“I bid farewell to the phantoms I’ve met Towards the glowing red sky My weakness spills free - I reach out my hand As if to hold a single unblooming flower As my wish is granted I learn of pain” - Akane Sasu (Aimer)
He thought she was a stuck-up snob. She thought he wasn’t worth her time. But one day he wrapped his scarf around her - and it was then when they realized that maybe, they were deeply in love
I’ve wanted to talk for So Long about the portrayal of anxiety in YOI but I’ve been having so much trouble putting together what I want to say in the most effective manner. I kept trying to come at this in a more analytical fashion, but considering that this is such a personally important topic to me, I’m going to try a more emotional approach. Something I don’t normally do.
So really, to start off, I wanna say that I’m so damn thankful for the way Yuuri is written. Really, seriously. I don’t think I’ve ever had the ability to relate more to character; Yuuri is close to a mirror of my own experiences with anxiety and it’s so fantastic to have a model of development and growth for me and people like me. I found the portrayal to be frighteningly accurate, from types of thoughts, behaviors, mannerisms…
I think the episode that stood out to me the most in terms of Yuuri’s anxiety was ep7, aka Yuuri’s on-screen panic attack episode.
The first thing I noticed was this:
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve found myself in that exact position. I bounce my legs when I panic, just like Yuuri is doing here. Head in his hands, breathing heavily, bouncing and jostling limbs. This isn’t the Mary-Sue cutesy portrayal of anxiety–this is a real anxiety disorder. It’s not pretty. It’s not easy. It can’t be fixed with a single word or a touch or a person. Quite frankly, it’s ugly and you lose control of your body.
Aries mercury ~ the mind of mars learns through visualization; it is through action and motion that the senses are stimulated. mental explosions; ideas are immediately verbalized and the head is afflicted with pains from sensitivity and reactivity to the immediate environment; in extremity, this is war ravaging through the mental faculties. communicative abilities are direct, genuine, inventive, passionate, witty and immediate reactions are set-off in the light of the ego. a pioneering mind venturing onward inspirationally, pointing towards new beginnings
Taurus mercury ~ tree roots wrapped around the brain sprouting into blossoms; shows a grounded, firm, unchangeable, traditional, but obstinate mind like that of roots but also an artistic, poetic, youthful and musical kind of old soul like that of the angelic Venusian blossoms, that learns best through the wordly senses of taste, sight, touch, smell, and hearing, savoring life experiences with underlying nostalgia.
Gemini mercury (☿) ~ thoughts and words come and go breathlessly and as fleetingly as rapid heartbeats, matching the swift fluttering of butterfly wings and the quick godly travel of hermes. the mind is keen, curious, clever, intellectual, versatile and overly alert causing restlessness and inconsistency. The speech and approach to others is friendly, animated, humorous and lively, and the transmission of messages from this position reflects a mind driven by logic rather than intuition as well as an urgency for connectivity and an endless quest for learning. childlike wisdom rests here, where there is always a critical questioning of “why” and a constant activation of creative cerebral surges.
Cancer mercury ~ the mind is receptive, nocturnal, emotional, reflective, and is working through an instinctually subconscious level that reacts with immediate feelings. Reality is distorted in magical moonlight, casting nostalgia, moodiness, and nighttime paranoia but gifts the mind with imagination, mother’s comforting soul words and a psychic sense. the lunar mind learns well through absorbing and listening to others. the memories are coated with wistful and bittersweet emotions that come alive with every instant experience.
Leo mercury ~ the heart is intertwined with the brain, making the words true, lively, loving and passionate. solar flares endow the speech with golden words and the mind with creativity and a vivid perception of reality. The sun seldom has a shadow, yet it certainly does cast one; although this position is prone to being domineering, willful, and self-concerned, the solar spirit is proud, dignified, free-spirited, warm, idealistic and glistening with theatrical displays of creative radiance.
~ the cerebral nerves become focused in this earthy domain, yet there is an nervousness over detail; the eyes are equivalent to magnifying glasses that see what another doesn’t. The trickster nature of mercurial hermes burdens this position with repetitiveness, nitpick, fret and hypersensitivity yet blesses the mind with a thought trend that is cleverly witty, practical, alert, investigative, intellectual, systematic and analytical. The maiden’s voice is kissed with medicinal messages, where healing powers drip from their words and into another’s broken soul lining. The communication is swift and sharp yet shy and timid at first and the native learns well in any given environment if the concentration isn’t imposed with anxiety tugging at the nerves.
Libra mercury- the grasping of reality mimics the justice of the scales; there is an ability to detach oneself from emotional undertones, an internal urge to defend the weak-willed, and an ability to calculate the world through several perspectives. The judgment is clear, diplomatic, impartial and the mind is buzzing with dreamy idealism, aesthetic sense, and able to synthesize oppositions and disputes to middle ground if vacillation is overcome. Makes for a charming and witty chatterer, spilling Venusian sweet song for others to hear.
Scorpio mercury ~ the mind is powerful, sharp, and perceptive of all things unknown working as the master psychologist of the soul. thought course is intensely secretive, willful, intrigued, suspicious, fiercely acute, obsessive, over critical and possesses an intelligent sixth sense. holds unyielding convictions and uses interrogations and investigation to pierce through boundaries and delve into the matters of the psychological, metaphysical, occult and esoteric research.
Sagittarius mercury ~ the spirit has direct contact to the Superconscious through cosmic wisdom, treading through the waters of the universe on a dreamy pilgrimage, the mind filled with shooting stars. The currents of thinking and communication are expansive, moral, skeptical, insightful, inspiring and knowledgeable. The mind is often directionless, impatient and disconnected from the world but sincere, honest and filled with infinite understanding.
Capricorn mercury ~ the messages of hermes are filtered through the child of time where one is reticent in sharing ancient knowledge held firmly in the mind. Saturn weighs heavy upon the perception causing one inclined to intolerance, criticism of the self and others, and sullen sternness as well as an unwilling awareness of one’s own mortality, anxieties and fears. and yet through Saturn the fashion of thought becomes methodical, efficient, logical, disciplined, dignified, concentrative and ultimately crystallized, where the seagoat’s unrest becomes definite and clear from reaching the mountain tops, in due course spawning entry into the sky and beyond.
Aquarius mercury ~ the mind proves to be on a futuristic wavelength where one thinks outside the box, through the box, behind the box, between the box and so forth. There is a inclination to progressive societal matters, making the character good-natured, equal and universal. Uranian electrical currents presents the mind with surges of innovative concepts, intelligent comprehension, brilliant analysis, quick thinking, witty remark, and resourceful intuition yet may destabilize the mind with the spirit of the mad scientist, where ideas and perception are incomprehensible, offensively shocking, temperamental, fleeting and willfully intuned with one’s own perception as opposed to others.
Pisces mercury ~ perception of reality is seen through a dewy gaze beneath the sea’s surface, where the thought shift is molded into a beautiful mist of imagination, empathy, sensitivity, psychic receptivity, and adaptability of environment. The way of speech is poetical, wistful, and mysterious yet conversely, it is paranoid, misunderstood, vague and unclear. Reasoning abilities are not strong here as the mind works through the emotions and extreme instinctual receptors. Neptunian waters can fill the mind with wakeful dreams where one is inclined to escape into the subconscious womb and yet also creates a visionary trend, where one is inclined to hopefulness, compassion and unlocking healing powers.
I think the concept/story in Not Today is rather easy but I’ll show you step by step what I think what happened.
The MV starts with shots of a mountain and BTS and black dressed people running on a road uphill
They want to reach the top so they’re running and rushing.
But suddenly we see Jungkook’s eye and a reflection of himself standing alone between his fallen friends.
I’ll later tell you who shot them. But for now we see a flash back: Jungkook running in front and suddenly Taehyung and Jin get shot right behind him. Jk is shocked.
But the flashback gets cut off by the writing “Not Today” and fire bruns on the screen. This tells us that this sad event won’t happen today, they’ll prevent it.
Now they tell us the story, their story. It starts of in a big building. The camera zooms in on the ground floor, indicating that they started fro the bottom.
Namjoon walks to a group go black dressed people. But he opens his arms welcomingly, they are his friends. The people are sitting on the floor, obedient, looking down. But not Namjoon. He’s dressed more colourful and standing. He tells them to fight (Today we fight!) and that is when they stand up and join him.This is also when the fire from the beginning is there again, representing their power, strength, will. The don’t want to be obedient and live in hiding. That is when the other members join too, helping Namjoon.
And because of their hard work and their power the room starts to break, they came one step closer to their dreams. they want to get higher.
The scene transitions to Jungkook who came to the roof of the building. But he’s alone. He was faster and stronger than the others (like we see in the running scenes later). The members join him shortly after, but he looked lost for a moment, all alone on this big rooftop. The other people are now throwing away their jackets. They are breaking free, ready to fight, letting the old behind them. becoming a little more like their leaders BTS.
But the other members are struggling more than jungkook that’s why Namjoon is next seen still inside the building but with more light than before. It shows that he needed more time than Jungkook.
Next we see a shot of the sky and them running uphill again. They want to reach the sky, they want to fly, they want higher. They broke out of the building and now out in the world looking for a way to achieve their dreams. Everyone is trying really hard but they aren’t all running at the same speed, Jungkook is in the front, once again seemingly progressing faster than the others.
But they are dancing on ice. this means two things: 1. it’s not spring yet, it is still hard and cold it’s still winter, they still have to fight. 2. It is easy to trip and fall if you go too hard or too fast. It’s risky. But it is their path up to the sky (that’s why it is reflecting the sky)
But the problem was that they were running next to each other not with each other. Everyone was going on their own, everyone was using their own strength only focusing on surviving and achieving their dreams, not looking out for the others. So they were easy to attack. So when every single member started facing hardships (got shot) and fell, that was the first time Jungkook was looking at them, but it was too late. They were already on the ground. Even their other friends. They didn’t get chased by them, they were running together.
This is were the actual flashback ends, so we see his eye again.
But this is what will not happen, at least not today! This is what BTS will prevent from happening. So now the scenery switches. Instead of snow and lighter colors, now it’s night. Dark colors and sparks are symbolising their fighting spirit.
And yes they are still running but now they are in a formation, looking out for each other, acting as a teams.
So in the end when the last shot comes, they stand together tightly and no one falls. Together they are bulletproof!
It ends with the fire once again, symbolising that this is what will happen, what they will make happen, what they are capable of. You never walk alone! That’s their message! We’ll all fight together, not just side by side but in a team, our ARMY.
I hope you liked it because I’m really sure that this is true or at least most of it. What do you think?
『Learn Korean with Kpop』BTS - A Supplementary Story: You Never Walk Alone
예신은왜자꾸만우릴외롭게할까 OH NO Why does God keep
making us lonely oh no
신 (神): God 왜: why 자꾸만: repeatedly, again and again 우릴 is shortened for 우리를: 우리 – we; 를 is the object particle. 외롭게’s dictionary form is 외롭다: Lonely, solitary, lonesome. 할까 is asking the listener why do you think this is happening.
we’re full of wounds, we can smile if we’re together.
상처: injury, wound. 투성일지라도: 투성 is full of; noun +일지라도is regardless of, although. 웃을 수 있어 – 웃다 (dictionary form): smile,
laugh; 을 수 있다 – one can, have the ability
the end of this road that you walk on alone, whatever is there, we will
take a step. (T/N: this line is not clear on who’s walking alone, but the
previous line mentioned ‘if we’re together’, so I chose ‘you’ and ‘we’. If ‘발디뎌볼래’ is a question, then it would be ‘will you take a
step (with me)?’)
홀로: alone. 걷는’s dictionary
form is 걷다: walk, tread. 이: this 길: road, street. 이 길: this road. 의: the possessive
particle indicates that one is the owner/ possessor
of another object, equivalent to “____’s” in most cases. 끝: end, finish. 에: the position
particle is used to locate things in space. 홀로 걷는 이 길의 끝에: 홀로 걷는 is modifying 이 길의 끝에. 뭐: what. 가: subject
particle. 뭐가 있든: no matter what’s there. 발: foot. 디뎌볼래: 디디다 (dictionary form) is step,
tread. 디뎌볼래: ㄹ래 when used with in the first person tense, it’s used to
express the intention/ will of the speaker. When used with another subject,
it’s asking for
the thoughts and intentions of the listener, asking if they want to/ can do
something with you.
ok even you get tired and hurt at times, because I’m by your side.
때론 is shorted for 때로는: sometimes, at times. 지치: 지치다 (dictionary form) is tired, exhausted. 고: and (is used to connect two clauses/ sentences together). 아파’s dictionary
form is 아프다: painful, hurt. 도: even 괜찮아’s dictionary
form is 괜찮다: all right,
fine. 니 is 네: you 니 곁이니까: because I’m beside you.
if you and I, we’re together, we can smile.
와: and. 나: I. 함께라면: if (we’re) together
– 라면 is usually used with the
present and future tenses, not the past tense.
날고싶어도내겐날개가없지 Even if I want to
fly, I have no wings
날 - 날다 (dictionary form): fly. -고 싶다: want to. 내겐 is shortened
for 나에게는: me, to me. 날개: wings. 가: subject particle. 날개가 없지: no wings.
BUT 너의그손이내날개가돼 But those hands of yours become my wings. (T/N:
even though there’s no plural particle for 손 (hand), it’s translated as
plural ‘hands’ because of ‘wings’.)
어둡고 외로운 것들은잊어볼래 Let’s try to
forget the dark and lonely things.
어둡다: dark, gloomy. 것들은: things, 들 is the plural particle and 은 is the topic
particle. 잊어’s dictionary form is 잊다:
너와 함께 Together with you
이 날개는 아픔에서돋아났지만
빛을 향한 날개야 Even though the wings sprung/ came from pain,
they’re the wings heading towards the light.
돋아났지만: 돋아났(어)’s dictionary form is 돋아나다 – spring, come out. 돋아났지만: -지만 is even though, but. It can be added directly to the
stems of verbs, adjectives and 이다. 빛: light. 을: object
particle. 향한’s dictionary
form is 향하다: heading, towards. 빛을 향한 is modifying 날개야.
힘들고 아프더라도 날아갈 수 있다면 날 테야 Even if it’s tough and painful, I’m
going to fly if I can fly.
힘들고 아프더라도: 힘들다 – hard, backbreaking. 아프다 is painful, hurt. -더라도: even if. -다면: if.
더는 두렵지 않게 내 손을 잡아줄래 Will you hold my hand, so that I won’t
be afraid anymore?
더: more, further 두렵다: afraid, scared. -지 않다: not (is used
to negate the verb or adjective attached to it). 잡아’s dictionary form is 잡다: hold, grasp.
너와 나 함께라면 웃을
수 있으니깐 Because if you and I are
together I can smile.
내가 선택한 길이고 모두 다 내가 만들어낸운명이라
해도 Even if you say that this is the path
I chose and that everything is the
destiny I created.
선택한’s dictionary form is 선택하다:
choose, pick. 모두 다: everything, all of it. 만들어낸’s dictionary form is 만들어내다: produce,
make. 운명 (運命): fate, destiny. -이라: you
say. -이라 해도: even
if you say that.
내가 지은 죄이고이 모든
생이내가 치러갈 죗값일뿐이라
해도 Even if you say that this is the crime I committed and that this
entire life is just the price that
죄 (罪): crime, guilt, sin. 지은’s dictionary form is 짓다: make, commit. 모든 생(生): entire life, whole life. 죗값: atonement; 죗값을 치르다 – pay for one’s sin (misdeed/ wrongdoing). 치러갈 죗값일 뿐: placing 뿐 after a noun can create the
meaning of “it is only/ it is nothing but (that noun)” - is just the price that I’ll pay.
넌 같이 걸어줘 Walk
넌 is shortened for 너는: you; 는 is the topic particle. 걷다: walk.
나와 같이 날아줘 Fly with me.
하늘 끝까지 손 닿을 수 있도록 So that I can reach the end of
하늘: sky. -까지: until. 닿을 수 있도록: 닿다 is reach, touch. –도록 is in
order to, so that, to the extent that.
나 함께라면웃을 수 있으니까 Because even if it hurts this
much, if you and I are together, I can smile.
이렇게: in this way, like this, this much.
잡은 너의 손 너의 온기가 느껴져 I can feel your/ the warmth of your
hand that I’m holding.
온기: warmth, heat. 느껴져’s dictionary form is 느끼지다: feel.
나를 느껴봐 너도 혼자가 아니야 Feel
me, you’re not alone either
느껴봐: try to feel. 너도: you too. 혼자: alone. 아니야: not.
이 길이 또 멀고 험할지라도함께
해주겠니 Will you walk with me even this road
will be far and dangerous?
멀다: far, distant. 험하다: dangerous, rough. -겠니: are
you going to, will you.
다칠지라도 함께 해주겠니
Will you walk with me even we’ll fall over and sometimes get hurt?
When you are a fangirl and a shipper, you take ever freaking scrap you can to piece your ship together.
When I hear McCree’s line ‘Reach for the Sky’ I ALWAYS think of Hanzo’s SORA skin (which, as you guessed it, translates ‘SKY’ from japanese), and I really want to explore other similarities or ‘coincedences’ of their lines and skins more. (i plan to do the White Husbands one, the Mystery man and Young Hanzo skins too. just need to get my shit together)
The sunset as incredibly beautiful. It glowed through the spindly winter branches. They were reaching for the vivid sky, same as I. There is something captivating about forest sunsets, trapped beneath the trees. You can’t see the full splendor, but you see enough to know it’s there. I ran through the forest to get a clearer view, but it wasn’t until we topped the mountain that the real artistry unfolded. It was certainly a sight to behold.
It happened so quickly that you had barely any time to react. After waking up late, you were in a rush to get ready. In your rush to meet Namjoon you had completely forgotten to tie your shoelaces. Of course, being who you are, you didn’t notice until it was far too late. In fact, you were surprised it didn’t happen sooner.
You were just rearing the corner of the cafe you agreed to meet at when you saw him. He gave you a cheeky smile and waved, as his eyes laid on your approaching figure. Your heart fluttered at the sight and you couldn’t help it as you picked up the pace towards him.
It wasn’t until you were only a few footsteps away that you felt your shoes get caught on the lace. Within seconds you began to flail around in the air as your body collapsed against the rough concrete. You let out a hiss of pain, already being able to tell that you had scraped both your palms and knees. It didn’t take long for Namjoon to reach your side.
“Oh my God. Jagiya are you okay?” He asked, his voice laced slightly with laughter. You narrowed your eyes towards the floor and silently cursed at him for finding your pain amusing.
“Here,” you heard him say. You assumed he was holding a hand out for you.
Slightly embarassed, you didn’t look up as you reached your hand towards the sky. The second your hand made contact with something you automatically grasped onto it. Namjoon let out a sudden gasp in surprise.
Your eyes widened as you began to register the fabric of his jeans and more importantly what your hand had just latched onto. You instantly pulled your hand away and tried to ignore what had just happened. Your cheeks were flushed as you looked up at Namjoon only to find him already looking at you. Instead of addressing what had just occurred, the second you made eye contact you both burst out into a fit of giggles. Your laughter only increased in sound as you saw the sight in front of you.
“Namjoon are you fucking kidding me? Are you seriously getting hard from just that?”
He shamelessly shot you a smile, “that’s just the affect you have on me babe.” He shrugged as if it couldn’t be helped.
daniel james is the tides, his hair is wavy like the currents and words and thoughts change as the days pass. gentle, and can be harsh when need be. waves of change may be slow, and what promise they hold comes and goes. sometimes things are stormy, and sometimes things are calm and clear, and just about all the time the ocean is so unknown. but we are learning a little more about it every day.
phillip michael is the moon. arguably he could also be the sun, but what else could it be that pulls dan to this boy? with pale skin and eyes like the skies, he’s ethereal. never the same from day to night, calm yet shines with a smile so bright. his head and mind is up high in space; we may never know everything about what goes on up there, but we may admire from afar. luminous is he.
daniel is the tides, pulled closer by phillip, the moon. if you try hard to listen, the waves crash in an effort to reach the sky, and the stars twinkle in a soft response.
She’s so perfect at being imperfect and human,
it makes me want to reach to the sky and pluck out a star,
just for her to hold in her heart.
This star would not outshine her,
for she would outshine it with her beauty.
She would outshine the star with her kindness.
She’s someone you always long to be with.
Someone who actually cares about life and what it’s about.
Who cares about love.