PSA for anybody who has ever felt insecure about how they write their character. Remember why you began writing them in the first place. Remember how much they mean to you and how much you enjoy writing them. There will be other people roleplaying the same character as you, it is inevitable, but there is only one of YOU and only one who plays the character the way YOU play them. You bring something special to that character. Something that nobody can mimic or do the same as because nobody is just like you. You need to accept that, and accept that there will be others, but just like you they will be playing the character their own way as well. Nobody is better. Nobody is the same. Nobody deserves to play a character more than another person does. This is no popularity contest and you should never feel as though you aren’t worthy of playing a character just because you or someone else has made you feel that way. Instead of comparing yourself to others who play the same character as you; try to embrace the differences and admire them. Cheer up and keep on keeping on. You love your character, you love roleplaying as that character, and in the end that is all that matters.
As a boy in love with a boy who doesn't love boys, I've gotten used to watching kids with love in their eyes and blood on their wrists; children with gentle fingertips and scarred lips. I can walk through rooms and spot the heartbroken artist with the scars; those with the blood in their alcohol systems; the boys with ink under their skin and their lover's names carved into their ribs. As a boy in love with a boy who can't love me, I can look for my soul mirrored in others. || II