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Over Our Heads

Title: Over Our Heads

Summary: When Sam leaves you and Dean alone in the bunker to have a movie night all by yourselves, feelings that have been under wraps for years begin to surface. Will it be the start of something new or will it turn into yet another moment you’ve had with the eldest Winchester?

Author: deanssweetheart23

Characters: Dean Winchester x reader, Sam Winchester (mentioned)

Word count: 2482

Warnings: Language, the slightest bit of angst. Pure fluff.

Author’s Notes: This is my submission for @idreamofhazel ‘s and @impala-dreamer ‘s “Sammy Says” writing challenge. First of all, congratulations to both of you amazing human beings because you deserve it. Second of all, thank you so much for letting me participate, I loved writing this.

Also, I’d like to thank my amazing twin @ravengirl94 for putting up with my whining and for helping me figure out what I wanted to do with the ending here. Thank you so, so much, Emily, you’re the absolute best.

Now about this fic: My prompt was “You mind doing a little bit of thinking with your upstairs brain, Dean?” and is included in bold in the text below. (This is written both from the reader’s and Dean’s POV and includes a flashback in italics.)

Originally posted by personal-interest-in-you


Your fingers curled into your palm whilst you sat on Dean’s bed, head rested against the headboard, body just mere inches away from his as the world in the screen before you came to life.

It was one of those rare nights that you had nowhere to be and nothing to do. Miraculously enough, the world seemed to be doing just fine without you and the Winchesters brothers were more than happy to take advantage of all of that tranquility and stagnation while it lasted. Sam, for instance, had already hit the bar for the night -he had said something about needing to spend some time with himself but you were pretty sure that his sudden outing had something to do with that beautiful librarian that had been flirting with him all week- while, much to your surprise, the older Winchester had decided to spend a lazy night in with you, filled with cooking and silly jokes, wonderfully interesting conversations and laughter.

However, as fantastic as the evening had been, it was getting late and you were getting more and more tired.

Stifling a yawn, you turned to see Dean already staring at you, green eyes bright and wide in the dim light of the bedroom.

“What?” you asked.

He smiled that half-smile of his that always caused your heart to flutter unevenly.

“C’mere.” He whispered, arm draping over your shoulder to pull you to him.

You opened your mouth to object but the look on his face, vulnerable and intense, pierced through your very soul and you leaned against him, letting his warmth seep into your skin and his scent, so utterly and uniquely Dean, to overwhelm your senses, comfortably resting your head on the crook of his neck.

“Better now?”

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Chantaje - Mieczysław Stilinski Smut

REQUESTED: No, I just haven’t written for a while, and I wanted to do something for you guys!

WARNINGS: Hickeys, fingering, blowjob

SUMMARY: When you run into Stiles at a club, your past comes out. It takes a further encounter in the bathroom for you to both be okay again.

NOTES: I’ve listened to this song too many times, and it’s becoming problematic.

AAAAAnyways, SMUT YAY! (I miss writing smut. I haven’t had the motivation since my birthday because a lot’s happened.)

Hope you enjoy! Based off this song (and there will be translations of the lyrics too dw <3)

Originally posted by readersleepingintheforest

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Ok lesbian minako spam because im literally crying this hc has warmed me (also based my experiences of being ur fave lesbian dancer) 

  • Minako coming out to her dance troupe and expecting backlash, disgust, you can’t change with us anymore but they’re her sisters and love her. 
  • Minako being DISGUSTED by people who imply she dances for any reason other than her love of the art. 
  • Minako going through the “Just came out of the closet” stage and chopping off all her hair right before a competition and having to wear extensions in performances for like 2 years.
  • She had a poster of Lilia that was her gay poster.
  • Minako meeting Hiroko in college through a class/tutor session and she just FALLS because she’s so cute and small and chubby and Minako is dying. 
  • They end up dating a little bit but end on good terms since Minako needs to focus on her career+travel. They remain life long friends. 
  • When Hiroko meets Toshi she expects Minako to be upset but no she does a 20 min long speech at the wedding and when Mari is born she deems herself godmother while sobbing because “I LOVE THIS CHILD” 
  • Lbr, the Katsuki kids are her kids. 
  • When Yuuri is born she knows she FINALLY got a little dancer. 
  • She watches him, helps him, learns EVERYTHING to know about anxiety, keeps an extra bottle of his meds in her purse, does his hair for competitions, is the driving force of him going pro. (Yuuri’s family in canon doesn’t know a lot about it…so someone had to) 
  • She finally lets it drop she’s a lesbian to Yuuri and Yuuri is midspin, stops, and then starts sobbing because he likes boys and he’s SCARED. 
  • I’m not saying that Yuuri came out for the first time sobbing in Minako’s studio in nothing but a tank top and tights but……
journal jar challenge

100 journal prompts for you to pick out each day: make and decorate a little jar, write all these prompts on bits of paper (or just print them out) and put them in the jar, and then pick out one each day and write about it in your journal. if you are thinking about starting one, this is a good excuse to start!

1. your favourite band right now
2. the last concert you went to
3. dear ______, here is something ive never told you
4. yourself
5. body positivity
6. what kept you awake last night?
7. food
8. some things that make you happy
9. cultural appropriation
10. colours
11. dear past me
12. fluffy blankets
13. highs and lows of today
14. a playlist for when you are feeling sad  
15. how did you feel this morning?
16. your favourite book 
17. your friends
18. ten quotes you love
19. someone you really want to punch
20. dear future me
21. your pets
22. the most fun you have ever had
23. your sunshine
24. what did you dream last night? 
25. what are you worrying about?
26. places you have enjoyed visiting
27. a playlist for when you’re angry
28. what song makes you dance?  
29. draw your feelings
30. someone who inspires you 
31. how was your week?
32. write something down that you can’t tell a soul
33. who, from your past, would you not mind seeing?
34. something that scared you today
35. write a wishlist
36. what are the world’s problems today?
37. ten restaurants you love
38. what is your saddest memory?
39. what are you looking forward to?
40. a playlist for when you are happy
41. your favourite season
42. a headline from the newspaper today
43. what did you learn this week?
44. write a letter to someone you need to forgive (this could be yourself).
45. how do you stand out from the crowd?
46. short term goals
47. what would you like to do today?
48. list your otps
49. what have you been thinking about the most today?
50. your strangest talent
51. thoughts on religion
52. reality check: something you need to realise but can’t admit to yourself
53. do you believe in karma?
54. what is your greatest weakness and strength?
55. do you feel like you belong?
56. five songs that make you smile
57. are you happy with yourself?
58. a memory with a family member
59. why you are grateful for someone
60. where are you right now?
61. someone you admire
62. a good movie you watched recently
63. what can you smell right now?
64. dear ______, i love you because
65. a playlist for when you’re uninspired
66. the worst place you have been to
67. a song that really resonates with you
68. what does your dream room look like?
69. what is the weather like right now?
70. if you wanted someone to really understand who you are, what would they have to read, listen to, and watch?
71. where do you see yourself in 10 years?
72. have you been bullied?
73. are you an artist?
74. one word that describes your mood
75. how are you feeling, pal?
76. do you feel you were born in the wrong era?
77. something that inspires you to become an activist
78. what do you dislike about yourself and why?
79. something that makes you laugh
80. top ten movies to watch
81. who is the most supportive person in your life right now?
82. make a collage that is aesthetically pleasing for you
83. don’t hold back, just vent until your hand hurts
84. if you were an animal, what animal would you be?
85. who do you miss?
86. first five words that come to your mind
87. do you sometimes doubt your existence?
88. a playlist for dancing to
89. long term goals
90. the most disappointed you have ever been
91. how are your relationships with others going?
92. your ideal world
93. paste an image here
94. somewher you would like to be right now
95. why are you upset?
96. talk about your best friend
97. ten people you want to meet
98. a poem you like
99. your favourite story
100. what makes you smile?

harutaka in -over the dimension-

—their first interaction in the novel takes up most of the second chapter. haruka is supposed to be designing the enemies for the game they’re making for the school festival, but he’s spacing out and can’t think of what to draw—so takane starts yelling at him. haruka thinks to himself that he wishes she’d stop being so rude, particularly because he’s worried that no one will want to marry her because of it.

—they start talking about what kind of enemies haruka should create. he didn’t want to draw zombies like takane suggested, so they come up with a solution together. he’s happy and inspired when takane suggests they base them off animals instead.

—takane smiles at haruka, which he says makes him smile too.

—haruka came up with the game’s title the day before, but no one has voiced it aloud yet. he gets excited upon realizing that takane’s going to be the first one to say it.

—haruka notes that he’s happy takane inspired him in deciding what enemies to draw.

—he’s on a roll with designing the characters. the thought of takane being excited about it is his…….driving force, to say the least. says he “salivates” at the thought of it lmao and he blushes a little even. he wants to impress her and have her compliment him.

—haruka talks on the phone with kenjirou and thinks about how he’s having trouble creating the game’s final enemy. he gets excited suddenly, then asks kenjirou if he has a picture of takane he could borrow.

—haruka’s over at kenjirou’s house the week before the school festival to work on the game, and he’s spending some time with ayano. after she’s gone, he notes that there’s only one person his age that he feels comfortable around (takane.)

—he closes his eyes and euphorically images her—in very precise (and almost provocative) detail. he notes that he doesn’t need a picture of her, and he can imagine takane more vividly than any photo.

—he’s then overwhelmed by the urge to say her name out loud, and decides to since no one’s around. he starts to when there’s a knock on the door, at which point he feels embarrassed. (in the illustration he looks so blissful when he’s thinking about her omg.)

—kano comes in disguised as ayano. then asks haruka if he was thinking dirty thoughts just now. haruka freaks out and comments (almost guiltily,) that no, he wasn’t, then specifically notes that he was thinking about takane though.

—it goes on to the school festival in the next chapter, there’s a long description (which is honestly kind of on going throughout the whole chapter,) of haruka observing takane playing video games. he’s amazed and even inspired because she’s so good at them, and lives up to her title as “dancing flash ene”.

—not really too ~concrete~ in terms of harutaka but it was still really funny to me: takane calls haruka a dumbass for being as excited as he is, and he just agrees like HELL YEAH I’M A DUMBASS.

—haruka watches shin and takane face off in headphone actor, and notes that he’s feeling unexpected jealousy. he says he wants to be able to play games with takane, and make her feel as excited and “impassioned” as she feels right now.

—he congratulates her even though she lost.

—he comments again in his mind that he wants to play video games with takane, casually mentions it to shintaro, then gets incredibly excited at the prospect when shintaro offers to teach him how.

—later when he and shin are playing video games, shin says that haruka and takane should battle—but haruka still feels too inexperienced to do so, and he’s afraid that takane won’t wanna play against him again if he flat out loses to her the first time.

—in the next chapter, he and shin are at an arcade keeping an eye on momo—when takane calls haruka. takane tells him that it’s ayano’s birthday, and she’s throwing a party for her. haruka wants to attend but has to take care of momo first, so he can’t right now. he then lies to takane about where he is, because he knows that takane doesn’t like shintaro—and he doesn’t wanna put her in a bad mood for hanging out with him instead. after they hang up, he feels terrible for lying to takane.

—takane implies that she wanted to bring haruka to the arcade herself, and also teases him a little that he lost his chance to go with her.

—takane is at the arcade with ayano, and it turns out they’re gonna be facing off against haruka and shintaro in a tournament final. it’s haruka against takane, and shintaro against ayano.

—takane calls his and shintaro’s costumes freaky without knowing who they are (since they were wearing masks,) and haruka gets a li’l emo lmao.

—haruka realizes this is the first time he’s facing off against takane and gets nervous since he hasn’t mentally prepared himself.

—haruka only wins because he calls out takane’s name during the match……for some reason, and distracts her. takane isn’t mad later when she finds out he lied to her, but tells him not to lie to her ever again.

—towards the end of the chapter, takane gets flustered that he isn’t paying attention to her when she’s talking—he’s distracted thinking about how he’s going to die.

—at the beginning of the next chapter, he’s thinking about when he battled takane just because.

—shintaro comes and visits haruka at his house, he thinks about how he considers shintaro to be a good friend. haruka then says he’d also consider takane a friend, but doesn’t feel quite right about calling her that. he admits that his feelings for her might be love, but he can’t act on or even acknowledge the fact, because he knows he’s going to die.

—he goes for a walk later that night, he says he wanted to do something special before he dies. he thinks about how great it’d be if he and takane could face one another in the upcoming dead bullet tournament, and says it could be a precious moment of his life, and he doesn’t feel like it’s wasted.

—haruka’s last moments alive, spent with takane:

“The sounds around me seemed to echo mindlessly in my ears, and soon I could only pick up the barest nuances of Takane’s words. What did she say? I didn’t know. She sounded real sad, though.

Ahhh, I’m sorry, Takane. I’m really sorry. I’ve received so much from you, but I couldn’t give you anything in return.
I bet you’re angry about it. Well, you can be, if you want. You can punch me, even. If it helps you get over it, you can do anything you like.
Oh, but don’t take it out too much on people besides me. You might run into all kinds of wonderful people later on in life. You need to treat them with the care they’ll deserve. 
Yeah. That’s right. You’re a kind, gentle girl, Takane. You need to keep on smiling. You need to be happy. 

So, please, Takane. Stop crying…”

anonymous asked:

Do you know any healthy ways to deal with depression and anxiety? I've been having a really tough time lately, and I thought "Maybe auntie Jillie can help."

Oh pumpkin, I’m sorry to hear you’re having a tough time of it lately! You’re not alone – I think all of us who struggle with depression and anxiety have been having a rougher-than-usual time. At least, that’s what I’ve been hearing from other folks, and I know my own Brain Raccoons have been ridiculously noisy lately. 

My #1 suggestion of a healthy way to deal with them: GET PROFESSIONAL HELP, if your circumstances are such that you’re able to. For a lot of us (myself included), it doesn’t matter how mindful you are, how much self-care you do, how careful you are about sleep and eating properly and exercise: the brain chemicals are wacky, and things need to be done to balance them. 

(One of the things my therapist always says to me is “I know you already know what I’m telling you. My job is to help you figure out new ways to use that information to give yourself better patterns.”)

But! Short-term things you can do to make yourself feel better right now!

  • Put on some favorite music (loud and bouncy is preferable) and dance around for a few songs. Make yourself move. Get some adrenaline and endorphins flowing.   
  • Do you have a favorite plush or fuzzy companion? Talk to them. Yes, I’m serious. When I am having a particularly bad day, Clovis Devilbunny sits on my desk, and I tell him about what I’m doing. Sometimes you need the unconditional love and acceptance of a fuzzy companion, and you need to communicate with them.
  • Go take a shower, and brush your teeth. Visualize scrubbing away the layer of depression. It will help, even if just a little bit.
  • If you are a makeup-wearing type, take a bit of time and play with makeup. Make yourself up to look like an incarnation of David Bowie. Paint yourself like a silent film star. Do something different than your usual look, and really focus on the different colors and textures of the makeup. Derail your particular Brain Raccoons from chittering at you, even if just for a little bit.
  • Eat something. Even if you don’t want to. It doesn’t have to be big, it doesn’t have to be fancy, and it’s absolutely fine if it’s junk food. Just eat something?
  • Also, drink some water. Yes, I’m serious. No, being properly hydrated will not cure depression or anxiety, but it will make you feel a bit better, physically. 
  • Revisit a favorite piece of media. Rewatch a favorite movie or TV show, or reread a favorite book. There have been studies that show that doing such things actually has measurable benefits for your mental health!

Try to remember that you won’t feel like this forever. You won’t, I swear. Things will get better, even if it feels like things will never change and you’re stuck. You aren’t. 

Much love to all of you.

they see you for the first time

S T I L E S :

Stiles had accompanied Lydia and Allison to the mall for dress shopping and little did he know that the stunning girl Lydia ran into would be the one he’d share his first dance with.

“Lydia, who’s that boy over there waving at me?”

“Oh, that’s Stiles. He’s way under your league; trust me.”

“I actually think he’s kinda cute.”

S C O T T :

The first time Scott saw you, you were crying. You were another of the Dread Doctors’ genetic chimera experiments and Scott found you sobbing in the tunnels, with blood oozing nonstop out of your shoulder.

“D-don’t let them take me!”

“Don’t worry, I won’t let anyone hurt you. You’re safe now, please, don’t cry.” 

L I A M :

It was kind of hard for him to not notice you the first time he was in your presence, as you were the only girl on the lacrosse team next to Kira and showcasing your extremely outgoing and loud personality didn’t help him much in terms of trying not to be nervous around you.

“Hey, you’re Liam right? How’s it going?”

“G-good.”


D E R E K :

When Derek came looking for Scott at Stiles’ house, he was surprised to walk into Stiles’ room to see a girl dancing and singing out loud on the bed. You both made eye contact, and that’s when you fell off the bed; Derek couldn’t stop suppressing the unavoidable smile that came to his face.

“Where the hell are my friends, home alone not agai- ow! Uh, who are you?!”

“I don’t believe we’ve met, I’m Derek Hale.”

“Yeah, Stiles told me about you, you’re the one that never smiles, right?”

I S A A C :

The last thing Isaac expected to see when he came to Derek’s place was Derek being thrown and pinned to the ground by a girl half his size. After you were done, you walked off with a smirk on your face, not taking any note of the curly-haired boy and it took Isaac all of his mental strength to refrain from running up to you and being a nervous dork.

“Derek, who’s that?”

“Uh, my cousin. Why?”

“Cause’, she knocked you out beautifully.”

T H E O :

Malia had brought you to the workout room when she interrogated Theo about keeping secrets. You had heard a lot about him from the rest of the pack, mostly bad, but you never actually saw him, so Malia thought it would be a good idea for you two to get a little familiar. The result? Neither of you could stop staring.

“You must be (Y/N).”

“Theo.”

“I gotta say, I definitely wasn’t expecting this.”

“I could say the same to you, Raeken.”


J A C K S O N :

When Jackson took Allison swimming, he wasn’t anticipating another girl to join them. The first word he thought of when he looked at you was: beautiful. Not hot, not cute, like he calls every other girl; but beautiful. And it was at that exact moment he realized that you were the one for him.

“Hey Allison, I was- who’s this…?”

“Jackson, (Y/N). (Y/N), Jackson. She’s in my english class with Scott, Stiles, and I.”

“(Y/N). That’s a beautiful name.”

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College

So, I’m in college.

My band first semester was 18 people, this semester it’s 14. Here are some stories.

- Today, before class, we were talking about twerking on one of the two poles in the back of the room.

My band director walked into this conversation.

“It’s not stripping, it’s exotic dancing.” - Alto sax player

She just stared at us while we all died laughing.

- Playing at a basketball game.

Band director: *Holds up whiteboard with the words Tequila on it* I could use this right now.

Band: *Screaming* TEQUILA!

Percussionist: HARAMBE!

*Cue the band laughing and the director staring the percussionist down.*

- “Tappity tap tappity tap tap. That’s the technical term. I should know because I’m a percussionist.” - Band director

- Whacked myself in the face with a stand. My director gasped and the entire band went silent. This was in front of an audience at a basketball game.

- “I inflict pain on myself by doing 3 hours of math homework.” - Student

“That’s the least harmful thing you can do to yourself.” - Band director

- We were quoting Family Guy (in the voices) for five minutes straight… We had a concert in an hour.

- Two weeks before finals.

“Is it like a trend for all teachers to wear hats?” - Non band friend

*Looks down at shirt that says ‘No excuses. Pls.* “I don’t know…. I just wore this today because my hair looks bad. Also, it’s that time of the year.” - Band director

- *Band director uses five different curse words in a row*

- *Softly* “Oh fuck.” - Band director

- “So my apartment almost caught on fire yesterday….” - Band director

- “You should see this meme I shared.” - Band director

- During class

“In front of teachers, I don’t curse. But, elsewhere, I fling fucks and shits around.” - Alto Sax player

“YOU FLING SHIT?” - Trombone player

- “Wait, why does the say 'maniacal scream’?” - Tenor sax player

“We’re supposed to scream, but it just sounds like a bad porn movie when we do.” - Band director

“You just need to add some more grunts and moaning into it.” - Alto sax player

*Cue band dying laughing and ban director just loosing it.*

- Today in band

“Okay, make sure you can see me.” - Band director

“I can’t.” - 6ft Alto sax player who sits in the front row

- “Do you have a tuner, Kenny?” - Band director

“No.” - Kenny, clarinet player

“Did you delete it to make room for Pokemon go?” - Alto sax player

“Yes.” - Kenny

“Goddammit Kenny.” - Alto sax player

There’s probably more to come. This isn’t even half of the shenanigans that have happened.

[TRANSLATION] JUNON APRIL 2017 - MORIMOTO RYUTARO INTERVIEW


“Because at that time, I could not even apologize.”

He was 16 y.o. at that time. The youngest of Hey! Say! JUMP. On June 27th 2011, his smoking scandal was discovered, his affiliation office stated out an indefinite hiatus of his activities.

After graduating from Horikoshi High School, and went through 2 years of studying abroad, he came home.

For four years, Morimoto who had dissapeared from the world, suddenly showed up on SNS (social media). Then on December 2015, he announced that he will lead the vocal in a dance and vocal unit “ZERO”. The impact to his fans who believed in him and waited for him, was big.

Turned around from the glory, within those four years he could not see far ahead, struggling his days in suffering. He passed through the betrayal and despair, and decided to live in the present. He decided to move forward.

Is it a start? Or is it an atonement?


A rebirth, then the story of how he will grasp the glory again, it is portrayed vividly in his head.




“Redeeming ourself for those who believed in us, it’s not over yet.”




Q : How do you feel about taking the interview today?

A : In the past, there were [always] magazine interviews that was decided [for me]. This and that (magazine) every month. [Magazine interviews] had already became a usual thing for me to do for about 7-8 years, but this time, since being a 16 y.o., this is my first interview for the past 5 years, it became a new thing again, and it makes me nervous.


Q : By the end of two years ago (2015), you restarted [your life] with the dance & vocal unit [ZERO], what do you think about it after this one year?

A : Last year I tried to attack in a short period. I personally want to see it in a long-term view, so without hurrying things, I did it last year. This year, I want to convert it well and connect it to the year onward so each year will be a challenge.


Q : Why did you form a group?

A : Because I think I won’t be able to do it if I’m alone. With my friend(s) in Senior High, we talked about doing this together for some time, right after I came back from Hawaii, “How about doing it now?” and just like that I invited them. And because they have things that I don’t have.


Q : Do you think this job suit you?

A : I don’t really understand about that, but I’ve entered the entertainment world since 9 y.o., so I don’t really know about other job. It also can be said that I didn’t study at all. In junior high, I barely came to school. So, I missed out a lot in my studies during junior high (LOL). Lately, I think it’s a really serious thing, I can’t even write kanji or make a story. On the contrary, I think this is the only thing that I can do. My parents also said this to me, “Because you don’t suit to be a company employee, do your best in the entertainment world.”


Q : Was it your mother who sent the application to the agency at that time?

A : I don’t really remember it, but I remember being forcibly told by my mother to try going there. A 9 year old kid, it’s an age where they are happy by playing games, playing soccer, or playing outside, so I felt that I did complained that I didn’t want to go. Suddenly I was given a place (group), moreover I got lessons and worked with people who are older than me, it was pretty tough.


Q : Among Hey! Say! JUMP [members] too?

A : I was the youngest. People who worked with me, they were all older than me, so there’s a feeling that I always became the youngest. At that time I was loved/spoiled by them, but if I think about it right now, I should’ve paid more attention (to them), something like that, because at that time I went just like that so only regret came to me [now].


Q : How was your Junior High era?

A : It was hellish. To be in the same junior high with a person who appeared in TV, there is something like jealousy or envy that surfaced, isn’t it? It was terrible. Something like bullying was not half-assed. When I went to the classroom, my desk was not there, my indoor shoes were missing, my gym uniform too, many things disappeared. At lunch time, they glanced (at me) when our song was broadcasted, then during break time some people (noisily) gathered in my class to see me. Plus, my classmate couldn’t understand that. Because of that, I started to stop going to school. But I didn’t tell my mother about it. During my rebellious age I was hit by my mother, and it made me stray from the right path.


Q : You showed your smile on stage or TV, its unbalanced right…

A : Right. But, I didn’t mix my private issue with work. I learned to have an on-off switch during my junior high time. With that, I thought I won’t be a trouble for anyone. The whole time [I always thought that way], to the members too. I was asked, “Did you go to school?” I answered “I didn’t go” I already got some consultation too, in the end [their advice] became “Go.” Eventually, everything collided.


Q : How about your feelings about work?

A : I changed around 15-16 yo. At that time, my energy to work started to fade away. Bullied at school. Still have to go to work. I really needed an output from those stress. At that time I had a close friend, I frequently went to that friend’s house. In there, that friend offered a cigarette and I started smoking. That time I felt my stress decreased, it felt like the world had changed. I went to work, talking to the other members also became fun, but if I return back to that time, maybe my face looked stiff… [T/N: so, even though it was fun, he felt that it was all just him putting on a mask]


“There’s no point for me to live.”


Q : How was it when the smoking scandal leaked out?

A : “I’m over,” was what I thought. I just thought [about wanting] to die. More than half of my life was spent in the entertainment world. If this thing is gone, there’s no point for me to live, many times I’ve tried to kill myself. I’ve tried many ways.


Q : You didn’t consult to anyone?

A : I couldn’t. My mother was told by the agency about the scandal. That time my mother cried so much. When I saw it, I thought “Aargh… What have I done…” all of my regret came out. I fully realized about my weak determination. But it’s too late to regret it now. I’ve ended my life once, so I thought about how to restart again.


Q : Because of that your family became sad.

A : I didn’t think of that. All this time, people said to my mother “Your son appeared on TV, it’s great,” but starting from that time onward, “Your son is a smoker, right?” So I thought if I’m gone, everything would be settled.


Q : Then you were put in an indefinite hiatus, did you know that instead of you, the members faced the media and apologized?

A : Honestly I didn’t see it. After that (scandal leaked), I couldn’t bring myself to watch TV. But naturally it should be me who apologized, but the other members did it. Honestly, that’s the only thing that I regret until now.


Q : How about senior high school life?

A : [The scandal] leaked out on June during my first grade of senior high school, but after that I normally went back to high school life. It was the time I could forget being in an [idol] group. But there was always a feeling that I couldn’t see anything after that. Every day felt like it just hangs before my eyes, after a day had passed, “I didn’t die today…” that’s how I kept feeling. When my birthday came, I thought “Ah, I’ve spent one year.”


Q : You didn’t think anything about the future?

A : I have lot of things in the past, “How should I do?” even if I thought that way, I still end up thinking that it was impossible. I didn’t look [ahead] towards future, but I’m always looking at the past. I felt there was always a wall in front of my eyes.


Q : When you looked at the past, there’s regret?

A : I regret everything. As a result, I felt I betrayed everyone, “At that time it would’ve been better if I had done that… It would’ve been better if I didn’t do that…” every time I kept thinking that way. Moreover, ever since the indefinite hiatus was announced, I couldn’t take any action.


Q : After senior high school graduation, why did you study abroad to Hawaii?

A : I never knew how to start moving [forward], so I thought about getting out of Japan, then I started to make my move. The reason why I chose Hawaii was because I had traveled there (for a school trip) once when I was in senior high. At that time I thought that [Hawaii] was really nice. There are Japanese people, also it doesn’t have a dangerous image at all. Because of that I went to Hawaii, and then my nature and way of thinking also changed. Because I met other people who didn’t know anything about me at all, I could talk about various things.  Like when I talked about what kind of work I was doing before, I was able to talk about such things naturally in Hawaii’s unique air, so I felt relieved. Maybe if I didn’t go to Hawaii, I might still be a useless human like before.


Q : What did you do in Hawaii for two years?

A : Because it was a language study exchange program, I always got subjects in English. Then I also became a volunteer. I often worked for [helping] other people. Because of it, my way of thinking changes 180 degree. When I was still in Japan, I always thought only about myself. Like “I didn’t die today” or “Other people talked bad about me again”. But when I was in Hawaii, when a day ends and I went to sleep, “Tomorrow what will I do to [help] other people?” I thought about that. After that, rather than [doing things] ‘for my own sake’, I thought [about how to] ‘work for other people’s sake’ which makes us human. If other people became happy, I thought it will be my pleasure too. A particular thing that I felt most in Hawaii is their way of thinking in respecting older people.  When in contact with the grandpas or grandmas, then they said “Thank you,” it made me happy. Ah, respecting was a thing like this…


Q : Did your English also improved?

A : Yes, it improved. Though I missed English [lessons] in Junior High, I somehow managed to be able to barely speak daily conversation. When speaking in English, I felt my character also became open. Because of that I could say what I wanted to say, I also got my interest about something [that seems] far away (the future) back, I could understand both of them.  And just like that, my painful memories gradually disappeared, I also felt that my pitch black heart was shined by a light.


Q : Did you decided to have 2 years [stay in Hawaii] since the beginning?

A : At first, I thought about going to different cities in those 2-3 years. Because of that, in my 2nd year, I came to watch Pancrase’s mixed martial arts competition in Hawaii by chance. Because I did karate (in the past), I kinda got into combat sports. There I met the representative (of Pancrase), Sakai (Masakazu)-san, I immediately became determined. By speaking [to him, I thought] our view of values is really similar. [His] heart is [like] a young boy. When I talked about my opinion, he always replies like “That’s good!” or “I also thought so”, it made me really happy. I never met a person who really matches my sense, so I can relate to him very much.


“I want to make fans happy.”


Q : Particularly to whom you felt you had betrayed?

A : Of course all of the fans. [If it’s] my family… I think I can return [to them] even if I’m not doing this [entertainment] work anymore. Because whatever happens, we only have one family. But the fans, who grew to like me by seeing me in the entertainment world, they continued to give their support for me. I’ve given them a painful memory there, so I expect by seeing me work in the same entertainment world [again,] it could make them happy. I think this is the only way to repay them. Actually, because I am still passing through the suspension of indefinite hiatus, there are people who believed and waited for me to come back. That is why I showed myself to the public, and by working in different group, I think it’s necessary to tell them properly that I won’t be returning back [to my previous group].


Q : After deciding to come back to the entertainment world, what is your action?

A : I contacted my senior high friend who said “Let’s do that together!” It’s RYO who is now doing this together as one of ZERO members.  Thanks to him being there for me in senior high, it’s not an exaggeration to say that I can live until now because I was helped by him. Then I asked RYO, “Do you have (a recommendation) for other members?” he replied “I have a friend in university!” and the members became 5 people, but now it became 4. Then, with these 4 members, we ‘bang’ the stage on December last year. Even without any advertisement, just by announcing it on Twitter “We will have a live (concert)~”, I thought there wouldn’t be that much people coming, but our show was full within about 100 people capacity. Ah, ever since I begin (to have) Twitter, there is an imposter using my name as their name, and it was very bad. Then it came to my head, so I [decided] to show my own face when I was in Hawaii and stated my objection, “this is the real one,” (LOL). But ever since I was 16, I never showed my face [to the public]… and there were a lot of comments like “You’re an imposter too!” that came to me.


Q : ZERO which started as a dance and vocal unit, what kind of group is it?

A : I think it’s a group which is like a white pallet that has many colors on it. First there is my color, then it gathers other color that is still lacking and when it is mixed, it’ll be another color, that’s what I thought. For example, because I can dance, that’s a good thing. However it’s not just about dance, because the other members have their own colors. Then there is another rap and vocal unit ‘BLACKJACK’ that I’m doing with RYO, the keyword is 21. It’s 21st century, I’m 21 y.o when it was formed, and when mine and his birthday is added up, it also becomes 21. Blackjack is a game when the total number is 21, (the player) wins. That is why [the meaning to it is like] “Let’s become the winner”.


“Whatever they say, I’m going forward.”


Q : What do you think about Hey! Say! JUMP members?

A : I’m feeling grateful [to them]. Thanks to them, I become who I am now and because they were there I can live like this now. Of course there is a lot of apologetic feeling [for them]. Through various feelings, they took care of me who was the youngest. They had always thought about me, who helplessly can’t do anything, from the bottom of my heart I’m really grateful to them.


Q : Like you’ve said, “Naturally it should be me who apologized”, but do you feel that you haven’t been given a chance to apologize?

A : Like I always say, even if I look back to the past, it won’t accomplish anything. Even if I look back, I can’t fix it anymore and I can only regret it. That’s why I think I should [start] looking at the future. Of course, I think there are some fans who aren’t satisfied/convinced because of that, or some people who are angry because the other members ends up apologizing. Because each people are different, we can’t avoid complains. But whatever they say about me, whatever I will do, I will keep moving forward. Then when I stand on a big stage, I think it would be good if I can take that chance to apologize. I want to say it with my own words, “I’m sorry.”


Q : From now onwards, what dream do you want to make?

A : My target is to become a world famous artist. But for now, firstly I want to make each of our fan entertained with ZERO. Because a person who can’t entertain the fans standing in front of his eyes won’t be able to entertain the world. With that, I look forward to spread out [to people] that “ZERO is an interesting group.” I will keep running towards that direction.


Q : What message that you want to leave for JUNON readers?

A : Even for a person who has a painful experience and a suffering period for a long time like me, I want to tell you that you will definitely see something beyond that. I don’t want to just say it through words. But I think I want to show it through my actions, or music, or a composition. You don’t have to run, you don’t have to walk fast, you don’t have to mind your surroundings, just by keep walking forward in your own pace, surely the scenery will change. I… was in a forked road between right and left, from 10 people, 9 people chose to go to the right. I, with my own will, would think “I want to go to the left,” then even by myself, I would go to the left. Because later on, I can still ask “How is the scenery on the right side?” But the scenery on the left side is a journey that only me who experience it. To go to the road which no one has gone to, it needs courage and the risk is also big. On the right side (of the road), there are 9 people’s mind, many ideas can be born, but on the left side, it’s just me by myself, so I should work with a portion of 9 people’s mind. I may also get wounded on this severe road. And yet, I keep moving forward while believing that I will definitely get something [out of it]. I think, now ZERO is still preparing to depart to a journey. In order to stuff in the luggage into a backpack, we need to see the guidebook. From here, I think step by step, we will walk without rushing [ourselves].



Translated from : JUNON April 2017 Edition

Translated by : @ichigoainosuke

Beta-Translation by : @aizawanikka


Man or Beast?

Ok so I wrote a post about wanting fanfic of Dan Stevens growling, and lamenting that I would have to write it myself.

So I did. I couldn’t bring myself to go too far, so its mostly suitable for work.

But I definitely had to address how that growl made so many of us feel. It started as a small drabble and ended up as 6 pages of Belle trying to come to terms with Adam and the confusion I thought would be inevitable after his transformation. Then adding desire and that growl to the mix…well…hopefully I did ok lol

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“Soon.”

The full moon was high overhead as you tossed and turned in the bed that had so quickly become your own. The past weeks had been a whirlwind of adventure, perhaps a little more than you had really been prepared for if you were completely honest with yourself. You had suddenly become the heroine of your own romantic novel, complete with magical creatures, villains and a handsome prince and the reality was somewhat more overwhelming than you would admit to.

The noises from the castle outside the sanctuary of your room had long since ceased as your friends old and new took to their beds. No longer dusty, dark and crumbling, the castle was a sight to behold…vast in size and rich in design. The inventor part of you revelled in the beauty and form of your home, but a small part you almost missed how it was before. By no means did you resent the broken curse that had removed your friends from their household prison. Your heart swelled to see them happy, to see Chip running with dog, Lumiere dancing with Plumette and to witness them all enjoying their freedom. There was so much love in the castle, there always had been to a degree but it was so open now.

No, what you missed was the quiet, the solitude of your weeks here with only those few for company. When your time was spent in books or conversation and the days stretched in contentment as you learned so much about the inhabitants of this incredible place.

Now it almost seemed as though people swarmed all over and you felt both happy that all was well but a little selfish in wishing the castle and its inhabitants were still just…yours. You scolded yourself for your thoughts, you had never been a selfish person and you weren’t now. But a feeling of….something….you couldn’t put your finger on it. Something was off.

It was the Beast, no you corrected yourself, Adam. He was Prince Adam now, human, handsome, wonderful. So why did you feel this way? So uncomfortable in the place you felt to be home. So tense and awkward when you were with Beas….Adam!

That right there, that was what was bugging you. Mere weeks had passed and in that expanse of time you had been practically assaulted, held prisoner, discovered magic and curses, escaped from an angry mob, discovered your mother’s fate and fallen in love…with a beast…not a man. So much to take in and come to terms with. The death of Gaston and the transformation of Adam notwithstanding.

It was the Beast who had gifted you the library, who had thrown snowballs with you, had danced with you in an enchanted ballroom. His heart was the one that had touched you, it was his arms you had dreamed of when you felt alone and when you had been standing in that broken old windmill, staring at the broken pieces of your childhood it was him you had looked at and thought of home.

Since the night the curse was broken a new factor had to be taken into consideration.

Desire.

In the moments after the curse was broken you had felt it and given into it. Your heart knew Adam and the Beast were the same, but your mind was having trouble coming to terms with these new feelings. Your heart skipped a beat and your breath caught whenever you caught a glimpse of the man but you almost felt unfaithful, your mind’s eye still seeing your Beast. It didn’t help that you had barely seen him in the last few days, either. There had been no moments of privacy or conversation. No touches, no kisses. Just being in the same space but not together while he worked so hard to put everything to right again with the village and himself. After so many years of misery and darkness you knew he was trying to adjust as you were. You also knew somehow that he was aware of your struggle, or at least of your distant feeling. His blue eyes radiated patience and a little hurt when he looked at you.

Throwing off the covers you paced to the open window, looking out into the night, pensive and anxious. You loved him so much you thought your heart would swell and burst in your chest and you ached every minute of the day for him. Prince or Beast you wanted to feel safe in his arms, needed him to drive away this empty feeling you had when he was out of your sight.

A celebration was planned for the next day and the final preparations kept you busy till late afternoon. The castle was spotless and stunning, everyone was dressed in their best finery and Adam had spared no expense, no doubt remembering the parties that had helped to set the curse in motion initially. You stood in front of the mirror in a stunning white dress, almost not recognizing the figure staring back at you. Alone for a few minutes you sucked in a deep breath as tears pricked your eyes. Perhaps a good cry was what you really needed, a release of all the emotions built up inside you. Forcing deep breaths you managed to fight back the threatening torrent, there would be time for tears later.

A knock at the door drew you from your thoughts and you couldn’t hold back the gasp or shiver that escaped when Adam walked through.

He came up short a foot inside your room, his lips curling into a smile and his eyes running over you in a way that made your toes curl and your stomach flip.

“Beautiful.” he whispered, stepping toward you.

You felt your cheeks turn red as you lowered your eyes to focus on the bright blue of his coat rather than his eyes.

You wanted him to crush you to him, to tell you he was still him, still your Beast, that everything was going to be ok. Instead he walked over to your bedside and picked up the book laying there.

“This again, really?” he snorted as he held Romeo and Juliet and for a second you heard him. You imagined him rolling his eyes dramatically as he had done before and a tiny laugh slipped out. Glancing up, you looked at him flicking through the pages, really looked at him for the first time since that night. As he scoffed at this and that you saw the line of his mouth, turned down at the corners the same as the Beast, his shoulders rolled with the same motions and for the first time you realised he even carried himself the same way.

Your gasp was audible and he rushed over as you sank to your knees.

Your head had finally caught up to your heart. Adam was the Beast, the Beast was Adam and a flood of emotion rushed through you.

“Belle! What is it?” his voice surrounded you and despite the higher pitch you couldn’t understand how you had failed to hear that it was the same damn voice. How could you have been so foolish, and so blind?

“Adam. Beast.” you murmured into his coat as he gathered you into his arms.

“Ahhhhhh, I see.” he whispered against your forehead, pressing his lips gently to the skin there.

“I’m so sorry. I was so confused and so..”

“Overwhelmed?”

“Yes.”

“I understand, it’s not an easy thing being human again for me either, I’m having to remember how to manage a lot of things differently.”

His fingers sat beneath your chin, tilting your head so you could look him in the eyes, the same eyes that you had so loved before. His lips curved in a soft smile as his fingertips brushed across your cheek.

“I’m sorry too. I’ve been absent for days, so consumed with trifling things that I thought I needed to get out of the way so I could just be with you without interruption. I sensed you were struggling and I should have simply hidden us away from the world like I wanted to.”

“I was wishing things could be like they were before….when it was really just us here. It was selfish but I thought that if we could just be alone then I could come to terms with what I was feeling.”

‘You fell in love with a Beast.” he smiled softly, “Then suddenly you had a man. Truth be told I would have been surprised if you came to this easily.”

“I keep thinking I’m going to wake up and the whole thing would never have been real. Even now I wonder if he was real and it breaks my heart to even think that.”

“Oh Belle, my love.” he took one of your hands in his, leading it to rest over his heart. You could feel the strong, steady beat against your palm. “Do you feel that?” you nodded. “That is the beat of his heart, as well as mine as they are one and the same. He was as real as I am now and like him, this heart beats only for and because of you. You saved him, saved us from an eternity of loneliness and pain. He is still me and I am still him, only the outer shell has changed.”

“I know that, my heart knows that, my head needed some time to catch up. I missed you, him, us.”

“I’m a fool.”

“True.” you both chuckle. There is was, that same camaraderie and humor, the easiness flowed back and you felt comfortable again sitting on the floor in his arms.

“I’m not letting you out of my sight again, I promise.”

“Even if I’m reading Romeo and Juliet?”

If his eyes had rolled any harder they would have left his sockets. You couldn’t help but laugh hard as he over acted his dislike.

“What is it with you and that book? There are so many better things to read.”

“It’s the book that brought us together.”

He stopped rolling his shoulders instantly. “How so?”

“When you were laying in your bed and I was talking about Shakespeare and you acted just like you did now. It was the first moment I really saw you, not a Beast, or a cursed Prince, but you, stripped down and honest. It was from that instant that I began to fall in love with you.”

“Well then.” he leaned down, gently pressing his lips against yours. “I guess we shall have to get every copy we can find.”

“Even one in Greek?” you chuckled.

“Especially one in Greek.”

There was cheering as you descended the staircase to the ballroom minutes later. Your smile was wide as you looked out at the human faces of the people you loved and some who were starting to come around to a better way of thinking. Adam lived up to his promise and never left your side, one hand always touching you in some way. Watching him like this was like seeing him for the first time, you didn’t think of him now as either man or the Beast, he was simply Adam and you loved him. The evening flew by in a whirl of music and light, a sensory overload with him as your center, your anchor. You were happy.

Later you watched him laughing with Cogsworth, his blue eyes flashing and his teeth shining. There was that breathlessness again, the feeling that came when your very fiber acknowledged how gorgeous he was, and that he was yours. Your eyes watched his long fingers sliding around a goblet and your mind’s eye responded with an image of them tracing patterns over your bare skin.

“Belle?”

You shook your head to clear your thoughts as you realized someone was speaking to you. Before you turned your head you caught Adam’s glance over the rim of his glass, a piercing, almost predatory look that made you realize he had guessed the nature of your thoughts. Your cheeks burned as you turned away to address your companion, feeling his eyes on you.

A hand came around your waist suddenly causing you to jump.

“I believe this is our dance, my love.” he smirked, taking your hand and leading you out to the floor.

For a time you moved together, only your hands touching, yet somehow even that small caress seemed so much more. You knew what this was, welcomed it. The feeling of being swept away was intoxicating and you felt almost drunk as you both moved through the steps of the dance.

“Are you feeling ok?” Adam’s tone was knowing and assured.

You tried to fight through the fog to any semblance of control over yourself.

“How would you feel about growing a beard?” It was meant to be a teasing comment.

His eyes flared as he chuckled then fixed you with a stare.

He growled.

Growled.

While smiling.

Actually growled, deep and with feeling.

A wave of heat shot through your body, head to toe, your heart hammering in your throat and your stomach at once. Your knees turned into rubber, buckling under you and only a quick thought let you stop before you hit the floor.

His smile was still in place as he brushed his lips across your hand, gently tugging you back into a standing position. One look at his face showed you he had missed nothing. You couldn’t look away as the dance drew to a close, his gaze held you in its grip, his smile never wavering. The music stopped, signaling the end of the ball and for several minutes you were distracted by goodbyes and thank yous.

No one would let you help tidy things up and slowly everyone made their way to their beds, leaving you alone in the ballroom.

Or not.

The candles had been snuffed and only the light from one candelabra remained, moving slowly out of the shadows toward you, in Adam’s hand.

For a moment you wondered if perhaps this was how a rabbit felt when it was being stalked by a wolf. You felt like prey.

You liked it, enjoying the shiver that ran up your spine.

“Come.” He took your hand and directed you up the stairs and towards the East wing.

You climbed in silence, the only light coming from his candles, his thumb tracing circles over the back of your hand.

Your heart beat so hard and fast that you were sure he could hear it, his smile told you he knew exactly the state you were in.

The door to your chamber loomed in front of you now and he let go of your hand, moving to stand behind you. As your fingers grasped the door handle he spoke, his voice low and gruff.

“I’m afraid I have to break my promise to you Belle.”

He stood so close that you could feel his breath on the back of your neck as he leaned down, his lips pressing against the bare skin of your shoulder.

The breath rushed from your body in a whoosh.

“I have to let you out of my sight for the night.”

No he didn’t, you thought as his mouth trailed toward your neck.

“Why?” you managed to sigh, unconsciously pressing your back against his chest.

“Because, my darling girl…” His teeth nipped at your neck, causing you to moan. “If I keep you in my sights tonight, I’m likely to eat you alive.” You felt his small laugh before his open mouth closed onto your neck, his tongue sliding across the spot he had nibbled at.

“Adam.” Your arm snaked up, your hand sliding across the back of his neck, holding him against you.

“Say my name again.” His voice was raspy and beastlike, his tongue tracing the outline of your ear.

“Adam.”

He lifted his head, pressing his nose against your cheek.

“I like that, hearing my name on your lips.”

“I love you, Adam.” Your heart swelled.

“I love you too, Belle.” he whispered roughly before covering your mouth with his own.

Where before there had been tenderness and wonder, now there was passion and want, desire and need. His tongue slid across your bottom lip and your teeth before tracing along the length of your own. With a moan, stifled by his kiss, you responded in kind, your every nerve ending buzzing as your lips and tongue learned the shape and feel of his mouth. Another growl rumbled in his chest when your teeth caught his bottom lip, nibbling and licking as he had done to your neck.

In that moment he wrenched himself away and you turned sideways, facing one another, both breathing heavily, wide eyed and wanting.

“I have to say goodnight, Belle.” he managed to pant, his eyes blazing.

“I know.” You whispered. “I don’t want you to.”

“God!” he groaned loudly, stepping forward.

The candlestick was set on the floor before he pounced, the length of his body pressed against yours as the door held you up. His fingers tangled in your hair, pulling it loose from its pins, his lips crushed against yours, hard. Your arms wrapped around his torso, crossing over his back, holding his as close as you could. His chest rumbled as lips met and tongues danced.

Here was the Beast.

Long minutes passed in rapture as Adam practically devoured you, lips teeth and tongue blazing hot trails down your neck and across your collarbone. You felt your lips bruising and swelling but didn’t care. Only this mattered. Only him. You wanted him closer, aching with a need you didn’t yet know how to express or even quantify. Your back arched of its own accord, pressing your body closer to is.

“We. Have. To. Stop.” Adam panted against your neck.

You nodded, but made no move to unwrap your arms from around him.

He laughed softly, sliding his hands from your hair, his forehead against yours.

“I want nothing more than to follow you inside that door.”

“I know.” Your throat was dry and your voice sounded so hoarse you barely recognized it.

“When we are married.”

“Soon.”

“Very soon.”

He pressed his lips against yours gently, before taking a step back, your arms falling by your sides. You watched him pick up the candlestick.

“Goodnight.”

“Goodnight, my love.”

You waited until even his shadow had retreated before opening the door, finally sliding into bed moments later, arranging the pillows and quilt to imitate his presence beside you.

Somehow you knew that in another part of the castle he was doing the exact same thing.

You ran your fingers over your swollen lips, before closing your eyes with a smile.

“Soon.”

first date starters

Send me one to see how my muse reacts. Feel free to alter to fit muses.

  • “Would you like to come in for a nightcap?”
  • “I don’t sleep with someone on the first date.”
  • “I promise, I have a better track record than this.”
  • “I don’t normally do blind dates, but [name] spoke very highly of you!”
  • “This is my favorite place for first dates.”
  • “So – do you want to get together again sometime soon?”
  • “I’m not looking for anything serious.”
  • “I don’t want the night to end.”
  • “I think it’s best if we’re upfront about what we want right now.”
  • “Wow, you don’t look anything like your picture online.”
  • “It’s so great to finally meet you in person!”
  • “I should probably tell you that I just got out of a long-term relationship.”
  • “Want to come upstairs?”
  • “I can walk you home, if you like.”
  • “Walk me home?”
  • “Let’s go dancing!”
  • “Yeah, I don’t think we should do this again.”
  • “This was fun and all, but I don’t see us working out.”
  • “That movie sucked!”
  • “I wasn’t sure you’d come.”
  • “I was starting to think you’d stood me up.”
  • “I’m done screwing around. I want a real relationship.”
  • “It’s too early to call, but I have a good feeling about this.”
  • “Let me get the check.”
  • “Want to split the check?”
  • “It’s nothing personal, I just don’t think we fit.”
  • “This was the worst date of my life.”
  • “Don’t call me again.”
  • “Oh, God, my ex is here.”
  • “That wasn’t exactly how I imagined our first date going.”
  • “This was nice. Just a simple, sweet first date.”
  • “What, no good night kiss?”
  • “I don’t think I can date a Republican/Democrat.”
  • “It’s important to me that I date someone within the faith.”
  • “Want to play a game? Twenty Questions, or something?”
  • “Trust me – don’t want to go there.”
  • “We probably shouldn’t go there. My ex hangs out there sometimes and I think seeing them would kind of kill the mood.”
  • “I don’t date much, to be honest.”
  • “I hate to come on too strong, but I really, really like you.”
  • “Can I kiss you?”
  • “Why do you even like me? Is it the money?”
  • “Look, I gotta be honest – you were rude to the waiter, and that’s a serious turn-off.”
  • Whoa! That’s off-limits until, like, the tenth date.”
  • “Wow, you come on strong, don’t you?”
  • “I’m not making the greatest impression right now, am I?”
  • “Have you ever been here before?”
  • “I’ve never been here before!”
  • “I don’t normally meet up with people from Tinder/Grindr/OkCupid.”
  • “Where do you see yourself in five years?”
  • “That’s it! I’m leaving!”
  • “Hey! You’re on this date with me, remember?”
  • “I like you, but I think you’re hung up on your ex.”
  • “You haven’t let me get a word in edgewise all night!”
  • “Are you always this shy?”
  • “So, what do you do for a living?”
  • “Why did you even agree to go out with me?”
  • “I think I’m in love with you.”

darthluminescent - (continued from this post, snipped for the sake of your dashes)

LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT MY FEELINGS ON THIS.

Initially, when I saw the clip on YouTube yesterday, I was miffed about this duel, the one that we were promised for so long and then… that was it!?!?  It was literally over in about two seconds, once they started fighting!  The Kenobi/Maul dynamic ended like this?

But then I started thinking about it.  And I went back to rewatch it.  And I considered the context.

1.  This is an Obi-Wan Kenobi who is protecting someone so very, very important.
2.  Holy shit, GET OUT OF OBI-WAN KENOBI’S WAY, you don’t cross him, three swipes and Maul’s fucking dead.  Obi-Wan is not fucking around anymore.
3.  He starts out in Soresu’s opening position and then switches to Ataru.  Obi-Wan Kenobi is not fucking around anymore.  He’s not here to duel, he’s here to end this.

When I consider this encounter just from the perspective of a fan waiting for the Kenobi/Maul showdown, I do feel disappointed.  But when I consider it in the greater scope of Obi-Wan’s purpose on Tatooine, the point he’s at in his life and how there’s nothing left in him for playing around or anything but going straight for the kill with Maul, when I consider what’s just on the horizon for the galaxy, then it makes more sense.  Maybe not what I would have done, but also I WILL TAKE JEDI MASTER OBI-WAN KENOBI, ONE OF THE MOST LETHAL SWORDSMEN IN THE GALAXY.

@gaealynn​ - (continued from this post, also snipped for the sake of your dashes)

Okay, but let’s talk about what a good person Obi-Wan is.  I mean, he’s gonna hold this motherfucker as he dies and close his eyes tenderly?  Really???

This is a guy that Obi-Wan has every reason to hate and want dead.  And it’s clear that, yes, Obi-Wan is definitely done here – he’s taking Maul out.*

BUT

He doesn’t toy with or taunt him.  Doesn’t make it slow or painful.  

He’s doing his duty, what has to be done – but he’s obviously not enjoying it.

WHY IS HE SUCH A GOOD PERSON *sobs*

*Also, having him end it so quickly – having him be able to end it so quickly – has given me feels, because I think it speaks to how worn down Obi-Wan was at… all points prior in TCW etc.  Because now he’s had nothing to do but chill in the desert** for years, and I think it’s clear that desert life on Tatooine isn’t exactly easy, but he’s clearly in better shape here than… like… any point between when the war began and ROTS?  And, yes, it’s a hilarious fandom joke about how overworked Obi-Wan is, but also… kinda not?  

** The Obi-Wan Kenobi version of ‘chill’ clearly actually involves the kind of crazy, death-defying stunts featured in the comics, obvs

Ahh, why must I suffer through these feelings!

I go back and forth with how the duel ended so quickly–is it because Obi-Wan has had a chance to rest in the desert for awhile?  It’s been about 17 years since TCW, right?  And he seemed pretty centered and like he’d come to terms with a lot of it, is that what allowed him to just destroy Maul so quickly?

Or is it that TCW-era Obi-Wan always had a sense of trying to do things perfectly, trying to be Extra and always with an extra bit of flourish?  Is it that Old Ben no longer has the heart for any of that, so instead of the usual dance, he just goes straight for the kill because he’s tired in his soul and there’s nothing left for having a bit of fun at the enemy’s expense?

Both options make my heart hurt.  And, ugh, the way he’s almost gentle with Maul afterwards, it really is like Obi-Wan has let go of everything that used to be so important, because nothing else matters in the face of Luke and Vader and the Empire.  Back in TCW, it felt like Maul was this tremendous lurking danger, but now… Maul cannot overshadow what’s on Obi-Wan’s shoulders, he cannot cast much of a shadow on what’s coming for all of them, and while I’m glad that Obi-Wan found peace, there’s something really sad about how all that high energy is just gone, how quiet and almost peaceful this was.

BTS Reaction to You Coming Back

BTS Reaction to you coming back to South Korea performing with your hidden appearance for your comeback. 

Originally posted by won-der-land89


Seokjin/Jin: You were prorated as an innocent cute idol, so when your comeback came back after few years he was shocked and bothered seeing you older looking and mature. Everyone was shocked, but they loved it. He felt like that baby girl he mentored grew up and went to college. Lets just say he is shook. 

Originally posted by cyyphr

Yoogni/Suga: He knew this day would happen, but he was hoping that it would happen when you’re at least 30. He loves being right and called a genius, but he was hoping he wasn’t right about this. He was shocked by the way you rapped. It sounded soft, yet aggressive. He finally came to term you did grow up. 

Originally posted by sugagifs

Hoseok/J-hope: When you showed up the stage he felt his world stop. The boys and him never saw you dressed like this. He was at awe by the way you sing, rap, and most importantly your dance. One minute you were a seen as an innocent little girl to an independent strong women. 

Originally posted by fiftyshadesofbangtan7

Namjoon/RapMon: He started to sigh when he saw you. No wonder why you refused to be seen in public. You looked absolutely beautiful. You were only and innocent girl that he mentored to the strong women he sees performing in front of him. He was shocked at first, but he knew the company you were in would do this to you. 

Originally posted by myloveseokjin

Jimin: He was absolutely modified when on how much you have changed. He turned to Yoogni and slightly pushed him making Yoogni look at him. “What?” Jimin sighed pinching his forehead. “Why did you have to be right.” 

Originally posted by itsrapmonster

Taehyung/V: He was surprised, but got into the music and dance to it in the goofy way. He does hope that you noticed, so he can see your smile. “Oh two can play at this game.” You aliens are so goofy. Of course you noticed and Taehyung got what he wanted, with a little gift. A smile and a wink. 

Originally posted by nanagyeomie

Jungkook: He would be annoyed, but in a playful way. He was first seen as a baby bunny, until you took that image, but now you wanna take the sexy makane image. Just like Jimin said, I was born in Busan first, I was the first baby bunny. 

Originally posted by jeonsshi

anonymous asked:

Can you do hc's of Nyx taking his love interest on dates?

This is very cute! Of course I’m gonna do this!


  • Well, I think Nyx is a very polite guy and doesn’t really like going to expensive places. He would rather keep his location of dates simple, but thoughtful. Some place where there would be a calming aura that helps his love interest open up to him and Nyx try to come out of his shell bit by bit, slowly. I think he’d have a hard time opening up to them because he’s lost comrades and his family.
  • I think he would like to try to take his love interest to a good local restaurant. Good food and atmosphere, just the right price, and not too “materialistic” looking place. After a few dates, he’d probably try to introduce them to his friends like Crowe and Libertus once he feels like he’s comfortable with them being around and want them to stay with him in terms of relationship.
  • I think the longer he’s with his s/o, the more romantic he will be and someday he’ll take them out to a place where there is good music. He dances with his s/o and just shows off his moves that neither of them had no idea he had in the first place haha. I mean, he fights really good, have crazy high amount of agility, and I feel like he can move his body quite good when it comes to dancing.
  • I think it would take such a long time for him to finally admit that he has fallen in love with his s/o and it will take about a year or so for him to admit it to his s/o. I believe I had said that in my earlier HC of him, so it would still apply here.
  • He’s a patient guy and wouldn’t want his s/o to feel pressured into having sex with him. Nyx does seem like a guy with needs, but he’d satisfied himself if his s/o doesn’t want to do it until they’re comfortable enough to want to engage in such acts.
My favourite programs of the season

Ok, so, just a reminder you asked for this guys XD Someone asked me to post more figure skating content and reviews, so I thought I’d do posts about different things, starting with a list of my favourite programs of the season. I have a (quite) limited amount of free time, so I won’t post that often, but I have some ideas (I’ll probably do some top five posts about my favourite skaters and I think I might do similar posts for juniors/seniors to watch etc) and if you want me to talk about something…you know where to find me. That said, it’s the first time I try to write something like this, so feedback (replies, anons, whatever you want) is much appreciated. Is this too much? Too serious? You tell me. 

Let’s get started now, cause the list is long.

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‘Focus’ (2015) Sentence Starter Pack
  • “Will you be my boyfriend? Just for a minute.”
  • “You’re not a serial killer, are you?”
  • “That depends, how many times does it take to get to ‘serial’?”
  • “The more you drink, the more you learn.”
  • “In that case, I am the foremost expert in Jägerbombs.”
  • “You know, it may be the roofies talking, but this was really fun.”
  • “If you had any idea what I was about to do to her… she was gonna be no good to you after that.”
  • “What kinda stuff we talking about?”
  • “Saudi bachelor party shit. R. Kelly drop cloth shit.”
  • “Die with the lie.”
  • “Then why’d you come up here if you’re so smart?”
  • “Professional curiosity. And I like boobs, figured it was a win-win.”
  • “He was so shithouse you could have taken his appendix.”
  • “You really should be more aware.”
  • “It’s a minor miracle I’m not a hooker right now.”
  • “Attention is like a spotlight and our job is to dance in the darkness.”
  • “Human behavior is very predictable.”
  • “You get their focus, you take whatever you want.”
  • “'Father’ is a very generous term.”
  • “Can we skip the part where I speak through thinly veiled allure and lead you to believe that there’s some Earth-shattering hump in the works?”
  • “There’s no Earth-shattering hump in the works?”
  • “No thinly veiled allure? No baby voice? No lingering eye contact? That’s all my favorite shit.”
  • “Does it feel sexy on your face?”
  • “No one looks at your hands when you got that working for you.”
  • “Congratulations, you’re a criminal!”
  • “And if you think for one second that I’m gonna let your mother talk to me like that, you’re fucking crazy! I’m a grown-ass man!”
  • “He uh, financed his own line of gravy.”
  • “You hittin’ that? You should hit that. I’d totally hit that.”
  • “Who was the cop with the wandering hands?”
  • “Who hits on a grieving widow?”
  • “I think we should start with oral. Just sayin’.”
  • “Stay juicy.”
  • “I’ve been in this for a really, really long time and I’ve never seen anything like you.”
  • “I was actually talking about the sex.”
  • “Oh please, there’s a thousand hoes, baby.”
  • “You’re just layin’ there. I’m like, come on, is this thing on?”
  • “There’s two kinds of people in this world. There’s hammers and there’s nails.”
  • “Is this a bad time to mention I don’t really like football.”
  • “I know my drunks.”
  • “I know my lechers too!”
  • “It’s just an expression, hard to explain. Rough translation: 'I’m fucked’.”
  • “She sounds like my wife.”
  • “It’s crazy, I know, but it will be his fault, not yours.”
  • “You have got some big fucking balls.”
  • “Kill me later.”
  • “I’m the blind mouse? You’re such an asshole!”
  • “Now, just what part of the plan calls for trays of Appletinis? Pledging a sorority?”
  • “A little small on top for my taste.”
  • “One man’s small is another man’s perfection. It’s like breasts are subjective, opinion topics.”
  • “Hey, you need to put some clothes on.”
  • “There’s Australian people here. Just sayin’, they shipped all those people down there for a reason.”
  • “You don’t know me, remember?”
  • “Stop touching my shit, _____”
  • “Whatever you want, I can keep you safe.”
  • “I’d really like to show you all the things I’ve learned. Like how I play men. Like how I just played you.”
  • “I think you’re losing it, that was pathetic.”
  • “'I’ll keep you safe?’ What was what? Does that work? Does that get you laid?”
  • “You must be really turned on with all these beautiful women here.”
  • “Oh dear God, please never make that face again. I don’t even want to know what that means.”
  • “Everybody knows you’re a lesbian, it’s completely fine.”
  • “There’s a lazy Sunday softness to your generation. Makes me uncomfortable.”
  • “Sarcasm. Another pillar of your generation. You wanna tell somebody to 'fuck off’? Tell 'em to 'fuck off’.”
  • “With friends like you who needs luck?”
  • “There’s a science to getting people to trust you.”
  • “What’s a 'race skank’?”
  • “She’s been driving me crazy. Hanging around, flirting, teasing. The minute I try to get her up to my room - a headache! A period, right? The world’s longest period!”
  • “That time of the month. It’s like a crime scene.”
  • “I have Scrabble in my room.”
  • “I was trying to steal his watch!”
  • “It’s what I’m good at and I like it!”
  • “You did all of this to make me jealous?”
  • “You can’t believe I lied? Oh, that’s so rich from you.”
  • “You’re always lying, ____! I don’t know when you’re telling the truth.”
  • “Here’s the thing about lying. Fucks up all your options.”
  • “He is not gonna die. Probably.”
  • “I cannot believe you made me shoot you.”
  • “I like you, honey, you can take a punch.”
  • “And then the girl walked in.”

anonymous asked:

pretty woman bellarke prompt??? or (this is v specific lol) bellarke as hollywood ex fiances cast in a angsty romantic film where the characters get married and bellarke are uncomfortably hyperaware of how they came so close to having their actual wedding whilst acting it.

i bet these memories follow you around


Clarke had really hoped the Regency era costumes would make this whole situation less awkward. At the very least, a distraction from the fact that she was playing Elizabeth Darcy to Bellamy’s Fitzwilliam Bennet. When the script for this flipped version of Pride & Prejudice had come across her agent’s desk, she knew she had to do it. Even when she found out her former fiancé would be playing opposite her, her interest in the project eventually overpowered her trepidation. She was a professional, damn it. She would handle it. 

Except, she hadn’t counted on Bellamy looking quite so good in his own era clothing or being quite so polite. Anger and the cold shoulder was what she had been prepared for. It wasn’t like him, to be simply indifferent. Bellamy ran hot or cold, no in between. Neutrality was her thing. It had been three years though; she had changed, gotten better–whole, healed–so maybe he wasn’t the same man she had known back then either. 

“Clarke, you ready?”

She turned to Harper, today’s production assistant and gave her a tepid smile. “Be there in a sec.”

Harper wandered off to round up the rest of the cast for the Netherfield parlor scene. Dawdling at the edge of the set, Clarke caught Bellamy walking around the couch with slow, even steps. Even with his head down, she could see him muttering his lines under this breath as a way to warm up for the scene. She couldn’t help but smile; at least his prep routines were the same. 

When Harper beckoned to her a second time, she took a deep breath and stepped into the spotlight. Finn and Wells were already at their marks, and she took her place by Finn. Bellamy nodded at her as she passed by, and she did the same in return. So very, very neutral.

Then Kane called action, and his switch flipped. Bellamy was charming, sharp, mischievous, the perfect depiction of someone who pushed all of Darcy’s buttons–and her own, to be honest. She had never seen him in a role that was so very him, and it made every day on set harder. At this point, she didn’t have to muster up very much feigned tension in her scenes with him. He had her on edge with his smile, tone of voice, his very presence.

But, she could handle this. She could.

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y'all know about the term “cuffing season” right? it refers to the time of year when the weather drops and people typically partner up to stay warm during the cold cold winter months until the sun comes out again and ppl wanna be young wild and free again 

yeah that doesn’t apply to me

summertime is for love. girlfriends, boyfriends, friends. for holding hands, kissing, and rubbing noses. being outside together. going hiking and hitting the beach. having picnics, traveling together, dancing under the stars, etc

during the winter i shut down. my energy level decreases significantly. patience wanes thin. my will to live barely exists much less my will to entertain and maintain relationships. don’t call me. don’t look at me. don’t touch me. i want to be alone in my room buried underneath my covers

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