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anonymous asked:

Hey could you do a head cannon where the reader just got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and either Connor or Evan helping her with it💛🌻

Why not both! (I don’t know if this was requested twice because there’s another one similar to it, I’ll do that one later though)

Connor

•You had always had an overwhelming feeling in social situations or in public presentations but it only got worse when you got into high school. Connor started to notice it too.

•You would get what you called “mind
attacks,” which you learned was truly, anxiety attacks, when you felt a lot of attention on you. You learned to try to hide from social attention to try to prevent it but sometimes, it’s unavoidable.

•You knew it was a major problem when it interfered with your daily life. You couldn’t publicly speak without having an attack.

•Connor knew exactly what was happening. You have anxiety, and he didn’t exactly know how you didn’t realize that but he soon told you after.

•You had all of the symptoms, panic, fear, insomnia, nausea, and more and Connor knew exactly how to help you.

•At this point, you both had been dating for three months, so you both were comfortable with each other. When you had anxiety attacks or worries, you would tell him, and he would whisper things to you and hold you. You saw a side of Connor no else got to.

•If that doesn’t work, he would read to you. Softly, it’s like music to you honestly, he’ll read any book he finds to you. He only cares if it calms you down.

Evan

•He had experienced this before so he easily picked it up that you had it too when he saw you start shaking and breathing heavy when you were doing a presentation in English.

•He confronted you about it, in which you almost started to have an attack since you were so panicked that he would abandon you or break up with you, but he calmed you down, making sure that you knew he had it too, which you obviously knew, but didn’t think much into it.

•He made a music playlist for you to use when you have an attack. You use it to calm down when he isn’t there for him to do it.

•He teaches you ways to ride out an anxiety attack when they come. Either, letting them go through the process of panic, practicing breathing techniques, or yelling.

•You both try to do yoga to calm down but you both dropped it. Evan’s not exactly an exercise person. Evan also thought that it made you guys look like hippies.

•You help each other really, it’s not an one way thing. You both calm each other before a public presentation. If it doesn’t work out, there’s no disappointment but a bit of improvement of talking in public

okay but let’s discuss disappear. you know that moment. the one where evan goes to tell connor’s family about the connor project. and his parents are so excited. his mom is so excited. and then there’s zoe. and she’s sitting at the table in silence. and then they start singing again.

  no one deserves to be forgotten/no one deserves to fade away/no one deserves to disappear 

and while that’s happening zoe still sits in silence. and she disappears. literally. the table, with her still sitting there, moves off stage. and i think that one small blocking move makes that whole scene. it makes her whole character. everyone is so worried about connor all the time. and if all your energy is focused on one thing, something gets forgotten. michael greif is so smart.

Dear Evan Hansen characters as things I heard in high school theatre class
  • Evan: "No offense, but if you don't stop apologizing I'm gonna punch you in the fucking throat."
  • Connor: "Welcome to 'That's What I Call Emo' Volume 7"
  • Zoe: "No, I don't have any brothers." *brother screaming in the background* "He isn't real."
  • Heidi: "No offense, but stop trying to fix my mental health when yours is a disaster."
  • Jared: "You look like you drink bubble bath."
  • Alana: "If you're not gonna respect me as your director you can put on your own damn show"
  • Cynthia: "If you like boys, that's fine. Just stop kicking my door."
  • Larry: "Wait who died"

//Reblogs are greatly appreciated! 

I watched Dear Evan Hansen on Sunday. It was amazing! So glad I got to see the OBC cast~

With that said, here’s some Connor Murphy fanart~ might do some more in the future!

Art © me 

SPEEDPAINT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=odsh4jaSY-Q

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