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i still can’t get over the fact that this was the very first time even let himself be vulnerable in front of isak. it was the first time he wasn’t hiding. it was the first time he was facing isak knowing that isak had read all these things he had written in his text. isak knew about the guilt, and the fear, and the pain

so pretending that everything was fine like he had always done wasn’t a possibility

and isak’s reaction in that moment was so so so crucial. but at the same time it was like having to paint a line on a blank canvas, and only having one canvas available. and knowing that if you messed it up, if the line wasn’t straight, that would be the trace you left behind. and even, who stood there, exposed, was that blank canvas. and isak’s reaction was an attempt at a straight line; if isak messed this up, it would not be something that could be erased, or redone. it would’ve had a long lasting effect on even

but isak’s reaction was perfect. he was there. he was gentle and kind and showing him love through his touch and little gestures and through his words. you are not alone

and this was so important because before that moment, even’s mind was full of speculations. full of “if he knows, he’ll leave”, “if i’m not strong, he’ll leave”, “if i’m not doing okay, he’ll leave”. if, if, if

but that right there, isak holding him, that wasn’t speculation. that was proof. and you can contradict speculations, you can refute them all. but this proof was undeniable

  • What I Say: I've been listening to In The Heights on repeat for a while now.
  • What I Mean: You know the song 'Blackout'? I've been listening to only that for three days.

Evak Malec Gallavich Johnlock Destiel Philkas Victuuri Drarry, you were named after the most problematic yet iconic, cutest yet sassiest, flawless and shameless ships this world has ever known. And they were all gay. So bitch you better woooork!” - me, a mother

1D Hiatus: Day 362

* An official statement regarding the passing of Louis’ mum on Dec 7th is published

* The boys, their friends and families show support and let Louis and the whole family know that they’re not alone via Twitter & Instagram

* A preview of Louis and Steve Aoki’s song ‘Just Hold On’ is released

* Louis will be performing on The X Factor tomorrow as a tribute to his mum

* Pictures of Harry out in London yesterday are released

* Niall posts a picture on Instagram

* Niall arrives in New York City, meets fans at the airport

It’s Dec 9th, 2016.