you ever just wanna not Exist™ when your mental illness acts up but then you remember andreil have struggled through the most traumatic experiences and they still have to live with ptsd but they worked so fucking hard to get to where they are right now, which is with Each Other forever and they learn how to gradually find their own pieces of happiness and they fight against their demons with the help of the other because they’re each other’s anchor to life, and they thought they would never have this–
do you ever just think of this because i do everyday and it gives me hope
I’m not doing well, more like okay-ish. Sounds worse that it is, really. Since April a lot of things (mental and physical) wen’t donwhill. I keep waking up not knowing who or where I am - it only lasts a few seconds but it happened more often than I’d like. Usually, when that passes and I get to work, I start feeling a dull pain above my eye socket, which I assume is caused by my sinuses, and I have a hard time keeping that eye open. Not to mention I don’t feel present at any time of the day, looks like I’m on auto-pilot and barely conscious. Idk. I’ll be visiting the doctor this Wednesday, maybe address the mental part as well. (No, I’ll probably chicken out lol)
I won’t be doing weekly progress updates anymore because of the reasons stated above. At least until I get better. Personal updates might be put on hold, too, for the same reason. Or not, not sure yet because it really depends on the day. But I lurk anyway so messages will always be answered, with a slight delay tho.
Put Up Or Shut Up - The striped background.
So Wrong, It’s Right - The birds.
Nothing Personal - The skeleton.
Dirty Work - The bottle being popped open.
Don’t Panic - The monsters.
Future Hearts - ‘Driving in a car with broken tail-lights’ + Back To The Future Hearts Tour poster