*waits patiently for the hate*

As someone who wants to go into the mental health field as a mentally ill person themselves...

Split is gonna be an amazing movie.

Hell my Psychological Adaptations teacher BADLY wants to take a small group of kids to go see it with her. We watched the trailer in class and kids who knew nothing about mental illness asked questions on how DID affected someone.

We’ve watched Alfred Hitchcock’s Psycho, read the book it’s based on and even watched Bates Motel. We’ve gone into the nitty gritty of what kind of trauma it takes to get to this level. And let me tell you the kids in this class LOVE breaking down why the human brain deals with trauma like this. Kids who all(except for the few mentally ill in the room) had an ableist point of view when it came to mental illness

(I stated I was bipolar during a discussion and immediately got looks but they all did ask for me to explain it more and they realized they were misinformed)

They’ve managed to understand that this is purely fiction IN LITERALLY THE EQUIVALENT OF 3 HOURS.

HIGH.SCHOOL.STUDENTS.UNDERSTAND.THAT.THIS.IS.FICTION.

THE GENERAL PUBLIC UNDERSTANDS THAT THIS IS NOT AN ACCURATE PORTRAYAL.

For fucks sake my final paper is even gonna be about if Anthony Perkins(Norman Bates in Psycho)is accurately portraying the body language of someone who has DID according to the DSM-5. Mind you THE MOVIE WAS MADE IN LIKE THE 60’S.

A lot of kids are doing a creative writing piece about Normal Bates seeing a psychologist and are going to be graded on if it is a normal sensible piece.

My teacher (who has a masters in Psychology a masters in English and is working on a PHD and is also mentally ill) is so excited about this movie she’s patiently waiting for the DVD so she can base a whole class around it like she did with Psycho(and is doing Lolita in three weeks I’m so mad I don’t need more English credit after this)

Anyhow.

Instead of yelling why this is ableist, take a moment to ask the person if they know any facts about DID. If not kindly explain that this is a work of fiction instead of yelling at them.

I never rant about anything on tumblr but I can’t stand all this “boycott” bullshit.

Edit: A vague call out by someone who blocked me immediately afterward is now a thing. Funny. Edit 2: I have officially gotten my first “kill yourself” anon. Thank you for your compassion.
Some things I love about the Villainous series (so far)
  • The fact that Flug has a deeper, darker side to him than just some kooky, intelligent twink scientist kept as arm candy only with the added convenience of him being smart
  • The casual acceptance of other Cartoon Network shows as within their canon
  • The fact that Flug went to Evil School with Nicole from The Amazing World of Gumball and this isn’t weird at all (and they were all taught by the teacher from the “Perfect” episode of Courage the Cowardly Dog)
  • The Bill Cipher-like creepy images laced into the background and in-between shots
  • The fact that, as it’s established Black Hat is both horrifying and thousands maybe even millions or more years old, this eldritch abomination spends his freetime being silly with his subordinates - even if his version of “fun” terrifies the shit out of them
  • Alternatively, Black Hat’s idea of “calming down” involves playing indoor minigolf, reading the newspaper, and going for a drive
  • While Flug’s idea of the same essential task is to torture the people upsetting him - or, as he sees it, “re-correcting their behavior.”
  • The fact that Flug sees no problem with this either. It feels like he sees it as helpful, actually.
  • I’m just so happy Flug is actually legitimately EVIL, and not just flat on morals.
  • Demencia’s thirst
  • Demencia in general
  • She’s just a ball of nothing but laughs for me. She’s evil comedy at it’s finest, and I hope we learn more about her soon.
  • Even though Black Hat hates 505′s existence, he doesn’t ever kill him. I wonder why.
  • The fact that Black Hat can fall into horrible giggle-fits so hard, they need to take a break
  • The quick flashes of grotesque art that looks like they hired the closeup-painters from Spongebob to do them
  • The Black Hat Organization acting as a business with prominent cult-y undertones
  • Seriously, I love that Flug isn’t just some dorky scientist lackey who’s a massive klutz and gets easily forgiven. His employment feels real. His personality feels 3-dimensional. He, as a character, actually feels valuable.
  • This scene
Older brother Namjoon + rest of BTS scolds you PT.14 END

BTS x Reader

Genre: Angst

Namjoon’s Sister AU

[PT.1] [PT.2] [PT.3][PT.4] [PT.5] [PT.6] [PT.7] [PT.8] [PT.9] [PT.10] [PT.11] [PT.12] [PT.13] [PT.14 END] [PT.14 Alternative]


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Y/N’s p.o.v

I was waiting patiently for their arrival, I was early. I never liked being late, I hated the thought of making others wait for me, so I stood there waiting. Half an hour passed and I was still waiting. They’re only five minutes late I thought to myself, maybe coming so early wasn’t the best idea.

I was startled when I felt someone give me a back hug. I was ready to start swinging my arms until I heard familiar voices. The person who was hugging me had let go, and turned me to face them.

“Princess, how are you? It’s been a while.” Jin had his hands on my shoulders staring right at me, I felt a little flustered but I managed to smile.

“I’m good, how have you been?”

“I’ve been good too.” He said and ruffled my hair.

“Y/N.” I saw Joonie have his arms out wide open. I hesitated at first but gave him a hug anyway. This was nice, I missed it.

I pulled away and looked at everyone, I didn’t know how to face Hoseok or Jimin. I didn’t know how they felt about me still and it did make me feel slightly uncomfortable. Neither of them smiled at me, or even greeted me so I take it that they’re still mad. Jimin was my best friend, and it hurt knowing that I’ve lost him because of my stupidity. I understand why they may not like me anymore so I suppose I’ll just have to move on and pretend nothing ever happened.

“Let’s get going!” Yoongi piped up and we headed towards the entrance. I walked behind them still feeling some sort of awkward aura between us all, but Taehyung held back and waited for me.

“Y/N…” He called my name softly whilst walking and not turning to look at me.

“Hmm?” 

“I’m sorry.” He turned to look at me but I shook my head.

“Why are you sorry?”

“Because I betrayed you, I never should have told them to come and I’m sorry because you’ve probably lost all trust and faith in me.” He looked guilty, and I admit that at first I was mad but how could I stay angry at him when he never meant any harm?

“It’s okay Tae, I’m not mad at you. Actually I’m thankful to have you in my life, you didn’t betray me. You only did what you thought was best but I was too stubborn and childish to see that, so for that I’m sorry. You’ve only ever done what you could to help me and I pushed you away.” I admitted.

“No don’t be, how about we just call it even?” He said and stopped, causing me to stop beside him. I nodded and he pulled me into a hug. 

“Hurry up!” Joonie complained and we pulled away and rushed towards them again. I was about to walk off when Jin stopped me.

“Are you really okay?” I nodded, reassuring him. But was I really? My best friend hates me, Hoseok doesn’t seem to want to be here, I just wanted to make everyone happy. “So why do you look so conflicted?”

“Does Hoseok and Jimin hate me?” I questioned bluntly. 

“What makes you think that?” 

“I’m just getting this vibe off of them. But it’s okay if they do, I completely get it, this was all my fault anyway so if they do then I understand.” I was hurt, but I didn’t want to show it. I don’t want to continue being that same old weak Y/N who acts like a child and needs to grab attention from everyone. If they don’t like me anymore then I’m just going to leave it.

Jimin’s p.o.v

I overheard her conversation with Jin hyung. Idiot. I don’t hate you, I’m just embarrassed and too stubborn to admit that I was wrong. Too afraid to apologise for being a shitty best friend. How could I even claim that title after what I had put her through. Knowing her, she believes that all this was her fault, but it wasn’t. We all played a part in hurting her, I was someone she trusted but I took advantage of that, I ruined the friendship we had once I had messaged back in the group chat. I should have never said those things, but I did. 

We walked around and had food, I still wasn’t speaking to her. She looked like she was having fun, especially with Taehyung. Did she replace me with him? Not like I can stop her from doing so, but I was jealous. I shoulder barged into Taehyung, who was standing next to Y/N. I continued walking ahead until I heard.

“Oh my gosh, Y/N are you okay? I’m so sorry.” I spun around and saw that Y/N was now on the floor with a scratch on her leg. The force of me walking into him must have caused a domino effect that knocked Y/N over. Now I felt even guiltier, I rushed over to her side as did everyone else.

“Are you okay?” I questioned, she looked at me with tears welling up in her eyes but nodded shyly and looked away.

“Ya, why did you walk into Taehyung like that Jimin?” Hoseok hyung glared at me. “Yeah I saw everything.” 

“It’s okay I’m fine don’t worry about it.” She smiled at us and got up. 

“Small, lets go get you cleaned up.” Namjoon glared at me whilst walking past holding a limping Y/N by his side.

“What the hell is wrong with you hyung?” Jungkook questioned me. “And you Hoseok hyung, why are they two of you so bitter? Can’t you see how hard Y/N is trying? Can’t you see how much she’s hurting? And I don’t mean physically, but emotionally.

“What did I do?” Hoseok complained.

“Exactly, you didn’t do anything Hoseok. You arrived and hadn’t said a single word to her.” Yoongi confirmed.

“She asked me if you two hated her.” Jin confessed.

“What? No I don’t, I’m just guilty for being so mean so I don’t know how to be around her.”

“She’s trying to push it aside and pretend that nothing happened, she’s trying but the two of you aren’t doing anything to help her and Jimin hyung, why would you knock into Taehyung like that?”

“You’re jealous because we’re close aren’t you?” Taehyung interjected.

“She was my best friend, but now you come along, I don’t even know how to apologise to her and you’re making it more difficult for me.” I said in such a bitter tone, I’m sure everyone realised that I was just jealous.

“You don’t know how much she misses you Jimin, and Hoseok hyung you have no idea how bad she feels for lashing out on you. Just have some decency and apologise for a change and stop making her feel like she’s in hell because the both of you are incapable of saying a simple sorry.”

“She misses me?” 

“Isn’t it obvious? She keeps stealing glances at you and after realising you don’t even care enough to look at her face just drops.” Jungkook said whilst rolling his eyes. 

It was silent between us all until Y/N came back, smiling.

“Are you okay?” Hoseok hyung asked her, which took her by surprise because her eyes widened. 

“Yeah, I’m definitely much better now.” Her smile was so genuine, you could tell that she was sincerely happy that Hoseok acknowledged her.

“I’m sorry Y/N.” I apologised.

“Oh no, it’s not your fault I’m just really clumsy I mean I must take it after my brother, I can’t even stand properly.” Namjoon hyung flicked her on the head.

“Not just that, I’m sorry for everything.” She looked like she wanted to cry, but instead she just wrapped her arms around my neck and hugged me.

“It’s okay, I just want my best friend back.” I nodded and hugged her back.

Namjoon’s p.o.v

After a few hours, we parted our ways. Y/N and I headed out to grab dinner whilst everyone else went home. Although we practically spent the whole day together, we barely even spoke because of the guys. 

“How have you been small?” I say whilst looking up from the menu.

“Pretty good I guess, how about you?” 

“Same, just busy I guess.”

“You don’t have to have dinner with me if you’re busy you know, I mean you’ve already spent the whole day with me and that’s honestly more than enough.” She looked guilty, how and why does she look guilty for asking to spend time with me? Her brother.

“I didn’t mean it like that.”

“Right, I’m sorry.”

“Why do I still feel so distant from you?” I asked her. 

“I - I don’t know, I’m sorry.” 

Y/N’s p.o.v

I felt like I wanted to cry. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know how to act in front of Joonie. I don’t want to do anything that will make him mad at me. 

“Why do I still feel so distant from you?” he asked me, that’s something I never wanted to hear, because it’s not what I want and if that’s what he’s saying then it’s my fault he feels this way.

“I - I don’t know, I’m sorry.”

“Will you stop apologising? You’re not doing anything wrong. What happened to you?”

“Nothing happened to me.” 

“Then why can’t you be comfortable like you were before? Like the old times? Why have you changed so much? It’s making me feel awkward and uncomfortable.”

“I, I guess I’m afraid of doing something that you don’t like that will aggravate you. I don’t want to do something that you don’t like. I want to be that good younger sister that you loved before, but I didn’t know that it was making you feel uncomfortable.”

“Why does what I like matter so much? What about the things that you like?”

Namjoon’s p.o.v

“Last time I did something like that, this huge mess happened. I don’t want that again.” She said so quietly I could barely hear her.

“This is because of me?”

“I’m not blaming you oppa, it was my fault. I should have been more careful, I should have looked out for you more and I shouldn’t have done those things that could damage your career. You’ve worked so hard for it, I can’t be the one to ruin it for you.”

“How do you think that makes me feel? I feel like I’m ruining your life because of what may or may not even happen.”

“You’re not, it’s what I chose to do.” 

“But why?”

“You’re my big brother Joonie, I don’t want to let you down. I promised that I won’t let you down but I already broke that promise so I really have to set myself straight. It’s what I’ve always done for you so I’m sorry that I messed up that one time, I won’t let it happen again, I don’t know what came over me because I never got myself into that kind of trouble before but I promise I’ll go back to how it was before.” 

“But you’re not happy.” 

“If you and the boys are happy, then I’m happy too.” she smiled at me, so genuinely. How was she so selfless? How have I never noticed? All I thought about was myself the past few years that I had no idea she was hurting.

After all this time, I’ve finally come to realise, my image, the scolding. Non of it was worth it. All this time Y/N did everything she could to protect my image like she had promised to. But when she slipped up that one time to be a normal teenage girl, we scolded her, we hurt her. I finally realised how hard it must have been for her to neglect a fun life, where she could do whatever she wanted. She was never able to be herself because she didn’t want it to affect us. She put us before herself and we selfishly put ourselves before her, or more like I put myself before her. Is our image really that important if it made those around us miserable? All this time she was looking out for us, for me. But I never did the same for her. 


END!!! thanks for reading!! 

FINALLYYY getting back to that last round of commissions! Next up is a ref sheet for @peskypooch’s keplie oc, Lir! A LAZY WATER BOY who just likes to eat ponies is that so wrong ok??

Stop the hate - give it a chance

I’m actually starting to avoid being online on social media because all I see is hate or complaints about the show or the cast and I’m seriously tired of that! That’s why the cast doesn’t interact with us the way they used to, and I get it!! They can see it, guys… they can see it all! And this might shock you, but they’re human beings too! Their feelings can be hurt too! And they’re doing absolutely nothing wrong to deserve all this bullshit!

I’m so sorry for them bc I don’t want them to lose their interest in what they’re doing, or their passion, just because some immature jerks aren’t able to shut up. Nobody’s forcing anyone to watch or like the show, but stop fucking hating on the cast! They’re doing their best, it’s not fair to insult them for not living up to their expectations!!

So, Sebastian looks like burnt lasagna.. now what? What’s the big deal? You don’t know his tv!story, you don’t know what happened to him, you don’t know nothing!! Maybe the tv!story is even better written than the book!story, I mean, who knows?! You’re not even giving it a chance! Also, isn’t it boring when everything is exactly like in the books?! Just be patient, wait for what’s coming next and don’t hate on the ACTORS for something they have ABSOLUTELY NO INFLUENCE ON!! They’re the last people to deserve the hate, okay?!

Also…

…how can someone be so damn cold-hearted and insult these cute lil angels?! LOOK HOW ADORABLE THEY ARE?! HOW CAN YOU?! I MEAN, IT’S LIKE RUNNING PUPPIES OVER WITH A CAR, I ASSUME YOU WOULDN’T DO THAT EITHER, WOULD YA?

Also, here some cute Isaiah appreciation since I couldn’t find a proper gif with the whole cast in it…

Sober

 I Part One I Part Four I Part Five I

Word Count: 4,808

Genre: Angst. Fluff 

Characters: Kwon Jiyong a.k.a G-Dragon (BigBang), Song Mino (WINNER) 

Synopsis: A complicated love affair takes a toll on Mia and jiyong. They must decide if they can forgive and forget or harbor hatred in their hearts and take revenge. But in the midst of this decision, a horrible accident complicates everything. 

Originally posted by wntersoldierr

Jiyong was staring at her from the corner of his eye. Mia had been cracking her own knuckles, brows knit in deep thought as she chewed on the inside of her cheeks. He knew her well enough to know that she was strategizing something in her mind and thinking about every outcome her choices would cause. It was still something that amazed him, how she could calculate everything and make the ethically right decisions.

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Tease

More from CEO Harry. You two are married now.

You strut into the building trench coat tightly wrapped around you protecting you from the cool autumn weather.

“Mrs. Styles” the security guard bows to you as you approach the elevator

“Mr.Miller! Nice to see you again”

“Always a pleasure to see you ma'am”

“Tell your wife I said Hi”  

“I will”  

You press the 7th floor button where all the executives had their office you would think that they would opt for the highest floor but the architecture of the building made the 7th floor the best floor. Harry hated heights anyway.

You wait patiently as the elevator rises. You step out heels clicking you look around new renovations; everything was glass giving it the modern look. You look around trying to figure out where Harry’s office is

“Mrs. Styles”

“Hi Jason!”

“Hi! How are you?” he walks up to you

“Great! is my husband in?”

“Yea Alicia is in there with him”

“Ok thank you can you point me towards his office haven’t been here in months” you chuckle

“Yea! No problem it’s down this hall to the left straight ahead can’t miss it”

Alicia his assistant who for some reason always got under your skin. You step into his office and their so deep in conversation they dont notice you. But you notice them you notice Alicia sitting too close for comfort biting her lip biting back a blush failing miserably. You clear your throat

They both look up “Oh Hi pet how are you?” Harry gives you that boyish grin

“Hi” you smile back at him

“Hey” Alicia smiles at you

“Hi” you respond with a tight lipped smile

“Give me a minute” Harry talks to Alicia. She nods and leaves you two alone

“To what do I owe this pleasure?” he asks looking at you  

“Oh just missed you wanted to see the new design too” His eyes dart back to the paper work while you were mid sentence

“Oh” he smiles not looking up from his papers

This is why you popped up he had been so busy lately he barely paid you any attention.

“Can you take a break?” you ask walking up to him running your fingers through his hair

“Can’t meeting in twenty minutes” he shoots you a sympathetic smile

“Aww” you pout

“Don’t pout” he says without looking up at you

You smile he knows you too well. You walk and close the door

“Can’t it wait?”

He shakes his head mumbling something to himself. “I’ll be home soon” he bargains

You sigh frustrated “but i want you no! I need you now

“What d'yeh need poppet?”

“Uh…”  you look at the glass panels surrounding the office “Why is everything glass?”

He shrugs “not my idea board didn’t want any cases”

“Oh”

“What do yeh need pet?” he asks again

“I can’t really say”

“Why?” he looks up at you

“Because of the transparency” you motion to the glass

He makes a face confused “hmm?”

You look back towards the office Alicia isn’t in sight everyone is busy buried in their computers.

You walk up to him “move please” he scoots back you sit on his desk you look back once more and you see another one of his workers you smile and wave innocently you turn to face Harry who is still confused sometimes you loved how innocent he could be. you open your trench coat to reveal your lingerie a garter set.

He takes in a sharp breath “Y/N” he speaks softly as his eyes take all of you in. Slowly cascading down

You sigh “I wanted you to fuck me on your desk but you can't” you whine

He looks at his watch

“It’s sad might need to get Danny to take care of me”

His glares at you “I’ll kill him if he dares” your pool boy Danny was always attentive to you which always made Harry very jealous

“When’s the last time you made me cum?” you ask dragging your finger down your chest between your breasts

He goes to answer but frowns

“Yea that long”

“Please pet yeh cant”  it was killing him to hold his composure. His eyes constantly darting between you and the door

“Been spending all your time here neglecting me” You bend forward placing your hands on the arm rests of his chair “I missed your touch daddy” you whisper near his ear before you take his ear lobe between your lips and suck lightly

“Pet I can’ ” this is torture for him

“Why not?”  you straighten up you reach up and remove your thong you place your foot on his chair

“Y/N” he warns speaking softly, he can’t keep a lookout  and pay attention to you. Plus another tease and he might just fuck you right there

You grab his hand “i just want you to feel how wet you make me when i think of you” you ghost his hand down and he whimpers at feeling the pool on your heat

“Can’t tease me like this pet” he looks up at you eyes darkening

“Well I had to take drastic measures or it will be a month since you last made me cum”  

He can’t help but play with your slit

You bite your lip moaning softly

He looks up at the clock again “ ‘M gonna be late” he mumbles “fuck!” he stands up and slips a finger in you. You gasp and grab his arm “all this f’me?”  

You nod wrapping your arm around him “only you”

To outsiders you two look like your sharing a romantic moment if they only knew. You tie your trench coat around you securing it tightly.

“You have a meeting” you grab his wrist to stop him from getting carried away

He scowls at you removing his finger he caresses your cheek and slyly inserts his finger in your mouth you see his eyes turn dark as you suck on it he takes a deep breath “wait f’me”

You nod twirling your tongue around his finger.  

He removes his finger and adjusts himself

“How long?” you ask stepping aside

“Give me an hour ‘nd we’re going home” he says grabbing his notebook.

“You mean 2 you know they never last 1 hour” you counter

“Today it bloody will! Behave ‘nd be nice”  

“I will daddy” you say sitting on his couch.

He chuckles shaking his head “drivin’ me mad”

You play on your phone waiting patiently

30 minutes pass and Harry is rushing through the door

“Everything ok?” you ask worried

“Yea let’s go” he says grabbing his things

“That was fast” you stand up  

“Got more important issues to handle”  he pulls you close to walk in front of him “Alicia no more calls today won’t be in till Thursday (its monday)”

“Yes Mr. Styles”

His foot anxiously taps as you both wait for the elevator

“Oh Cara! How are you?”

“Good Mrs. Styles how are you?” she greets back

“Great. He takes good care of me!” you compliment Harry  “Oh Sean! Hi!” you wave at him

The elevator dings and Harry pushes you backing you into the elevator. He waits for the doors to close before he traps you against the wall with one arm above your head

“Cameras” you warn

“Don’ bloody care youre gonna pay for this almost made me lose m’bloody job” his nostrils flare

“Sorry Mr. Styles” you tease your hand ghosts down to his bulge he groans you hear the elevator ding you both look up it stopped on the 3rd floor he stands beside you holding onto your waist.

Lost and Found - 3

Pairing: Werewolf!Jungkook x Reader

Genre: (♥)(♡)(☆)

Words: 3.7k

Warnings: Language, violence, blood, and really sleazy dudes - ugh. Stay safe y'all!

Notes: Part three is here! I’ve finally gotten it together a bit more so I’m really continuing this mess of a series.. eep! Hope you enjoy? ^^

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Originally posted by btskookiestan

Summary: Your aunt is horrible but that’s nothing new to you. You can’t stay with her any longer and leave but something she says bothers you. You don’t seem to have the best of luck either because not only do you have no one to turn to or anywhere to go, but now you find yourself in a scary and painful situation; at least you have little bit of luck since someone comes to your rescue.

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Cartaphilus

Well I admit the fact that he is the worst possible being ever. He uses living beings for his own enjoyment. He gorged out his eyes and exchanged it with Chise’s eyes. And yeah the dragon incident and capturing Ruth for his experiments and also.. the cat incident made him the most hatred one in the manga. But look at him.. He probably needs help more than Chise. He can’t even remember who he is and where is he from.

He denies himself completely by saying he is “Joseph” not Cartaphilus. And gets angry to those who call him “Cartaphilus” .. Eventually he has forgotten who he is and pretends to become the one he prefers

He has lived for a long time. Even more centuries than Elias or Lindel has lived. He was cursed for immortality by the Son of God. He can’t regenerate his body and has to live with the injured body forever.

We see in the manga that despite of having a dark past Chise was happy living with Elias. Elias, Ruth, Angelica everyone had supported her. Whereas Cartaphilus was mainly alone for centuries after centuries. He had no one by his side. Maybe that’s why he creates chimeras or does things that harms others to get rid of his “boring” life. [Well that’s expected. No one can live forever by following the rules and regulations..]


And in this chapter.. what did he dig for? What was this “It”?

This guy has an interesting personality and a dark past. WHY CANT PEOPLE JUST LIKE HIM?!

There were many people who said that it was better if Cartaphilus didn’t put in the manga. But ..seriously? Think about it.. Cartaphilus is fascinating villain who is playing the role of both the hero and the victim now. [He is trying to save himself and Chise which makes him a hero] Rather than hating him.. We should wait patiently for Yamazaki san to reveal the plot twist. The question is..

How will Cartaphilus save Chise?

thanks for reading this long post ^~^.. sorry for bad english

i’m just really stuck on the idea of billy going to therapy for his issues and being a part of the Upside Down gang, so have this:


The waiting room is too big and too quiet, with sterile floors and dim bulbs, the whole place looks like it’s made to just swallow him up where he sits. There’s only the occasional click-clack of the keyboard as one of the receptionist’s types away, aside from that it’s near soundless.

Billy’s never been more terrified in his life.

Everything else – from discovering the truth about the Upside Down to getting the shit kicked out of him by his old man – it all was so much easier to deal with. It was physical stuff. Billy knew how to handle that, it was a formula he had perfected over the years of handling bullshit. His dad raises a hand to him? He fucking takes it. A crazy ass parallel dimension opens with demodogs spilling out? He can cope.

Sitting in a hospital waiting room filling out a patient form? No, fuck no, he hated every second.

The grimace on his face was probably clear too – not that it was ever very hard for anyone to tell how he was feeling – but one moment he’s staring down at the annoying scrap of paper, trying to resist slamming the clipboard back down onto the receptionist desk and storming off, and the next a hand is on his wrist.

Just as his vision was getting tunnel-y and his mind was racing, emotions dipping over to that fine point between rage and resignation, that one touch brought him back.

Steve always brought him back.

“I saw a vending machine down the hall,” the brunette says, big brown eyes innocent looking even though Billy knows exactly what he’s doing, “you want anything?”

If it were anyone else, Billy would call them on their bullshit, he’d snap and yell and put up a fuss because he doesn’t need to be treated like a fucking fragile child. But it’s Steve.

Steve who knows just the right things to say and how to say them.

“I’m good.” Billy tells him.

“Suit yourself.” Steve sighs, cracks his back as he stretches and stands, wandering off down the hall.

It was never really about a vending machine though, it was about giving Billy that tug back to reality. It was a reminder too, at least for him, even if Steve doesn’t quite know it yet. It’s a reminder that Billy’s here because of everything he’s done.

All the horrible messed up things.

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