New secret walled garden yarn bowl in progress today.
Lots of detail to go ..wheelbarrow, trellis, roses, climbing ivy, garden tools, birds and mice. Modelling completed Wednesday.
Pics to follow. 🙂
#transformationtuesday :: 1.5 years ago vs today. Still have a long long way to go but I’m learning how to love myself more and more each day. I didn’t think I’d ever be able to post guy pictures of myself but I definitely find it inspiring to see people find their true selves so I thought I’d bite the bullet and post something. I hate seeing old pictures and seeing the sadness in my eyes in every picture. I spent so long feeling so lost and confused as to why I never felt comfortable in my own skin. Never actually understanding why I always hid under my shitty facial hair and long hair and hats and black clothes and leather jackets. No success in my career or life made me feel truly fulfilled or self-confident. It’s been a hard road this last year, but not as hard as living a pretend life where you have to analyze everything you do to try to make sure you’re acting the correct part and doing guy-stuff. I literally got beaten as a child by my dad for acting feminine, and eventually mocked by peers into my teen years. I learned how to pretend to be tough and spiraled into depression and chemical imbalance and I lost myself for all these years. I’m finally taking it back, undoing damage and shedding my walls. Each day feels more and more freeing. Finally surrounded by people that love me for me…. No longer feeling scared to be myself. Cherishing my loving wife and family. Looking forward to the future- especially looking forward to finally starting HRT and the additional mental and physical results I know it can bring. It’s been a rough couple decades but my 30’s are shaping up to be pretty great so far. #transgender #trans #loveyourself #transisbeautiful #happy #myjourney #mtf #inprogress #ellisedwards