(i mean to a reasonable extent)

porygons  asked:

Why do you think it's ok to use queer as a blanket term? As a bi trans person I find it incredibly hurtful and offensive

Do you really want to know my answer? Like seriously, are you actually open to listening to what my answer may be and absorbing any new information I may offer on the topic?

Because from here it doesn’t seem like you are. 

Let’s be honest with each other, you started out with the phrase “why do you think it’s ok” which is aggressive language, and then you justified your disagreement with your identity. Which I always found to be an interesting tactic, because when this clarification exists in an argument it assumes that by having this particular set of identities you are somehow more qualified to discuss this problem than someone else, while at the same time personalizing you so it is harder for anyone to disagree with you.

You then use the words hurtful, and then offensive. Both button words that illicit a certain type of response, hurtful in how inarguable it is. That is your feeling and I would never argue what a stranger is feeling to them. Then there is offensive, which is a word that is very well used in the LGBT+ community to discuss important issues surrounding our dehumanization. 

I don’t think that this message was a carefully crafted masterpiece of debate and trickery that you spent hour figuring out the direct phrasing of obviously, but I do think you had an intent when you wrote this message and the words you chose make that intent clear. 

You don’t want to talk to me. Hell I doubt you even follow me. I have anonymous turned off on my ask box, but I am almost 100% sure that if I didn’t you would be sending this under the little sunglasses wearing icon.

Also if you checked my FAQ you would have found a helpful little link explaining to you my views on the queer discourse. You may have noticed that I have my own reasons why I decide to use that word, and my own history with it. You probably also would have seen my post saying that I don’t mind people disagreeing with me. Or you could have seen that I have a link set up that blocks the word from all my content so no one has to see it if they don’t want to, and they can still have access to the history that I give insight into. 

But you didn’t care about that did you? Because you aren’t actually interested in what I have to say, if you were you would have already seen all of this and you would have seen my request for people to stop asking me to drag out my arguments for why I use the word again and again. You probably would have realized that either A) it is a lost cause so why bother B) that I have nothing left to say on the matter that I haven’t already said and you may have respected my professional boundaries enough to leave it alone.  

But here we are, you uninformed and angry, and me annoyed and tired. We aren’t going to have a good dialogue, and I am near certain you wouldn’t have accepted one if I offered it. You are not here to change my mind, because I have to assume that you at least did a basic check to see that my entire project has the word queer in it and it is pretty clear that isn’t changing. And you are also not here to have your mind changed. 

And to be honest I have no desire to change your mind. I don’t mind people disagreeing with me on this. It actually isn’t that big of a deal to me if someone doesn’t agree with my viewpoints all the time. 

I have read a lot of arguments in favour of removing the word from our lexicon completely. I disagree, but I understand them. As I have said before, this isn’t a huge dividing point for me. 

I have given people access to my work without the word queer in it, and that is the extent of what I am going to do here. 

So why are you sending this in? Nothing is going to change from it, and honestly it is a pretty boring message so I can’t believe you thought something would.

I think the sole reason you sent this was performative. 

You wanted to show that you tried to convince that big mean queer person without actually trying to convince them. Maybe this was a performance; for your followers, maybe you will screenshot my response and share them in a group chat. Or it is also possible this is a performance for yourself, maybe you want to convince yourself that you are doing something. 

Maybe you feel ineffective or like you need to make a difference so you are sending this message to me to feel proud of yourself for trying to change something that you don’t like. 

But you aren’t doing this to actually do the hard work of changing something. 

And it is fine if you aren’t able to do that work for any reason, but leave other people out of your sense of inadequacy. I am not here to be your punching bag that you hit so you can feel big and strong.  

I am tired, and I am bored of people sending me this performative garbage.

Which of course lends itself to the question, why am I answering this publicly?

I will admit there is a little bit of performance from my side as well, I want people to see how right I am and how much this behavior sucks. I want people to see me destroying this ask, and I am not going to lie I am totally going to send screenshots to the group chat.

What makes us different, is that I didn’t seek this performance out. I clearly did not send this to myself, and I haven’t made a post about the queer discourse in months. Which means, this person had to search for me so that they could get mad at me. Whereas I just had to check my inbox this morning and respond to what was there.

But outside of the performance of it all, I want my answer to sit with you for a couple of days. I don’t care if I change your mind about the queer discourse because honestly I do not care about the queer discourse. But I do want to change something. I want you to stop sending asks like these, because this doesn’t seem like it is your first. 

And if you were just sending them to me I would be fine with it. I can delete asks, and they roll off my back if I decide to let them. But not everyone is like that. 

I could now give a rant about the little baby queers I am protecting, but it is not just about them. It is about all of the people you send this kind of thing to (who almost certainly don’t deserve hate mail), whether they are affected deeply by it or not it doesn’t make what you are doing any better. 

And if me writing this long message publicly makes it less likely for you to send something like this again, then it is worth the five minutes I have spent crafting it. Because if you are a little more self conscious about doing something like this again, then hopefully I will have spared a couple of people the annoyance of having to deal with this kind of garbage message. 

Voltron Meta: Lion Switching Redux

For once, this is not a meta about Shiro and the Black Lion (shocking, I know). This is about the other Paladins. I want to make the case for why the Lion Switch we saw in season 3 isn’t going to be permanent and why everyone will eventually revert back to their original season 1 line-up. And what it basically boils down to is this:

The S3 Lion Switch left 3 of the 5 Paladins in the wrong Lions

There are a lot of signs in the show that indicate that the S3 line-up isn’t going to be permanent. Lance’s sadness at leaving Blue; Keith’s reluctance to lead and his willingness to immediately hand over the Black Lion to “Shiro” when he came back; the fact that none of the Paladins have switched uniform colours, despite switching Lions. In general, neither Lance nor Keith seem happy about the Lion switch, and neither of them seem to enjoy flying their new Lions, or their new role on team in general. Keith certainly doesn’t enjoy being leader, and makes it very clear that’s not a role he wants; likewise the switch leaves Lance feeling insecure and unsure of his role on the team. They’re clearly not 100% happy with the situation, nor are they embracing it (hence the uniforms remaining in their original colours).

It’s also worth noting that, as much as Allura is able to adapt to the Blue Lion… this is not the Lion she actually wanted to pilot. She wanted to fly the Red Lion, in honour of her father. At this point, neither Keith, Lance, or Allura are in the Lions they actually want to be in.

However, for the purpose of this meta I want to focus on one thing in particular, which is the fact that all three characters who piloted new Lions struggled with those Lions in a way we haven’t seen anyone struggle before.

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YOI Fan Rec Friday

(3/3/17)

I got A LOT of great recs this week, thank you! 

If you don’t see your rec, it means that it’s going to be on next week’s list!

Rec’d by @kookyfan​:
not gold like in your dreams by ebenroot, Teen, 29k (WIP)
In which Victor and Yuuri are roommates and Yuuri has a secret.
a silver splendour, a flame by thehandsingsweapon, Not Rated, 52k (WIP)***Major character death
Both Viktor and Yuuri have their reasons for hiding the full extent of their gifts – Viktor’s been hurt before, when his own powers were used against him; Yuuri’s been warned that everyone will want his; what will happen when Yuri comes of age, and in doing so, makes two very bright stars finally cross?

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Rec’d by anonymous:
The Weight of Gold by barrelrider, Not Rated, 13k
Yuri’s big win at the Grand Prix final poses questions about the future that he hadn’t thought to ask before. And Viktor doesn’t seem interested in answering them.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
You Can’t Plan for Everything by RivDeV, Explicit, 123k (WIP)
Yuuri forgets that he has a scheduled heat coming up until it’s just a couple weeks away. He scrambles to get everything ready in time, including deciding whether he’ll spend it alone or with someone. Victor only wants to help.

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Rec’d by @hellagaytbh​:
he was a sk8er boy she said see you l8er boy by bookybookworm, Teen, 13k (WIP)
pika+chu: hello friends
katsudon-yuri: ummm
katsudon-yuri: what is this
pika+chu: this, young yuri, is a group chat

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Rec’d by anonymous:
Love So Life by shamarmon, Teen, 98k (WIP)
Yuuri Katsuki was simply living his college life, teaching ice skating lessons to little kids, when suddenly his idol and champion figure skater Victor Nikiforov bursts in and requests that he start babysitting his three year old nephew, Yuri Plisetsky.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
viktor nikiforov is a nightblogger by thishasbeencary, Teen, 2.9k
Yuuri started a mental list of the small things Viktor did that annoyed him about a week after going to Russia, and texted Phichit every time he added something new.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
Love Doesn’t Discriminate, Between the Winners and the Fakes, It Skates and It Skates and It Skates by TheSecretUchiha, Gen, 35k (WIP)
Yuuri opens his eyes and there’s an angry man speaking Russian at him and a crowd of expectant fans waiting for a performance by the best skater in the world.

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Rec’d by @flyingsuits-blog-blog
a million miles from your desperate days by idrilka, xyai, Mature, 11k
Victor came to Hasetsu with the force of a hurricane and managed to make himself right at home at Yu-topia, somehow fitting into the quiet rhythm of their lives. Maybe this means that Yuuri will fit into Victor’s life in Saint Petersburg, too, against all odds or reason.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
‘Cause I’m a Taker, ‘Cause I’m a Giver, It’s Only Nature by ken_ichijouji (dommific), Explicit, 52k (WIP)
The story of how Yuuri Katsuki slept with, dated, fell in love with, and married Victor Nikiforov. Yes, in that order.

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Rec’d by anonymous and anonymous and anonymous:
Beside the Dancing Sea by lily_winterwood, MapleTreeway, Explicit, 164k (WIP)
New York Times-bestselling author Viktor Nikiforov arrives in the sleepy seaside town of Torvill Cove to cure his writer’s block. After encountering local wallflower Yuuri Katsuki at a party, he discovers that this mysterious dark-haired man has a couple secrets up his sleeve.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
Submission by SuggestiveScribe, Explicit, 8.1k
Viktor leaned forward, breath whispering just behind the shell of Yuuri’s ear, “If my Yuuri wanted me to submit, I would be elated to experience submission.”

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Rec’d by anonymous:
Calligraphia by emilyenrose, Mature, 2.9k
Victor Nikiforov’s Bad Tattoo Choices.
icebreaker by Cesare, Gen, 6.1k
A post-skating-retirement college scenario based on skygemspeaks’ idea about Yuuri’s college classmates learning about his figure skating career.
Decision Making Process (How to NOT to) by Bowandtie, Not Rated, 992 words
The rise of ridiculous myth surrounding Christophe Giacometti’s portable pole.
A Tourist in the Waking World, Never Quite Awake by Erushi, Mature, 5.5k
The crossover/fusion with “Inception”, in which Victor and Yuuri are on the same extraction team and share a Complicated History.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
Call Everything on the Ice… by shysweetthing, Explicit, 43k (WIP)
Victor learns Japanese while in Hasetsu. He doesn’t tell Yuuri, and things get dicey when he overhears Yuuri and Mari talking about him in Japanese. Repeatedly.

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Rec’d by @osnapitzhanaa:
Confessions Behind these Bruises by Gayson, Mature, 51k (WIP) ***Graphic Decpitctions of Violence
Introducing the mafia AU nobody asked for about how a cocky self reliant bachelor falls incredibly in love with the adorable sassy dancing protégée of Lilia- Yuuri Katsuki.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
Break of Dawn by CatarinaPendejo, Explicit, 58k (WIP)
In which Yuuri is flabbergasted, Viktor is unbelievably spoiled and clingy, Yuri is pissed at everything, Yakov is completely over it, and it’s only been less than a month since the Grand Prix Final.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
Or Just Some Human Sleep by Duskisnigh,  Teen, 2.3k
“No, thank you,” Yuuri insisted, holding the broom in front of him like a weapon. “I may be fourteen, and I may have lived a relatively sheltered life, but I am not stupid, and I’m pretty sure you’ve drugged that apple.”

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Rec’d by @caeillian:
make my heart beat out of my chest 'verse series by xylophones, Teen, 11k (WIP)
Adventures with Yuuri Katsuki, living dance legend, and his ridiculous popstar husband, Viktor “I’m Extra” Nikiforov.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
a place on Earth, with you by melonbug, Explicit, 11k ***Major Character Death
Yuuri didn’t want to die, he didn’t want to die. And he didn’t want to die alone.
The world was ending, and they were just two souls, desperate for someone to share their final days with.

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Rec’d by anonymous:
get inside you (and mess you up) by drowsycyborg, Mature, 5.6k (WIP)
Of all the witches, bloodmages are the rarest - and the most hunted. There’s good reason to be scared: everyone knows there’s nothing grey about a bloodmage. They’re good or evil; great doctors or terrorists. Wiping out every last one of them was a boon for both the magical and non-magical alike.


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anonymous asked:

you are absolutely correct that snape is a miserable trash bag of a human and generally a bad, awful, inexcusably abusive person. but i think the reason that so many people do like him, is that he's a bad person, but he's a good character, y'know? he would probably be less interesting if he were less horrible, because his final choices wouldn't stand out as much. sorry for the discourse, just my two cents.

I kind of agree with this - I do like Snape as a character, I think he’s interesting, but a lot of the problem is how the narrative treated him. It’s not enough for the narrative to pull a ‘oh but he was a good person the whole time’ without examining the fact that he was generally awful to a lot of his students, especially Harry, Neville, and Hermione. The narrative seemed to treat it as though the fact that Snape loved Lily and tried to protect her as though it could redeem the years of abuse he put those kids through for no reason other than him having a grudge against other people and not being able to let go his past.

And, I mean, I can get him not being able to let go the fact that Sirius almost killed him, especially since everyone thought Sirius was a mass-murderer at that point. But that doesn’t excuse his behaviour towards a bunch of eleven to seventeen year olds, as a teacher he should have known better. And the narrative never seems to address the fact that he was a terrible person for six-odd books before we learned the full extent of the situation with Lily.

Not that, you know, the situation with Lily excuses any of his behaviour. She didn’t choose him for good reasons, because he called her the magical equivalent of a racist slur and started hanging out with a bunch of pureblood supremacists, I mean, I’d absolutely drop a friend if they started acting like that.

This…got rambly. Sorry, anon, none of this was directed at you as criticism. Tl;dr, Snape is an interesting character, but the narrative doesn’t really go enough into depth discussing how bad he is, and sometimes treats him as though the shit he’s been through mitigates how shitty he was to his students.

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lmao like the only time i EVER see hard disney fans even mention ghibli and miyazaki in comparison to disney films is in light of disney’s own mistakes and laziness like damn y’all need to calm down

lemme teach you a lil’ somethin’ somethin’ about stylistic choices in animation and sheer laziness

STYLISTIC choices is about having the full capability of creating characters separate from the previous protagonists while at the same time tying them to the studio that produced them.

And that’s not even scratching the surface.

Considering that a good portion of Ghibli’s library consists of LEAD FEMALE PROTAGONISTS who are usually very young, they need to find a set balance between recognizable and unique.

Ghibli was founded on traditional art and the studio still holds many of those values with it. This is of course including hand-drawn animation in which there is no single model, only the same character drawn over and over again. Is this about CGI vs traditional? No, both can and have provided beautiful films and scenes but it’s not about which one deserves more recognition. It’s about the methods used and how the choices for each one vary. I only bring up the animation methods because it’s part of the reason as to WHY these characters are so simplistic in design.

Still though, they need each lead character to stick to the Ghibli/Miyazaki style to a certain extent. They need to share certain qualities to make them fall in line with the rest of Ghibli’s library.

I mean, they have their differences but they’re obviously Ghibli characters so okay they all have relatively small eyebrows (though considering that they are Japanese that ties in with their ethnicity but OKAY moving on), they all have the eye highlight thing going on, and they all have very non-pronounced noses. I suppose yeah those are all the same. They do shift but those characteristics are roughly the same.

Still though, that isn’t a problem nor is it blatant same-facing. All LAIKA characters have skewed noses, all Dreamworks characters have thin noses, and all Aardman characters have bulgy eyes. Does that mean they’re same-facing? No. It means they’re sticking to stylistic choices to keep themselves separate from the competition.

Don Bluth MADE the choice to stick to a style closely resembling Disney. You know what happened? A whole generation grew up thinking that Anastasia and Thumbelina were both DISNEY films, not Bluth and Fox animation.

There’s a reason why studios tend to go for their own set style.

But hey! Want even more evidence that it’s a stylistic choice?

Because THE VERY SAME CHOICES CAN BE SAID FOR THE DUDES

Save for Haku because he’s a fuckin’ dragon.

While gender is never really brought up in Ghibli films, masculinity and femininity are both neutral here, it’s safe to say that their designs and treatment are both equal. Ghibli isn’t out to make exclusively beautiful/handsome characters, they make them as simple as possible to keep them relatable and much more easier to manage.

The difference here is that Disney has always set out to make their MALES different while sticking their females to the same “doe eyed, small nose, thin lips” ideal. Yes, there is a set Disney style and it has always focused on those features and that necessarily isn’t a bad thing. It’s the Disney style. HOWEVER it seems to only apply to their females. Even worse is their marketing of said females.

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GOTTA KEEP THEM GURLS PURTY

The Disney style has shifted from time to time and it shows evidence that it CAN include more diverse female designs. Both Kida and Calhoun are wonderful examples of this. It’s not as if Disney hasn’t evolved or changed their views on female characters to a certain extent. Unfortunately, said shifts haven’t always worked out in our favor or headed in the right direction. It wasn’t until Tangled that Disney came out with it’s true “get richer quicker” scheme with their female leads.

watch as i shift into MAXIMUM PUNZEL-DRIVE

As of late it’s Disney’s sheer laziness when it comes to female design and their own avarice that has caused SUUUUCH a dramatic shift in how fans are taking the Disney style now. When Ghibli audiences and fans never look at a new movie and go “oh it’s Chihiro but tiny” or “oh it’s Chihiro but on a broom.” That is the set style, not a lazy copy-paste.

But hey, let’s bring in OTHER females to see how this works out. I mean, the Ghibli style is prevalent to ALL of their characters so surely they all the parents look exactly like their children.

Let’s look at these lovely lady leads and compare them to their parents.

Congrats, kids, you’re all adopted!

WEIRDLY ENOUGH all of the characters and their parents (if they have any) share same characteristics while at the same time remaining completely unique to each other. It’s almost as if they also take after their father and/or previous generations of their familly. Haha, genetics!

But okay, let’s be a little more fair with Disney.

Let’s look at two families with two daughters.

Mitosis or go home

There is having stylistic choices and there is being lazy.

There is creating a character with similarities to their parent and there is making a recolor of your lead character.

There is creating simple designs for a traditionally animated film and there is reusing the same model because it worked so well the first time.

There is being a small Tokyo-based studio with 300 employees and there is being a large American animation studio with 800+ employees.

THAT is why no one ever complains about Ghibli’s approach to character design and THAT is why Disney doesn’t even come close to Miyazaki.

Let’s finish this off with some MORE wonderful Ghibli characters (most of which being my personal favorites so they belong on here too.)

Now go watch more Ghibli.

I get that everyone's mad at Bran for bringing That up, but hear me out...

I think that may have given Sansa even more of a push not to listen to Littlefinger, and may even push her to do something more drastic or dramatic.

Throughout this season and the end of the last, Sansa has been shutting Littlefinger down every chance she gets, but she’s not dismissed him. He’s still with her, giving her council.

I think Bran’s comments about her marriage to Ramsay may give her a reminder of who, precisely, put her in that position. Who sold her out to a bastard (literally) and a monster of a human being (if he can even be considered that)? Who was responsible for her father’s death in King’s Landing? Who keeps switching sides, again and again?

Precisely. And Bran has just reminded her of those little facts.

Now, will this be the push to actually do something about Littlefinger? Who knows? But we know that there’s a good chance something happens to him this season. Why?

The dagger.

The Catspaw dagger that was last known to be in Littlefinger’s possession, and was shown to be in Arya Stark’s belt on the front page of Entertainment Weekly. Arya, as we know, is almost back to Winterfell, where Sansa, Littlefinger, and now Bran are all located. How will Arya get this dagger from Littlefinger? He could give it to her, yes, but I think there’s a different reason for Arya’s new ownership.

I think Arya may kill Littlefinger, because of what he’s done to her family.

Bran knows the full story. He admitted it himself in his scene with Sansa at the base of the Werewood Tree: “[being the Three-Eyed Raven] means I can see everything; everything that’s ever happened to everyone” (7x03). Now, will he tell Arya and Sansa the full extent of Littlefinger’s betrayal, or will something entirely different happen?

I don’t know; all I know is that there has to be a reason Bran chose THAT specific event to remind Sansa of.

(Please excuse this stream of consciousness that evolved into a possible plot thread.)

anonymous asked:

I just had the saddest realisation. If Rick hasn't been sleeping since Glenn and Abe, then every night in early S7 he went to bed knowing Michonne was close but thinking she didn't want him to touch her. Then he had to pretend he didn't feel her sneak out and leave...leave him behind. Never feeling brave enough to ask. Probably thinking he'd see what he used to see in Lori's eyes after the farm. Imagine the emotion if we got a sex since during that time? I need this. Why would I write this?

Why would you write this? Do you just like suffering? I mean, all of this is essentially why he went for the cheek-kiss in 7x05. He was used to Lori’s perfected cold shoulder. He was used to being abandoned by his partner. And instead, even in the haze of all her anger and disappointment, Michonne still found a way to say, “I’m still with you.” And this is precisely why he’s so happy with her. He didn’t even realize the extent of her love and loyalty when he took that leap into this relationship. But seeing how she treated him when he was down, it’s the reason he’s able to let his guard down now and be happy and free and vulnerable enough to even admit that he hasn’t been sleeping. And now I’m all the way in my feelings about this and I need to go watch 7x12 and 7x05 and 6x10 and 4x16 again and cry. Why would you write this?!

Seven Hours in Heaven - Part 2/2

Gwen Wessex continues to be locked in a closet with her not-quite-arch-nemesis, Ivar Lothbrok.

Punk!Ivar/OC

Warnings: Smut, Modern AU, Fluff, Ivar is a recovering asshole with a potty mouth, talk of trauma involving accidents and death, Ivar has a LOT of piercings

Rating: Explicit (18+)

I considered holding out on this a bit longer, but I have almost no self-control so, here ya go!

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Wrong Place Wrong Time (20)

I DO NOT OWN THIS GIF!
Part 20 of an ongoing series, enjoy :)
A fanfic for a more Mature audience due to violence and language. Read at your own risk :)

Themes=😖,🌟,💣,🎭. (☠️- Harm towards characters, Strong language and Adult themes.)

Summary: You end up in the wrong place at the wrong time and it has negative repercussions. Main characters include: Reader and EXO.

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3 Part 4  Part 5 Part 6  Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12  Part 13  Part 14  Part 15  Part 16  Part 17  Part 18 Part 19  Part 21  Part 22  Part 23  Part 24  Part 25  Part 26  Part 27  Part 28  Part 29  Part 30  Part 31  Part 32  Part 33  Part 34  Part 35 (Final)

Word Count: 2,708


Your heart was pounding out of happiness and fright. They came to save you which meant they cared enough. But now Minseok was being held at gun point, by Kris, who you thought had died. What on earth was going on?

“If you two even think of reaching for your holsters I promise you, I will shoot him so don’t you even dare.” Kris said smirking at Minseok. He was dangerously handsome and it was almost intimidating, it made your stomach rumble and before you knew it, you were involuntarily throwing your head forward and vomiting on Jongin’s shoe.

“Ah Y/N those were expensive.” He looked down at his feet in disgust, shaking what little he could off.
Your head was disoriented you couldn’t think straight and were on the verge of having a mental break down. Your stomach was spinning, the other hostage was still screaming and you were focusing on Kris’ gun resting on Minseok’s skull.

“Ugh for fuck’s sake shut up.” Without looking Kris reached his arm backwards shooting the screaming man directly in the centre of his forehead where the water had been dripping and brought his gun back to Minseok. How ironic, now there really was a hole in his head.

“Fuck it Kris, he was the only lead we had.” Jongin hissed angrily at the tall man, who was still wearing a disturbing smile on his face at a time like this.

“He was too loud I couldn’t concentrate, besides he wasn’t going to tell us anything anyway.” Keeping his gun aimed at Minseok, he walked round to Junmyeon and Sehun removing their guns from their holsters and slid them across the floor to Jongin. Frisking their pockets and searching for anything else.

“What the fuck is going on here, and why the fuck are you alive, you’re supposed to be dead!” Junmyeon stared at Kris, anger in his eyes, consuming him whole he was shaking violently now.

“Sit. Now.” Kris said, pushing his gun down into Minseok’s neck and looking at the other two men. If you thought Junmyeon had power then you were wrong, because the authority that Kris had right now was incredulous. They didn’t need to be told twice an immediately sunk down to the ground, Minseok not taking his eyes off of you. You had never seen him act so obedient in his life.
“There’ll be no violence and no questions until we’re done explaining all of this too you, but if one of you talk, interrupt or just piss me off in general I will shoot you, I’ve always had a bad temper right. At the end of the day, our squadron can do this without you.” He winked at Sehun, then almost immediately his smile disappeared as if it was never there in the first place. You had no idea what he meant by the last part. Squadron? How many traitors were there? Your heart began to thump against your chest. Did that mean more of Genesis were working for Red; Sehun? Kyungsoo…Chanyeol? No that couldn’t be possible …could it?

Jongin pulled out a small pen knife from his pocket and walked behind you. You held your breath, scared beyond belief, trying to prepare yourself for the sharp pain of a knife being stabbed into your back, but to your surprise all you felt was the rope around your wrist being loosened. He then walked back in front of you using the knife to cut through the rope around your torso and then bent down to cut the rope around your ankles. You let out a breath, why wasn’t Jongin hurting you? Not that you weren’t thankful for it, but wasn’t he supposed to be torturing you by this point. That’s always how it went in the films wasn’t it? You should’ve been beaten until you were black and blue, possibly with some teeth or fingers missing. But no. You were intact, unscathed. You hadn’t been touched at all. You heard a door being opened and closed, looking up you saw May walking in, her hands covered in black soot. She smelt like petrol and burning bodies. She smiled softly at Jongin and stood beside where you were sat, looking intently at scene unfolding in front of her.

“Let me explain to you what’s happening here.” Kris began, slowly lifting his gun from Minseok’s head and placing his hand down to his side. “If you thought we were the bad guys, you were wrong. If you thought we worked for Red…well theoretically you’re not wrong.” A warped smirk returning to his face.

“What do you mean you’re not the bad guys? You faked your death. Jongin shot Yixing and Chanyeol, abducted Y/N and fucking killed Luhan.” Junmyeon screamed his face was red and he was rocking back and forth on his haunches.

“I said don’t fucking interrupt me Junmyeon.” Kris raised his gun in Junmyeon’s direction pulling the trigger. You shrieked, but let out a breath when you realised he aimed for the wall behind. “The next one will be in the back of your skull if you try me again. Anyway as I was saying. We have our reasons for that. We work for Genesis to an extent. Well…” He touched his chin in thought, carefully selecting his next set of words. “We’re doing Genesis a favour; we’re trying to help you out. You see, for many reasons, that we’re not going to get into at this precise moment in time, we’re not keen on Red either. But surely you must know there is no way you can take Red down without infiltrating the base right?” He raised a brow. “That’s where we come in. You see, people like me and Jongin have easy access to The Red Corp due to the reasons we won’t be discussing now. The point is we gain information from the top and transport it to Genesis, all these hints and clues you were getting about the next big raids, the planned attacks, that was all from us. So you see we’re not the bad guys, we’re on your side. Do we all understand everything that Uncle Kris is saying?” He said in a patronising tone, smiling at the boys sat beneath him. Minseok shook his head furiously. Causing Kris to roll his eyes. “For fuck sake, it’s always you Minseok, what is it that you don’t understand?”

Minseok scoffed, looking up at Kris through dark eyes. “Oh I understand. I understand perfectly well. I just don’t believe you. I don’t buy any of this shit.” He shot Jongin a fierce look. “He took Y/N, shot the guys and killed Luhan and you really expect me to believe you’re on our side, you must be joking me.” He spat at Kris’s shoe, Kris rolling his eyes in response again.

“Ugh very classy Minseok. Very classy.” He lifted his foot kicking Minseok in the jaw. “This was all necessary, everything we’ve done up until this point. You see at first myself and Jongin didn’t know we were working for the same cause, but then we found out and began piecing things together bit by bit, giving you guys more clues, but we had to keep covert in order for this to work. Yixing was hot on Jongin’s tail since the death of Luhan so we had to plant it on somebody else. Sorry Minseok.” He gave him a childish smile.
“You see we had to bring Y/N here, otherwise you would never have listened to Jongin, you’d have killed him straight away, am I right? A very cute girl might I add, I hope she’s not taken.” He turned around to wink at you and licked his lips. Minseok staring at him with eyes full of hate.

“I don’t think so Kris.” Jongin stood in front of you defensively, stroking your cheek making your skin crawl somewhat. You looked up towards May who was staring at you as though you had just attempted to shoot a bullet through her chest.

“Oh. The both of you are screwing? Fuck I didn’t know.” Kris laughed, pulling a ‘well that could’ve been awkward’ face.

“So this is the bitch you’re always going on about Jongin. Wow you could do so much better.” May mumbled, shaking her head, but you had heard and Jongin did too, making him frown at her and elbowing her in the stomach.

“Anyway back to the topic at hand, we’ve reached a point where we need everyone’s help, so we’ve had to fill you guys in, but so help me God step out of line and I will not hesitate to kill anyone, do you understand.” Kris glowered, waving his gun around in the air.

“So you expect us to just roll over like dogs and do as you say?” Sehun scoffed.

“Well you’re already sitting like dogs and doing as I say, so why not go that extra mile, hmm?”

“No. No this has to be a joke. I don’t trust you guys I don’t believe this, I don’t know what you want from us, if you want us to turn our backs on Genesis and the others and join whatever cult you’ve got going on here, but it’s not happening.” Sehun shook his head.

“Sehun. Darling. If you keep interrupting me like this, your blood will be the new colour of paint on my wall.” Kris laughed bitterly, pointing at the wall behind Sehun.

“I’ve done bad shit in my life, but I will never join you. You worked together to kill Luhan there is no way on this blasted earth that I will join you!” Sehun shouted, tears streaming from his eyes and his face red.

“Well then I guess there’s no need for you to be a part of our private meeting. Bye Sehun, I’ll see you in hell, okay? Make sure you save me a comfy seat, one without cushions just won’t do.” He raised his gun upwards towards Sehun, who was still crying furiously.

 Your eyes went wide and you acted instinctively.

You dropped yourself onto the floor picking up one of the guns that Kris had slid towards Jongin’s feet and pointed it at him, your hands were shaking violently, you didn’t know what you were doing, but you had to do something.

“Drop it or I’ll shoot.” Your voice was shaky and in no way did you sound as confident as you wanted to come across but at this point in time you honestly didn’t care.

“Y/N, put the gun down.” Jongin hissed beside you, but you weren’t listening. You were still holding it up towards Kris, your hands still trembling.

“He said put it down you stupid bitch.” You heard May say, the next second you felt and intense burning pain ripping through your left leg. You looked down to see May stabbing you in the thigh. You shrieked out in pain, dropping to the floor, the pain was so extreme you couldn’t breathe; you had never experienced anything like it. “I’m sick and tired of your moaning and whinging. Cleaning up your piss and shit. I’m sick tired of Jongin always talking about you, as though I don’t exist, if he were clever he’d only have eyes for me.”


“May! What the fuck are you doing!” Jongin shouted, but he was too stunned to move, he stared at you mouth wide open.

In the midst of the distraction, Minseok had managed to run over to your side of the room.
“Christ. Y/N, its okay you’ll be fine we’ll get you out of here.” He ripped off his shirt, leaving his chest bare and tied it around your thigh to stop the bleeding.
Picking up the second gun from the floor Minseok lifted it in Kris’ direction and shot his foot, sending him dropping to the floor, screaming in pain and grabbing his foot. You were half a second away from having a panic attack.

“I’m tired of pretending to work alongside you guys, I swear Red better pay me triple my share for this shit. I’ll deal with killing you later.” May hissed looking at you whilst grabbing a bottle of chloroform from the side; she ripped the bottom of her shirt off and tipped some chloroform into the material. “But first I guess I have to deal with this feisty prick.” She pressed the material over Minseok’s mouth, at first he was trying to resist putting up a fight, but then you saw his eyes roll back into his head and his lids close. You were in too much pain to even cry out to him at this point, the sensation had spread and your whole body was on fire.

“What the fuck is going on!?” Junmyeon screamed, running up towards Minseok.

May grabbed the gun that was next to Minseok’s hand and pointed it down at him.
“Take a step closer to us pretty boy and I’ll blow your friends brains out.” Junmyeon’s body was shaking, but he began to retreat back to where Sehun and Kris were.

“Jongin, what the fuck is happening, I promise, I’ll kill you.” Junmyeon breathed staring at you and Minseok in horror.

“I don’t fucking know! This was never part of the plan I swear to you. May! What the fuck are you doing?!” Jongin screeched, pushing her against the wall, She used the hilt of her gun to whack Jongin across the head, causing him to bleed.

“I’ve given you so many opportunities to like me Jongin. We really could’ve been bigger and better you know. Red is the future, the profit he makes is huge, not Genesis. But you were too blind to fucking see that. I guess it was never meant to be.” She picked up the second gun next to you on the floor and stuffed it into her back pocket.

“Now if you’ll excuse me, I have to finish getting rid of the bodies outside. Follow me and I’ll shoot him.” She said, hooking her hands under Minseok’s armpits and dragged him to the door. What was she doing what was going to happen. You were sobbing now out of pain and panic.

“Jongin, why are you doing this to us?” You cried, applying pressure to your thigh.

“This wasn’t part of the plan Y/N I told you! She’s corrupt and I didn’t know. I didn’t know she was actually on Red’s side, I thought she was one of us. This is besides the point we need to get out of here. Now” He picked you up and threw you over his shoulder, racing towards the door that the boys had come through not long before. “Junmyeon, Sehun. Help me get Kris into your car.”

You were breathing heavily, trying to ease the pain anyway you could, but it just wasn’t working. Jongin opened the door of the car and lowered you into the back seat.
“I’m so sorry Y/N you were never supposed to get hurt, nobody was ever supposed to get hurt. This is all my fault, I should’ve known. It’ll be okay, we’ll get you back I promise.” He shut the door and ran over to the other side opening it for Kris, who was lowered into the car beside you.

But your focus was on what you could see in the distance.

May.

There were two black vans in front of her. She picked up a green can of petrol and began splashing one of the vans with it. Lighting up a matchstick she held it in her hand.

“Say goodbye to your friend!” She shouted. Your heart began to bang in your chest.
 
No.

Minseok was in there, She couldn’t. She wouldn’t. Minseok can’t die. Not now.

“FUCKING STOP. DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE! PUT IT OUT NOW! NOW!” Junmyeon screamed at the top of his lungs.

Time paused for a moment, your heart was beating irregularly. Surely she wouldn’t.

But you were wrong.

Her arms flew forward throwing the match at the van. It was instantly consumed in flames. The flames were high, bright and loud. At that moment you were oblivious to the pain in your leg. You were only aware of the pain in your chest.

You banged your fist against the car window and screamed the loudest you ever had in your life.

“NO! MINSEOK! NO!”

reasons for learning russian
  • incredible language v pretty
  • russian is spoken in russia as well as all former-ussr countries to some extent (and by some i mean ~50-95% can speak it depending on the country) so this covers a HUGE territory along with a GIANT number of speakers (so like if you want to travel to cool places, you can)
  • lomonosov, derzhavin, karamzin, zhukovsky, pushkin, lermontov, gogol, saltykov-shchedrin, turgenev, tolstoy, dostoyevsky, blok, akhmatova, mayakovsky, kamensky, tsvetayeva, drunina, i could go on forever,
  • knowing russian is a huge advantage if you want to learn a slavic language/a language native to a minority nation in russia bc more resources (+ you’ll have an understanding of grammar and lots of words if it’s a slavic language)
  • probably hockey
  • янка дягилева. if u tell me she’s not the light of ur life u lie
  • HOT. RUSSIAN. BABES.
  • russian is honestly so beautiful i sometimes cry because of it (fact)
  • you will come closer to understanding the ~MyStErIoUs RuSsIaN sOuL~
  • there are at least 50 derivatives of the word ‘dick’ and oh boy do they have some great definitions
  • what more do you need honestly
Without Me | Mark

A/N: Hi! Thank you for the request, and I apologise for taking so long to do it. I didn’t really write about the ‘start catching on’ part, but I hope you will enjoy it!

Originally posted by 1wice

Word Count: 1,785
Style/ Genre: Scenario/ Angst
Date posted: 14/08/17



Everything happens for a reason, and he didn’t intend to break your heart.

But everything happens for a reason, and he did it for a reason, and he knew it had to be done.

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“How can you be aro ace and gay?” 

If you are asking this you are likely failing to realize that both aro and ace aren’t black and white terms. They allow for demi and grey areas. You’ll also note that neither aro or ace denote gender. In some cases, people will want to use the label “gay aro ace” in order to convey more meaning. Always use the labels someone provides you, because if you willfully drop one it’s erasure. If you add more then what’s given, you are labeling someone else.

Here are some real life examples: 

I’m pan aroace, and basically, I am aro-spec, so because I’m on the spectrum, I self identify as aro, even tho technically I am not Fully Aromantic, (such as, grey/pan-romantic). That’s just me personally, others identify differently. - anon

I’m aroace and most of the attraction I feel is aesthetic + sensual. Others might feel alterous attraction, etc, OR they might be demi/grayromantic and/or demi/gray asexual & shorten it to just “aroace” for simplicity. There are lots of ways ppl can be aroace and still label themselves as something else -monaters

I identify as a sapphic grey-aro ace, and the way it works is pretty simple. I don’t experience sexual attraction, so I am ace. I very rarely experience romantic attraction, so I am grey-aro. When I experience romantic attraction it is towards women, so I am sapphic. In the end, I fall in all three spectrums, and I love all of my identities equally. Without any one of them my identity would be incomplete, and I love that I finally found the terms to describe my attraction -anon

i identify as aroace and gay. how you can be aroace and gay? well simply by not assuming everyone who uses these labels fits in the boxes you made up in your mind. i use labels that i feel comfortable with and that help me understand who i am. i still struggle. and i often don’t feel valid as either of these three identities, but that aside.

in a way, i see how it’s difficult to be those of these two identities (aroace / gay) and then in another way i just feel like they go perfectly together. i’m trans as well, you know. so the first time i actually admitted to myself something related to me being trans was a thought like, i wish i could be a gay man. in some ways, i have profoundly changed since that, as it was 4 years. but in other ways i still feel like that. later, years later i found out about being asexual and sexual attraction and how that is really not something i have ever experienced or could imagine. and then i started to identify as aromantic, because even the possibility of romance in my life gives me so much anxiety i can’t deal with it. and what i experience is platonic attraction because that is what i call it. period. i’ve had squishes in my life, intense ones. my gender is also fluid, and i feel like when i’m more masculine aligned i tend to me attracted to masculine aligned people as well, just as with other alignments. but also being attracted to a masculine-aligned person makes me feel more masculine. and just ultimately, i’ve only ever been notably attracted to masculine aligned people while i also deem an important part of my gender to be male. right now my platonic attraction is killing me so i asked myself, what reason is there that i should not be allowed to call myself gay? and i couldn’t think of any - just–elope

i identify as aro ace and queer. in the past i’ve identified as aroace & bi/pan, but queer fits me better. but basically, i’m in the arospec & acespec. i feel sexual attraction, but vary rarely. when i do feel it though, the gender of the person doesn’t really matter? i mean, i’m agender, more specifically apogender, so gender isn’t a thing i understand. i’ve been attracted to ppl of many genders tho, so queer is good for me, and queer aroace is even better.  - anon

I’m aroace and bi! I’m grey-ace and my romantic attraction is hard to define, but it falls on the aro spectrum. I use aroace because 1. It’s simpler, and 2. I’ve found that when I use grey-ace or aro spec, people tend to respect my boundaries less. It’s as though they think that because I’m not “100% aroace” they have a chance or they might be the exception, when 9/10 times I’m still not interested (even if I have some kind of attraction to them). Aroace is a safety measure for me. - battledeer

I use the labels gay, aro, and ace. The reason for this is that I do not feel romantic nor sexual attraction to any extent. However, I have a desire to be in a qpr with a person of my same gender. Very rarely, I mean VERY rarely, do I experience sensual or aesthetic attractions towards the opposite/different gender. That is just my experience, therefore I feel that gay aro-ace fits me wonderfully. I might use just gay, aro ace, or ace depending on the situation -anon

If anything, people should be offended about the fact Rose was used as a plot device for heteronormativity as a means to distract blind readers from the gayness between Scorbus. She appears only for that reason alone. It’s insulting to the character. She doesn’t have her own storyline. I do not like Rose because of the way she treats Scorpius and thinks nicknaming him will erase her wrongdoings. She stands in the way of a real and meaningful relationship that should have gone canon to the full extent. Instead of having two gay characters together who are deeply in love with each other, we have to see a straight couple live in delusion without a foundation and build up. That’s the queerbaiting of Cursed Child.

{PART 13} Who Are You? // Im Jaebum

Originally posted by sugaglos

Pairing: Jaebum x Reader (ft. Jackson & Jinyoung)

Genre: Angst

Summary; Mia sheds light on her relationship with Jaebum to Jinyoung and Jackson, as both of the boys finally complete the puzzle of what really happened to you on the night of your accident.

Please note that this series contains mentions of road/car accidents, amnesia and cheating.

I update this series every Sunday between 9pm-10pm (U.K Time)

{Part 1} // {Part 12} {Part 13} {Part 14}

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anonymous asked:

i like asking jason stan's this q because no answer is the same, they are unique and there is no wrong answer and since your a dceu fan i can ask you this about the films too: what does your ideal jason book entail and/or what's your ideal kind of narrative for a dceu jason--like how would you intro him? what's he here (in the film) to do?

if a red hood plotline was important for comics bruce and his narrative, a red hood plotline for dceu batman is nearly necessary. i’ve talked about this before, about how jason’s death had a huge impact on dceu’s bruce’s psyche, on a much higher percentage than his comic equivalent, but to me, and setting aside my interest in jason todd as a character and just that, plainly taking the time to look at the narrative and the way element A (jason todd) could substantially add to element B (bruce wayne’s emotional state and the causation of his current characterization), his introduction’s a required factor to resolve this batman’s need to do what he does

clark went was able to heal part of bruce’s damage by sacrificing himself despite the world never doing him any favors. the justice league and the team values and bonds that will form in face of a greater evil will very likely heal another part of bruce’s emotional damage. but there will still be a kind of darkness bruce in the comics doesn’t have to the extent dceu bruce does (like i’ve explained here). how can that be addressed? i mean, ultimately, maybe it won’t. maybe the people responsible for batman’s overall journey in the extended universe will decide to not touch that narration with a ten-foot pole. if they do? bring the reason dceu batman doesn’t mind not paying strict homage to the no-kill rule. why he’s hell-bent on obsessively protecting everyone he considers family. it’s not the waynes’ death, not anymore. bring jason todd in the scene. and make bruce face him

how i’d introduce jason in the dceu? i wouldn’t. i wouldn’t take the time to gradually build him up, i wouldn’t give you the chance to get used to the tragedy. the audience needs to feel the blow of jason todd, the child bruce wayne failed to protect, reappearing and insisting not to stay burried (well… figuratively and literally in this case, i imagine), refusing to stay safely concealed in the back of batman’s mind. jason’s character is supposed to be a sharp punch in your gut and remind you that pain, loss, death, tragedy; they’re not poetic qualities. they shouldn’t be poetic qualities. a robin, a very young boy, dies and in turn builds up batman’s character to be reckless, dangerous, the right pawn for the BvS backstory drop to play just right. and that’s wrong. it was wrong in the comics, it’s wrong now. and ironically, red hood is a reminder of exactly that: despite the comic creators causing this wrongful narration in the first place, jason todd, robin, red hood, a sarcastic character who is able to mock his own story, exists. it’s just that. he exists. he never wanted to be in it this way in the first place. so he won’t anymore

bring jason todd to the dceu to make batman uncomfortable, to make him stop being okay in his not okay state. bruce never faces loss but rather takes is as one more burden that stays on his back. it’s heavy, it’s tiring, it’s exhausting, it’s graceful, heroic, self-sacrificing but it’s there, always behind him and he never turns around. that’s not fair to the boy that died. that’s not fair. jason todd’s suffering deserves to be acknowledged. bruce wayne owes to that little boy to turn around and face that death. red hood will be there to force that. that’s jason’s part here. no mindless revenge on a father that didn’t save him or even avenge him. just a plea to actually acknowledge him

small theory about peanutbutter

I want to mention one subplot that I overlooked in my first watching (because this is my blog lol), that is Peanutbutter and Bojack’s relation. Peanutbutter has no reason to keep bumping into Bojack at parties or events. Yeah, we know he’s a social butterfly, but he can hold a grudge, specially when people is consistently rude to him (see how his first marriage crumbled, if he was a total pleaser he would still be married to that snobby woman). And Bojack has been mean to him since day one, so what is keeping Peanutbutter from completely avoiding him?
In s2e7 we see that Peanutbutter initially reached Bojack and to an extent admired him. He wanted to be like him. We could think that as a teenager or a young adult he saw Bojack’s stand-up or the early years of Horsin Around and was influenced by his work. So being rejected at the after party was of course a disappointment, but not the extent of resenting him for the rest of his life. After all, relationships take effort, so he won’t give up. Let’s remember that he never idolized Bojack, but he did look up to him as an artist, and wanted to be friends with that person.
Fast forward to the present. Peanutbutter is closest than ever to Bojack for a number of reasons. Diane is working with him, Todd is for some reason always hanging around with one of of ‘em, and now Princess Carolyne manages both of their careers. Peanutbutter can see more closely what kind of person Bojack is. Selfish, arrogant, immature, I’m sure you can follow it. And in s2e8, when he starts talking about Peanutbutter’s personal life on HSACWDTKDTKTLFO, he decides to cut the bullshit and finally confront him.
That’s a subtle character development. And what I love about it is that if you haven’t been following it (which is very likely), the scene of the argument comes so unexpectedly that it comes off as hilarious. Or maybe it was just me. There’s this character who’s mostly been a comic relief with a personality so friendly and positive it was borderline insane, who out of nowhere grabs a couple of chairs on live television and demands his so called friend to give explanations and talk about all that he’s been keeping for so many years.
I also realized writing this that this is one of the first times Bojack actually gets confronted in the series. There’s Herb, Diane… maybe I’m missing someone but in season 2 this was still rare in comparison to the spiritual torture he goes through in season 3.

I’m still kinda obsessed with this art by @sketchingsparrow, so I wrote a quick ficlet 1000-ish words for fun instead of studying for finals ^_^


Vax wasn’t entirely sure how it had started. One day he’d been aiming his daggers at apples he’d set up on trees, taking them out with trick shots while a couple onlookers glanced his way, and the next he was surrounded by a semicircle of children who were all watching him expectantly, a small wooden dagger in each of their hands. 

“Okay, so first we’re going to learn some rules about fighting with daggers,” he began, flicking his own dagger (wooden as well, for demonstration purposes) into the air and catching it in his offhand. 

He grinned as every single pair of eyes followed the stick. 

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when i wrote this headcanon post, i didn’t think through of the plots, characters and timeline. it is part of cheetos au, but to what extent? i have been spending a lot of time messing around with ideas and getting to know the characters, so here’s the updated information for the post.

while it’s true that yulia nikiforova doesn’t expressively show her support to vic niki’s career, it doesn’t mean she’s not proud of him. she’s the reason vic niki wants to become a figure skater, so she knows how much it means to him. but bc she’s the sort that doesn’t excessively talk about her feelings, it takes a lot of guess work to know what she’s trying to express.

i plan on featuring tidbits from the museum and the hint: chocolate!

not much changes with andrei nikiforov though except maybe he’s not such a cold-hearted bastard like we all initially thought. vic niki dedicates all his quad flips to his papa as a protest. andrei still opposes the idea of vic niki being a figure skater but he doesn’t question the expenses he uses for his son. if he’s truly against it, he won’t give out a single cent but that’s not what happens.

but what triggers vic niki to push himself too hard?

unlike yurio who wins his first senior gpf with a gold medal, vic niki crashes in his first gpf. the story sounds similar to yuu k who has a breakdown when he fails his first gpf and vic niki does experience a horrible breakdown. however, vic niki does not have the luxury to get a vic niki to coach him bc that doesn’t make sense so he pulls himself back up and do things his own way.


consider this:

  • age 7 to 13 - trains with yakov. go to training camps. competes in local competitions when possible. focus more on developing his skating skills and personal style to prepare for the higher level competitions.
  • age 14-going-15 - competes in junior level for the first time. progresses well until he suffers a bad fall and fails to place. had his first breakdown, considered quitting the sports but yulia comforted him not to quit.
  • age 15-going-16 - still competes in the junior level as he’s not 15 before july of that year. it’s his last season in the junior level. this is also the first time yuu k sees vic niki on the tv, skating with his eros costume. did well for his last season in the junior level, winning lots of gold.
  • age 16-going-17 - senior debut. does not qualify for the gpf, but places in nationals, places in europeans and wins worlds. since it’s his first win at worlds as a senior level competitor, people have high expectations.
  • age 17-going-18 - qualifies for gpf for the first time, but crashes, failing to place. had his second breakdown, but instead of quitting the sports, he’s angry. i guess he just experienced his puberty?
  • age 18-going-19 - it’s a tough competition for the grand prix series so he doesn’t qualify for the gpf. he places in the nationals, europeans and worlds but it’s not a gold medal. it’s just not his year, i guess.
  • age 19-going-20 - again, not his year. 
  • age 20-going-21 - he qualifies for the gpf, places bronze. one should be grateful that one at least win a medal but not vic niki, who thinks he should have won the gpf after working so hard since he didn’t qualify for the previous two gpfs. tough luck, son. he later wins nationals, places in europeans and worlds.
  • age 21-going-22 - during the off-season, vic niki continues to practice. it grow more intense as the grand prix series approaches and he suffers from exhaustion, dehydration and hunger. despite yakov’s warnings, vic niki continues to punish his body after he recovers. however, two weeks before he is due to compete, vic niki suffers a terrible fall and hurt his ankle. he is out of the grand prix series, thus, not qualified for the gpf. had his third breakdown, forced to recuperate in his parents’ house.
  • age 21-going-22 (cont) - he recovered just before nationals, competes and places. he places in europeans too. for both competitions, he uses the same programs. however, during worlds, he make a drastic change to his programs, music choices and costumes. he wins gold.
  • age 22 to 27 - marks the living legend years as he consecutively wins golds in the gpf, nationals, europeans and worlds. idk, he goes crazy.
  • age 24-going-25 - realizes he is lonely and calls mama for advice. can be considered as the first half of his fourth breakdown, as he continues to compete.
  • age 26-going-27 - feels tired of this endless routine where all he do now is win gold and nothing else. considered as the later half of his fourth breakdown, as he still plans on competing but no longer feels the excitement. the gpf sochi banquet changes all that!
  • age 27-going-28 - takes a break to coach yuu k, discovers there is more to life and experiences love.
  • age 28-going-29 - returns to skating. goes back to live in st petersburg with yuu k. the grand prix series is his first competition, followed by nationals, europeans and worlds. he gets a mixture of gold and silver.
  • age 29-going-30 - still going strong but no longer set on getting gold bc yuu k is snatching all the golds from him. vic niki considers it as his last season. why? because he’s getting married! this is also the time where he talks about bringing yuu k to meet his parents.
  • age 30-going-31 - retires after worlds with his last gold. continue to coach yuuri for the upcoming seasons, though yuu k also says he plans on retiring soon. during the off-season, they are busy preparing for their wedding and get married in june, YAY!

whoops, i end up making a detailed timeline lol

the nikis, please come back from war!

i need to write you down, come on.

bannu219  asked:

Hi there! I just wanna say I love your blog and thank you translating all the information Yana gives out! It makes me happy to know what our favorite artist talks about! And I have a question, I know you probably submitted this before but Sebastian and Vincent's resemble is actually intentional, right? Yana didn't really mean to make them look alike right?

Hi, no problem!

As for Sebastian & Vincent, Yana once said that there *is* a reason why they look alike, but she probably won’t reveal it in the manga! (Here’s the full translation of that blog post)

But she also said on twitter recently that she has problems with drawing good-looking adult men differently (so people can tell them apart), so yeah, I’d say their resemblance is intentional but also “un”intentional to some extent! xD