그리고 남겨진 것들

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I don’t even care that this video came out last year, I love this song and MV. It’s just so beautiful. This is The Day Before by Nell. Here is what they say in the MV:

  • -Why did you call?
  • -I wanted to thank you.
  • -What?
  • -I’ll tell you soon, okay? *sips&reads* Do you think that everything gets better in the end?
  • -Well that depends
  • -*closes book* For me, I mean.
  • -Ah, for you?
  • -You think it could? *pours poison*
  • -*frowns* Why did you call me here…
  • -Well… *sips* To thank you, for being a good friend throughout my whole life. *frowns* It’s starting to hurt now…but at least I know that all the pain will be gone soon. I can finally say I got through all this.
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Okay, so when I read this kaisoo fanfic I made a terrible mistake and I read it while listening to 그리고, 남겨진 것들 for 넬 (The Day Before by Nell).

Before reading the fanfic, I had no idea what it was about. I knew it was angsty and heartbreaking and sad, so I was like to myself hey! Why don’t I listen to this sad song while reading this sad fanfic to be even more sad! (Yeah I know)

What shocked me while reading, is how strongly the song matched the scenes in the fan fiction. I kid you not. If you have read it, listen to the song and read the words here 

I had to stop and take a moment both from crying from this heart wrenching fic and to let the song sink in The song and the fic perfectly match. Not only when it comes to lyrics but also the MV! (Watch it here)

Now, I don’t have a clear idea about what’s going on in the mv, but you have these two guys and one is scribbling and the other filming the one who was scribbling talking and then he starts to weaken as if he’s slipping or dozing off but then it looks like he doesn’t have any power left as if he’s dying? And then he closes his eyes and I’m sure he passes away. And then the one who was filming closes the camera.  Now I’m not saying it’s exactly the same as the fan fiction’s incidents, but somehow to me at least I could see the guy who was filming as kyungsoo and the guy who, dare I say, passed away, as jongin and idk maybe it’s just me but I really do.

Here he was scribbling something 

Here they show us how they’re sitting facing each other and they seem close

He starts losing conscious for a bit?

Here too, and it’s  like he’s trying so hard to focus or that his head hurts

Here the other guy is almost going to cry

He passes away ㅠㅠ

The other guy is alone(?)

He closes the camera thingy

And he’s gone(???)

See I don’t know, maybe I’m delulu, maybe I’m too emotional but I connect this song to the fan fiction and both of them now have a special meaning to me.

Also, I cried like a bitch.

그리고, 남겨진 것들

어스레한 구름들 사이로 보이는 성긴 달빛,

나지막한 건물들과 지평을 이루는 하늘의 오선지,

오래된 여관의 점멸하는 입간판,

빗 속에서 흩날리는 담배연기,

무거운 가방을 맨 아이들의 희미해져가는 웃음소리,


눈을 마주쳐도 엇나가는게 어제의 일이었건만

스쳐지나가도 과녁의 정중앙을 맞히는건 생각보다 쉬운 것이었다

그리고 화살이 지나간 구멍에 남겨진 것들은 모두 나의 몫이었다

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Nell - Secret Stage (Fancam)

2014.09.13 Nell’s Secret Stage at Lotte Card Art Center Art Hall

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Fancam by EFGH

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Underbar (Secret Stage Ver.)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Down

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 벽

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - It’s Okay

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 섬

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 좋아보여, 마음을 잃다 (하동균)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone, Smells Like Teen Spirit (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 한계

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Blue

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Ocean of Light

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 소멸탈출

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Grey Zone

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 고양이 (with fans)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 그리고 남겨진 것들

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - From Mark (하동균)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 유령의 노래, In Days Gone By

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Fantasy

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 믿어선 안될 말

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Stay

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Ment (1)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Ment (2)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Ment (3)

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Fancam by gongrot

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Underbar (Extended Ver.)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 벽

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - It’s Okay

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Down

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Smells Like Teen Spirit (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 유령의 노래

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Fancam by minhee p

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Jaekyung (Ment1)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Jaekyung (Ment2)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 벽

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Fancam by WJ Hannah Lee

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 한계

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Blue

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - It’s Okay (Bass Ver.)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 그리고 남겨진 것들

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Ment

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Underbar

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 유령의 노래

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Down

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Stay

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 섬

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 벽

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - In Days Gone By

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Fancam by HyeJin Choi

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Smells Like Teen Spirit (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Blue

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Underbar

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 벽

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Grey Zone

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Fancam by Hyun Young Na

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 섬

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 믿어선 안될 말

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Fancam by 심유나

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Blue

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 그리고 남겨진 것들

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover) + Underbar (1)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Underbar (2)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Ment

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Fancam by willustaywithme

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Smells Like Teen Spirit (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Grey Zone

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Fancam by 비밀 IFNT

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Smells Like Teen Spirit (Cover/JJW Band) 1

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Smells Like Teen Spirit (Cover/JJW Band) 2

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Fancam by 죠아 joA

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 벽

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Underbar

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

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Fancam by mynamehb

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Smells Like Teen Spirit (Cover/JJW Band)

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Fancam by 김곰

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

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Fancam by Tina Tim

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 그리고 남겨진 것들

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Fancam by 반가운악수

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - From Mark (하동균)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 좋아보여 (하동균)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 마음을 잃다 + Ment (하동균)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - She’s Gone (Cover/JJW Band)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 믿어선 안될 말

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 나의 외로움이 널 부를때 (Cover)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - In Days Gone By

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Fancam by sohee lim

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Junghoon (Ment) 

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Fancam by Tabi Rana

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 좋아보여 (하동균)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 유령의 노래

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - In Days Gone By (JH focus)

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 섬

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - Fantasy

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 벽

140913 Nell (Secret Stage) - 믿어선 안될 말

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가끔씩은 같은 기억 속에 서있는지
Sometimes, I wonder if we’re standing in the same memory
너의 시간 역시 때론 멈춰버리는지
I wonder if sometimes, time has stopped for you too
—  Nell, 그리고, 남겨진 것들 (The Day Before)