I really love @zarla-s’ Handplates AU, as you might have guessed. And apparently, anytime I’m faced with a really angsty scenario, I have to immediately double-down on it. Or perhaps, in this case, triple-down? Ahuhuhuhhu~
This got stupidly long so please just click the link to see the whole thing on deviantart please seriously this took me forever please validate meeeeeee
HOLY SHIT !! So it’s been five years today since I decided to join Tumblr and start a blog for one of my favourite characters of all time. It’s been an incredible journey, with lots of ups and downs but my love for Gwen never left me and it’s because of you guys that I was able to bring Gwen to life in ways I never would have thought possible. You’re the ones who loved and supported me through all my bullshit and allowed me to grow both as a writer and a person. I met some incredible people during my time here, people who’ve been with me since day one and friends I made just last week. You are all amazing and I am so thankful to have you all in my life. Below are the people who helped make my blog what it is. Whether we’ve been partners for years, just met or if we just see each other on the dash with a like or reblog, I love you guys and you bring my dash to life
If I forgot anyone I’m so sorry, just know that I love you all !
“Your callous expression hurts me. I’m in a lot of pain”
“The days I spent with you, it hurts so much”
After that day, I never seen him again.
I always spent my weekends with my childhood friend Im Jaebum we grew up together. I can’t see a memory of mine that he wasn’t in, no matter how many times I looked back he was always there, threw out all of it. From when I moved to Seoul to when I got my first boyfriend to heartbreak. From broken promises to happy times. To when I lost my dad in a car crash and felt empty. To our high school graduation. He was there, but I guess the phrase ‘Forever’ didn’t work on us.
Yes, Im Jaebum was in my past but for sure not my future. I never took him seriously when he said ‘I love you’ or said something flirty or acted differently when we’re around other guys. It never hit me he meant those things. I wish I did earlier, I wish I tried loving him back. I wish I wasn’t so oblivious. So please, please forgive me.
Every Monday morning me and Im Jaebum would go get coffee together before we both head to work. He was a CEO he was rich but I wasn’t. He never looked at the difference and neither did I. I wasn’t poor but my finacial wasn’t that great. We both communicated like we had no differences. Everyone thought we would be a great couple, even some said we’d have cute children. I used to blush at those comments and reject it all. But I never seen the disappointment he had on his face whenever I did that. He wanted us to be like that. He wanted us to date, get married, have children. He wanted a future together. And maybe it wasn’t a bad idea, maybe me and him would I have had cute children. I’m sorry for not giving us a chance, I am really sorry.
Every Wednesday me and Im Jaebum would go eat dinner at this one restaurant. We were regulars there, the owner was a very kind old lady. She thought we were a couple for a long time. She asked us one night “when are you guys getting married? It’s 5 years you know” I blushed not knowing what to say but Jaebum was fast to react. He said “weren’t not dating grandma” he’s voice was stirn and almost emotionless I was shocked at his change of tone quickly. The whole night was full of a heavy atmosphere I knew something was off but I was again oblivious and didn’t ask. I wish I did.
After that day Jaebum told me what he wanted to say for a long time, he told me how he felt and how it hurt him. I was shocked and didn’t know how to react. I was ignorant even that night. He was hurting, badly. Because of someone like me not understanding how he felt and of all these signals he always gave. He’s actions and words all become crystal clear to me that moment.
And those words he said that night always came back to me.
“Your callous expression hurts me. I’m in a lot of pain” “The days I spent with you, it hurts so much”
Now I am in pain due to all of my actions.
How can You and I end up like this?
I asked myself every night but you were gone to answer them.
Again I was oblivious for not reaching out to you.
FOUR HUNDRED AND THIRTY TWO!!! Four hundred and thirty two of you have decided to stick with me despite it all. I really don’t know what I’ve done to deserve all of you or why you’ve stuck with me, but I’m so grateful. I’m so grateful to be able to write one of my favorite characters with extraordinarily talented writers such as yourselves. It’s an honor, a blessing, and I couldn’t ask for a better group of followers. Some of you have now become close friends of mine who I don’t know what I would do without now. It’s crazy to think how lucky I am to have met you let alone write with you. Right now, things have been very tense within the fandom and we could all use a great bit of positivity–as a whole the human race needs some love. So with my bias list, I’m going to share some love because I feel that love from all of you and I want to share it.
okay but sam getting a tongue ring. danny loves it.
“Oh my God, dude, stop pining.”
"Shut up I’m not pining,” Danny said. He sat on the floor of his and Tucker’s apartment, wrapped in a ten year old blanket with rocket ships and planets on it Tucker privately referred to as ‘Danny’s mope-cape.’ He had not looked away from the laptop planted in front of him.
“She’s only been gone three weeks. And it’s not like you don’t hear from her.”
“No, it’s been twenty-fives days and I have not heard from her. No hearing her voice on the phone, no texts, not even snapchat. Just an email whenever she manages a weak wifi signal.”
Being a pair of college boys, the cheap couch they had managed to scrounge up for the living room was hard and lumpy. Through diligent trial and error, Tucker had discovered the most comfortable position involved him laying on it in a way that partly had him upside down with his legs dangling as he played Pokemon on his 3DS.
"You are so whipped, dude,” Tucker shook his head fondly. “Sam tells you she might be able to Skype with you today and you’re sitting in front of the laptop all day like a puppy waiting at the door. I’m surprised she hasn’t made you wear a collar yet.”
“Seriously, Harry? Again?” This was the third time Harry had come home drunk since he’d been back from tour and he’d only been back for less than a week. I understand that he wants to have fun when he’s home, but I also want to spend time with my boyfriend. I hadn’t said anything, but this time, I wasn’t keeping quiet.
“Why are you being such a….. a bitch?” I flinched away from him and removed myself from his side. I wasn’t going to help him get to the couch if he was going to be such an asshole and his model friends were already gone so the only person he had was himself. He took a few steps and eventually, he toppled over. “Why aren’t you helping me? Isn’t that what you’re here for?” He said while looking up at me.
“No, Harry, it isn’t. So you can help yourself get to the COUCH, I am going upstairs to my room. I’m not doing this anymore.” He began talking, but I shut him out and headed upstairs, making sure I locked the door behind me.
I woke up to the smell of bacon and eggs. He was going to try to butter me up. It wasn’t going to work this time. I took my time in showering and just put on a pair of shorts and one of his shirts and headed downstairs. I didn’t even go in the kitchen, I just sat down on the couch and turned on the television. I noticed him poke his head around the corner of the kitchen and then disappear again. Then he came out and bent down to kiss me and I turned my head so his lips would fall on my cheek.
“Come on, babe. I’m sorry. I wasn’t going to drink but Louis bought me one and then one turned into I don’t even know how many. I’m sorry. I won’t do it again.”
“Babe? Don’t you mean bitch?” He exhaled and looked down. “Harry, you’ve been home for a week and this,” I gestured between the two of us, “is about the longest we’ve spent together. You go out with your friends, ones that you see while touring, and the boys. Don’t get me wrong, I love those boys so very much but they get to see you all time, Harry and I don’t get to see you for months at a time. It’s quite bullshit that you come home and don’t even spend time with the people you’re away from for so long and quite frankly I’m tired of it.” He went from apologetic to angry. I saw it in his eyes.
“You’re starting to sound like more of a mother than a girlfriend, don’t you think? If I wanted to be treated like a child, I would still be living with my mum. You don’t get to tell me what to do. You act like you own me. You don’t own me. Geez, fuck off, would you?” Now I was pissed.
“You want me to fuck off, huh? Well you know what, Harry? Fuck you. I’ll gladly fuck off.” I stood from the couch and started up the stairs, Harry hot on my heels.
“What are you doing?”
“Just what you asked me to do. I’m fucking off. I’m leaving.” I walked up the stairs a little more and then turned back around to face him. Tears starting to fall from my eyes. My voice was softer than I had wanted it to be this time. “You know, I was prepared to give you the rest of my life. I would’ve given you everything. But the sad thing is, you won’t even give me an hour of your time and you and I both know I deserve a little more than that.” I took the last few steps before entering our room and slamming the door behind me.
“Fuck!” Harry yelled, followed by the sound of a lamp breaking and I already knew which one it was. I flung open the door, and stuck my head out.
“That was my favorite lamp, you asshole!!” I yelled before slamming the door again. I hated that I was crying right now. I hated letting anyone see me cry. I quickly got my suitcase and began putting the necessary things inside. I guess I was going to stay at Perrie’s until I could figure out what to do next. I hadn’t even asked her yet, but I knew she was let me in. I opened the door and Harry was stood beside it.
“Where are you going?” He said, his brows furrowed.
“Don’t worry about it. You don’t have to worry about me anymore. I’m not your problem anymore, okay?” I said, a bit bitchy. He didn’t say anything as I walked out.
I put my suitcase in the trunk and got in the car. I started it and before I could even think, I completely broke down. It was the chest rattling, completely blinded kind of break down. I laid my head on the steering wheel and tried to calm myself. I was startled by the passenger door opening, Harry sliding in.
“Get out.” I managed to say. He stared ahead for a moment before looking over at me. “Get. Out. Harry.” I said as I tried to push his arm.
“No.” He simply stated.
“You want me to leave you alone so badly, why won’t you let me? I am trying to leave, I am trying to give you what you want and you won’t get out of my fucking car!! Just get the fuck out!” I began yelling. He just looked at me, not saying a word. After a few minutes of us just staring at each other, he finally sighed, breaking the silence.
“I’m sorry, Y/N. I didn’t mean it; any of it. God, I love you so much it’s ridiculous. I don’t know why I do this to you. You are honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me. Nothing, not even being in One Direction could compare to you. I would pick you over that any day but I treat you like shit and I don’t know why. I am begging you to give me another chance. I will be everything you deserve and more. I know I don’t deserve you. Not at all but I’m not going to let you walk away from me. I can’t let you go. I promise I’ll be better. I won’t go out another night while I’m on break. It’ll just be me and you for the whole rest of the month, I swear it just please let me take that suitcase from the trunk and take you back into our house and show you that I can be better; to be someone that actually deserves you. Please.” He looked into my eyes, his full of apologies and hope. After a few minutes of my silence, he sighed again and hung his head. I turned the car off and he looked over at me.
“Seriously, Harry, I love you, I really do, but if you pull this shit again, I’ll leave and I won’t stay next time. I was serious when I said I was prepared to give you the rest of my life, but I won’t wait on you forever.” He nodded and gently took my hand in his, placing a kiss on every knuckle.
“Let’s go back inside, yeah? I made you a delicious breakfast.” He said with a smile, that didn’t quite reach his eyes. I could tell he was still worried I would drive away. I smiled and pulled the key from the ignition. “I’ll get your bag.” He hopped from the car and got my suitcase from the trunk before coming around to take my hand and lead me back into the house but not before he attempted the “I’m sorry” kiss once again, and this time, I accepted.
“Oh and you owe me a new lamp. Don’t forget that.” He laughed and kissed me again before closing the door behind us and leading me into the kitchen.
We came across this dog walking around downtown when a woman was giving puppies away on the street. Until we can find her a forever home, my boss is fostering her in Marina Del Rey.
Upon taking her to the vet for some shots we found out the following things:
- Chihuahua Terrier Mix - Approximately 7 weeks old - Will likely be 20lbs when full grown - perfect health - super sweet, mellow and sleeps through the night
She was very nervous and shaky when we took her into our office, but chilled out and was playing with us within an hour. We want to give her a stable forever home where someone will give her the awesome loving life she deserves.
gmail me at heyitsliezl if youre seriously interested!
SHE HAS FOUND A HOME! THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO REACHED OUT.
How a Rper reacts if someone not involved in a thread likes or reblogs the thing
OMG THEY READ MY ROLEPLAYS! I'm gonna love you forever thank you for spending your time on me. I..Am I any good?...aww..please..YES...thanks thanks thanks *hugs for eternity* This means a lot to me.
*confused frown* w..what? Who are you? Why are you reblogging this? Are you trying to take over? No just stop! You confuse the thing. No don't do that..stop..
Okay, this seriously took me like 3 hours (no joke) to do! And i sincerely apologize if you aren’t on here, it’s not personal or anything! You probably changed your url or something happened and it was completely by mistake/accident i swear! I still love you all! Let me know if you feel like we’re friends enough to be on my next follow forever (just send me a hey) and i’d really appreciate that ^-^
Have an amazing day and please check out all these amazing blogs!
You’ve been traded!! It’s free agency folks, anything can happen!aka i needed a quirky idea for my 3.5k follow forever and it seemed fitting! All of the trades were personally decided on by me so even if it’s not your fav teams (sometimes it’s the opposite) just know i put a lot of love and work into them!
But seriously, thank you to everyone who has followed me, you’ve done more than you know in helping me become better emotionally and as a person. Love you all, and even if you aren’t on here i love you. This took me so long that i had to cut down all the people i wanted to put on it so please don’t take it personally. I’m always looking for new people to follow too so if i don’t follow you now feel free to drop me a message and i’ll check your blog out/we can become best friends.
hello lovelies <3 I just wanted to say thank you for 500+ followers!! Around 12 days ago I did my first follow forever when I had 300 so I wanted to thank you all for helping me get this far does that make sense lol and I appreciate every single one of you :^) So the blogs that are listed below are some of the greatest blogs I’ve ever followed and you guys should follow them if you haven’t already!!
Bolded: Fav blogs/Super nice people I’ve talked to at least once ((aka friends))
Special thanks to jiiminniemouse and blue-ivy-carter for supporting me in what ever I do. You guys are seriously awesome and I’m so proud to know you irl (lmao we literally live right beside each other). I love you guys way too much <3 and thanks for ditching me with ur new boys have fun with them lol jkjk
If I forgot you please let me know!! Thank you again <3
hello my precious blueberries! i’ve had this blog for a little over a year and a half and i couldn’t thank you guys enough for making my experience so amazing. here are some of the amazing people i follow/have mutuals with. if you’re in bold, that means a love you a lot and we talk or i admire you from afar. <3
okay, i know i probably forgot some people. please don’t be offended if you’re not on here - i love you all and i’m so so sorry if i didn’t include you, i didn’t mean to. it just took me literally hours to do this and my brain hurts.
I CAN’T BELIEVE I’VE ACTUALLY REACHED 1K LIKE SERIOUSLY WOAHHHH! LIKE WOOOOOAH!
AND OKAY OKAY YOU CAUGHT ME I KNOW ACTUALLY REACHED 1K LIKE A MONTH AGO BUT I’VE PROCRASTINATED THIS SO MUCH BECAUSE IM A HORRIBLE HUMAN BEING IM SORRY
Thank you so much for following me and putting up with all of my rambling and awkward social moments, all of you are literally the nicest people in the world and I wish I could just meet up with all of you and hug you and tell you how awesome you are because it is so so true please never forget that! I’m always here if you wanna talk or you wanna be friends, friends are cool :D
Annnyway i’ll get on to the follow forever now, i’ve never done one before so bear with me
Firstly huge shout out to ugh-oakley, katie you’re so funny and amazing and friendly and your snapchats are the best thing ever XD I’m so lucky to call you a friend :) (btw katie also makes youtube video you should all go check them out at Youtube.com/KatieMicheIIe js)
Major shoutout to this people because you guys messaged me on thursday after I had a panic attack and it may not seem like much but that kind of thing really means a lot to me so thank you <3 hahannnnahah, black-parade-girl and 50-shades-of-trxye
I would write little bits about all of you but I’ve just realised this is gonna get really long and sappy and boring fast so i better not :D But here are some seriously incredible people you should all go and follow right now! If we’ve never talked before and your blog is on here it basically just means I think your blog is rad and we totally should talk :D
Alright, who slipped drugs into their drinks?? Richard was it you? Jeremy!! Put your glasses back on!!
Haha anyways, I was listening to the song Lollipop by MIKA and I thought, “This would be fun to doodle.” And knowing me, you know I’ve been having an art spree with these lovely dorks. And so I also thought “They would never do this randomly, they don’t act this way ever.” So something happened to them to cause them to do this, something messed with their minds. Anyone have a better explanation than mine for why this is happening?? Please…