*DIVES INTO INBOX* BENJEN WANTS ALL THE KISSES LBR
Skinship, being touched, to touch — affectionate deeds. These were all things Morrigan was far from being comfortable with, ever since she was little, she did not like to be touched, could not take affection serious. Love was a weakness wasn’t that it what her mother taught her oh so well? Your beauty and your body are a WEAPON, use it in order to get what you want, that was it what she knew oh so well, did oh so well. When the wolf stumbled into her life, she however had no need to use her beauty, had not need to use her body, was there nothing she wanted off of him, she was forced to be herself around someone and that was truly challenging — yet she enjoyed being around him so much and these glances he gave her, these compliments and others, they felt so more easy and real than from anybody else.
Whenever someone did touch her in the past, she had the urge to break away, did it feel like chains around her SKIN but his touches felt like burning fire, like a tickling sensation - they felt pure and real. Yet, she was not sure if she was able to take this any longer but at the same time she did not know if she would be able to resist him. His fingers tingled against her cheek bone, his touch so feathery light that she almost could not feel it but the fire was burning underneath her skin, her breath was going faster and even as he leaned in closer, dangerously close almost, she did not move. Stood there looking at him with her big golden eyes, almost looking like a wounded deer. What happened with the DANGEROUS predator she is used to be? Wasn’t she the master of the games? Making men dancing after her orders instead of these honeyed acts she put out now?
It was not like she was easy on him, was not like she did treat him any other, no she was rougher to him instead, was trying to push him as far away from her as possible, was strengthen the wall she built around herself for years with each second they were together. But he just came and tears it apart. But as he KISSED her for the first time, all of this did not matter any longer, there was no fighting for dominance, no slapping away of hands, no distancing herself from the kiss as she would usually do, not she fully committed herself in it. Her lips were tenderly moving against his - tenderly? Since when was she capable of doing so? His warm breath hit her lips, his arms wrapped around her figure and hers… they followed.
Maybe it was too much at once, but no SECOND longer could she take this intimacy, was it too much for her to take. Her teeth sunk into his lips harder than thought and she used his shock to pull away as quick as she could. Back turning on him, trying to cover up how insecure and exposed she just felt. Only the raspy sound of her clearing her throat echoed from walls of her homes and here she was once more, distancing herself from the rest of the world because the expectation of abandonment will always be there. It’s easier not to be attached to anyone.
‘ Love is a weakness I abhor. Love is fleeting and has NO meaning. `
Whispered words only meant to convince herself rather to be heard by him but it somehow helped and she was able to face him with her usual from APATHY covered face. ‘ Now where we are done with this transgression of our agreement, I need to look after Kieran. `