塀 壁

anonymous asked:

ok before today i knew even worships the ground isak walks on but today I REALLY KNOW and i'm so emotional

I’m EMOSH over how much love you can feel in the gaze of the camera?? You’re seeing Isak but you feel Even looking. With such warmth and love and adoration

6

How yall edit the gifs, the pics and write all these wonderful things when I haven’t stopped shaking? I wanted to write so many things soon after the update but I couldn’t. I couldn’t form coherent words in my head. I couldn’t type a word even. So this is probably when I am calm enough. . Just enough, not fully. I need time.

I will tell you what I feel about the story of Isak and Even. What it means to me.

What we just saw, was pure. So pure.  When people say that it’s fetishizing of two white boys kissing, it hurts me. It’s not that, not atleast to a majority of people rooting for them and feeling represented by them. But I can not claim that as a straight woman, but I can definitely say one thing that we all relate to as a humanity, it’s the love. We all want a love like theirs. Don’t we?


When two people, any two people, find each other in the midst of chaos - it’s the most beautiful thing. Ever. This is what we relate to, this is what we want in life. Ultimately, to find that person who is good enough for you. Who will make sure that you are happy and let you know that you are loved. Isak and Even found that and we can not be more happy to see a healthy and happy relationship on screen. We feed off of that. And I don’t think theres anything wrong with it.

 I think a love like theirs is inspiring for people to understand their worth and look for a love that they deserve, to get out of toxic relationships and wait for the person of your dreams. To be better to your loved ones. To go that extra mile to see a smile on their face. To me, they are the symbol of hope.

@noora-knows-best you are an angel, Rose, for helping with the NRK IP thing. I can never thank you enough for being there to listen to all of my craps. The first friend I made in this intimidating world of tumblr.
chiller hjemme. smiley?

this exchange is even more endearing if you consider that Isak is normally not someone who uses a lot of smileys. his texts are usually quite short and dry. chiller hjemme without a smiley is a text he would totally send. to anyone other than Even.

i know we love to make fun of Isak for being about as chill as a snapback on fire, but the thing about playing hard to get is that you need to have a certain level of confidence to pull it off. you need to believe that you have something the other person will want even when they’re not getting it for free. you need to believe that you are enough. and Isak’s not quite there yet. which is why it was so easy for him to take Sonja’s word for it when she said Even doesn’t love him for real, it’s just his mania speaking. she was basically just validating a fear he had had since the beginning. not a fear of mental illness but a fear of not being enough. Even is older and more experienced, he is super tall and super smooth and has the confidence of a film star, he breaks into houses and dresses up as god and knows all the bands and films and directors. he is radiant. his presence lights up a room. why would someone like Even settle for a boy who is two years younger and ten times more awkward. 

the most beautiful thing is how Isak gets over his fear. he becomes confident. in his own skin and with other people. he cries after reading the text from his mum because his mum is telling him he is enough. and in the final scene when he looks across the room and sees Even standing there, he is not looking at a god, he is looking at Even, his equal, the person he chose and the person who chose him, and he has the confidence to make that choice work. 

so Isak lacks the confidence to play hard to get with Even. that’s one half of the story. but i think there’s also just so much kindness in him, so much kindness for Even. he always compliments Even’s drawings. he never raises his voice, not even in the hotel room when he’s tired and Even keeps running in circles. i still firmly believe in my theory of him giving Even his favourite pillow. he doesn’t make his feelings a big display, but they are there, in his small acts of kindness. he already gave Even a harshly worded ultimatum. so now he wants to give the boy a smiley.