(idek i wanted to make a thing)

i need a famous ship where they’re both insanely busy with album recordings & red carpets & tours & they’re trying to make this whole long distance relationship work but with the time differences & going months without seeing each other it’s difficult, not to mention all the rumors & shit. but then there’s all the cute things like showing up on tour to surprise each other & going to award shows together & just finally seeing each other again after going so long with only facetime dates, missed calls, & late night texts to get them by. honestly idek where i’m going with this i just know that i really want it ??? but like this or message me & we can figure everything out k cool

6

“There are difficult decisions I have to make to ensure the survival of my people. And the only thing holding me back from doing that…is you.” 

how do you silence the voice in your head that tells you you’re a talentless hack and everything you write is garbage asking for a friend

mental health has been my main concern for the last three years and it was so scary to open up about it to my friends and family and the fact that dan made an entire video about his mental health is just extremely special. of course many youtubers make videos about their mental health and depression but considering i see myself the most in dan, seeing how he is dealing with his mental health the same way as me is really comforting. it’s important for people to speak out about their mental health and how they feel and cope because it brings new perspectives to the wide spectrum of mental illnesses and i’m just so incredibly grateful he made the video. i can’t even express how i feel properly. almost my whole life has been influenced by people around me having mental illness and many people around me have been ignorant to these issues. there is still a huge stigma against mental illness that is so ingrained in society due to misunderstanding of neurology and hyper masculinity; the fact that dan is continuing the conversation on his huge platform is extremely brave and frankly touching. of course much of his audience is young and impressionable but they all have their own emotions and minds. opening up this conversation even more helps break the cycle of being scared of getting help and educating people on mental health. i can’t even list the amount of people that have approached me saying their parents or people around them don’t understand or they are nervous to get help for their depression/mental health. he was cheesy and sounded like a uwu mental healthcare tips uwu post on tumblr but i still appreciated it so much. i know dan’s voice might seem like just another drop in the ocean of people online talking about mental health but his voice really made waves for me.

6

Random favorite Root&Shaw moments:
↳ Root flirts shamelessly, Shaw rolls her eyes grumpily; The Saga.

Exciting Things Ahead

So guess who finally got an AO3 (Archive of Our Own) account? That’s right, this trash can did! Anywho just a little update that I plan on extending my Blind Lance AU and making it into a full fic, so wish me luck! I hope you like it! Also, my account is watsonthebox (shocking, I know). I will update you all when I’ve posted. Thank you for all the love and support!!!  °˖ ✧◝(○ ヮ ○)◜✧˖ °

One day, I’ll stop trying to make you proud.

And you’ll know it’s happening. You’ll know when I keep you posted on school only as much as you require. When I get a job and you know what it is and nothing more. When my social life is a mystery to you and my possibly active love life remains a blank slate in your mind. You’ll know when you get more information about me through chains of people I trust more than, than you do from me.

Or maybe you won’t. You tend to be pretty oblivious like that.

So maybe you’ll realize it’s happened suddenly one day. You’ll invite me to a family affair and I’ll show up, not for you, but for the people who actually seem to care for me and my well-being. It’ll be catching up with my siblings and hugging my nephews (and possible nieces at this point) that draw me back, not you. Never you.

After all, you’re what drove me away.

And I’ll show up with a smile on my face, and maybe a pretty girl holding my hand. You’ll realize it then. When people have specific questions and yours are all vague, when my life is a mystery to only you. When no one else shares your shock at my companion because they made me feel safe enough to share facets of myself I never felt free to reveal to you.

I’ll hide away in a corner, the antisocial daughter you hate.

And I won’t care anymore.

One day, I’ll stop trying to make you proud.

And I’ll know it’s happening, because my accomplishments won’t be met with the crushing fear of your reaction, and my pride won’t be obliterated by your consistent lack thereof.

2

Something in me DIED at Peleliu. Perhaps it was the childish  i n n o c e n c e  that accepted as faith the claim that Man is basically good. Possibly I  LOST  faith that politicians in high places, who do NOT have to endure war’s savagery, will ever stop blundering and sending others to endure IT 

nolifekat  asked:

How do you properly channel your energy? That's a personal problem I have and I think a problem others have as well.

I’m answering this under the assumption that by “channelling” you mean “draw up energy to work with, to be put into objects or sent out into the world itself.” If that is not what you were looking for, please feel free to send another ask and clarify what you need help with.

There’s a lot I wanted to say in this post, and I don’t know that I said it all, but please bear with me, it’s long. If you don’t wanna read it all, and just want some techniques, there are a couple at the bottom, but I couldn’t find too many, so if still needed I can try to share what I do too. But this is important enough to me, at least, that I felt I should say it.

I can’t say there is a “proper” way. Like, there are common techniques that work for a lot of people, but that doesn’t mean they work for all. And this doesn’t just apply to channelling, or any one particular branch or method of magic - this is all encompassing for witchcraft in general. I can only say what I know from my own experience, but that doesn’t guarantee it to be something that everyone else clicks with or can always do.

A lot of these things really take practice, and the skill doesn’t always come immediately. I feel I got lucky, it only took a few weeks before I started feeling energy, for example, but I have heard some people say it took them longer, if they ever did. I feel that is important to keep in mind as well - the progress isn’t always instant, or immediately recognizable as progress, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t happening, and that what you’re doing isn’t necessarily failing or incorrect, it does take some time.

(On a crazy off to the side note, it’s also hard for me to tell you any way to do this right now, because I don’t know what you’ve already tried, and I may say “do this” when you already know it doesn’t work for you, but I didn’t know it didn’t work for you. Which is why I’m giving a very generalized answer.)

But, for example. Channelling my energy has a lot to do with sensing it, actually feeling the energy flow to know I am doing it. A lot of people can’t physically feel metaphysical energy when they use or work with it. And that is cool - you don’t need to actually feel it to work with it. But then my method won’t be of any use to them, because my method heavily revolves around that aspect. 

(It isn’t the right way, or the only way, and I acknowledge that - it’s just my way, and I know it won’t work for everyone, but as long as it works for me, that’s what I need for my craft, because it isn’t about anyone else. It’s by me, about me, for me. And it’s great if other people can use my stuff and it works for them, that’s why I share it, just in case it can; but I also know it won’t click with everyone, which is okay, it just means they need to find something else, which I can try to help with too.)

Or, another example, visualization - a lot of channelling methods say that is very important to do. Not everyone can do that either, though. Just because they can’t visualize, doesn’t mean they can’t channel energy. But that particular way to do it won’t cut it for them.

I have a lot I want to say on this, but my brain is scrambled. I’m sorry. I hope I do this justice, say it right, don’t come off as blunt or rude, because it isn’t my intention. I just wanna make something clear as I can.

In the end, there is no “proper” - at least, no universal “proper” - that applies to everyone and everything in witchcraft. If it works for you, it’s proper for you; what is proper for you in magic, may not be for other people, and that is okay. What works for you may also work for a lot of other people, but it is okay if you are one of the few it doesn’t work for  - it doewsn’t mean you can’;t do magic or witchcraft at all, it just means you need to do something different for the same results.

Like, think about how many people draw. And how many different styles you see of drawing. And how, looking at every person’s drawing technique, there may be similar aspects in  some, but everyone still does it kinda differently, but they’re all still drawing in the end - in the end it’s all still art, no matter how they got there. There’s even so many names for it, that may also depend on what you’re drawing or how you do it - sketching, doodling, drawing, penning; caricatures, cartoons, realism, abstract. So many different ways to get there, so many different titles and styles and whatever, but it’s all still art in the end. That is how I see witchcraft and magic.

And, like art, I believe it comes down to personal experimentation with various techniques to find what works for you. Each artist experiments with tutorials and stuff, or just wings it, to see what works for them, to get a style they like - same thing with witchcraft. 

Here are some tips that I have when trying to find out your way of doing things, that may be useful for other things too, but right now I’m just focused on witchcraft. Just tips, no strict rules or “have to”s, just things I think may help you. If you like it, try it; if you don’t give a fuck, don’t. Just thoughts, opinions, ideas.

◆ Find out where your problem is in that area. This is why recording what you do and how things play out with your spellwork can be so important - you can look back to try to pinpoint exactly what it is that didn’t work out, so you can either fix it or move past it. So: what aspects of channelling techniques have not worked for you in the past? Visualization? Feeling the energy?

◇ Sometimes, focusing on those areas, and trying to improve them, can be enough. Like, people say “I can’t do this in magic,” and okay, that is fine. But how many times did you try it before you determined it wasn’t working for you? If a thing fails just once, I can’t say that is a guarantee that that particular technique doesn’t work for you, period - spell failure happens for a lot of different reasons, and doesn’t always have to do with lack of ability. I believe it is best to be sure that those things really don’t work for you at all before writing them off. So, if you find you’re having a hard time feeling energy, keep trying for a while, look up other ways you can do that, keep practicing those techniques, until you can really rule out it just isn’t working at all.

◆ Sometimes there may be more than one area that is causing a problem, or the first area you chose may not be what is actually causing the difficulty. I believe every possibility should be ruled out to figure out what isn’t working and why, as well, before determining something isn’t going to work for you at all. Again, this is when those spell notes come in handy: you have documentation of everything you did, so you can go through piece by piece to figure out what it was - or what it was in conjunction with something else - that didn’t play out as planned.

◇ If things still keep not working, do some more research and see if there is some other way you can do it. Look for alternative methods for the same technique, give those a shot - try to keep in mind remembering what you did so you can figure out what doesn’t work about it for you if that’s what ends up happening. So, if this one particular method focused around feeling energy doesn’t work, and you’re sure it’s the feeling energy part, try a method that focuses on visualization instead, and see if it shows any results.

(Rinse and repeat.)

◆ If you can’t find another way that works for you that already exists, even after all that, if you’ve tried all the methods that you can find already talked about, or from external sources… try to find one within yourself. By this, I mean try creating a unique way, different from what you’ve seen before - or maybe even just tweaked from methods you’ve already tried, keeping things that worked and discarding what didn’t. Honestly, if that is what needs to happen for you to be able to do it, there’s nothing wrong with going off on your own, away from the beaten path, and playing around with what you find there to get something magical to work for you. Just because it’s new, and just made by you right then and there, doesn’t make it “improper” or “invalid” or “less legitimate” than common or well-known methods - if it works for you, that’s really what matters. 

(And I know it can be hard to know where to start when creating something brand new, but knowing a lot of theory may help direct you where to go. If you know how the other things worked and why, you can figure out what else might work and how and why based off those. Idk, I’m kinda burning out, let me wrap this up real quick.)

◇ I have found that “starting over” in a various area or technique can help me see things I didn’t before, open new paths or ways of thinking on the subject that can make practicing it completely different than how I did the first time. Try taking a look at energy work in general, not just channelling techniques, and see if anything comes out at you. Look at “beginner” posts, see if anything has changed in your way of working things from those original points, or see if any new opinions or techniques present themselves. There are a lot of blogs making content on Witchblr, and they all have a unique sort of view, that can prove handy in this sort of thing.

Trial and error, and experimentation, are really the keys here, in my opinion.

I really don’t want to say “you HAVE to do all these” or “this is how you HAVE to do it to figure it it,” but these are my suggestions and tips. And again, Idek if these things will necessarily work for you either, but I feel this will be more beneficial than just telling you how I do things. And I can still do that, if you don’t think this answer is helpful. But this is how I would look at your situation, if I were stuck on figuring out a way to do a certain technique - this is how I’d go about trying to find something that works for me. I feel like telling you how to find your own answer may prove more beneficial than giving you one of mine that still might not suit you in the end anyway.

Anyway, long overdue, here are those links I promised (there are few resources on this, which is maybe why so many people have difficulties with this area?) :

I may still end up posting my way, or other ways I could think of, because it’s hard to find info on this. So probably what I just said was all made moot because of this lol.

Did it all make sense, anyway? I hope it does. I hope it helped in some way, for someone at least. Idk. I ran out of so much steam and energy by the end there, I hope it still makes sense and I got the point I wanted to across. (I guess you wouldn’t know if I got the point I wanted to across, lol, but let me know if this proved helpful to you in any way or anything, please.) And it kinda proved wasted in the end, I feel, but that’s how I feel about figuring out how to do things “proper” or getting things to work for you. Idk. Sorry. I’m done.

Don’t get me wrong

I love Samuel and Jonghyun with all my heart. 

But to start a petition for their justice??? What about Jung Sewoon? What about Im Youngmin? What about all the other trainees who got eliminated?

I love all of them, but to see people being salty mainly because of Sam and Jonghyun not making it into the final lineup is becoming annoying and tiring because it’s been 4 days of “samuel and jonghyun deserved better”. Four fucking days. It’s only been four days, and maybe even after a year, people are still gonna be salty.

Well let me tell you that Jung Sewoon deserved better. Im Youngmin deserved better. Takada Kenta deserved better. Lee Woojin deserved better. Ahn Hyungseob deserved better. Yoo Seonho deserved better. Kwon Hyunbin deserved better. Jin Longguo (Kim Yongguk) deserved better. I Know You Know Team deserved better. A lot of them deserved better. 

I know for a damn fact that Samuel deserved better. He’s finally getting to debut now. I better not see you people complaining anymore about how he deserved better because he’s going to go solo. Fucking solo you guys. He’s that good. So support his debut and forget about him not making the final lineup, please. I was salty about him not making it, but the more I think about it now, he’s better off going solo. 

Jonghyun is the national leader. We get it. I know this for a fact. I don’t see anybody complaining about the other two NUEST members often. But you guys should know that NUEST is coming back. Be happy that they’re coming back. The reason I’m salty about the remaining NUEST members not making it is because they won’t have Minhyun. Minhyun won’t have them. So the best thing we can all do is support both. Jesus, I’m praying for NUEST x Wanna-One interactions here. 

Now, if you’re that heartbroken, please, don’t listen to me, and go ahead and don’t stan Wanna-One. I don’t care. Do whatever floats your boat.

My whole point here, is that people need to stop complaining about (mainly) Samuel and Jonghyun. I know you guys are super salty af but you don’t have to hold onto that for the rest of your life. They’re doing things with out being in the final lineup and the least we can all do is support them.

If you disagree or agree with me about anything go ahead and message me, I don’t care. I’m just super stressed out because of this. It physically and mentally hurts to read the same thing about Jonghyun and Samuel every day. I don’t think they’d want you guys to keep hanging on to the fact that they didn’t make it into the final lineup. None of the trainees would. The whole point is that you’re always going to be there for the trainee(s) you support.

By the way, Seonho dyed his hair brown and I fucking love it. Yoo Seonho and Lai Guanlin make me happy. No wonder why I love them so much.

The Friend-Zone

Requested: nah.

Summary: It’s a crappy situation, and an even crappier execution for writing. Read at your own discretion my friends. 

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Word Count: 601

A/N: I wrote this in 15 minutes. I did not proofread. Please do not come after me. This has been a PSA. 

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New York // Part 2

hi. 
omg it took me ages to write this and idek why. it’s not the best, it’s actually really short and the reason why it’s like that is because i felt like i was dragging it out tooooooooo long and that just makes stuff not enjoyable. i’m sorry i took ages and it’s not even up to standards smh but i really wanted to give you guys somet!! if you have any ideas regarding what i should write about next, preferably not something that i will take ages to write lmao, then please leave them in the message box thing. ummmm, not much else to say so i hope you’s kinda like it? you don’t have to, you can tell me if it’s shite lmao. also i’m really sorry if there are any spelling mistakes, i didn’t proof read bc i wanted it out for you lads as soon as i could! OH ONE MORE QUESTION. do you’s prefer longer or shorter one shots? just so when it comes to writing them i have an idea of what to include and stuff. 
lotta love, xoxo -b

part 1 if you haven’t read it yet here 💗

I was in the shower for probably at least 45 minutes after I woke up from the longest nap ever. It wasn’t my intention to stay in bed until 6 pm however I couldn’t do anything about it. I was tired and although I knew that it didn’t help my jetlag at all I just slept anyway.

Once I was out of the shower, dry and feeling comfortable in my pair of black leggings and baggy shirt I laid back down on the bed. My phone was charging which confused me for a minute because I didn’t remember putting it on the bed side table or even taking it out of my pocket. Then I suddenly realised that it must have been Harry who put me to bed properly and sorted my stuff out as well.

Sighing, I took my phone off of the charger and pressed the middle button which caused the screen to light up. As I scrolled down on the locked screen I saw a whole lot of messages from my mum, my dad, and my mates and if I saw correctly even Harry’s name popped up as well.

I didn’t pay much attention to them because as soon as I unlocked my phone I somehow instantly forgot about the messages. After I finished my daily routine of going through all of my social media accounts which mainly consisted of Instagram and Twitter I decided it was time to show my face. And to be honest, I was rather bored as well. Not to mention my hunger which didn’t seem to fade.

Although when I got downstairs I found myself on my own, it was as if I was the only one living here. I didn’t know where Harry was though he probably told me about it in his text which I never read. Oh well – I thought as I made my way towards the kitchen and opened up the fridge door. It was full of food.

But it was full of healthy food.

Then I found some chocolate yogurt and a smile creeped its way onto my lips. I took it out of the fridge without any hesitation, taking a spoon out of the drawers as well then sat down on the bar stool chairs. My eyes were probably shining like the stars on a night sky while my mouth was watering but just as I was about to eat the first spoonful of desert, Harry stumbled in the house.

First I thought he was drunk or something but then I saw the bags in his hands. His sunglasses were low on his nose, it was about to fall off actually, his shirt was wide open on his chest and his jeans were hanging down on his waist as well.

Basically, he was a mess.  

I raised my eyebrows as I put the spoon in my mouth and ate what was on it, not minding one bit that he just came back. He didn’t seem bothered and he sure as hell wasn’t expecting me to actually get up because he knew me too well.

“Are you still hungry?” he asked me a few minutes later when I had finished my yogurt. He was still putting the things he bought away and right up until the question slipped past his lips, we were both extremely quiet.

Maybe a bit too quiet.

“Umm,” I muttered as I turned around with my chair, leaning back on the counter with my elbows. “Depends what you bought.”

“Just some stuff,” he shrugged then when he turned around he looked at me with a questioning look on his face. Arching my brow, which seemed to be the only facial expression I’ve shown since I woke up, I waited for him to carry on but instead he just looked away while messing with the shopping bags.

“Why are you being so awkward?” I asked him finally, a laugh escaping my lips although I didn’t find the situation funny.

“I’m not being awkward. I don’t know what you’re on about,” he scoffed. “The jetlag must be hitting you and your little nap probably didn’t help you.”

“Are you seriously gonna be acting like a dick to me because I was moody on the way back from the airport?” my voice got stronger and louder as I stayed sat down. I tried not to let my emotions show on my face but I totally failed. I always did so I wasn’t surprised. “I’m so sorry I was tired, hungry and stressed.”

“Well, I was tired, hungry and stressed as well yet I put a smile on my face because I finally got to see you after ages.”

“I’m sorry you felt like that, okay? And I didn’t ask you to force a smile on your face, hell, I-, I don’t even know-, gosh, do we really have to argue?”

“I’m not arguing-,”

“Well then shut your mouth and give me a hug. You didn’t hug me since that awkward one at the airport where everyone was looking.”

A sigh left his mouth as he looked to the side. I saw as he swallowed then shut his eyes and let another sigh out before he concentrated on me with his eyes again.

“Okay, don’t give me a hug then, that’s fine too,” I gave up as I slipped off of the chair. I chucked the spoon in the sink then did the same to the empty yogurt box.

“Baby, look-,” he started to talk as I was about to leave the kitchen but his voice stopped me. I didn’t turn around, hoping he’d carry on with what he wanted to say but the room was dead silent.  

“Do you want me to stay here at all or should I just get my shit and leave?”

“Listen, I’m sorry-,”

“Yeah.”

“I am, I just-, I’m stressed, and I don’t know where my head’s at. I have my first solo performance in like hours, well, tomorrow night, but still. I’m nervous as hell and it didn’t help that I made you so angry when we were in the car.”

“I know you’re stressed and I know how it feels to be like that. You feel like you’re lost as if there’s no way out and you’re just stuck in one place. You don’t know what to do to get over yourself and your problems until you have a big crying session or talk it out with someone. So I don’t think it helps that you’re so distant, and that you made me so angry? When? You were being nice to me and I just flipped because I was not in the mood. You did nothing wrong.”

“Well, then why do I feel like I upset you? You said I was being awkward then I was acting like a dick towards you just now. What am I supposed to think?” his voice was desperate and lost, my heart suddenly started to ache for him and my actions spoke louder than my words could.

As I walked back to him I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him tightly, making sure I did my best to collect all of his pieces that were not stuck together to make him his perfect self. I absolutely hated seeing him in a bad shape and no matter what he did or did not do I couldn’t just stand there and let him be.

Which might not be always beneficial and it may make me look absolutely weak when it comes to him I had to accept it.

Almost right as I hugged him, his arms wrapped around my neck and his head rested on top of mine, making sure our bodies basically moulded into one.

“I love you. I’m sorry I’m such a mess,” he whispered into my hair, his soft voice full of emotions making my heart beat faster and goose bumps arise on my arms.

“I love you and please don’t say that. You’re not a mess.”

“I am a mess though and you know it too,” he sighed as he slightly pulled away, shoving one of his hands through this short hair.

“Well then in that case, you are my mess,” I winked at him as I got on the tip of my toes to press a light kiss on his lips.

He smiled which made me smile and I couldn’t help but wrap my arms around his neck this time and jump into his arms. Thankfully, he held on to me so I didn’t fall, a soft chuckle leaving his irresistible lips while his eyes were shining brighter than anything I have ever seen before.

“I’m sorry about my attitude before,” I told him as I hid my face in the crook of his neck. My grip was tight on him, my fingers formed into a fist as I locked my arms around Harry’s neck.

“Don’t worry about it, love,” he said and he suddenly started to walk out of the kitchen.

We didn’t go far, just to the couch in the living room where he sat down with me in his arms then I ended up sitting on his lap with my legs on each side of his waist.

“So you’ll come and see me, right?” he asked me a few minutes after he was just staring at me but not in a creepy way. He did that sometimes and I didn’t mind it because I knew he gave me his full attention and I loved it.

Now that might have sounded uptight and kind of selfish, it was the truth plus I didn’t mean it in that sense.

“Yes,” I said right away. “I mean if you want me to, it’s up to you.”

“I want you to,” he nodded. “Actually, I need you to come with me,” he laughed. “M’gonna be doing these skits and I need you to be there not to mention I’m performing a new song.”

“Which one?” I asked him curiously. I haven’t exactly heard his full album yet only because I told him I want it to be a surprise.

He actually really wanted me to listen to it then after I told him I wanted to wait for the actual release date he kinda got onto my idea. Of course he showed me snippets here and there because he knew how curious I was all of the time but I’m also way too stubborn so I wouldn’t just ask him to show me stuff.

“The only one you heard. Apart from Sign of the Times.”

“Ever Since New York?” I asked again just to make sure I was thinking about the right one.

I knew of the titles of the songs but I didn’t listen to them.

“Yeah,” a small smile made its way onto his lips. I couldn’t help myself as I leaned forward and pressed my mouth against his in a soft peck, his right hand came in contact with my cheek as he rested it on my face while our lips were touching. “I’m very happy you are here.”

“I’m very happy to be here.”

“Good,” he chuckled. “I missed having you around.”

“I bet you did,” I joked which to he raised one of his eyebrows and pouted at the same time. “I think I missed you too.”

“What do you mean you think? Aren’t you supposed to know that?”

“I don’t know, am I?”

“Um, yes?”

“Well, I don’t,” I shrugged as I kept on messing around with him and eventually got off his lap.

My legs were still on his thighs but I was sitting on the couch, right next to him. He took advantage of this position as he leaned into me, resting his head on my shoulder and placing his hands on my legs. They were warm and big and it made the butterflies in my stomach come to live as he rested his hands on my thighs. He just had that effect on me and it was lovely really.

“I’m just messing with you, I missed you more than you’ll ever know,” I said suddenly as I hugged his bicep tightly and pressed a few kisses on his chin as his head was still leaning on my shoulder.

A study in Hopper

In episode 8 of Season 1 we get to know a bit more about the backstory of Jim Hopper: who he was before moving back to Hawkins, how losing everything - his daughter, his marriage, his family - meant losing himself and turning into the man we see when we first meet him in the story: broken, unconcerned about anything or anyone, and suffering from anxiety. After finding Will’s (fake) body in the lake and having to tell Joyce about the death of his son, it’s like he re-experiences what he had to go through when his daughter died. He is so shaken that the day after he calls his ex wife, he wants to make sure that she knows he doesn’t regret anything they had tried to build together. Wrong decision, calling her. He knows that after what had happened she tried to build a new life, a new family. He understands. It hurts, though, hearing the sound of a baby in the background. Not Sarah. She is gone. She is someone he will never have back. At the end of season 1 Hopper saves Will - literally - by brining him back to life by performing CPR, and he saves Joyce, too - more metaphorically - by helping her bring her son back home and helping her heart and mind find some final peace. He stands behind Joyce while she is crying and holding the breathing mask to Will’s face. He stands behind Joyce while she holds on to his arm and lets him support her weight, her battle, her relief. And in that moment Hopper feels something he hasn’t felt in a while: he feels like he belongs.

When we meet Hopper again in Season 2, his life has taken an unexpected turn. Now he has someone to take care of and look after. And he is not sure if he will be strong enough to go through that again and survive it without falling back into the deep, dark hole he let himself reach right after Sarah died. He wants to be strong enough, for her, but having Eleven home feels too much like having a bit of Sarah back, and that is the scariest thing he has ever felt since moving back to Hawkins. He makes her the kind of breakfast he knows she will like, he reads to her, he tries to measure up to the expectations he himself set as his carer. (Not dad, it’s still too soon for him, he thinks back then). Then he looses his temper, he raises his voice. He makes mistakes. He fails and that destroys him in a way that he hasn’t experienced in a very long time. By the end of Season 2, Jim Hopper’s growth has come full circle: he has learned from his errors, and he apologies. He wants what he has with this little girl more than he has ever wanted anything in the past five years, so he tells himself he will give everything he has to make it work, to make it perfect. What he thought he would never have again, what his ex wife was able to build after Sarah, he has it now. Jim and Jane Hopper. Family.

By Season 3 or Season 4, I would like to see the resolution come full circle: there is only one thing that Hopper wants as much as he wants to be a good father to Jane, and maybe he is not fully aware of it, or maybe he is and he is just letting it happen naturally, giving the other person the space she needs and deserves.

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but i want to give you guys a heads up that i’m taking a break from FF for a bit. ill still be making it here and there, it just wont be the primary focus. its nothing personal or anything of the sort, in fact i love everyone here so much and im surprised such a positive and supportive fans come out of such..,.,
f i l t h. basically, id like to make other things too, and i have a bunch of other projects im excited to share with u guys and i just want to give you the headsup before everyone is like BRING BACK JOJIVLOGS. so yeah, ill still be making some ff and cc comics and things,, just with a lot of other works as well,, thats all. so yee,, ty guys for literally everything, and im excited for the future !!

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[NU'EST W - If You] Special Stage | M COUNTDOWN 170817 EP.537


Ever since I stanned Nu’est, even if it’s not as long as the others and not as short as the new fans, I’ve had many tears with them. This performance just got me. I’m teary-eyed and happy and I literally hugged myself because everything is so good. They did so well and I just need a fandom hug, seriously.

damn I really love languages?? They’re so weird and imperfect and sometimes the rules make you want to s c r e a m but they’re also really fascinating like who thought welsh mutations were a good idea or spanish’s goddamn subjunctive tense/mood/mode/idek or like the entirety of the english language lol And every language is so much its own thing… and when you learn it, it’s like DAMN I am speaking the product of millions of people slowly shifting and manipulating this construct over years and years I guess it’s just really crazy how many people it takes to build a language and how the process never really stops