You went all out getting dressed for your anniversary dinner with Jaebum. You had bought a brand new red dress and gold heels to wear. You took extra time on your makeup to make sure everything looked perfect, you really wanted to impress him since it was your first year anniversary.
By the time 11 pm rolled around you knew he wasn’t coming. You made your way back to the closest and hung up the dress and switched it out for sweatpants and a large t-shirt. You placed the shiny heels back onto the top shelf and slumped to the bathroom to was your face and remove the makeup. You returned to the couch to turn on tv and waste the rest of the night alone.
You already knew it was getting close to GOT7′s comeback and JB had to cancel on other plans before. However, this was your one year anniversary and he promised. The least he could have done was call you and let you know. The more you thought about it the more you wondered if he even cared about you and your anger only grew.
You had dosed off eventually and it wasn’t until 4 am that JB opened the door to your apartment. He was hoping you were still awake but he honestly knew you wouldn’t be. He wanted to apologize. He saw you asleep on the couch and carefully picked you up; carrying you to your bed. You managed to wake up and open your eyes, simply seeing his face threw your anger back into rage.
“Yah! What are you doing here?”, you asked as he put you down to stand up.
“I know I’m kind of late but..” he began.
“Kind of late….KIND OF?? Jaebum you’re…”, you paused to look at your phone, “seven hours late! That’s not kind of late!,” you argued.
“I know [y/n] but the group’s been working really hard for the comeback and there’s a lot I have to do as a leader and…” you cut him off again.
“It was our one year anniversary and you didn’t even call to let me know anything,” you told him.
“I know I should have but I wasn’t even thinking about it,” he answered.
“You weren’t even thinking about it? Do you ever think about it….about me?” you questioned him.
“Of course I do, all the time [y/n],” he answered you honestly.
“Really because it doesn’t seem like it Jaebum. To be honest you seem to think less and less about me lately. It was our anniversary and you promised but you didn’t even remember your promise. I don’t even know why I’m with you. There’s much better guys out there that want me and I could have any one of them,” you stated without thinking about the words coming from your mouth. JB’s face hardened after your statement and you could see him tense as he clenched his fists.
“So what are you saying that you want someone else? Fine go find someone else, we’re done,” he stated. As hard as he tried to make himself sound strong and angry it just came out weak and you could tell how hurt he was. You followed him down the hallway your mouth hanging open at what just happened but JB was too quick for you and before you knew it he was out the door. Tears filled your eyes as you dropped to the floor.
“I….I can’t believe I just did that,” you said to yourself. You noticed something on the couch out the corner of your eye. You looked over to see JB’s jacket.
“Ugh it’s freezing outside tonight and that idiot left his jacket,” you sighed as you picked yourself up off the floor and walked over to gently pick up the jacket. You didn’t want to seem weak by running after him, but you also really didn’t want the love of your life to get sick because of you. You took a deep breath and with it swallowed your pride and put on shoes and your own jacket and stepped out into the cold night. You were scared to walk the streets at night but it was for a good cause, and you hoped some higher power would be watching over you. You walked down the road and noticed a figure on a door step. In any normal situation you’d take off running the other way but you had to make sure it wasn’t JB. You walked closer and rubbed your nose and cheeks to try and keep them warm. You sighed in relief when you realized it was JB after all.
“Here dummy you left your jacket,” you said and held it out for him.
“I don’t want it,” he answered.
“What do you mean you don’t want it? It’s freezing out here! Come on get up, you said and you grabbed his arms and forced him to stand up, which was easier than expected because he didn’t fight you. You draped the coat around his shoulders and pulled it closer around him.
“There isn’t that better?” you asked. JB grabbed your hands as you let go of the jacket.
“Why’d you come out here to find me?” he questioned softly.
“Because you….you left your jacket and I didn’t want you to get sick,” you answered.
“I love you, you know that right? Even though I’m not good enough for you, even though you deserve better I still want to love you. I’m selfish that way,” he told you as he took your hands and placed them on his own cheeks.
“I didn’t mean what I said JB, I don’t want anyone else. You’re more than enough for me, I only love you,” you replied but Jaebum shook his head.
“No I really am selfish. You do so much for me and I can’t do nearly half as much for you. I can’t give you all the time you deserve but I still expect you stay with me and that’s selfish. All I have to give is my love and I don’t think it’s enough for you,” he stated pulling you closer to him.
“JB your love is….” you began but he stopped you.
“I love you with all I have and I still come up short. I’ll try harder to be here for you. And I woke make promises if I know I might not be able to keep them,” he said.
“Okay, and I’ll try to me more understanding of your career and everything,” you told him and for the first time that night you finally saw JB smile at you, it was the smile that he only showed you; the one that sent butterflies in your stomach and helped you know everything was going to be okay.
“I really love you [y/n],” he said as he leaned down to kiss you.
[Waaah too gushy? Am I rusty? I haven’t wrote in a while haha. I hope you liked it. ^_^ is it what you wanted?]