it can feel hard to get clear on what you actually want. But I call BS
on that. I think a lot of the times we say we don’t know what we want
because we’re either afraid we can’t have it, so we pretend we don’t
want it to save ourselves the disappointment, or we think we’re not
worthy of it.
We pretend we don’t know.
inviting you to want what you want, my friend. Unabashedly. You don’t
have to tell the people in your life about it who are cranky and judgy.
In fact, I recommend that you don’t. But want it. Write it down. Taste
it. Feel it. Touch it. Enjoy daydreaming about it. (Often this is the
best part anyway, like getting ready for a party. The anticipation and
the enjoyment of the preparation is so good!)
2. Let it go.
this may feel antithetical to item number one, it’s not. When we
white-knuckle our desires, we often suffocate them. And those beauties
need to breathe.
When you’re willing to let go of it needing to turn out a certain way or
look a certain way, your desires have the freedom to surprise you by
being even better than you could have imagined (or even more
transformative for your soul, which doesn’t always feel better, but it
is in the end).
3. Be the egg.
mom talks about “egg wisdom” and the fact that quite literally, the egg
sits still and emits a signal that sends the sperm wildly swimming
towards it, vying for its attention. The egg doesn’t go running around
trying to find the sperm, she doesn’t text the sperm a million times a
day, and she doesn’t worry whether or not they’re coming. She just sits
there knowing full well that at the right time, the sperm will come. And
that she doesn’t need to be anything other than what she is in order
for that to happen. She also chooses which sperm she’ll let in and she
has the ability to repair her chosen sperm’s DNA if it needs repairing.
all have this egg wisdom within us. In fact, we were born with it. All
of the eggs you will ever have were within your body the day you were
born. You don’t have to learn this. You are this.
When it comes to your desires, be the egg.
that they’ll come madly swimming toward you when the time is right.
Yes, of course, you want to do the things you need to do to make your
desires known and put the wheels in motion, but then just be the egg.
Egg your desires on. They’ll come to you.
Getting what you want doesn’t have to mean working your ass off. Let it be easy.
lately i’ve been replacing my ‘i’m sorry’s with ‘thank you’s, like instead of ‘sorry i’m late’ i’ll say ‘thanks for waiting for me’, or instead of ‘sorry for being such a mess’ i’ll say ‘thank you for loving me and caring about me unconditionally’ and it’s not only shifted the way i think and feel about myself but also improved my relationships with others who now get to receive my gratitude instead of my negativity.
This is not a goodbye, my darling, this is a thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go.
I love you, T.