Let’s take a moment to recognize the brilliant symbolism of Draco seeing Harry in the fractured mirror during the bathroom scene in HBP. When Moaning Myrtle mentioned a boy crying in her bathroom, Harry couldn’t even imagine it was Malfoy because he didn’t think the Slytherin had a heart. From the handshake rejection in the very beginning, Harry brushed Draco aside as a cartoonish villain or petty rival, but this scene illustrated a shift in their relationship. Harry realized Draco’s humanity for the first time, and it was by looking in a fucking mirror. They’re both broken in their own ways, but in the end, they’re a reflection of each other.
- I’m going through this scene by scene y’all get
- Kay so, when diana rescues him he’s immediately
anxious when she asks him “You’re a man…?” I could almost taste the “oh god am I
suddenly not passing??” fear in his eyes
- He doesn’t say something like “of course I am”
or “yes haven’t you ever seen a man??” instead he goes straight for “Yeah, uhm…don’t
I look like one?” this is not something a cis man worries about
- Side note: if y’all come at me with “oh he says
steve is his name when they use the lasso of truth on him so he must be cis” l i s ten his name is steve. Why would he answer that
question any other way? Also, I’d like to note, in the comics when Batman was
asked the same question while holding the lasso of truth, he answered with
Batman, not Bruce Wayne. The lasso makes you answer what YOU believe is the
truth. Steve’s deadname isn’t his “true name” steve trevor is obv
- Consider: we know there were LOTS of women who
cross-dressed in wwI in order to fight. What if that’s what steve did to join
the military when he was much younger, but then he realized oh…maybe there’s
more here going on than I thought
- HRT became available after WWII largely due to
this guy, and in this superhero universe of Scientific
Inaccuracies and Magical Goddesses Made From Clay, it’s not entirely
implausible that HRT couldn’t have become available a few decades earlier in
some capacity (alan hart is amazing, please read more about him)
- Okay, the bathroom scene: Steve panics at first
when diana walks in on him, because he’s like SHIT CANT REVEAL MY WEIRD JUNK
but when its clear shes not going to be weird about it, he stops trying to hide
- diana specifically says “are you considered
average for your sex” not gender. And
we know from later during the scene on the boat that she must know the
difference, because she read the 12 volume collection on genitals and what you
can do with them
- So diana’s like “well that’s not what I was
expecting at all” and what she says is basically the more subtle, educated way of saying: dude why
don’t you have a penis and balls
- And when steve answers above average, he’s basically
saying “yeah, im trans, go me, deal with it”
- Just saying, him being trans makes this entire interaction
and every one after that where steve is trying to explain western gender norms
to diana significantly more hilarious
- Moving on: the boat. Diana asks about marriage
and Steve answers two people go in front
of a judge etc etc. then when she asks why they get married, even if they’re
unhappy, steve says he doesn’t know. Marriage is as mystifying to him as it is
to her. If that isn’t queer then idk what queer is
- The “this confuses me just as much as it does
you” look on his face throughout this entire interaction
- His interest in her books about sex: as a trans
man in an age when sex for the pleasure of vagina owners was basically unheard
of/considered sinful, of course he’s
- The soft “no” when she says the books ultimately
say men are unnecessary for pleasure; no as in utter disbelief, more like “no
way can I read this??” than “no omg sex needs a penis and a vagina what are you
- Lastly: it makes SO much sense for steve to
become a spy. Trans people are excellent liars. They have to be in order to
survive. Steve obv would have made it through his entire military service
without letting on that he was trans, so he knows he’s totally capable of lying
his way into german high command
- This has so
much fanfic potential, I am dying
- Go forth and write all the fanfic about diana
teaching steve the secrets of her 12 volumes about sex
ok so the bathroom scene could very well be an alien joke, but thats not ALL it is. yes, it is trans representation, and the reason is simple:
they used Pidge for the scene. Regardless of what her canon gender identity is (although it can be interpreted however! for example, in my head canon she is cis/demi-girl, either one, and goes by she/they) Pidge has been shown to be at least represent the struggles a trans person goes through. say for instance, they used keith in this scene. the same scene, only a different paladin. it would easily be written off as an alien joke. But the choice to used PIDGE is what makes this scene mean what it does.
the even more genius part of this scene is it can be inferred either way too! if you want to see it as trans representation, then thats great! and if you want to see it as just an alien joke, that great too!
@bext-k id love to get your feedback on this because not only are you Pidge’s VA (and one of my idols), but your also so accepting and involved in the LGBT community
Summary: You hate a lot of things about Jeon Jungkook; you hate his arrogance, his reputation, and his pet name for you to name a few. But most of all, you hate how right it feels for you to fall into his arms, and how easy it is to fall for him. Word Count: 10,272 Genre: fuckboy!Jungkook, college au, hate to lust to-
After your night with Jungkook he was on your mind more than ever. You didn’t go to any parties in the following days, but you couldn’t help but think of him during the evening, of if he was drinking to get drunk or to maintain appearances as he brought another girl to his bed. The idea of him, wrapped around a random girl, his tongue shoved down her throat, didn’t bother you.
No, what angered you was how he continued to consume your thoughts, even though you hated him more than you’d ever hated anyone else.
Why doesn’t anyone talk about this more? In the bathroom scene in HBP where Harry hit Draco with Sectumsempra he was talking with Moaning Myrtle. Okay here is how the scene starts after Harry follows Draco into the bathroom; “Draco was standing with his back to the door, his hands clutching either side of the sink, his white-blond head bowed. ‘Don’t crooned Moaning Myrtle’s voice from one of the cubicles. ‘Don’t … tell me what’s wrong … I can help you …’ ‘No one can help me,’ said Malfoy. His whole body shaking. ‘I can’t do it … I can’t … It won’t work … and unless I do it soon … he says he will kill me…”
- Harry potter and the Half-blood prince, J.k Rowling, page; 521-522
Then when they were fighting Myrtle yelled “No! No! Stop it! Stop! STOP!” And she was pouring water everywhere as she screamed.
Then after Harry cast the spell she screamed “MURDER! MURDER IN THE BATHROOM! MURDER!”
And after the incident she went to every bathroom telling everyone what Harry did to Malfoy. She made sure that this would not go un-noticed by the students.
And when she thought Draco had died she wailed and sobbing.
They were friends in way, Draco came to where he knew she was going to be in his darkest times. She tried to comfort him, and talk to him.
Malfoy may have been the only person that actually talked to him, even if it were when he was crying. He talked to her not as a ghost or a girl to make fun or as a inconvenience of, but a person he could rely on.
I’ve seen the word ‘love’ is being used a lot lately by the fans. Does Sangwoo really love Yoonbum or not? Does he feel any emotions at all? How genuine and real his emotions can be?
There are 3 possibilities based on certain personalities:
He’s written as a psychopath and doesn’t and will never truly love Yoonbum.
He’s suffering from some sort of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and is using the ‘numbing’ method to cope with everything. But he can fall in love.
He has Borderline Personality Disorder and loves Yoonbum.
1. Antisocial Personality Disorder
I know Koogi didn’t do any researches about the disorders so keep in mind these are more about certain personalities. I’m not focusing on the disorders! Let’s imagine what happens if Sangwoo is written as a ‘stereotypical’ psychopath/crazy person (with some psychology facts).
Psychopaths have very shallow feelings. They do not understand fear at all, they lack empathy and do not feel guilt. There are certain emotions such as love and sadness and they do not feel those like others do. There are several panels with Sangwoo with question marks next to him, showing he’s genuinely confused because he doesn’t understand Yoonbum’s fear. “Of course it’s dark, it’s a basement!!!?” or when he asks Yoonbum what is he doing when Yoonbum is trying to run away. He expects Yoonbum to stay quiet while he’s cutting him. He shows no empathy when Yoonbum talks about his past, even calls it “Boring”. There’s especially a panel I came across yesterday, of Sangwoo misinterpreting Yoonbum’s expression which leads me to believe Sangwoo does not understand ‘upset’, ‘sad’ or ‘scared’ because his ‘emotions’ are very limited, mostly to anger and summarized to feeling good, feeling bad.
Everything is a game for Sangwoo. And people are the toys. That shows how shallow he is. Think about him throughout the chapters. Every single move he made was for a game.
He plays until he’s bored of the game and then throws away the toys when there are no benefits for him in the game or when the game is not fun anymore. This is especially hard for a lot of fans to accept because they can’t believe after everything someone would just end it like that. But psychopaths do!
Sangwoo’s love for Yoonbum as a psychopath is not love at all. It’s
self-centered. It’s about Sangwoo, not about Yoonbum. Psychopaths grow
up learning from others. It helps them survive and fit in like a normal
person but in the end they do not truly understand those feelings.
Sangwoo does things to show affection but those are things he THINKS must be done in that certain situation and because he does not really
understand them, they look wrong, out of
place and weird. (like the bathroom scene or when he hugs Bum in the car or after they kill the man from the gaybar )
Even when showing affection and care, he’s doing those because he wants to and because there’s some sort of benefit for him. He’s
always treated Bum differently (from Day 1) because he is special
but doing so, he always acts as if he’s doing Bum a favor, while in
reality he’s doing it because there’s an advantage in it for him. He’s having fun and playing:
In brief, In his mind, he’s being nice to Bum, he might even think he’s in love. He’s giving him ‘gifts’ and ‘rewards’ because he wants him to cheer up, understand him or stop whining but his perception of ‘love’ and ‘care’ is very shallow and wrong and it will stay like that. Even if he ever tells Bum he loves him, it’s not the same love people talk about. It’s Sangwoo’s kind of love. Bum is special to him and he’s Sangwoo’s favorite toy! Sangwoo wants him now but Yoonbum will be thrown away the moment he’s broken or useless.
2. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
“Love and feelings are nothing but weaknesses.” You’ve probably heard that sentence or similar sentences to it from a lot of villains. The ones who are ambitious and want to take over the world. They believe feelings are unnecessary and make you weak.
We know Sangwoo is a victim of child abuse but we don’t know how bad the abuse was. Was there any sexual abuse involved? We also know he witnessed horrible events. The murder of his parents (whether it was himself who did it or his father). These sort of things usually lead to post traumatic stress disorder. Sometimes the victims use the ‘numbing’ method to be able to live on. This means they turn off their emotions and feelings to cope with the horrible past experiences. They might see feelings as weaknesses and we can see a lot of that in chapter 5:
“You know what? I hate guys like you the most. Guys that are too scared to die but are always complaining. Too absorbed with pitying themselves to do anything. Stop going on about how lonely you are. I hate that shit!”
In brief, while he can relate to Yoonbum, he hides his true feelings and thoughts in order to stay strong. He doesn’t show any emotions but he is capable of feeling them.
Now why this theory might be wrong? because people with PTSD, usually don’t even want to talk about/remember their past because it’s too painful for them but we saw Sangwoo talk about his past without any problem and he didn’t seem fazed at all. He didn’t even show any empathy when Bum spoke. So… back to number 1.
3. Borderline Personality Disorder
I’ve already wrote 2 long posts in February about Sangwoo’s BPD symptoms: PART 1, PART 2so check those out if you haven’t yet.
While I think it’s a good theory, the thing about people with BPD is that their emotions are too intense. They feel TOO MUCH. No matter what the type is. At least we’ve seen Yoonbum switch between the feelings of love and hate quite a lot and even cry because the feelings hurt and he was confused… while Sangwoo’s feelings throughout the chapters is pretty much static. It goes from anger to frustration to boredom and etc (shallow emotions, so again, back to number 1!). We’ve only seen him in a rollercoaster of emotions once and that was when he thought Yoonbum ran away. However, that was a panic attack! Anxiety is what causes panic attacks. While fear and anxiety are interrelated, they’re not the same thing. He mostly felt hurt and betrayed, he was mostly angry. While I’ve talked about his fear of abandonment many times, that could also just be a panic attack triggered when he thought Yoonbum ‘betrayed/left/lied to’ him. It could also be a symptom of PTSD since he even had a vivid flashback.
But since these are not supposed to be on point, let’s not be very nitpicky. If he in fact has BPD, he’s already most likely in love with Yoonbum and he’d almost be destroyed if Yoonbum leaves him. (He might even consider killing himself or Yoonbum before that happens.)
So as a conclusion you can see why a lot of people might want to support the 3rd theory. Because Sangwoo will be vulnerable and in love with Yoonbum (and well, it’s more BL-ish :S). I’m not against that idea but personally I find the 1st theory more interesting and I think more facts and evidences lead to the 1st theory. He’s proven himself a psychopath over and over by showing no guilt/remorse, no empathy and no emotions and being impulsive and reckless is also a symptom of Antisocial Personality Disorder and not just BPD.
But in the end I suppose it depends on the author. Maybe Sangwoo will be the first psychopath to ever fall in love :p
It took me a month, but I finally did it. If you haven’t read the first part, you can so here. I also want to thank @twerkit-hxrry for being my eyes and ears throughout this grueling ordeal, and for helping me write the ‘Niall bathroom scene’. Seriously, thank you.
This part is a little shorter than the one before, but there’s still more to come with these two. And with that being said, enjoy. x
Harry was fucked.
He knew it from the moment he opened Instagram to find you had gracefully accepted his follower request, and was met with what he could only describe as ‘the most strikingly beautiful selfie to ever grace the palms of the earth’ – and what didn’t help was it was the same picture you had taken on his sofa only the day before, an empty chow mien box laid discarded on the table by your side.
The caption read: ‘Chow mieny soy sauce you want?’
A heavy quake erupted deep in Harry’s throat, a sound he could only describe as an unmanly squawk, and he instantly goes to cover his agape expression as he retains the joke he had told you just the night before.
He doesn’t take a second to think before he quickly double taps the photo, only just before noticing Niall had gotten there first, and continues scrolling.
It’s only a quarter passed eleven that morning, and you’ve been gone for two hours, and the one thing keeping him calmly situated in the comfort of his sofa is your scent left lingering on the hoodie he has taken upon wearing the moment you stepped foot out of his house – the same hoodie you claimed as your own the night before when, after grumpily swinging your legs over the sofa with a deep exhale, you trudged over to his wing chair to steal the Muscle Machine hoodie he had hanging over the back.
“Were you born in the Arctic?”
After sharing your intricate meal of Chinese takeaway, it was left to his surprise when you brought up the idea to break out the wine, and it dawned on Harry quickly that the second you start to bat your eyelashes and pout your lip out, there’s no way he could ever say no to you.
Another thing he learned about you was you were, in fact, very dangerous.