Varric & Nicknames

I was recently looking back over THAT scene from Until We Sleep and totally NOT perving over our favorite liar, when I noticed this.

“Names have power – Give a thing a name and it’s yours forever.”

Hawke: I notice you don’t have a nickname for me.
Varric: I call you Hawke. You’ve probably heard it once or twice.

Weekly Report

It was another very good week. :) I am down 3 lbs for a total of 151 lbs since surgery, 7 months ago and 181 below my highest weight!

Exercise was good. My running is shifting to fewer, longer runs. I am at 93 miles MTD and should hit my 100-mile goal during my long run on Saturday.I have a very challenging 10k scheduled for next week. It is known for its grueling hills. My first ½ is scheduled 8 weeks from now. I am feeling confident. 

I got my bloodwork in this week and everything looked very good. The only thing I need to work on is vitamin D. I am increasing my supplementation and spending more time outside, so that should be fine.

Next week is going to be weird. I only work 2 days, it is my BD week and we have lots of family things going on like camp, dance recital and summer school. It is going to make getting exercise in a bit of a challenge but I have a plan.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the ending of Memnoch the Devil lately. More specifically, about how I’ve seen people dismiss Armand’s attempted suicide along with the rest of the book, as it being too out of character or too far into the realm of “later canon” to be worthy of much attention.

But the thing is, the young me that read MtD for the first time and had no access to the internet wasn’t able to do ~research~ and obsess over what Anne might have intended with this thing or the other, which meant that I was completely free to interpret everything I read in any way that I wanted.

So when I read about Armand running into the sun after hearing Lestat’s story, my mind went straight to that quote from Queen of the Damned: “’I’ll tell you what I fear,’ Armand had said, intense as any young student. ‘That it’s chaos after you die, that it’s a dream from which you can’t wake. Imagine drifting half in and out of consciousness, trying vainly to remember who you are or what you were. Imagine straining forever for the lost clarity of the living.’“

And so I saw Armand as someone who had lost the will to live centuries ago, and was simply going on out of fear that there was nothing after death. And I saw Lestat’s “revelation” that there was as the push that finally gave him the courage to end it. I still can’t completely shake off that interpretation and it still breaks my heart.


    The NF-15B ACTIVE is the most maneuverable of any F-15 variant, but she didn’t start out that way. This airframe, originally designated the TF-15B (USAF serial number 71-0290), looked much like a typical F-15. She took her first flight on July 7, 1973, as the first two-seat F-15 in history and the sixth F-15 to roll off the assembly line.

    On September 7, 1988, she would have her “second first flight” following major modifications as the STOL/MTD (Short Takeoff and Landing/Maneuver Technology Demonstrator). Modified F-18 stabilators were put in place forward of the wing as canards. Thrust vectoring in the pitch axis was also implemented, allowing takeoff rotation at only 39 knots and drastically shorter landing distances.

    In 1991, the STOL/MTD test program ended, and the USAF loaned the airframe to NASA, who modified it into the NF-15B ACTIVE (Advanced Control Technology for Integrated Vehicles). The pitch thrust vectoring was traded for nozzles that could be vectored in pitch and yaw. This allowed for incredible maneuverability. The bird could perform yawing maneuvers while flying at 30 degrees angle of attack.

    Although never implemented, there were plans to further modify this airframe by removing the vertical tail planes, allowing thrust vectoring to be wholly responsible for yawing maneuvers. This would have been called the F-15 MANX, named after the naturally tailless cat.

    After decades of serving NASA Dryden Flight Research Center (now NASA Armstrong) as a successful experimental testbed for many different test programs, the NF-15 ACTIVE took its final flight in January 2009. On this last flight, she was the oldest still flying F-15. In July of 2015, she was put on static display at NASA Armstrong Flight Research Center on Edwards Air Force Base, California.


(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MtD_XMJE1dg)