you to
it. The two of you did not talk about the news he brought last night and when
it was time for Damian to return back to the manor, you let him leave with a
as you think you finally have time to think about the news, Jason comes in
through your window. If you were anyone else, you probably would have been
surprised and screamed bloody murder but alas, you were used to it. The two of
you had a staring contest for the longest of times before Jason pads over to
you, wrapping his arms around you.
sorry, Ma.” He murmurs.
simply tighten your hands on the back of his jacket, shaking your head. You did
not need the pity – you have made your grave and now, you simply need to lay in
you want something to eat?” You ask after a while, finally pulling away from him.
Jason looks at you. “I have leftovers from breakfast – Damian made some of my
favourites.” You explain, pulling Jason to the kitchen.