'Why are we still talking 'bout this

Lyrics That Remind Me Of:

El Diablo

Mirror by Lil Wayne ft. Bruno Mars:

Mirror on the wall, here we are again 
Through my rise and fall 
You’ve been my only friend 
You told me that they can understand the man I am
So why are we here talking to each other again?

Things We Lost In the Fire by Bastille:

Things we lost to the flames
Things we’ll never see again
All that we’ve amassed
Sits before us, shattered into ash

Harley Quinn:

Need Ur Luv by Charli XCX:

Boy, you really messed around
Put me six feet underground
Always kick me when I’m down
But I’m still driving through your town
Try to fake it, I can’t take it
Boy you trapped my heart
I can’t shake it, ‘bout to break into a hundred million parts

I need your love
I need it even when it hurts me
I won’t give up
I won’t give up, so come and get me

I Started A Joke by Bee Gees:

I started a joke which started the whole world crying
But I didn’t see that the joke was on me oh no
I started to cry which started the whole world laughing
Oh If I’d only seen that the joke was on me


Control by Halsey:

And all the kids cried out,
“Please stop, you’re scaring me.”
I can’t help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?

Bad Boys by Inner Circle:

Bad boys, bad boys
What'cha gonna do?
What'cha gonna do when they come for you? 

Killer Croc:

Who Says by Selena Gomez: (He secretly loves this song)

Who says, who says you’re not perfect?
Who says you’re not worth it?
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurtin’?
Trust me, that’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty?
Who says you’re not beautiful?
Who says?

What’s That Kitten?

<< Chapter 20

Chapter 21: Camping Part 2

“I will never forgive you.”

“What you lads talking bout then?” Luke said cheerfully, as he walked towards Michael and Ashton.

“Why did you tell him about our past?” Ashton asked his eyebrows raised, with a pissed off look.

“He deserves to know what we used to be to each other, but I told him to drop it, Because it’s over now.” Luke glanced for a second at Michael who looked down, yet still pissed then back at Ashton who looked like he was about to lose his shit.

“Yeah well I think your boyfriend here has a problem with keeping his mouth shut”’ Ashton spat back as he stood up and tried to intimidate Luke. Luke looked straight at him eye to eye.

“Well at least someone has said something for what you put me through.”

“You could have left at anytime, we are not talking about this Luke.” Ashtons body tensed and his eyes got darker with anger.

“At least Michael isn’t afraid to face problems unlike you who just runs away then fucks the life out of someone.”

“Don’t you dare!” Ashton shouted and pushed Luke down as he was about to punch him in the face.

“Calm the fuck down!” Calum grabbed Ashton by his shoulders pulling him away from Luke.

“Michael take Luke somewhere else before these two kill eachother!” Calum ordered Michael. Michael was wide eyed and in shock at the confrontation that just happened, but he quickly unfroze and pulled Luke back into the woods, far away from Calum and Ashton.

Michael just kept running grabbing Luke’s hand, he was breathing heavily almost leading to a panic attack till Luke stopped him and calmed Michael down.

“It’s ok Michael we’re already far away.”

“Daddy I’m.. I’m..” Michael was holding into his daddy’s shirt with runny nose and tearful eyes.

“I’m so sorry.” Michael couldn’t help the tears and his fear. Luke pulled Michael closer to his chest and held him closer.

“Shh Michael its okay its fine I’m sorry for making you panic.” Luke rubbed Michael’s back and kissed the top of his head, slowly swaying them both back and forth to help calm Michael down.

“He looked nuts.” Michael sobbed into Luke’s shoulder.

“Don’t think about it too much.. It’s over now and he can’t hurt me, always remember that.” Luke slowly stroked Michael’s cheek. Michael sniffled as he looked up at Luke with red brimmed eyes.

“You promise?” Luke smiled softly.

“Yes baby I promise.” Michael smiled back as he leant up on his tip toes to kiss Luke.


Calum tried to calm Ashton.

“Bro this was supposed to be our reunion trip don’t screw it up man, let the past go. If you wanna let out your anger just let it out on me. You can punch me if you want I don’t care as if we haven’t been there in the past and reminder that I kick your ass.” Ashton let out a little but fake giggle.

“Thanks for being here mate. I’d probably lost it if you didn’t stop me.” Calum relaxed a little bit.

“Yeah I’m glad I didnt have to deal with you two on my own ha! But are you alright? You want a beer? Cuddle?” Ashton laughed at Calums offers.

“I think a beer sounds great but how can I say no to a Calum cuddle?” Calum grabbed two beers and they both went into the tent. Ashton sat infont of Calum while taking a sip of the cold beer.

“That’s exactly what I needed.” Ashton glanced at Calum waiting for the promised cuddle while Calum was scrolling down his phone drinking his beer.

“So….” Ashton said while trying to break the silence.

“You want your cuddle dont you?” Ashton grinned wide as he held his arms out for Calum.

“Yes pleeeease.”

“Alright babe.” Calum said trying to keep it cool while having a shy grin on his face.

“Hey wanna lie down? It will make this easier.” Calum suggested.

“Um yeah sure.” The two lied down with obvious blushes on their face as they cuddled into eachother. Calum grabbed his phone in one hand while cuddling into Ashton, it’s not like they haven’t ‘bro cuddled’ before it’s just it was very different back then and Ashton was in a relationship with Luke.

As Calum squeezed Ashton tighter to his chest he could hear small snores coming from Ashton which made Calum smile fondly at the boy in his arms. Calum kissed the top of Ashton head.

“Sleep tight baby.” Ashton was half asleep and looked at his best mate.

“You too..try to sleep.” Ashton cuddled tight into Calum, wrapping him with his huge arms. Calum couldn’t even close his eyes, Ashton’s arms squeezed him tight and they were so close to each other, Calum could hear Ashton’s breath and he started to feel quite horny.

“No! Control yourself, Control yourself, Control yourself! he’s your best mate! Think about something funny or dumb or unattractive!” Calum’s mind was going crazy.

“Calum…are you…are you hard?” Calum’s eyes widened as he realised Ashton was still awake.

“Uh…no??” Calum pushed himself away from Ashton.

“Don’t be a weirdo.” Calum tried his best to hide his obvious boner. Ashton looked at Calum and giggled.

“Why are you trying to hide your boner?”

“I dont have a boner shut up!” Calum was trying to be angry but he couldn’t help a small laugh come out.

“Yes you do! I can see it tenting your pants.”

“Ughh.” Calum grabbed his unfinished beer.

“Hey come back.. I still wanna cuddle you..” Ashton was waiting for his mate to leap into a huge cuddle again.

“I don’t mind if you’ll get a boner..” Ashton pointed out awkwardly.

“Dude…i dont know.” Ashton rolled his eyes and pulled Calum into his arms for a tight hug. Calum embraced the cuddle but not fully, he tried to keep their thighs in a not touching position which felt awkward.

“Don’t worry Cal.” Ash tried to relax Calum. Calum relaxed and they were in a full cuddle position once again. There was an awkward silence for a few minutes.

“I missed us cuddling.” Ashton said.

“We used to cuddle all the time.” Calum agreed.

“It’s just kinda different now I guess.” it was quiet for a moment as they both held onto eachother.

“I wish it wasn’t different. I kinda miss you being around all the time.” Ashton confessed.

“Well it was kinda different because you were with Luke at the time.” Calum pointed out.

“Oh right, now you get boners and shit.” Ashton giggled.

“HEY! You’re a dick.” Calum laughed.

“Says the one with a hard dick.”

“I swear to god Ashton if you don’t shut up I will-”

“You’ll what?” Ashton winked with a smirk on his face. Calum swallowed his saliva and looked at Ashton.

“I…Uh…” Ashton saw that Calum couldn’t say or do much so he just took the risk and started gently pressing kisses into Calum’s neck. Calum breathed in deeply.

“Ash what are you doing?”

“Something I know we both want.” Ashton said as he continued to kiss up Calum’s jaw. Calum’s face expression was at his high it was shocking yet pleasurable.

“Ash I… I don’t want to ruin our friendship you’re my best mate.” Ashton grabbed Calum’s face with his huge hands and ran his fingers to Calum’s mouth.

“Suck on my finger.” Ashton commanded. Calum’s eyes widened as he opened his mouth and sucked Ashton’s long fingers into his mouth.

“Fuck.” The feeling of calums mouth on his figers went straight to Ashton’s dick.

Calum looked up at Ashton while losing himself into his best mate’s hazel eyes. Calum stopped the finger sucking and moved slowly to taste Ashton’s lips for the first time in his life. Ashton quickly held onto Calum’s hips while Calum thread his fingers through his hair. They both sighed into the kiss. Ashton slid his tongue into Calum’s mouth making Calum moan in pleasure.

Soft tongue movements turned into aggressive make out in less than 6 seconds. Both of the lads were grinding into each other thirstily, and hungry for each other, both painfully hard. Ashton took his shirt off and Calum took everything off and left with his boxers. Calum started to pin kisses to Ashton’s stomach while going lower and lower with every kiss.

“I’m gonna take those down if you don’t mind.” Calum looked up at Ashton waiting for approval. Ashton nodded quickly, too aroused to open his mouth in case all that came out were moans. Calum took Ashton’s shorts down, realizing he’s not even wearing any underwear.

“Oh…” Calum looked at Ashton’s length as Ashton felt quite embarrassed

“Yeah uh I don’t like waring undies while traveling…” Calum didn’t even care about it all he cared was the sight he was seeing at the moment. Calum didn’t waste more time and started licking Ashton’s tip. Then all the way down to his balls, causing Ashton to moan.

“Baby just take it all in, stop being such a tease.” Ashton moaned out making Calum smirk as he sucked the head into his mouth and slowly started to go deeper until he could feel Ashton at the back of his throat.

Calum popped his lips around Ashton while jerking himself off, his moans wrapping Ashton. Ashton was sweating and his facial expression sent chills every time Calum peeked up to look at Ashton’s face.

“I’m gonna cum baby, you’re so good at this.” Ashton moaned out as he gripped Calum’s hair, wanting to release down his throat. Ashton moaned deeply as he came in Calum’s mouth, his hips bucking up as Calum swallowed as much as he could.

“Ash, help me as well.” Calum desperately moaned while taking Ashton’s hand and wrapping it around himself. Ashton still couldn’t fully function after the load he just came but he jerked calum off as fast as he could.

“Ash that’s it!” Calum moaned as he came all over Ashton’s stomach. Both of the boys stared at their best mate while breathing heavily.

“Well that was…good.” Ashton said breaking the silence.

“Yeah…it was.”

Chapter 22 >>


One day, one rhyme- Day 570

As I was walking by the sea
I met a man, and he met me.
Had I met anyone but him,
My life would still be sad and grim
Because it’s him who makes me smile,
I hope he will for quite a while.
I’m very glad it came to be,
That I met him and he met me,
And I am glad we had this talk
‘Bout why you should go for a walk.