It’s easter which means I’ll be dragged to family meeting, forced to lie about how pure family is, pretend I’m praying for 5 minutes, eat, leave, forget half of the racist/homophobic/transphobic shit that will be said and sleep for the rest of the day
Where did all those feelings go? People spend their whole lives looking for love. Poems and songs and entire novels are written about it. But how can you trust something that can end as suddenly as it begins?
In thinking about Oliver this season (and 100% inspired by this amazing gifset where I babbled in the tags), and the idea that Adrian is going to push him to the point where he loses everything, I’m reminded of Buffy and Angelus from Becoming, Part 2:
The situations are wildly different, but at the base of it is that Oliver needs to realize that he is enough. So much of what he does is dependent on those around him, whether it’s good or bad, and so much of that ties into his self-identity.
This is what Adrian is banking on. This is what Slade was banking on. (pleasebehissonadrianthatwouldbeamazing)
Part of this season’s journey is Oliver realizing that he is the hero - all of him. It’s not just Oliver Queen, it’s not just the Mayor, it’s not just the Green Arrow, it’s not just a brother, a son, a father, a friend, a significant other, etc. It’s all of it and all of that is tied into who he is at the core. His success and his failures have all been contingent on his ability to separate himself, to adapt to certain situations, to be the “right” person in any given situation. But there’s always something missing, because it’s not all of him.
So when he is presented with the final question - what is left now that Oliver Queen has lost everything?
It’s the final piece that needs to shift into place in his mind, in order for him to reach that full realization of who he is. (Or at the very least setting him down this very new path that we’ll see in Season 6.)
It’s also why he will finally come out as the Green Arrow because it will no longer be a separate part of him - it’s who he is, just as much as being the mayor, as being a lover, friend, brother, father, etc. He’s all of those things, and he needs to be pushed to the point where he loses everything before he realizes that, before he can stand up and fight not only for himself (finally) but for his loved ones, for his friends, for his city.
Felicity is the obvious linchpin here, which makes her journey so much more fabulous: she’s going into darkness in order to save him, but he needs to lose her before he can be the person who will be able to fully bring her back from that darkness. (The same that she did for him. She will save herself in many instances, I am about 100% certain of that, but there is also that point where you need that final push - she’s done that for Oliver countless times, and now it’s his turn to do that for her.)
5x16 just left me with a lot of feelings, and Josh Segarra’s amazing performance as Adrian Chase is really what shoved me face-first into them.
He’s going to rip Oliver’s life to shreds and he’s going to succeed, because it’s personal, because he knows Oliver, because he knows what it’s like to lose everything.
Except he didn’t realize one thing: Oliver has already gone through several variations of hell, both at his own hands and at others’, and he’s learning from it each and every single time (whether he actively realizes it or not).
If Adrian had come after him even one season ago, he would have absolutely fallen. But he won’t now. Because Oliver’s journey is learning the light is inside him, and it has been this entire time, and it’s only when he fully realizes that that he can be and do everything he is meant to.
5x16 really turned the tables for me, I wasn’t feeling everything I wanted, and now I’m suddenly really excited to see what happens next! (And I want to high five Josh Segarra because a lot of it is a result of his amazeballs performance!)