a lot of being a lesbian IS rooted in the fact that you don’t want to be with men, at all, whatsoever. like. being a lesbian is about loving women and thats a feeling shared across all lbp women, but, something unique about being a lesbian that bi and pan women wont experience is out point of view on m/f relationships, and men themselves, as something that will literally Never be relevant to our lives but is constantly forced onto us. and so our distaste for men and for m/f relationships in media has a very specific root and you really gotta consider Where this distaste is coming from before you criticize lesbians for rejecting and being skeptical of m/f content

let’s be positive; 11x20

I’m literally crying. No, really. I’ve got tears in my eyes and every time I think about the ending I want to cry some more, because besides The Man Who Would Be King, that was my favorite episode of all time. Hands down. Robbie, you are by far the most talented writer I’ve ever seen on a TV show and I adore your work. 

  • When the theory popped up that Chuck was God, I fully supported it. After Swan Song, there really was no denying it in my mind, at least. The character of Chuck had a different tone, which suggested what we learned in today’s episode: God was playing as Chuck on Earth this entire time, turned off the amulet so he couldn’t be found, watched the Winchesters save the world firsthand, and let humanity run it’s course. 
    • What’s interesting about this is that the theory of a “hands off” God is very popular in religious circles (and as a Christian, I know this firsthand from going to Bible school for basically my entire life). Essentially, there are people who believe that God is there, but he is letting humanity run it’s course on its own and is no longer intervening. I don’t agree with that in real life, I feel like the Lord is involved in ways we cannot even imagine, but on the show, it works wonderfully. “Chuck” was witnessing the world firsthand by partaking in his creation: learning guitar, dating (men AND women, thank you, Robbie), living everything firsthand. He runs a blog about cats, he watches humanity, he is living as one of us, unknown. He doesn’t answer prayers, he only helps when convenient, and is letting free will reign. He is a God who is letting things run it’s course, and now that Amara is going to destroy what he formed, he doesn’t care. From what we’ve viewed over the entirety of the show, I’m very glad this approach to God is the interpretation they went with, because it is just very clever. 
  • I never thought I’d say that I like Metatron, but in this episode, I adored him. Part of that was from Curtis’s acting, which was the best I’ve ever seen out of him. I enjoyed the version of Metatron who dropped the douche act and presented his pain and disappointment to God when given the chance. He wasn’t afraid, but he was angry. He admits to being  a loser god, one who didn’t do anything and only cried out for attention from his father. And yet, he got none. God ignored him, as per usual. Of course, Metatron is pissed about this fact. I loved the pure anger I got from him, the unapologetic, ruthless review of God’s work, once he got past trying to please him by lying. I loved that in a way, he is the one who convinces God to rescue humanity from Amara, the angel who thought humans were just pawns in his game as an angel, now appreciates humanity as a human man. It reminded me a lot of Gabriel’s speech to Lucifer in his last episode, actually. I loved it. Ugh. A C T I N G. 
  • Note: all of the acting in this episode was phenomenal, but the episode goes to Rob and Curtis for rocking those Chuck/Metatron scenes. I was frightened of Chuck a bunch of times this episode, while also laughing at the comedic lines. Our cast is way too talented, guys. 
  • Random thought, but ironing Sam’s shirt with beer was AMAZING. The timing on that was perfectly done by Jared and Jensen, as per usual. It was gold. 
  • Chuck taking Metatron to that landscape to ‘enjoy it one last time’ really put into perspective that he really is going to let Amara take down everything, and that is when Metatron first realizes that yeah, he’s gotta intervene. Perfectly written, and that landscape can’t be beat in beauty. 
  • THE LITTLE JOKES ABOUT THE OLD EPISODES. Like ‘That’s was my editor’s face when I turned in Bugs’ or ‘Supernatural. Revolution. You’re not great with the titles.’ BLESS YOU, ROBBIE.
  • Metatron talking about God being a coward TOOK BALLS. I never thought I’d be cheering on Metatron, but I was today. 
  • And Chuck’s reaction about being all powerful was ugh, amazing.
  • Back to the brothers, I loved that we got a glimpse of Sam holding a baby because TALK ABOUT ADORABLE. Dean was also great with duct taping the walls and windows with that ‘blue steel’ face he had on. Jensen, really now? Too good. 
  • It’s not unusual by any means, but I loved that Dean wasn’t going to leave Sam in the fog, even if he couldn’t be affected by it. (Not thrilled about trying to take in the fog to go down with Sam again, but it’s SPN; codependency is expected at this point imo.)
  • No, literally, I was crying real tears when that happened and they found Chuck at the end. Beautiful. 

Guys, everything about the episode is what I would’ve hoped for. Robbie, thank you for making me cry AGAIN. Beautiful. 

Next week, we’re going right into the action with Lucifer being held by Amara, Amara and Dean talking again, and Chuck back for good (?). Also this is the episode where Dean cries, right? It’s gonna be amazing! 

let’s be positive; 11x16

AND THAT’S HOW YOU WRITE A MOTW EPISODE, PEOPLE. Robbie always impresses, but this episode in particular was the perfect way to come back from a hiatus like the last one. It was filled with old school charm, flawless flashbacks, and brilliant cinematography. Let’s get to it!

  • First off, I loved the idea of Bobby/Rufus hunting a monster in the past, while Sam/Dean hunt in the present. The flashbacks between to the past were perfectly done, and never felt forced or contrived in any way. Amazing work, Robbie. 
  • Robbie is the brilliant mind behind Charlie, so giving us another queer lady whose sexuality wasn’t a big deal was wonderful. Sam and Dean don’t react when she says “my wife” instead of “my husband,” and I find that refreshing. 
  • The cinematography was oUT OF THIS WORLD. The way it flawlessly went between Sam/Dean and Bobby/Rufus was amazing. Well done. 
  • The feel was very s1, which is something that Carver originally said was what they wanted to do with this season. I think they’ve done a good job with that on the “filler” episodes. I like that the monsters are creepier this season, and it resembles classic episodes from the first few seasons in particular. 
  • The banter between Bobby and Rufus felt a lot like the brothers’ banter, and I loved it. 
  • I love the emphasis on Bobby calling Sam and Dean “my boys”. 
  • The fight scene between Sam/Dean & Bobby/Rufus was fantastic. It’s the first time in a long time I’ve seen Sam really fighting back (usually he ends up on the floor since the whole Gadreel thing it seems? Is that just a thing I’m seeing or does anyone else notice it?) Too bad Dean is the vessel for this creature. While I enjoy the occasional hurt!Dean, I enjoy him being happy and okay a lot more. 
  • Dean’s concern over finding Cas is wonderful. HE JUST WANTS CAS BACK AND SO DO I. I FEEL YOU.
  • Basically, I adored everything about this episode. It was amazingly worked through and I wish we got more episodes like this one. 

Next week: SAM GETS SHOT?! BILLIE ISN’T GONNA LET HIM COME BACK?! (Not gonna lie, I don’t like Billie’s chances of surviving if she’s keeping Sam from his brother, because we all know the lengths Dean will go to save Sam, yannow?) Also could we get Amara back next week? Watch and find out, everyone!

let’s be positive: 11x14

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL PIECE OF WORK BY ROBERT BERENS. The writing in the submarine was great, Lucifer treating Crowley was a dog was interesting, and Sam and Dean finding out that it isn’t Cas was just…ahdlguhow;gbhhal. I cannot. Now, let’s get into the details!

  • First piece of business, how amazing was Delphine? From that opener, I knew that she was going to take that bastard down, and ‘The Men of Letters send their regards?’ TOO COOL. We’ve only seen Josie as a Woman of Letters before, so knowing that Delphine was considered one too is refreshing. 
  • It was tiny in comparison to the entire episode, but Dean and the coffee was a good bit to offset the intenseness of the rest of the episode.
  • Getting Crowley into a position of Casifer’s lap dog was really interesting. If you think about it, Crowley is usually the one putting people in chains. We got Samandriel in chains during s8. Back in s9, Crowley had Gadreel chained up to get him out of Sam. In s10 and 11, we see Crowley chaining Rowena up constantly and using the term ‘bitch’ a lot. He’s always seen other people as his pets, but now Lucifer is calling the shots and has Crowley ‘whipped,’ if I may put it that way. Changing the tables like this is actually a nice change, and I’m always a fan when villains get a taste of what they dish out. 
  • Back to Delphine, can I just again iterate how influential a woman she must’ve been to get an entire ship behind her? At the end of the day, the captain is willing to sacrifice his entire crew for her artifact and her, even though she was not willing to reveal the true importance of it. Respect, girl. Respect. 
  • Casifer was on point this episode. He’s a really bad actor, by the way (Lucifer, not Misha!) and was pretty abysmal at keeping up the Cas act. When he turned to Sam and realized that he wasn’t the one he needed, I just gaped at my TV. I didn’t expect Casifer to just give it up that easily, even though I understand why he did after watching the episode. 
  • CAS BREAKING THROUGH TO SAVE SAM I CRY. Again, Cas’s devotion to the boys is astounding. He would not let Sam get hurt by Lucifer, and he broke through long enough to warn him and tell Sam that it was his choice. Try to argue that Cas doesn’t care about Sam. TRY. I’LL FIGHT YOU. This friendship is legendary. 
  • Also, we cannot forget that Cas fought not only to save Sam, but agreed to go back because Dean was in danger. Cas cares about both boys a crapton, and I can’t wait to see the boys returning the favor later on when they save Cas (and a thousand points to the writers if this includes both boys convincing Cas that he isn’t just useful, but is family.)
  • Finally, that brother’s conversation at the end of the episode also made me want to cry. Sam and Dean cannot imagine why Cas would agree, and now they are gonna do whatever is in their power to get him back. Dean’s face in particular is wrenching, because not only is he trying to comprehend Cas, he is also dealing with watching an entire crew go down while he got to live. Poor child. 

Next week, we’ve got wrestlers AND Casifer?! IT’S GONNA BE GOOD, PEOPLE. 

let’s be positive: 11x13

There are times when the best compliment I can give a MOTW episode is that it served its purpose. That is the case with ‘Love Hurts’. While there wasn’t any big revelations about the mytharc, I found it enjoyable regardless and loved that ending! 

The first scene with Sam and Dean was too funny. Dean eating the leftover Chinese food and then spitting it out was too great, and I applaud Jensen’s comedic timing. 

While the curse was interesting, Dean taking it was really clever. It was a good lead-in to the creature taking on Amara’s image and finally forcing Dean to vocalize the clear connection he has with Amara, wanted or not. 

Amara’s form is actually the biggest point I want to talk about. I feel like people are forgetting that Amara is the Mark. Amara is the thing that Dean was connected to for a season and a half, and if we’re looking at canon, still is connected to. When the Mark left his arm, it didn’t leave Dean fully. 

Amara’s pull over Dean being his ‘deepest, darkest desire’ is actually brilliant. When Dean had the Mark, I believe there was a quote about how Dean almost enjoyed the pull it had over him (possibly from 9x16? The one with that creepy guy, Magnus?) Anyway, unless I’m wrong (and confusing canon with fanfiction again), Dean liking the pull from the Mark early on is a deep, dark desire of his. Now that Amara is the manifestation of that, it is not far fetched that she would be the form that the creature took. 

In case people were still confused, this episode made it loud and clear: AMARA AND DEAN ARE NOT ENDGAME. While Dean’s ‘desire’ is for the Mark, he doesn’t want it to be. In fact, it isn’t even really Dean who is feeling this way. Amara’s control over what Dean feels when he is around her is absolute and terrifying. It is not romantic, or is ever going to be romantic. It is supposed to be unsettling, and the interaction between Dean and “creature” Amara really reinforced that to the viewing audience. 

Finally, Dean not lying to Sam about who the creature took on is BIG. For the past few seasons, we’ve seen Sam and Dean lying to each other. It looks like the writers are really trying to put the brothers on the same team, and Dean admitting that he cannot take out Amara and entrusting that to Sam is amazing. I’m very glad that Dean is talking to Sam and Cas (or, who he thinks is Cas) about Amara and not trying to fight it on his own. 

Next week: DEAN IN A NAVY UNIFORM. SAM AND LUCIFER!CAS INTERACT. Crowley on a leash? It is gonna be good, people!