RE veggie anon's question "is it internalized fatphobia to be happy about losing weight" : I don't think you should blame yourself for that completely rational instinct. Losing weight in today's world means you'll be complimented, treated better, able to find clothes, and so on. Basically, the bully stops picking on you. It's NOT WRONG to not want to be picked on! The blame is ALWAYS on the bully! (1/2) *
* (2/2) And just to be very clear, I’m NOT saying “we fat people should lose weight so the world will leave us alone! The world should leave us alone PERIOD (that’s what this blog is about, right? lol). My point is just that IF a fat person happens to lose weight for whatever reason, they don’t need to feel ashamed about feelings of happiness or relief at being more “safe”. It’s understandable!
You’re absolutely right. We all have grown up in an extremely fatphobic society, so naturally we internalize it. Getting over self-hatred and learning to accept one’s fat self takes years and years.
And yet, after years of learning to accept my fat self, I still can’t help but feel happy when I lose like 5 lbs because of the fatphobic ideal that fat=unhealthy.