Everything feel wrong I don't want to be trans, I want to be cis. I want to have been born with a dick. I don't want to be laying on my bed feeling disgusting while I'm not doing anything. I'm always feeling disgusting. I feel terrible right now, absulutely terrible. I'm sick to my stumache. I'm pre everything, all I have is a binder, a guys hair cut, and guys clothes. I feel sick. This honestly feels like the worst I've felt ever.
I’m so sorry, I know how much of a downer it can be when you feel this way.
Maybe our dysphoria tips in the FAQ can help you, good luck -Matt