*gif: spn

something else that i noticed from last night’s ep

when lucifer was yelling at dagon and she said cas had kelly, and even though she mentioned he was with those other angels,

luci still yelled “THE WINCHESTERS HAVE MY SON?!

he knew that with angels or no, cas wouldn’t turn on the winchesters, not even for heaven

because luci lived in cas’s head all that time and knew without a doubt where his priorities lie

Coda 12x19

Mary turns up at the bunker days later.

She’s still fumbling her key into the lock when she hears boots pounding up the stairs. The door swings open and Dean fills the doorway. Mary’s smile disappears as soon as she sees the crestfallen look on his face. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” Dean says, his jaw clenched tight. They stand there for a long moment.

“Can I come in?” she asks warily.

“Do whatever the fuck you want.”

Sam appears on the landing just in time to chide his brother. “Dean.”

“Like I could stop her.” Dean stomps back down the stairs and disappears down the hall.

“Hi, Mom.” Sam pulls her into a hug that she guardedly reciprocates. Being hugged by her youngest brings with it a nearly all-consuming wave of warmth and safety, and she holds back a little lest she find herself unable to let go.

He picks up her bag and ushers her inside, asking questions about her time away that she answers in the vaguest terms she can manage. He doesn’t call her on it, but a little of the light goes out of his eyes.

“What’s going on with your brother?”

Sam shrugs one big shoulder. “The usual.”

Wide-eyed, Mary confirms. “Cas?”

“Yeah. He took off again.” His mouth twists with bitterness. “Screwed us both over first.”

“I’m sure he had his reasons.” Mary feels strangely in tune with this angel, out of his element, invited into a home that isn’t truly his own, surrounded by family that he’s continually letting down.

“Well, you try telling Dean that.”

Maybe she’ll do that. Maybe she’ll march right down to Dean’s room, pound on his door and make him talk to her. She can listen, clear-eyed and reasonable, then tell him to stop feeling sorry for himself and finally do something about this situation with Cas. How long has he been locked into this dance with him, unable to pull his self-denying head out of his ass long enough to put himself out there and take a shot at happiness. He needs a stern but loving talking-to and she’s his mother. She can do this.

Her self-righteous momentum carries her halfway down the hall before she stops short. Who is she to tell him anything? She left him when he was four years old, when the world was still black and white. Is it any wonder that he categorizes the people he loves in rigid terms of with him or against him? That any leave-taking, no matter the reason, is necessarily an abandonment?

Maybe she could’ve have eased this insecurity when she returned. Maybe she could have comforted and reassured the frightened little boy who lives inside this hunter’s body. This second chance with her sons could’ve have helped those scars to fade a bit. Instead, she’d sliced them wide open again with big, jagged lines by turning her back and walking out.

It’s all so much. Trying to keep everyone happy, including herself. These hulking men who tower over her can be as transparent as children in their need for love. She’s made them this way, her presence and her absence. She has no right to ask anything of them now.

Mary walks past Dean’s room, with the light spilling out from the crack under the door. She continues past Castiel’s empty room, to the one they all pretend is hers.

World’s Best Dad

Originally posted by hallowedbecastiel

Summary: One of the reader’s students has a problem and she confronts her father about what’s going on…

Pairing: single parent!Dean x kindergarten teacher!reader

Word Count: 3,500ish

Warnings: language

A/N: My second ever daddy Dean fic. Quote for this one was “It was an accident I swear!”…


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Dean’s Top 13 Zepp Traxx

Originally posted by dustydreamsanddirtyscars

This is only an educated guess..but I felt inspired to make this after last night’s episode!!!

Some of them are from episode titles, some of them are just my personal guesses. They all link to youtube so…enjoy!!!

  1. Ramble On
  2. Travelling Riverside Blues
  3. In My Time Of Dying
  4. Houses Of The Holy
  5. What Is And What Should Never Be
  6. When The Levee Breaks
  7. The Song Remains The Same
  8. Immigrant Song
  9. You Shook Me
  10. Nobody’s Fault But Mine
  11. Black Dog
  12. D’yer Mak’er
  13. Going To California

I’m figuring that the equations we saw Sam had written out on the table in 12x19 were ones that he created himself. I mean, he was dealing with an entirely new thing, so it’s not like there’s going to be equations out there that he can already use. Sam used what he found out about nephilims through research and combined it with some pretty advanced knowledge of math. I’ve had to work with creating equations before, and let me tell you, it’s not easy. Sam compiled information from multiple books, so he put that information together along with what he already knew about when the nephilim was conceived, created variables for the different things involved, and then put those together to create equations. None of that would be anywhere near easy, and there are probably not many people that have the ability to do that. So when Dean says, “That’s a beautiful mind,” I wholeheartedly agree.