.. thankfulness

I will be grateful for the twenty-four hours that are before me. Time is a precious commodity. I refuse to allow what little time I have to be contaminated by self-pity, anxiety, or boredom. I will face this day with the joy of a child and the courage of a giant. While it is here, I will use it for loving and giving. Today I will make a difference.
—  Max Lucado

I didn’t grow up around Godly people. Out of my entire family? Only my mom is a fellow believer. Out of my friends? Before the last year or two, only two of them. And out of those three people in my life who do believe in God and believe that Jesus is the Son of God and died for our sins, none of them go to church or read their Bibles or even really talk with me (or anyone) about Him. 

So please know, from the very bottom of my heart, that I thank God every single day for all of you. Please know that I want to cry when I think about how, in the past two years, God has placed so many wonderful Godly people into my life. I couldn’t see it at the time, but now? I’m looking around myself at all of you, and at my coworkers, and at my church, and at just all of the people I’m surrounded by, and I can see how every single second of every single minute of every single hour of every single day of the past few years really has been all Him. 

He is so wonderful, and I am so grateful, and my heart is so filled with love. My past isn’t perfect, but He is. My present isn’t perfect, but He is. He is perfect, and He is good. And so I will lean into Him, no matter what happens, and praise Him and glorify Him and help others to know and love Him, and I will be grateful and thankful every single second of every single minute of every single hour of every single day of the rest of this life He has given me. 

If you don’t know Jesus, if you’ve never been to church or read the Bible or if you also, like me, didn’t grow up around Godly people, I’m here for you. And more importantly, God is here for you. He is here for you and He loves you so much and He can and will change your life, one second, one minute, one hour, one day, one year at a time. 

He is the reason I’m still here today. He is everything

Don’t be afraid. 

Come. Come to Jesus. 

At [Esther’s] grave, I kept wondering how you thank someone who is gone, how you repay them for them for the deep lasting gifts that their love and friendship brought you when you can no longer do anything for them.
She isn’t here. When I’ve lost people I care about, that part never stops feeling new. They aren’t here. It cracks me open each time I think it. “She died” is a past tense problem. “She isn’t here” is a present-tense problem
—  John Green (You Are Here)

Isaiah 66:9 KJV

“Shall I bring to the birth, and not cause to bring forth? saith the LORD: shall I cause to bring forth, and shut the womb? saith thy God.”