(i'm not the first one to say it but the image is too precious)

Why Newt Scamander is NOT a cinnamon roll and why he’s flawed:

First of all, I am NOT saying that I hate Newt at all – I LOVE Newt, I LOVE Eddie and I’ve loved watching Eddie act since I saw him in “The Theory of Everything”. I think Eddie is fantastic, and I do love Newt’s character.

HAVING SAID THAT, this rant is more to do with the fandom than anything else – as in, me being pissed off with the fandom because of their “Newt is a precious cinnamon roll/Newt is too good for this world/Newt is perfect/Newt needs protecting” mentality. This isn’t all of the fandom, of course, but it’s a fair few and I’ve found myself getting gradually more and more infuriated over the past few months about it. This shouldn’t be regarded as hate, more as a retort/insight as to why I disagree with this silly mentality.

Let me start off by saying: Newt Scamander is VERY flawed. There, I said it.

Newt is NOT perfect. He’s awkward, has little to no regard for other humans, and is pretty untrustworthy to be honest. How? I present to you, an extract from the screenplay:

So, you got your wand permit? All foreigners have to have them in New York.

I made a postal application weeks ago

Small but think: if he’s lying about a postal application, chances are he’s lying about a lot more important stuff too. Either way, she was going to write him up. He had very little to gain from lying. I would also like to add that he’s breaking yet another law (even if it’s silly, it’s still breaking a law).

The thing that we, the audience, have to understand about Newt is that we like him because we know he’s a protagonist – we know he’s Eddie, we know the kind of person he is even before we watch the film. But if you look at it from an inside perspective – i.e. someone who lives in the universe of the film – he’s shady as fuck. He not only didn’t bother with a wand permit application, he also smuggled beasts into the country illegally (he had full knowledge of what he was doing, don’t deny it), apparated with a No-Maj, then didn’t obliviate that No-Maj, accidentally set a Niffler loose in a bank and basically decided “hey, fuck the law, I’d rather expose wizards than lose my Niffler/miss the egg hatching” when he apparated with Jacob. Standing on the steps of the bank, talking to an abusive woman/leader of the NSPS, he probably looked even more suspicious (especially seeing as she openly called him “friend” – which, to be honest, doesn’t really mean a lot but just imagine you’re there and that happens…you’d probably be a bit iffy about it).

How else is Newt untrustworthy in the first half of the film? He lies to Tina about why he’s in New York in the first place and he then blackmails Jacob into sneaking away from the girls’ apartment even though they gave them food and hot cocoa. You know when Newt says “you do realize that once they see you’ve stopped sweating, they’ll obliviate you in a heartbeat”? It’s sly blackmail. He knows that Jacob doesn’t want his memory wiped, he knows that Jacob is enjoying this new world that he’s been exposed to, and Newt is using that to his advantage. The choice in front of Jacob he’s setting out is: “Help me find my creatures and remain in this wonderful world…or, you know, stay here and have your memory wiped”.

I’m not denying the friendship between Newt and Jacob – their friendship is wonderful. But at this point, they aren’t exactly friends really, even if they’re starting to head that way. Newt was perfectly happy to attempt to sneak out of the apartment on his own before Queenie called him out – part of the reason he’s probably bringing Jacob is because he knows that Jacob will say something otherwise. I mean, Jacob is a good guy – he didn’t want to leave because he knew it would be rude to just leave the girls after all they had done for them. I’m not saying that Newt isn’t a good guy, I’m just…well.

Newt also has a total disregard for other humans/safety; “yep, let me throw a Swooping Evil in a No-Maj’s face for a joke”. Total dick move, even if he thought he knew what he was doing. “No-Maj is lying on the floor bleeding – nah, he’s fine, where’s the creatures?”. “Let me bring a No-Maj on a hunt to find potentially dangerous creatures”.

Actual thing in the screenplay when Jacob has been bitten by a Murtlap:

“With TINA’S back turned, NEWT makes towards the door”

What makes Newt turn back?

“TINA emits a guttural scream as the Murtlap comes scuttling out (…) NEWT spins, catching the creature by the tail”.

Newt wasn’t concerned at all for Jacob – “oh, it’s not serious”. Yeah, maybe not to a wizard but to a No-Maj whose physiology is different? Potentially extremely dangerous.

But, yeah, no - Newt is absolutely perfect of course so we’ll forget about it. (sarcasm)

He isn’t just awkward either, okay? He had no problem dragging Jacob down into the case, nor when it came to pushing Tina’s hair back at the docks. Every time I see a fic where he stutters out “I-I-I-I l-lo-love you”, I puke in my mouth a bit. That is so OOC and silly. When it’s humans he knows and likes (loves, in Tina’s case, fight me), he’s more confident and assured – so please stop saying that he’s awkward and will forever be so awkward that he cannot have human friends/love interests.

Newt has great qualities, of course, I’m not denying that…but please stop writing him/saying he’s perfect…or that he’s “too good for this world”/”too pure”/”too innocent”. He’s really not. He’s flawed, as all the best characters should be, and if you love his character then you should also be able to say “he’s got flaws and that’s okay”.

With this image of him being “perfect”, there comes my next pet-peeve: Tina hate.

I have legit seen people say that Newt is “too good/perfect” for Tina. I can’t even begin to sum up the stupidity of that idea; shipping aside, they’re both flawed characters in their own ways and that’s totally fine. I feel that some of the Tina-hate stems from either jealousy or the idea that Newt is too perfect; it’s like “oh, my OC is perfect because she’s just like Newt”. Please, no. Don’t.

Tina-hate also seems to stem from the fact that she “turned Newt in”. The usual rant goes here: a) it was her job, b) he’s pretty shady, c) you’d all complain if she put a guy she barely knew over getting her career back on track….etc. etc. Suddenly, because Tina DID HER JOB and it happened to involve arresting Newt, that makes her the fandom’s number one enemy.

Tina isn’t the only one I’ve seen receive hate: I legit saw someone say that they hated Queenie for “forcing Newt to get with Tina” and I just…? Since fucking when? How does “you need a giver” translate as “you have no choice but to marry my sister and live in Dorset with her”?

As I said, this fandom is so obsessed with the idea of “precious cinnamon roll Newt is too good too pure he needs protection”. He’s NOT this. Please stop making him like this. He’s a flawed man, he makes mistakes, as do we all, he’s far from perfect.

As I said before, I love Newt, he’s a great character, but the way that the fandom categorizes him as “a perfect sexy wonderful cinnamon roll who is too good for this world” is actually vomit-inducing and makes me start wanting to hate him – it genuinely puts me off being in the fandom when they push the idea that a character is too flawless, and Newt isn’t flawless which is why he’s a great character.

This rant made little to no sense really and I’m now off to write fanfics.

harutaka in -over the dimension-

—their first interaction in the novel takes up most of the second chapter. haruka is supposed to be designing the enemies for the game they’re making for the school festival, but he’s spacing out and can’t think of what to draw—so takane starts yelling at him. haruka thinks to himself that he wishes she’d stop being so rude, particularly because he’s worried that no one will want to marry her because of it.

—they start talking about what kind of enemies haruka should create. he didn’t want to draw zombies like takane suggested, so they come up with a solution together. he’s happy and inspired when takane suggests they base them off animals instead.

—takane smiles at haruka, which he says makes him smile too.

—haruka came up with the game’s title the day before, but no one has voiced it aloud yet. he gets excited upon realizing that takane’s going to be the first one to say it.

—haruka notes that he’s happy takane inspired him in deciding what enemies to draw.

—he’s on a roll with designing the characters. the thought of takane being excited about it is his…….driving force, to say the least. says he “salivates” at the thought of it lmao and he blushes a little even. he wants to impress her and have her compliment him.

—haruka talks on the phone with kenjirou and thinks about how he’s having trouble creating the game’s final enemy. he gets excited suddenly, then asks kenjirou if he has a picture of takane he could borrow.

—haruka’s over at kenjirou’s house the week before the school festival to work on the game, and he’s spending some time with ayano. after she’s gone, he notes that there’s only one person his age that he feels comfortable around (takane.)

—he closes his eyes and euphorically images her—in very precise (and almost provocative) detail. he notes that he doesn’t need a picture of her, and he can imagine takane more vividly than any photo.

—he’s then overwhelmed by the urge to say her name out loud, and decides to since no one’s around. he starts to when there’s a knock on the door, at which point he feels embarrassed. (in the illustration he looks so blissful when he’s thinking about her omg.)

—kano comes in disguised as ayano. then asks haruka if he was thinking dirty thoughts just now. haruka freaks out and comments (almost guiltily,) that no, he wasn’t, then specifically notes that he was thinking about takane though.

—it goes on to the school festival in the next chapter, there’s a long description (which is honestly kind of on going throughout the whole chapter,) of haruka observing takane playing video games. he’s amazed and even inspired because she’s so good at them, and lives up to her title as “dancing flash ene”.

—not really too ~concrete~ in terms of harutaka but it was still really funny to me: takane calls haruka a dumbass for being as excited as he is, and he just agrees like HELL YEAH I’M A DUMBASS.

—haruka watches shin and takane face off in headphone actor, and notes that he’s feeling unexpected jealousy. he says he wants to be able to play games with takane, and make her feel as excited and “impassioned” as she feels right now.

—he congratulates her even though she lost.

—he comments again in his mind that he wants to play video games with takane, casually mentions it to shintaro, then gets incredibly excited at the prospect when shintaro offers to teach him how.

—later when he and shin are playing video games, shin says that haruka and takane should battle—but haruka still feels too inexperienced to do so, and he’s afraid that takane won’t wanna play against him again if he flat out loses to her the first time.

—in the next chapter, he and shin are at an arcade keeping an eye on momo—when takane calls haruka. takane tells him that it’s ayano’s birthday, and she’s throwing a party for her. haruka wants to attend but has to take care of momo first, so he can’t right now. he then lies to takane about where he is, because he knows that takane doesn’t like shintaro—and he doesn’t wanna put her in a bad mood for hanging out with him instead. after they hang up, he feels terrible for lying to takane.

—takane implies that she wanted to bring haruka to the arcade herself, and also teases him a little that he lost his chance to go with her.

—takane is at the arcade with ayano, and it turns out they’re gonna be facing off against haruka and shintaro in a tournament final. it’s haruka against takane, and shintaro against ayano.

—takane calls his and shintaro’s costumes freaky without knowing who they are (since they were wearing masks,) and haruka gets a li’l emo lmao.

—haruka realizes this is the first time he’s facing off against takane and gets nervous since he hasn’t mentally prepared himself.

—haruka only wins because he calls out takane’s name during the match……for some reason, and distracts her. takane isn’t mad later when she finds out he lied to her, but tells him not to lie to her ever again.

—towards the end of the chapter, takane gets flustered that he isn’t paying attention to her when she’s talking—he’s distracted thinking about how he’s going to die.

—at the beginning of the next chapter, he’s thinking about when he battled takane just because.

—shintaro comes and visits haruka at his house, he thinks about how he considers shintaro to be a good friend. haruka then says he’d also consider takane a friend, but doesn’t feel quite right about calling her that. he admits that his feelings for her might be love, but he can’t act on or even acknowledge the fact, because he knows he’s going to die.

—he goes for a walk later that night, he says he wanted to do something special before he dies. he thinks about how great it’d be if he and takane could face one another in the upcoming dead bullet tournament, and says it could be a precious moment of his life, and he doesn’t feel like it’s wasted.

—haruka’s last moments alive, spent with takane:

“The sounds around me seemed to echo mindlessly in my ears, and soon I could only pick up the barest nuances of Takane’s words. What did she say? I didn’t know. She sounded real sad, though.

Ahhh, I’m sorry, Takane. I’m really sorry. I’ve received so much from you, but I couldn’t give you anything in return.
I bet you’re angry about it. Well, you can be, if you want. You can punch me, even. If it helps you get over it, you can do anything you like.
Oh, but don’t take it out too much on people besides me. You might run into all kinds of wonderful people later on in life. You need to treat them with the care they’ll deserve. 
Yeah. That’s right. You’re a kind, gentle girl, Takane. You need to keep on smiling. You need to be happy. 

So, please, Takane. Stop crying…”

anonymous asked:

Hello, yes, hi, I recently found your art and account and I love what you do. I'm turning 14 in April and I've asked for a drawing pad, but I have no idea how to use one as of yet. Have you got any tips or anything? Because I've wanted to try digital art for a while and your art makes me want to even more lmao. Thanks! - B.A.


(I’m not sure what kind of comp you’re going to be using, so I’ll list for both.)

FIRST: Drawing Programs; the free and the great.

-Firealpaca: Lightweight drawing program. I draw Recovery using this! It’s easy on the RAM if you have a weak comp/are paranoid about yours like I am, it is mainly for basic comic making, and has all the basic brushes you need (pen/pencil/airbrush/symmetry/etc). You can add your own brushes as well but they’re p basic settings. Has basic Animation/Gif making as well using Onion Mode! Layout is a piece of cake. Please note that If you leave it open for a week it’ll crash on you, even if you haven’t anything on it at the moment, and sometimes the brush sensitivity just stops working so you just have to close and then open it again. (Also I have no idea how to update it aside from deleting it completely and just downloading the new version from scratch, so thats a thing.) Mac/Windows

-MedibangPaint: This is basically FireAlpaca But Better. Has tons of screen tones, brush patterns, and tools. I don’t use it much because I’m used to FA’s layout and get confused with the the placement of tools in here, so if you can I highly suggest just going with this first. Also has basic animation/gif making! Has storage for the website as well, and you can upload more preset brushes. It’s v anime. This program has waaay more in terms of basically everything, so it just takes more RAM. NBD, you don’t have to have every brush downloaded from the storage ^u^. Mac/Windows

-Clip Studio Paint: Okay this one isn’t free, it’s a pricey one, HOWEVER once a year they take the price way fuckin down by at least 75%. Sign up for the email list and it’ll let you know when that precious day comes. It’s how I got it @u@, around christmastime? This program is basically MedibangPaint On Steroids. I do all of my digital-yet-tradition-style-painting on here! The brushes all have some neat af settings to play with, you can make your own brushes, has tons of screen tones, pre-made panels, and settings. You can save projects as basically anything you need, is a hardy program that almost never crashes, and It’ll take a nice chunk of space on your comp depending on how much memory you have but hey, its worth it. It’s much more complex layout-wise than the other two here, but you get used to it after playing around and watching tutorials haha.

-Mischief: It’s a 25$ app, has like four brushes and five layers only but is vector-based with an endless canvas. Not really worth having unless you like the vector thing. UP TO YOU. I spent forever with this one doing all that homestuck stuff, so it’s not really bad so much as it is a basic bitch. Mac

-MyPaint: I used this a bunch when I still did digital art on my windows laptop before I upgraded to a Mac. It’s easy on the comp and has plenty of brushes and settings. You can also get brush packages if you don’t feel like you have enough that comes with the program! Also has endless canvas; pretty sure you can just select an area and then export as is. I barely remember the rest but It’s pretty great. Windows/MacPorts(which I hate)

-GIMP: I hate this thing. I cannot figure it out for the life of me. It’s got loads of shit though, can handle layers, has plenty of brushes, and can do basic animation/gifs if you ever figure it out. Windows/mac

I’ve heard good things from paint tool SAI and Krita as well, but have never used them myself.

***You can always pay through the nose/use a student discount for the photoshop series and pay that shit monthly, those fuckers have literally everything, but I am a cheap college kid making minimum wage with a car payment; I’d rather just pay once/not at all.

TABLETS: treat that shit like a newborn babe 24/7

-I have literally only ever owned a Wacom Intuos4. It has lasted me six years, and at least five moves across many miles. I broke one of the cord ports the day I opened it by holding it wrong, have one left, and now treat it like it’s going to die if the cord moves badly. Please be aware that if you break both ports, you better either sodder it back together yourself or upgrade to smth else because it costs about as much as the tablet itself was bought at to be fixed. Good news, though, it comes with at least six extra pen nibs, has programable buttons on the side (that I have never bothered to use) and a scroll bar in case you’re too lazy to use the keyboard (…I don’t really use that either unless I’m just scrolling through tumblr LMFAO).

-I would die for a Cintiq.

HOT TIPS: its useful.

-most of the programs listed use the same keyboard shortcuts. MEMORIZE THEM. It’s pretty easy, since you’ll use em a lot. [cntrl/cmmd+T] lets you resize what you just drew on that layer, and [cntrl/cmmd+z] is undo. I use those the most, for obvious reasons.

-vector-based programs are pretty great because when you resize an image it looks prefect. You can’t do that with a program that isn’t, so I just resize the base roughdraft and draw the lineart again on the layer above so I don’t get weird JPEG quality lines.

-You can use a ruler with your tablet, just slap it on and go, but honestly most programs have settings for that. just use those.

-You can also trace stuff on your tablet, so long as the paper isn’t too thick. I just scan/take a photo and then open it up in the program, though. much easier.

-SAVE CONSTANTLY. Art programs like to crash on you, even when they’re hardy and you have a good comp. make it a habit to quick save your work.

-Use a desk and have good posture. You’ll be able to draw a hell of a lot longer if you do. I personally keep fucking up my knees by sitting on my legs as I work out of habit, and don’t actually have a desk chair. Keep your screen at eye level and at a fair distance to prevent eyestrain and also neck-strain haha

-Chances are you won’t be used to the tablet right away. Most places you buy from say it’ll take a couple of months to get used to how weird it is to draw while not looking at your own hand, so don’t be frustrated If your drawings look a bit off at first.

-if you draw at least one thing every day, by the end of the year you’ll have improved exponentially. I literally made this blog to make myself draw once a day.

-don’t be afraid to check out speedpaints and tutorials. It’s always good to get more familiar with the program you’re using and new techniques previously unconsidered.

-get familiar with clipping layers. They are insanely useful; you clip one layer to the one below and then when you draw it only shows up on the drawing of that layer below. Shit is a godsend if you’re bad at coloring in the lines/lazy. The bucket tool is also really useful, and you can adjust the expansion by pixel so you don’t miss anything between the lines.

-experiment with your brushes, shit be fun af

-warmup your wrists before and after drawing. prevent swollen veins and such. dont want hand pain/numbness, its reaaaaally bad.

—basically if your hands hurt stop for the day.

-PNGS are for internet, JPEGS are for printing/fucking with quality (cough hack homestuck)

-resolution doesn’t have to be much more than 350 dpi if its just going to be on a webpage. Maximize that shit if you’re going to be printing, though. Especially if you put stuff on redbubble.

-DeviantArt has this thing called Sta.sh where you can dump art, keep it in perfect quality and just share it with certain people with a link instead of all of the website. Great for storing commission pieces, its the only reason I have DA in the first place.

-you get a different audience depending on what site you use for posting art, so keep that in mind for the kind of feedback you want.

-after awhile of drawing using a tablet, you may lose patience/forget that in traditional art there isn’t an undo button lmfao It’s cool; you don’t have to choose one over the other or anything.

-Honestly you can work around almost anything. You just invent new ways and techniques for yourself and you’ll do just fine.

Aaaaand that’s all I got for today! Thanks for sticking around <3

pidge and lance are best friends: a illustrated guide that nobody asked for

hey y’all i’m emma and welcome to jackass appreciating pidge and lance’s beautiful friendship

(this is long af with many screencaps, but i describe them, so you don’t really need to open them all if you’re on mobile ok i know the struggle and i’ve got u)

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Marissonshipping scenes that are important to me (long post, be warned)

TSME act II:

Alain spontaneously jumping to protect Mairin from Draco Meteor and getting injured in the process (cared about her well being more than his own)

TSME act III: 

Mairin first asking about Alain’s shoulder and then trying to stop Alain from going after Kyogre and Groudon (”But I don’t want anything to happen to you”) and Alain telling her to go home so she’d be safe

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The fault in our ARMYs(it's okay, I cringed at the title too)
  • BEWAre it'S VerY LoNG!!!!!
  • OHOHOOHOOO~. So a couple weeks ago, I wanted t write something. A couple weeks ago I was afraid of getting hate. A couple weeks ago, we still had a problem. But I honestly don't care about getting hate anymore, but the fact that it had to come to a point like this before I spoke out? I'm really sorry. Nevertheless, I'm going to speak out now. Let's address the first problem.
  • BTS in Sweden and Germany:
  • - Rap Monster was CHASED into a changing room and ARMYs kept following and trying to peek inside.
  • - Jimin was approached by a girl at an ungodly hour, she shoved her phone in his face, asking for a picture. Being the polite muffin he is, he tried to say "ah-ah no.." But bitches gonna be bitches : )
  • - NEXT UP (yup, there's more), Jin and Kookie were chased down the street by ARMYs they tried to run away no- they were sprinting away but this ARMY followed after them "like a wild animal"
  • -V, my precious baby angel, (I'm not saying that he never gets angry, but he's good with his idol image) Got visibly mad, he looked on the verge of tears
  • -YOONGI had to SHOUT to get the ARMY's away.
  • May I remind you that this was their VACATION, they were trying to relax before they went to a French, New York(Newark really) AND LA KCON. After a comeback, 3 mv's, concert stages and all the fucking promotion, OUR BABIES CANNOT GET A BREAK???? This is exactly what happened in Mexico with them last year. "Fans" threw PHONES at them.DO YOU WANNA KNOW THE BEST PART? Their excuses lmao "If you saw BTS, you would want to talk to them" : )))) these are shit excuses from shit people.
  • PLEASE NOTE: These bitches do not represent the ENTIRE European ARMYs and International ARMY fan base. but they do put on an image and just hint to changes that must be made. BTS, and every other idol or famous person, they are all people, normal people like you and I. So treat them as such, not as fucking ZOO ANIMALS. Also, I hope y'all know how dehumanizing it is to be greeted with a phone.. Like wherever they go, people don't look at them through their eyes, they take a video of it. It's not always fun to be treated like a lab animal, guys.
  • Why don't we talk about army's in general. Okay,
  • @overdosescenarios wrote something like this too and they got hate for it.
  • - ARMY is a big fan base but guess what? THEY ARE NOT THE ONLY BIG FANBASE. (Surprise Surprise) But regardless, SOME army's have this disgusting habit of thinking ARMY's or BTS are above any other groups...huh..weird.
  • - Not all ARMYs but we have a habit of doing this other thing, any video, regardless if it's kpop or whatever, some ARMY comments something and other flock there saying "OMG ARMY" or "JIMIN GOT NO JAMS XDDdDDDDDddd" like ???? Yes I know you're excited to see a fellow ARMY but come oN. Even on Seventeen's "pretty U" they were all over there saying that the video resembled "RUN". Sorry, it really didn't. Like...I guess seventeen ran? But that's it though. Also Carats are like the chillest FANBASE but they got peeved at all the ARMYS. Because if it wasn't someone calling out the resemblance, it was an ARMY apologizing or a CARAT addressing the problem. And you had to scroll all the way down before you reached a comment that addressed the hard work SEVENTEEN put into THEIR video. Smh
  • - DO NOT cOMMEnT EVERYWHERE. It's okay to comment but a good 150 of you flock when someone either has an ARMY shirt, or the word BTS is mentioned. Like one or two, fine. Good.BTS is so great. ITs just cursed by a really annoying FANBASE.
  • - Don't call V an alien, Don't say RM breaks everything, don't do shit like that. They don't like to be known as that stuff It's like getting the superlative for "weirdest kid" in High School. That should not be their legacy, okay?
  • - Don't hate on other groups and DON'T HATE OF OUR MEMBERS. YO I saw people giving v a hard time. What that boiiii ever do to you, huh? Tayang's song wasn't for him. Idols aren't perfect okay?
  • - Don't get mad when BTS isn't included in react videos. I saw so many comments on Buzzfeed about "WHY ISN'T BTS HERE". And I have an answer, BTS isn't the only kpop group worth a mention.
  • - You gotta understand that Rap mon and Suga and Hobi aren't the only good rappers out there. I know that calling Chanyeol (I love yeolie but really lmao) a better rapper than them is a damn disgrace but there are other talented people. And if you are only into BTS and you're calling them better rappers, better dancers, better singers, then you aren't a real fan bruh.
  • BTS started off small, they made their way up and in no way am I,or other good army's letting those little shits crap all over it. THere are people who don't even wanna join our fandom because of the bad apples. Just cut it out please. I don't know if it's new army's or the ones that got in from FineBros or Buzzfeed *shivers* but just stop.
  • Sorry for the rant.
One Last Time

         Summary: Marcus Kane never thought he’d get to see Abby Griffin before his execution. Very slightly canon-divergent retelling of the “I can’t do this again” scene in 3x09 from Marcus’ perspective. There may or may not be an angsty kiss.

          The hallway was the ocean, the ties on his wrists and feet were anchors, and Marcus Kane was drowning.

          Being pulled from the cell alone, instead of in tandem with Lincoln and Sinclair, had that effect. Despite all his iron strength, his insistence on remaining strong, Marcus felt his heartbeat speeding up and his stomach crawling its way toward his throat.

         As he walked down the metallic corridors of his home, his every step choked by the restraints around his ankles, he couldn’t help but wonder if this was the last time he’d see it all. The last time his feet would step on the tile in this corridor. The last time he’d squint from the glare of these lights, the last time he’d breathe this air. His moments on Earth were trickling away, and he knew what was left of his life was a laundry list of lasts.

         But the truth of the matter was that if it led his people to understanding what Pike had become, the road he was leading them down, he’d kneel on that solid ground in front of the gun’s barrel. It wasn’t the rebellion he had imagined or an ending he desired, but it was the undeniable hand fate had dealt him.

         And in the end, if God truly was a forgiving man, Marcus couldn’t help but hope that he’d see his mother again.

        When the door to the conference room opened with a faint hiss, Marcus Kane didn’t know what to expect. A gun pointed straight at him? A firing squad? Just Pike? He had prepared himself for the worst, for the most horrible, deplorable scenarios, and it never occurred to him that what lay waiting behind those metallic barriers might not have been grotesque at all.

       It never occurred to him that he was being taken straight to Abby Griffin.

       “You can thank Chancellor Pike for this,” the guard barked, shoving him into the room. “You have five minutes.”

       The door hissed shut again, but Marcus was far past the point of being able to hear it. She was there in front of him, so vivid and damningly, hauntingly beautiful, and for a moment he had to convince himself that this wasn’t a dream. In what reality, he wondered, would a man like himself be allowed to see her one last time?

        But her presence presented a new problem, one for which he had no solution. How could he go about telling her everything he wanted to say, everything he needed her to hear, without shattering into a thousand pieces? There were too many things he had to apologize for, things she had to know before he said his final goodbye, but his tongue had turned to lead in his mouth.

       Abby blinked, shutting her eyes a little too quickly and for a little too long, and he realized that she’d been crying.

       “Are you all right?” he asked as he approached her, his head running a film reel of all the awful things Pike could have done to her in the time he’d been in lockup. If he’s hurt her, so help me, I’ll find a way to make him pay. Even if I only have hours left.

        She nodded, and he felt the knot of worry in his chest come untied. The faint smile that flickered across her trembling mouth chipped away at the edges of his heart. There’s nothing I can say that won’t hurt her, he thought despairingly.

       “I won’t let this happen to you,” she said firmly, taking a step toward him. She was close enough now that he could hear her uneven breathing, he could see her shoulders shaking. Another chunk of his heart, gone.

       He had to make himself say something, had to force some words out of his heavy lips even though it felt like every syllable was being forced out of him.

       “Abby, listen to me,” he said, his voice wavering. “Anyone caught helping us will be condemned to death, too.”

       Her brown eyes found their way to his, and he prayed with every ounce of strength he had left that she wouldn’t get involved. His own death, he could handle. He could even justify it. He could make sense of it. After all, after everything he’d done, the suffering and pain he’d caused, perhaps this was nothing more than the powers of the universe giving him what he deserved.

       But her? If he had his way, Abby Griffin would die peacefully years and years from now, surrounded by her family and every single person on Earth that she loved. She wouldn’t die at an execution, not from a treason sentence. Not because she tried to help him, the man who sentenced the man she loved to death. The man who shocklashed her.

       “Then I won’t get caught,” she responded, her lower lip trembling slightly. Despite the pain that burned him with every breath he took, Marcus had to laugh. Even here, under these Earthen skies, after everything they’d been through and all the challenges they’d faced, she was still Councilor Abigail Griffin. She was still that wonderfully infuriating woman who didn’t take no for an answer, the only one who had the ability to drive him mad with both longing and anger. And, he finally let himself admit, love.

        If he tried to pinpoint a single moment when he realized he was in love with her, it would have been like trying to find a single star on Earth and then attempting to find it again in space. There were too many brilliant moments, times when he looked at her in awe and wonder and felt something electrifying stirring inside of him. She was his light when everything inside of him was dark. That brightness had slowly multiplied and expanded to fill an entire galaxy within his soul, and she was the sun it orbited around.

       Even if she didn’t feel the same, he wouldn’t let that light be extinguished.

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Do you get what a complex character Jasper is?

As a Jasper fan, I wasn’t very happy abaout these recent episodes showing Jasper as nothing more than a faded-to-lose power maniac villain. BUT, they made up for everything at that last few seconds of “Earthlings.” 

Okay, first, we learned that Jasper was made on earth too, just like Amethyst, but in a less qualified Kindergarten. Considering how Peridot was using it to cheer Amethyst up, I guess where you come from is important for gems. Even the hole you came from can say a lot abaout you. 

I’d like to point out also that some of the injectors were crushed, possibly by crystal gems, to prevent homeworld from creating decent gems and if that’s the point then it worked. None of the holes came out right. Well, except for one, of course. Jasper came out perfect as the “Ultimate Quartz.” And it was her fate to fight and so she fought from the second she broke free of the earth’s crust. Fought for her colony. (Which she might have loved.) Fought for her planet. (Which she might have loved.) Fought for her Diamond. (Which she probably loved.) But she FAILED. Everything she fought for was ruined. By Crystal Gems. By Rose Quartz. 

So she entered under Yellow Diamond’s command (”Because when you’re at the bottom, you follow anyone that makes you feel like less of a failure.”) but it wasn’t her diamond. Homeworld wasn’t “home” for her. And her comrades wasn’t her colony. She only came back to earth to take revenge of these things that taken away from her. But she has defeated once again. By fusion, something that should be based on trust and compaionship, the two things that Jasper has never gained. Nobody she fuses with ever wants to stay and she’ll always be defeated by fusion. Because she doesn’t get it. Because she doesn’t know a thing about love or friendship or any related feelings. All she knows is fighting and being strong. 

But she even failed at the only thing she knows, probably the only thing she’s good at. She couldn’t fulfill her main purpose, what she was made for. She was a failure

So she let corruption took over her. She let this shallow planet twist her too, just like it did to those disgraceful freaks. And she became one of them. Because “We all get what we deserve, right?” 

My conclusion is, all those insults she threw away at Amethyst and anyone or anything she saw as a failure and how she always fights with them to show who is better… It was all an unavailing attempt to prove herself that she wasn’t a failure but in the end, she admitted the truth. 

But she’ll surely be back. 

All we’ve seen and heard abaout Rose Quartz until now was that she was a pacifist lady who fought for the earth as she believed “all life is precious” and did nothing wrong. But these recent episodes (Especially “Bismuth” and “Earthlings”.) just shattered that image (No puns intended.) and led us and Steven to question her. Steven’s main goal was always been to be like her mother but is she really the one he wants to become? I think show is going to a direction where Steven will be better than her mom, won’t make the mistakes she did and even fix them. And what will he start with? Yes, my guess is Jasper. 

I believe that Jasper will surely get her redemption arc and it’ll be the best one. Because we’ve never seen her with an expression other than angst or smug, until “Earthlings" at least. Imagine her laughing sincerily at some joke Amethyst made or getting confused abaout some earth thing that Steven showed her. Imagine her learning to love her home once again.  

To me, it was always hinted that Peridot is a dork and I wasn’t surprised at Lapis becoming an ally. Earth has only set them free but Jasper will be the one who is truly changed by it. And if it really happens I’ll love this show even more, altough I already love as much as I can! 

I only want Jasper to be happy.

EDIT: Guys, some anon mentioned that injectors were broken by Jasper to use their legs as cage bars (clever), not crushed by Crystal Gems during the war. I didn’t see it, thanks to that anon for fixing that. :) 

yesfangirl  asked:

Could you do a small story or an extended prompt about Bree and Roger telling Jamie and Claire Mandy's full name after she was born. The books never extended on that although I'm pretty sure it was Amanda Claire FAITH McKenzie. You are so good writing the emotional stuff and I'd give anything to read about that conversation! Thanks Kathleen :)

So apparently Mandy’s name is actually Amanda Claire Hope MacKenzie. But I wanted to give you something, so I tweaked it a bit and came up with this wee thing. Hope you like it @yesfangirl! <3

Worthy of Love

“She ought to have another name.” Bree told me one afternoon, while nursing Mandy. We were peacefully sitting in my surgery, after I had made my daily evaluation of her baby’s welfare with my Pinard stethoscope. A week had passed since my shattering diagnosis of patent ductus arteriosus and the daunting realization that Amanda’s life was in danger since the moment she had left the safety of Brianna’s womb.

“Is Amanda Claire MacKenzie not enough, do you think?” I asked her, my hands occupied with the construction of a pleasant habitat for my newest friends, a couple of plump and precious leeches. “The more names you give her, the harder it will be for her to learn them; not to mention writing them.”

“Yes.” She rocked slightly on the chair, her eyes inevitably drawn to Mandy’s blue fingernails, a tell-tale sign that betrayed her oxygen deprivation. It was a permanent competition between the need to feed and the need to breathe – one that seemed only unfair, robbing every happiness of that moment of bonding between mother and child. “But I’m not happy with it. It’s missing something.”

“Maybe you can pay homage to someone important to Roger?” I suggested amiably. “Since she already has the burden of my name.”

Brianna clicked her tongue; it never seized to amaze me how much she sounded like Jamie doing so. How two people could be so similar in the simple things that made me love them so irrevocably.

“It’s not a burden and we both agreed on it.” She changed the baby’s position on her arms, ready to put her to burp after another excruciating session of sucking and sleeping from her heart’s tiredness. “Besides, Roger chose her first name. Amanda.” Bree smiled a little, but her voice was husky and I could see the sadness and the constant concern behind her eyes. “He said he loved her so much since the moment he first laid eyes on her that Marjorie wouldn’t measure up. It had to be Amanda – Lovable. Worthy of love.”

“What were you thinking, then?” I asked, trying to distract her from the pit of despair she was about to plunge herself in. The same hole from which Jamie and myself managed to escape each morning since that unforgettable day, only with the help of each other’s arms.

“Faith.” Bree said softly. “I was thinking, maybe…Amanda Claire Faith MacKenzie.”

“Sweetheart…” I whispered, coming closer in order to put my arm around her. “Amanda is not your sister.” I swallowed hard. “Faith she - was so small and had such a hazardous delivery into this world – she never stood a chance.” My voice trembled, but just a little – I was trying very hard to be strong for us both.

“I know that.” She sighed. “You keep saying that she has a fighting chance if – when – we go back. But…” Bree turned her face away from me, but not fast enough to hide a traitorous tear. “I wished my sister was here with me, Mama. I wanted so badly to have an older sister, someone to look up to, to tell me everything was going to be alright.” Her voice almost broke this time. “To stay here, with you….when I’m gone.”

“Bree.” I caressed her beautiful red hair, a deep contrast with her own daughter’s dark tufts. “I’ve said goodbye to you once in the past, thinking that probably I would never see you again – everyday wishing for a sign that you were happy in your time and knowing I wouldn’t get one.” I kissed her temple. “But you came to us and we’ve had more together than I ever dreamt of.”

“How did you do it?” She cleaned a tear with the back of her big fair hand. “Survive the…the loss of your child? Of the dreams you had for her the moment you knew she was there, inside you? The dreams you shared along with your own blood inside your belly?”

“I don’t know.” I answered honestly. “I thought I wouldn’t, but – I had your father and the gift Mother Hildegard gave me.”

“Gift?” She looked at me, her blue eyes surrounded by red streaks and greyish blots from the crying and the lack of sleep. “What gift?”

“Well,” I said slowly, playing with Mandy’s little toes and watching her yawn. “Mother Hildegard named her. She christened her and gave her a name while I was too sick to do anything really. Faith. Once I knew, I thought Mother had the oddest and most inappropriate sense of humour.”

“It was a weird choice.” She agreed, patting Mandy’s bottom. “What do you mean by a gift, then?”

“She gave me what I needed.” I answered serenely. “For faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” I quoted the Bible’s verse. “I had my daughter, even if for the briefest of times. But what I came to realize, you see, is that even though she was gone I was still her mother. She still…was is.”

Brianna nodded, trapped inside my words.

“I needed faith to heal of everything that happened in France. Each day I woke up; went through the motions, like I was sleepwalking when the pain was too much; I slept and started it all over again. I craved repentance and salvation. And it eventually came and I was able to smile and live again.”

“So it is a good name?” She insisted.

“I think what you need is something else entirely – just as powerful and sometimes just as hard to find.” I said softly, already storing in my memory the image of my two girls together as they were now, peacefully and happily close to my heart.

“And what is that?” Bree asked, her hand searching my own, our fingers entwining like we used to do when she was a little girl, afraid of how high the swing would go. But she had always been brave; she used to laugh and ask to go even higher, conquering her fears.

This time I wouldn’t be there to help her be brave; but she had a little hand of her own to hold now.

Hope.” I whispered and kissed her ever so softly.

anonymous asked:

Ahhh! I've been watching through the seasons of Real Got7 because I have't seen all of them and I'm almost done with season two but I always keep coming back to season one episode nine when they do the paper kiss thing. When they're first starting and Jinyoung grabs Youngjae's head, Youngjae says he got goosebumps in the MOST ADORABLE WAY AND I CANNOT HANDLE IT! HE WAS LAUGHING WHEN HE SAID IT AND ITS JUST PURE SUNSHINE AND HAPPINESS AND I LOVE HIM!!!

My sweet anon,

I’m so sorry that it’s taken me forever to reply to you, my dear, but bless you for bringing up this preciousness!! This is truly still one of my favorite episodes of all of Real GOT7 for so many reasons, but a big part of it is both Youngjae’s adorableness throughout and the paper kiss game, haha!

Honestly, the whole exchange between Jinyoung and Youngjae is just too cute for words!

A video posted by Lily (@mark2young2jae) on Aug 14, 2016 at 10:25pm PDT

Jinyoung is being such a little flirt sass, and Youngjae gets so flustered!! The way he cringes and makes that face when Jinyoung grabs his neck is so cute, and his flustered giggling just kills me! Plus his second bout of flustered laughter when Jinyoung starts teasing that the kiss is going to affect him is so funny like his protests of not being a girl mean anything, pfft! (Plus… am I the only one spotting a jealous looking Jaebum watching?? He looks torn between amusement and displeasure at the adorable 2young interactions and teasing, haha!)

But can we also take a few moments to talk about some of the other Sunshine Youngjae moments in this episode?? Like when he demonstrated the “Martial Arts” pose, and his hat goes flying off???

Do you hear the sound he makes??? It’s so cute I cry. I LOVE HIM TOO, MY SWEET ANON!!!

I also need to take a moment to appreciate the adorable Jackjae here if we’re going to talk about sunshine and happiness! I mean, there’s plenty of buzz lately about how much Mark encourages Youngjae’s English, but can we talk about this too??

A video posted by Lily (@mark2young2jae) on Aug 14, 2016 at 11:16pm PDT

Because Jackson playing the host of Youngjae’s English Class here is so cute. They are so over the top about it and it’s actually beyond adorable. The way Youngjae smiles and laughs afterwards purifies my soul, and I love how pleased he looks with himself!!

Youngjae is actual sunshine, and this episode is one of my favorite examples of how bright and precious he is in the first season (though the Image Game episode has a lot of ridiculously cute Youngjae moments as well)!! I can’t blame you at all for coming back to this moment over and over again, my sweet anon, because you’re certainly not the only one!

University library AU (again)

- Contrary to popular belief, Sirius Black actually does like to read
- Just not the books other people tell him to
- Plus it takes away from his punk image
- (Which he knows he has because he makes James tell him so at least twice a day)
- And anyway, he got through sixth form without having to do any revision, he - could just curl up on his bed and reread Good Omens or plan pranks with James or party with James or build pillow forts with James or talk about Lily Evans with James and even that was fun, no matter how much he said otherwise, because it was James
- So at uni, ignoring the fact that James is 100 miles away, he doesn’t see how it will be any different
- Until he gets his first test score back
- Sirius has never gotten less than 80% in his life, this is half that
- (And the 80% was only because he hadn’t slept in 36 hours due to completion of the infamous megadesk prank)
- So he does the only thing he can think to do, really, after wallowing for far too long with a jar of Nutella and a bit too much rum, holed up in his room
- He goes to the university library
- He gets all of the appropriate books for his course
- He takes out his paper and pens
- And then he realises he has no idea how to study
- He just can’t take it anymore, he doesn’t know what to do, his vision is getting uncomfortably blurry and he can’t breathe and usually James is here with a quiet “you alright, mate?” and a hand on his arm but James isn’t here and he’s so alone
- Sirius rushes out of the library, already dialling James’ number
- He collapses onto a bench outside and waits for him to pick up
- Except he doesn’t
- And James has never ever not picked up the phone
- It only serves to fuel his panic more
- Until he’s interrupted by a quiet “Hi, I’m sorry, but I saw you rush out and I just wanted to make sure everything was okay, so…are you okay?”
- Through his tears, all Sirius can make out is a tall tall boy with a mass of brown curls and he may not be James but this is the most concern anyone has shown for him in a month and this unexpected kindness breaks down his usually impenetrable walls and so he tells him the truth in one quick rush
- “No, I’m not, I’m not okay, my best friend isn’t picking up the phone and I don’t know how to study and I just got 40% on a test and I’ve never gotten below 80% and I don’t know what to do and I don’t know anyone here, not really, not like I know James, who isn’t here and who isn’t picking up his goddamn fucking phone and I don’t know what to do”
- A large, tentative, awkward hand lands on his back, rubbing gently, and Sirius looks up and sees that this stranger has eyes like melted chocolate, framed by curly lashes and oh god there are freckles all over his face
- “Well,” this boy says, smiling awkwardly, showing adorably crooked teeth, “I can’t say everything will be okay, as I can’t see into the future, but I’m sure that your friend James isn’t answering the phone for a good reason. If he’s good enough to be your best friend, I’m sure he loves you very much and would always pick up if he could, yeah? It’s okay. You’re okay.”
- Sirius looks at him some more, letting his rumbly voice and his gentle hand and his melted chocolate eyes - like Nutella, he thinks dimly - calm him and bring him back down to his surroundings. “Are you sure?” he asks, because he needs to ask
-This lovely stranger slides his arm around Sirius’ shoulders and squeezes gently. “Of course I am. James is busy, and we can easily sort out your studying problem. I’m very good at it, and I’d be happy to teach you. Now come back inside, it’s freezing.”
- And Sirius goes back inside with him and he finally asks him his name, which is Remus, and they sit back down at the table and Remus (what a cute name, Remus Remus Remus Remus) shares chocolate with him and shows him how to study, and they make eachother laugh and Sirius feels connected to him more than he has to anyone else here and eventually they’re asked to leave because they’re laughing more than studying but it’s okay because Remus walks him home and gives him his number
- And when James calls back, full of apologies and worry, Sirius can tell him in all honesty that it’s okay.

side effects of domestic bliss

Originally posted by arthursowl

A mirror, a bedroom, and a conversation about beauty; the metacrisis Doctor and Rose have a little chat before a trip in the new TARDIS. Fluff. Rated a light teen. 

For anyone else who ever struggles with insecurity re: a spot of weight gain: this l’il guy’s for us. <3


Rose heaves a heavy sigh, examining her reflection from first this angle, then that. Turning to the side and then back to the front again, for good measure. The image doesn’t change, of course; the mirror still shows her exactly the same thing it did before, first and foremost her body, clad in naught but a tee shirt and pants, and behind her, the rest of the bedroom, rumpled bed and fresh coral walls and two sets of clothes strewn about the floor. But their bedroom isn’t the problem.

Maybe the mirror’s warped?

She tilts her head. Nope, mirror’s not warped. It’s all her.

The sight of the Doctor approaching from behind does not deter Rose, nor does his body brushing hers. He bumps past Rose on his way to the wardrobe without so much as a how-do-you-do.

“Am I in your way?” she grumbles.

“Only in the literal sense,” he says cheerfully.

Pulling a face, Rose steps away while he looks over all of his ties, ultimately settling on a little maroon number (which is in no way a special detail, considering that most of his ties are some shade of maroon or burgundy or red-brown and really why does he need so many neckties anyway?). She resumes her position as soon as he’s done, re-planting herself with a grump.

“Are you expecting it to change?” the Doctor asks from behind her.


“The mirror,” the Doctor says. Rose shifts her gaze from her reflection to his, finds him sitting on the bed while he buttons up his shirt. “You keep staring at it. Are you expecting it to do something different?”

“No,” she says, and she knows she sounds petulant and she doesn’t care.

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Super Junior 7jib MAMACITA Thanks To
  • Leeteuk: I wanted to become happy.. I always have been looking for the key to happiness. Now, I think I have found that key to happiness. Being able to wake up in the morning, meet people I want to meet, and laugh together and cry together.... Beloved family... Beloved members.. Beloved all family members of SM.. Beloved fans... I now realized that everything I've always felt is the key to happiness. I want to feel this happiness with everyone. Thank you, and thank you again; I love you, and I love you.. I hope everyone reading this post will be full of happiness and love.. I love you..!!
  • Heechul: This is an album after 3 years for me. I want to try being a bit serious in the Thanks To this time. It's already been 10 years since we debut.
  • There probably are people who are new to loving me, but I'm sure there are fans who've been loving me for 10 years now. I think about it whenever I'm zoning out in the car, or whenever I'm going to sleep..
  • What 'fans' are..
  • I don't have much of 'fan love' (t/n in other words, fan service), I am not nice, so why do people give love to someone like me, who, in some way, is like a mean 5 years old?
  • And a thought that popped in my head was to not to look for the reason, and to express myself some too. Play (together) like we are eternal friends.
  • And that made me look hard at fans' faces like I'll put a hole on their face. Because of my prosopagnosia, my level of memory with faces are at same level as a fish but
  • I tried to memorize each and everyone but!!! as expected, I couldn't do it well kkkkkkkkkk ah sorry kkkkkkkkkkkkk I can't help this kkkkkkkkkkkkk but still, I read the letters, and try to remember their faces. Lastly, my beloved babies. Hyung will speak informally now. We will grow old someday and get married too. I hope you will come to Super Show in future with your babies. Then I would get emotional and really touched. Let's picture 'eternity' like that together, and be together for a long long time ^~^
  • I hope that you guys will meet good people (partners) and will live happily. You guys have to get married quickly so I feel less sorry when I get married too kk
  • But I have to first quit games and comic books first-ng.. Tremble tremble..
  • Anyways, I love you, my babies!!!! Ppo Ppo kiss~ ^3^
  • Kangin: I realized too late that I am thankful for just being able to be together. I think I know a bit now.. That I was a greedy man who only received. I will now be the one giving. And my beloved family members, let's live happily. I really love you. Grandmother who is watching me from heaven.. There are many promises I made with you that I couldn't keep; I'll live with them in my heart. Grandmother, do not worry about anything there and rest peacefully. And our fan ELF!! Oppas will protect you.
  • Shindong: I am now repeating the process of writing and erasing. I really don't know how to express this good feeling and thankful thoughts. Really. I will just!! Show it on the stage!! Everyone, sorry for being unable to express myself. Yes, that's true. The people that have the hardest time while producing this album are the song writer, lyrics writer, singer, producer, choreographer, manager, stylist, photographer, etc.. there are countless people but!! You guys, who anticipate and listen, have to be there (for that to happen) so, sigh.. I think I was living with a really big delusion. How to say.. 'I'm always showing you guys this really cool look of me, and the funny side of me! so you guys have to always anticipate and wait for me..' Why did I think that way... Anyways thank you. I think this is the first time I wrote my true feelings on 'Thanks To', without calculating (what to say). Sorry, and sorry again. From now on, I will only write real 'Thanks To' on 'Thanks To's... Thank you, everlasting friends~
  • Sungmin: An album to beloved ELF. Thank you for always being with me. You are my precious, everlasting, closest friend.
  • Eunhyuk: Firstly, thanks to our fans for waiting for this album for a long time. During past 2 years, I've experienced many events. I was shaken, was very exhausted, received many scars, and for the first time, I thought about giving up. I remembered the young days when I first I dreamed of becoming a singer, the days when I was a trainee, and the days since I met Super Junior. Looking back at those days, I gave compliments to myself, and reflected on a lot of things too. And I imagined a bit about the future. In the end, I gained conviction for things I wanted to do, and things I have to do, and what allowed me to have that strength were fans who always stood by my side and loved me without changing, and Super Junior members. I think it's not easy for a person to go back to 'their first mindset'. So with a new mindset, I plan to enjoy the promotions this time. I hope you continue to cheer without any reserves for the road I will take from now on. I will repay to everyone with mindset that does not change, and with changing images(appearance/side). Thank you.
  • Donghae: Dear Father/ Last time I saw you was around 2006 8/8 Tuesday 3AM, but it's already 2014 8/21 Thursday. A lot of time has passed, right? ^^ Like the time that's passed, the environment around, many people, thoughts, and appearance has changed a lot. Some changed for the better, some not. But I am always working hard so that my core that I am holding on, does not change a lot. Because you, father, are in that core too. You'd be disappointed if I changed to (not good/bad), so I am working hard to (not change) ^^ then you can compliment me when I meet you again. I'm still young, and I'm still the son that wants to receive compliments from father. But it's been a really long time since I've been unable to hear those compliments. Soon, I will perform 100th concert performance; It would have been nice if father could have watched at least one of those 100 performances. It's sad. I'm really thankful to be able to do a job that I love, be loved while doing that job, that there are people who cry, laugh, and be happy because of me-though, what am I (for them to feel that way for me)-, and that there are people who have dreams while watching me. I'm very thankful that those people exist, and I am thankful about everything, that I can feel that I am living a life that I am more thankful of. Complains, not being satisfied, being lazy... Looking back now, I can see that everything- even things that I didn't feel good about- are thankful things. What I am most thankful about is that I am your son. It's a letter to you after a long time. 2014 8/21 Thursday 7:04PM, after 2 years... Let's talk again when another album comes out in future ^^ I love you, dad.
  • Dear Mom, Hyung, HyunGyum / Mom, don't get sick. When you are sick, I feel even more hurt. There are many things I wasn't able to feel when I wasn't able to live with you when I was young, and now, living together, I feel them. I feel thankful from small things like being able to be together, being able to see you, and being able to touch you. When you look at me and smile, when you- who looked big when I was young- now look smaller than me, when you- who walked really fast- walk slower than me, and when I felt that you- who looked strong and powerful- have become weaker than me, and is depending on me, tears come to my eyes. Just don't get sick. I love you mom^^ Beloved hyung, you are very tired, exhausted, and bored these days right? But I am happy and full of energy because of hyung. I think a lot about how I can do more for you, hyung. It's not that I just want to give you something; it's more like.. I'm thankful that I have a brother, and thankful that I can share with hyung. I hope hyung enjoys it a bit more, and I hope that you will be happy. I also hope that we brothers would rely on each other more. I love you, hyung.
  • HyunGyum-ah, hyung is proud and happy that you have a dream at such a young age. I hope you will work harder, and if you don't want to get hit, listen to hyung more! hehe. Listen to mom, and sleep early.
  • Dear SJ/ There really is no need for words!! I like that we are together, I'm happy that we are together, and I'm thankful that whenever I feel tired and look back, you're standing there by my side without a word^^ There's no need for anything else, let's just do well just among ourselves^^ Suju is the best hehe. Leader Teuk-ee hyung... I will trust hyung and go! and Yesung-ee hyung... If hyung were with us, we would have shined more. I will make it so that when hyung returns, hyung's spot will shine more ^^ I love you hyung!
  • Grow your hand a bit, or I'll just have a smaller mic prepared for you ^^ (Youngjoon-ee hyung, Byungjoon-ee hyung, Junghoon-ee hyung, Yongsun-ee hyung, MinGeun-ee hyung, Siyong-ee hyung, Yongsuk-ee)
  • We are Super Juni-or! ^^ Thank you and I love you.
  • Dear ELF/ You waited a really long time right? Me too me too mee too really!! hehe finally advancing out! ELF all over the world, are you ready?? We are ready ^^
  • In short words, because ELF exists, SuJu can breathe ^^ Please continue to let us breathe ^^ I love you, love you, love you, and love you^^ Always thankful and love you ^^
  • Siwon: I feel the fast speed of time. It's already 7jib.... Thankfully, thanks to your love and support, we were able to go around the world many times, and how many times did we stand on a dream-like stage... Thinking about it all, I'm thankful. I want to say thanks to beloved ELF all over the world who cheer for us without changing. And I want to say thanks to beloved family members, beloved Lee SooMan teacher, and staffs who always work hard to help us. If you guys weren't there, we wouldn't be at this position. Thank you again.
  • Thank you everyone.. Thank you God.. Please anticipate a lot from us, who are just starting now.
  • Ryeowook: Beloved mom and dad, thank you ^^ Super Junior members, you worked hard during the time to prepare 7jib, and I love each and everyone of you♡
  • Teuk-ee hyung, I'm thankful that you are with us, though it must have been very pressuring, (to work so soon after) release from army! Hyung is really our leader~ I love you / My meal friend Heechul-ee hyung~ I'm thankful that you listen to my words well, and let's continue to live together. / I miss you.. Listen to our 7jib well~ Stay well too ^^ / Yesung-ee hyung!!!! I hope hyung's empty spot will be filled quickly.. Let's work together again quickly~ let's meet again at Han River kk / KingKing! The handsomest KingKing kk Hyung, you know that I love you a lot right? / Donggri DongDong, I love hyung's voice the most kk Let's go for a solo song in the next album! I will try directing it. / Sungmin-ee hyung~! Thank you for always comforting me by my side ^^!! Let's meet at Sukira soon kk / I'm happy that Hyukgu is becoming more and more handsome! Work harder ^^ Hyung, you know it, right? kkk / Donghai! I love you as much as I love Hyukgu kk Donghae-hyung, don't be sad~ Let's go again tonight!!! / Siwon-ee hyung, I'm sorry .. that I only like D&E kkkkk I love hyung a lot ♡ / Kibum-ah, come to the dorm~!! Let's eat^^ / Kyuhyun-ah, do you like Changmin and Minho more than me?..ㅠ I love you KyuKyu kk / Super Junior M Zhou Mi hyung!! I hope hyung will be very happy ^^ I love you hyung~♡ / Henry, take some care of Zhou Mi hyung! kk SJM maknae Henry-yah, I'm always thankful about you! / Super Junior 7jib, let's become daebak!!!! My girlfriend, E.L.F.. I'm thankful, and I love you! ♡ It's 7jib now~ Till everyone gathers in one place, Ryeowook-ee will work hard too with the name 'Super Junior'^^ I love you. Love yourself♡
  • Kyuhyun: Kyu will always be where E.L.F's are...

anonymous asked:

Do u have anymore kaisoo moments? I'm desperate T-T

 Of course I have anon!! But don’t be desperate! Maybe Kyungsoo and Jongin are doing things together rn and we’ll never know~ 

This time, I’ll do a Kaisoo spam with cute moments of them together. I tried not to use the same moments I used in my last spam, so I hope you like it :3

Mama era is a blessing era for Kaisoo shippers. It’s their beggining, when both Kai and Kyungsoo didn’t know music industry very well and they were pretty innocent about what they were doing and spontaneus. That brought a lot of precious moments like this one, a BTS one (isn’t without reason that Kaisoo is called “BTS Couple”) when we see Kai massages Ksoo’s throat. I don’t think it has a second intentions meaning in this one (like, I want to be in bed with you tonight), but it’s perfect because it shows everyone who is able to see, how Kai always (until these days) take care of his hyung and how much he cares about him as a person.

That image was the first who came into my mind when I began to do this spam. Jongin cuddling on Kyungsoo and the cute way Ksoo look’s at him makes everything too cute and intimate. I like it!

Please, everytime you doubt on Kaisoo, remember this moment. I beg you! If you see this whole part, you’ll notice the difference Jongin treat the other members. I mean, the other’s poems are pretty random and stuff. But, when it’s Kyungsoo’s turn, he writes Oranghae (I know it’s Saranghae, but he changed the “Saran” part with “O” to match with “D.O.” and it means five in Korean, what remembers me of people that write things like “i love u 5evah”). Jongin’s expression was full of admiration and love on this, what shows me that Jongin loves Kyungsoo in a whole different dimension (what not means necessarily, that it’s a romantic way. But I would like this tho).

I’m pity for Baekhyun in this whole interview. He was put in a team with Jongin and Kyungsoo, but these two would just be stucked together, cooking, or teasing or playing with each other. It’s interesting that, in the real interview, a lot of these intimate moments were edited. I wonder why.

Just Jongin being a shining knight. Not a big deal. I mean, you can see Luhan playing around with Kyungsoo’s coke and Kyungsoo want it back. So, Jongin appears out of nowhere and and beats Luhan’s stomach (playfully, ofc) to defend his “buddy’s” dignity. But, even with playfull approach, You can see his expression. He’s serious as hell. Playfull serious? You decide.

I can’t comment properly on this one! I’m just listening Angel in the background, and Jongin contemplating Kyungsoo like he’s the most precious person in the universe… *sigh*

I really recommend u to see a interesting/funny post about this moment here. It’s basically one time that Kyungsoo was almost hit by the sliding door. Jongin saw this, and when they were at the aiport another time, he hold the sliding door for his hyung.  This is one of the little gestures that makes me see Kaisoo as more than just a fanservice couple. If this thought is real, they don’t need a reason to interact or at least care for each other out of the stage. It’s just for fanservice, right? But here we see, Jongin doing little things to prevent Kyungsoo to get hurt by a fucking sliding door! I don’t need to say more for you understand what I mean.

Just Jongin help Kyungsoo to get down the plataform adjusting the chair for him. Anything about this moment is a big deal. Even Jongin’s beautiful smile in the end irony speaking ofc.

Kaisoo just playing around on stage. This is a more impactant form of fanservice, more than two guys almost kissing each in front of thousands of fans. Well done on planning ths, SM!

Just Kyungsoo back hugging Jongin. And people want to tell me that Kaisoo is one sided. Bitch, please! We know that Kyungsoo is the reserved type, but, if you look closely, you can see another moments like this shared with Jongin. And this makes my heart complete <3

I hope you like it, and remember: Kaisoo is that the kind of couple who’s hidden behind cameras, that’s why their moments aren’t easily seen. But don’t give up them just yet. They’re really precious like this!

cr of the gifs and pictures used go to the owners!

anonymous asked:

I still gush about WA moments. Towards the end of 2x22 when Barry said "Since I'm feeling extra invincible lately.." I sat up in my chair with my eyes wide open. Then he says "What do you say you and I give this a shot?" I was like "YES! IRIS, SAY YES!" Iris agrees and I went "YYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEAAAAAAHHHH!" LMAO! Now I do it quietly. I can't wait for more moments to mark out.

My heart was pounding and I was straight up shaking! It was the absolute cutest thing though.

At first he’s SO bashful and can’t even look at her. Mind you, this is Iris, his best friend who he’s know for almost two decades.

I love how when he finally makes eye contact with her, he looks her up and down, and then the image of her is what gives him a bit more confidence to ask her out. You clearly see him smile after one glance at her, like it all becomes so clear all of a sudden and he plucks up the courage to do it.

AND THEN HE FINALLY DOES but he’s still kind of timid and chooses to be vague: “What do you say, you and I….give this a shot?” MY PRECIOUS PUPPY IS SO HESITANT BUT ALSO SO EXCITED he can barely contain his happiness. His face just lights up at the prospect of finally bringing “this” to life with Iris.

I’M GONE OKAY this is the Iris that called Barry “the cutest nerd I know” that freaking links arms with him and punches him casually and teases him and grew up with him and look how she’s completely shy and head-over-heels for this dorky, awkward, bumbling idiot.


She is ENAMORED and so so so happy that they are finally on the same page.

This is too much. This boy is as red as his Flash suit. When have you seen Barry positively BEAM like this? Like he is overjoyed for what’s to come, and he has never wanted anything more than this, and it’s finally finally happening. And I love that for all of that, you would think his reaction would be more dramatic, but it’s perfectly subdued, and you can still tell how elated he is, just by his smile.

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Hey ya’ll I’m back and ready to attack. 

In this weeks edition of sit your ass down and listen, I present to you a few lovely panels drawn by a gentleman named Kubo Tite. In this discussion we shall talk about the finer points of namely,”why ichiruki is definitely a thing don’t argue with me on this”. 

Okay, but in all seriousness, these few panels have intrigued me for awhile in terms of character relationships/dynamics. And by intrigued I mean made me an emotional wreck on a few occasions. (And by awhile, I mean now that i’m re-reading the manga i’ve found a new way to procrastinate by giving ya’ll long paragraphs of my theories/musings to read.) But, anyway. 

Here’s the rundown on why this page is important. First off, with all the many issues I have with Kubo Tite, his drawing is not one of them. He consistently draws expressions and emotions incredibly well; it’s honestly in my opinion, his strongest skill. The way he expresses emotion in this scene honestly makes me want to cry tears of blood it’s so good. 

Just look at this. Here’s some of the goodies we got going on, on this page. First and foremost, look at the expression on Ichigo’s face as he’s looking down at Rukia being healed. He’s clearly upset and Kubo uses the light/shadows from Inoue’s healing technique incredibly well. The light reflected off of his eyes even  brings that thought to the reader that “ah – maybe, just maybe? he looks like he’s about to cry”. As an artist, Kubo really understands what’s he’s doing here, and he understands that’s the reaction the reader will have to that image. 

Ichigo’s expression is also very soft here – look at the way his eyebrows are drawn in this scene, and then please go look at how they are drawn in every other scene in the manga because I assure you 200% that right here, right in this scene, they are different. Normally set so his face has that trademark “scowl,” the curvature of the eyebrow is different. It makes his expression look a lot softer, more gentle and more vulnerable

I think that’s what gets me the most in this specific scene; he looks unguarded. He’s looking at Rukia in this moment as if she is the only thing in this world and oh my god she almost died right in front of me and I couldn’t do anything about it. 

And here’s the icing on the cake people. 

We see this scene from an outside perspective. We see it through Orihime’s eyes as she looks at him. And what does she do when she see’s that expression? She adverts her gaze. She realizes immediately that she’s intruded upon something; that there is something in the way that he’s looking at Rukia as he’s crouched on the ground huddled above her that is so intensely private that she should look away. And the look on her face – Kubo draws it so well. 

She sees, she looks down, and she closes her eyes. The reader knows what she is thinking from those three panels, because Orihime is acting as a sort of narrator for this scene. She, this beautiful little angel, has loved Ichigo since the beginning of the story and has shown that love consistently and persistently. She is a character that knows what “love” is. 

How important is this? Astronomically. 

She is looking at him, the man she loves, and seeing that he is looking at this woman fighting for her life on the ground with such emotion that she has to look away. I honestly think that this is the moment where she fully realizes that Ichigo probably most definitely loves Rukia. It’s a humbling moment for her. Kubo is showing us that there is something more there, between Ichigo and Rukia, and he chooses to show that commentary through a woman that has already been established as loving Ichigo.

Now we could talk all day about character development in the HM arc – and I’ll probably make a whole separate post for that because wow this one got really long – but in this moment, we see something.  It’s there, in that page. 

And in this moment, we see it again. 

The only cool part, is that Rukia is there to see it, too. And the same expression is reflected back in the way that she looks at him. 

Now, Kubo dearest, third times the charm love. These two scenes are a few hundred chapters apart (Chapter 212/213 and Chapter 423), so I have a hard time believing that I’m not correct in saying it’ll happen. Hopefully if Kubo could also make it aware to these two dorks that they’re looking at eachother like they’re the only two things in the world, that would be pretty awesome. 

Okay, I’m out ya’ll. Pack your seats up and be prepared for next time lovelies. I am slowly going to drag all of ya’ll into the emotional wreck I am while shipping these two.  

a cure for the weight of the world 7/?

more epilogue fic. Dirk and Rose. about 1700 words. We’ve time-jumped a little bit ahead to when they’re slightly settled in the new universe. I may go back eventually and fill in some blanks, depending how i’m feeling. 

previous parts here

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A fic ! Look ! And not a drabble - it’s not that long, but still. Yay !

Obviously, this goes a bit AU. You’ll see. I made myself super sad. I teared up. I meant for this to be super dark and instead it’s… this. 

dreams come slow and they go so fast (x)

He pretends it’s a game. The mask that became his face twists his mouth into smirks and grins, and his eyes are alight with a dark glint as he watches her, crouched and frail, her white fingers curled around the bars he stuck her behind. His voice is effortless and callous as he addresses Felix with a self-satisfied eyebrow raise, giving him instructions, and it’s quite easy for him to talk to his favorite Lost Boy as though she weren’t there.

Let me out, Peter ! Let me out !

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