O problema é que, quando o assunto é amor, há sempre um pouco de covardia. Ninguém quer se arriscar demais. Porque é meio que uma aposta, né? Você passa anos ao lado de alguém, fazendo planos, contando segredos, dividindo o lado cama e, de repente, fim. Em um passe de mágica, a pessoa que conhece o seu lado mais feio, não está sequer mais ao seu lado. Talvez, amor seja isso; o encontro de duas pessoas com vergonha de parecerem covardes aos olhos da vida.
Joshua sits in front of his camera. An outlet to share his music to the world has evolved into so much more. His viewers turned into fans, and his fans loved beyond the guitar and the voice. They wanted to know more about Joshua the person, not just Joshua the singer.
So how could Joshua talk about himself without mentioning you? He couldn’t do that. Even with the guys, your name is brought up every two sentences.
However, being the sweet person that Joshua is, he never really said your name on camera out of consideration for your privacy. Of course, he flaunts the fact that his girlfriend was the most amazing person on earth, and he gushes about how much he loves you in vlogs. He’d also dedicate every song that reminded him of you, which is a lot, every chance he gets. Naturally, when you watch his videos a big happy smile would beautifully grace your face.
“Hi, it’s Joshua! We have a very special guest today!” Joshua announces in front of his camera. You giggle quietly in your spot out of the frame.
“Drum roll please!” Joshua exclaims excitedly, patting his lap. He pulled you into the frame, his arms were wrapped around your shoulder as yours were wrapped around his waist.
You managed to wave to the camera and squeak out a cute hi while you and Joshua laugh happily, simply enjoying each others company.
“So, this is the person that I have been telling you guys about. AKA the person that I’m completely in love with, y/n.” Joshua’s words rang inside the shaken corridors of your heart.
“Hi, guys! I’m Y/N! It’s nice to finally meet you all.” You say with a bright smile.
Joshua holds up his phone, and explains, “So today, my lovely ray of sunshine has taken a break from their busy schedule to answer questions you guys have left us on my twitter, Instagram, and snapchat!”
Joshua’s right hand was holding his phone, as his left was holding your hand.
“When did you two first meet?” Joshua reads from the phone.
“It was in elementary school right?” You recall back the memory.
Joshua laughs out loud. “Oh yeahhh! You stole my juice box, and then told me my haircut looked stupid.” He playfully nudged your shoulder with his.
“Hey, all great friendships start out that way!” You giggle.
He humorously scrunched his face up at your statement. “No you were a bully.”
“Only because you were so adorable when you got mad at me. Even now.” You messily ruffled his hair causing him to roll his eyes and try to get his perfect hair back into place.
“Wait, did you guys hear that? Y/N thinks I’m adorable.” Joshua lowly chuckles with a proud expression on his face.
“Okay, okay next question, you weirdo.” You laugh, taking his phone to scroll down the twitter feed.
Joshua points to the screen at one question that has caught his eyes. “Has Joshua ever serenaded you?”
“Yes, actually.” You smile at the sweet memories of him singing to you. “No matter how late it is at night, or how tired he is, if I’m having trouble sleeping he’d always sing me to sleep. Or if I’m sad, he’d sing something to cheer up. All in all, Joshua is always singing to me. So thank you, babe.” You top your answer off with a kiss on Joshua’s smiling lips.
“Oh this is a good one!” You point at a question.
Joshua reads it out loud. “When did you start realizing that you were catching feelings, when did you tell the boys and how did they react?”
“I’m assuming that one is for me.” Joshua chuckles at the camera, a hint of blush starts to show on his cheeks.
“I’ve always seen you as a friend up until freshman year. That was when you told me you had a crush on one of our classmates, but I didn’t know why I was so bothered by it.” Joshua explains.
“Because of how strangely I was feeling, I talked to Vernon about it and he was actually the one that helped me come to terms with my feelings.”
“Wait,” You pause him. “You’ve liked me since freshman year?”
Joshua nods shyly. “Yeah, I did. But I decided not to tell you until last year because I was just scared of how you would react.”
That was something you never knew. It was senior year now, the last year of high school for the both of you. So, you’ve realized Joshua has loved you for quite some time now.
“Vernon was especially annoyed with me during that time because I’ve always talked about you, but I never had the confidence to ask you out.” Joshua says sweetly with a peck on your cheek, causing you to blush and to tease him about his little crush on you at that time.
“Ooh! I found the perfect follow up question.” You excitedly start to read, “How did Joshua ask you out?”
Joshua groans out in embarrassment while you laugh at his expense. “You’re never going to let that go, huh?”
“Nope!” You grin.
He rolled his eyes but nonetheless he continued on telling the story. “I took her out to our favorite spot to hang out which is this little dock on the lake. I was so nervous and out of it, then why you told me that you would go on a date with me I was so happy that I started to jump. Then, I fell off the dock and into the lake.”
You couldn’t stop giggling at the image of wet Joshua doggy paddling at the surface of the water.
“Okay okay, let’s move on.” Joshua says as he attempts to control your laughter by rubbing your back.
“What is it like to date me?” Joshua asks.
“Hm..” You smile. “It’s like I’m dating my best friend. But don’t tell Vernon I said that, because he’s gonna argue with me that he’s your only best friend.”
“Who cares about Vernon?” Joshua jokes. “You are my best friend.” Joshua pulls you in for a hug as a means to leave sloppy kisses on your face. Joshua pauses to look at the camera. “Just kidding man, I love you, you’re my best friend too, Vernon.”
The next fifteen minutes, you and your boyfriend answered questions about your relationship and each other. Some were funny, and some led you to find out things about Joshua that you never knew before.
“Ok, last question. Do you love me?” You asked, slightly tilting your head amusedly.
Joshua diverted his attention from his phone to your eyes. A smile spread across your lips, transferred to your cheeks and reached your eyes.
“I’ve loved you ever since you stole my juice box, and I’ve been and will continue to love you as hard as any human possibly can love.” Joshua places a kiss upon your forehead, and you could feel the truth behind his words.